Hey guys!!
I am pleased to report that I am starting to feel better!! Although I am no longer that blocked up or tired, I have completely lost my voice! Thank god this meeting was agreed for next week, not this coming week or I would have been speaking in a very husky whisper!! and not saying much!!
Last time I lost my voice in similar circumstances, I had to call a client and he said that I sounded really sexy!!! So I said that I was comforted that he thought if my current career didn't work out, that there was a place for me on the sexy phone lines and he laughed and said definitely, then I said actually, its costing you more per minute to call me now anyway!! (my hourly rate is much more than £2 per minute sexy chat line rate!!) hahahaha.
So, food yesterday wasn't bad, but wasn't great. I'm not generally THAT hungry but I was boredom snacking as I was mulching around at home working in bed and stuff. I actually had a chocolate mini-roll yesterday (GASP!) and was even more suprised to find that I didn't enjoy it. I am really in a place where I can take chocolate or leave it (weird considering I was ADDICTED just a couple of weeks ago). This has made the daily calorie count so much easier - not having 250 cals from a chocolate bar in there each day!
So, a week to go and I am half a stone lighter, and considerably more toned than the last time I saw X. This I am feeling GOOD about!! For example, I am actually starting to like how slim my waist looks (mostly when I am standing up...still get a little roll when I sit down and relax...but will put on hold me in knickers!) and I don't feel too bad about my ass now either - again, in the right pair of little black trousers it is starting to look quite peachy rather than huge! My other happy place is my jaw line - much more defined as those of you who have seen my corporate photo can attest to! Bye bye double chin!!!
I think being on the border of being a size 14 is a real breakthrough for me. I think of UK 16 as curvy and rolls of fat and bust spilling out of your clothes (but still a relatively "normal size" for women here and shopping...whereas anything above feels like truly fat rather than curvy)...and size 14 feels so much more closer to size 12 and slimmer with a bit of curviness around the bust and hips. I think I am going to have real difficulties not buying ALL TEH BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES when I get to a size 14 or a 12. I am already drooling over shoes in womens magazines now that I can wear really high heels whereas before I'd just skip the fashion pages as not really relevant to me.
I have been buying some new work suits on ebay as well - ones from Next where I know the sizing will fit me and I can recognise some of the suits from the catalogue as ones i have owned in bigger sizes or tried on before. Its amazing - I have bought 3 new suits in size 16 jacket and 14 trousers for like £5 each. I tried on my "smartest most flattering" two suits the other day and because the jackets are size 18, they just swamp me now so have to find something to wear for the big meeting. Going shopping with my best work pal tomorrow after work to a HUGE shopping centre to see if we can find something new, otherwise I'll wear one of these new ebay suits - they are in near perfect condition so nothign to be embarrissed about being seen in! I am finding clothes and shoes SO MUCH CHEAPER to find and buy now - mostly because if somethign is my size a) it fits me and b) it looks quite good. Whereas when I was larger, even if something was the right size, it was so hit and miss whether it would be cut right for my shape or even look remotely flattering.
Its a tough clothing call because the big boss is a woman, and her senior guys are men...if I was just dressing for a meeting with men, I'd wear a more low cut top with my suit but because she is the boss, I don't want her thinking I am the kind of woman who gets where she wants by using her assets hahahaha.
Anyhows, off for a country walk in a few mins with my mum and daughter, so guess I'll catch you all later!