Breaking the chains of unforgiving hopelessness.

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I have come here in search of help, I am tired of being bound and stripped of what I use to be, so I am going to lay it all out on the table and hope I can find some courage somewhere to change my life.


I am 26 years old and a male, I am 6ft tall give or take an inch or so and I weigh in at 349-360, My weight changes alot. I am fat around my belly area and chest and starting to get it on my legs. I use to be a very active guy in HS always into sports like Track and field and the 800M dash/relay and shot-put. I also did wrestling for a good while as well. I use to bench just over 300 and at that time I was was near 220ish give or take about 10lbs. I want to be free and not afraid to be in pictures or to let people take pictures of me, I have a daughter and I want to be around in her life when she graduates and gets married. Now you may think I am just depressed but I am not I have taken these steps to start.

Changed shift at work from graveyard to morning shift so I can get sleep, I have worked graveyard since high school and my body is getting worn down I use to drink ALOT of MT dew and DP to stay awake at night sometimes 13-15 cans a night, I have cut back heavily on that and may go through a 12 pack in 2 weeks now. I have tried to cut soda out 100% but after a few days I get these massive migraines and headaches and all I want to do is sleep or be grumpy.

I went to the DR and had blood work done, My Cholesterol was at 171, and my Triglycerides was at 104, What this means to be exact I have not a clue but the Dr. said I was in good shape still from the charts on that perspective so I am blessed I guess with that. The one thing he did say I was low on is omega 3? I do not have high blood pressure. Only a high fear of failing my child and family that I currently have. I do have a total gym at home I plan to start using and I walk ALOT at work. As far as I know I don't have any problems breathing I can go up and down stairs just fine multiple times without getting short of breath. I want my life back and I want to break these chains that bind me to being short tempered and shy / afraid all the time I need help.


I really hope that I posted this in the right area and I am sorry if I repeated myself at all just a little emotional and a time for change is much more then needed.


P.s. I eat maybe 1 thing a day and then drink either cool-aid / soda / Gator-aid or power aid / Lipton Tea. I consume about 85% liquid a day over foods in general I have gotten to a point where I am disgusted with eating, I hardly eat anymore I try to avoid it.






To sum it up I don't know if I am just venting or lost and crying out for help but I can't do this alone I am about 135 over what I want to be and it feels crushing. I can't even organize my thoughts anymore.
 
You came to the right place.
You're obviously having a lot of mental challenges. I'd like to suggest to talk to a counselor or psychologist. Mental hurdles can be the biggest ones when you're try to lose weight and find yourself again.
Other than that,... you should probably have a look around and look at what people are saying about eating habits. You should probably cut down on the amount of drinkable calories you're getting, since that's mostly sugar.
 
Monster said:
You came to the right place.
You're obviously having a lot of mental challenges. I'd like to suggest to talk to a counselor or psychologist. Mental hurdles can be the biggest ones when you're try to lose weight and find yourself again.
Other than that,... you should probably have a look around and look at what people are saying about eating habits. You should probably cut down on the amount of drinkable calories you're getting, since that's mostly sugar.
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My mental issues originate from little sleep and no self esteem. My job I work really long hours at sometime 18+ hours. Thank you for replying I am actively looking right now on the site for others that have a situation like mine.:hurray:
 
Lack of sleep can have a huge impact on weight loss (and mental health). I am glad you were able to change your shifts! That will help alot.
Check out the diary section to find people that were in similar situations. I have found some in similar situations to myself and have found them really inspiring!
You can do this, because you want it!
 
Definetly try cutting out some of those sugary drinks and adding in some fruits, veggies, chicken, fish. Drink lots of water. Also if you haven't already switch over to diet soda, it's still not the best, but better than the regular stuff.

You can do this!
 
Thank you all for your support and kindness. I am trying to find an alternative to soda all together, I am trying to find if they exist caf een type pills or tablets so this way i do not have to drink soda? I think my body has become addicted to it and thus giving me the headaches and migraines after about a week without.
 
Getting completely off caffeine can be difficult. Perhaps you can start by switching to coffee/tea at first? That's what I've ended up doing. (I almost never drink pop. Just coffee). I know how hard it can be to get yourself out of a rut but everyone here has been through something that has held them back from how they really want to be. I believe in you. :)
 
I agree that councilling will help you a lot. Self-esteem is something dealt with there. But it sounds like you don't have time for it in your demanding lifestyle. Maybe you need to reconsider your lifestyle. Councilling will help you in all the changes you are trying to make. For difficult jobs when are not feeling strong, a councillor to suport you thorugh it is invaluable. They keep you motivated and focused and can help you over difficult patches.


Drinking stuff sounds like a terrible solution to not wanting to eat. I don't think you said how you got form where you were as a healthy man to this. Is it the job? Then changing the job is possibly part of the solution.


Once you start making the changes you need, you will most likely start to feel better. But as you say getting enough sleep is fundamental too.
 
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