Brandy's Success Diary

Hope TOM goes away quick! I hate that when I stoke myself up for food and put in the time to make it and somehow it's ruined. I made Cream of Wheat last week or the week before and I was so excited to eat a wonderful looking bowl of cream of wheat... however when I took a bite it tasted burnt. It looked fine and I cooked it the way I always do so I was confused but I guess the milk had burnt on the bottom and spread the taste all through it:( I cried. lol So I hear you! I hope your day gets better and you guys have a good Halloween! Doing anything fun? I am taking my son out of course. I just have to finish his costume... see I sew every once and awhile lol. AT least ghosts don't need straight stitches:D HOpe you have a good weekend.
 
Thank you to everyone for stopping by my diary. i will respond in a couple hours. I have been very very busy, and I haven't even kept track of ANYTHING. Some days in the past week I can't even remember what I ate, how much I ate... or even if I have eaten that day. The next few days will be full of homework, but slowing down... I am going to be at home doing stuff, not running out and about. I am determined to sit down and make an exercise schedule for myself, and post it in my room somewhere, or have it pop up on my phone and remind me to do it every day. Today I worked 8 to 2; and now I'm home... and I'm going to eat lunch, turn on the TV and relax for 30 minutes, and then get back to WLF and comment everywhere... followed by making my routine... doing part of my routine, and then doing homework for the rest of the night. Tomorrow I will start writing my term paper, Monday I have off... but I'll probably be finishing up my paper. Then Tuesday is election day, as well as school, and watching BL with my mom. I'll be back. lol.
 
Just checking in to see how your weekend is going. Busy from What I can see. I've been doing the same thing about tracking lately. I've been kind of lax about it, trying to remember everything the next day and stuff.
 
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Lisa: I will definitely screen calls from her from now on. I need some of what I call "focus time".... to evaluate my goals for the week, and make all my plans.

Michelle: I hear ya. I got really pissed. I hate when my food goes wrong. Its like... I try so hard to choose the right things, and in the right portions... and then it goes on the floor?? GRROAR. lol.

Karl: Thanks for popping in. I really need to be more active here. And in sparkpeople...because I'm getting all off track. :cuss: And that just makes me aggravated with myself.
 
I am thinking about different exercises for different needs during the week, and during the month. during "TOM" i will do soft yoga for relaxation, and a walk if I have the energy. Then I have a pretty sturdy schedule right now as far as activities, work, and school during the weeks.

Sunday: Home
Monday: Home
Tuesday: school in the afternoon. Mom's at night.
Wednesday: Work morning, school afternoon, work at night.
Thursday: School in the morning and afternoon, Pick up my sister afternoon and night.
Friday: Work afternoon into evening.
Saturday: School morning to afternoon.

After looking at that schedule, I realize my best days are Sundays and Mondays... then I slack the rest of the days. So what I need is exercises that fit into my schedule. It is even hard on Saturday night, sunday, and monday because that is my major homework day.

I will think of something... it will just take me a while. I need to think.
 
I have made a list of the times of day,each day of the week, I am going to be able to exercise. Therefore, I can plan around it. I won't promise myself that I will wake up at 5am to exercise, because I know I can't do that (I have trouble waking up in the morning), but I know that on Wednesday-Saturday I need to make time for exercise at the end of the day. Sunday and Monday I can do it any time of day. because TOM is here, I'll be doing a relaxation yoga tomorrow night when dan goes to work. And i might go on a walk mid-afternoon if I don't feel like complete and utter crap like I do right now.

I guess I have been thinking a lot, since I'm just sitting on my couch watching TV... honestly because I am in such extreme pain LITERALLY every other minute that I can't even stand up. I've thought about my weaknesses, and ways to fix them, and how I can avoid things... etc.

My weakness is definitely fast and fried foods. I could give up chocolate, cakes, sweets in general. I used to be addicted to both fast and fried foods AND chips... but now I can actually say that I could honestly give up chips. Just.... I haven't gotten over the fast food yet. Its pretty bad. I need to find a satisfying substitute.

I will be continuing with the calorie budget I set for myself last week. It is something I am able to stick to. To add to my goals here, I will be trying to get a 7 to 8 hour sleep at night. Being awake during the day will give me more energy to exercise during the daytime.

Goals in my journey right now:
*sleep 7 to 8 hours a night.
* burn 500 calories per day in exercise
* Consume 1600 calories per day (no less than 1400)

*find a fast food substitute
 
I didn't track my calories today. I got off track with that for the last few days, and i'm having trouble getting back on track. I just did 30 minutes of step aerobics, and I am sweating up a damn storm! It felt pretty nice too! I love reading all these success stories here at WLF, it makes me confident that I can do this. Though I am all tuckered out now, and I must get some homework done, then I might just fall asleep and get a good night sleep. Tomorrow I will take a walk for 45 minutes for my exercise.
 
How ya feeling now, Brandy? Hopefully things are easing up? Looks like you're getting active again. BTW, good move on choosing yoga as an activity during TOM. Clearly I only have vicarious experience here, but my wife used to go through some pretty much paralyzing times when she was still dealing with it, so I do feel for ya.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
How ya feeling now, Brandy? Hopefully things are easing up? Looks like you're getting active again. BTW, good move on choosing yoga as an activity during TOM. Clearly I only have vicarious experience here, but my wife used to go through some pretty much paralyzing times when she was still dealing with it, so I do feel for ya.
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Its funny that you say that, but paralyzing is exactly what it is. Horrible feeling. I'm better now though. Thanks for caring.
 
So, Tomorrow I am planning on getting in a ton of exercise. My plan: Wake up around 6:30 am; yoga for 30 minutes, Get reading from 7am to 7:45am; then work from 8 to 12... followed by school from 1pm to 4pm. I will come home and go on a 5 mile walk; come home watch my show while using some free weights, study for my test on Thursday... and then go to bed early. I need to go to bed tonight by 10:30pm to get my 8 hours of sleep. :) Tomorrow is well planned! :D
 
Plans got foiled...but not KILLED. I ate healthy today. Eating breakfast, cereal for breakfast, really makes a difference for me.

My alarm didn't go off this morning, until 30 minutes before I had to leave... so I didn't get to do yoga. Then when I got home from school Dan wouldn't let me go on the walk I was planning on, because it was getting too dark, and he didn't feel safe with me walking around that block in the dark. Whatever. I still had a pretty good day.
 
A good day is a good day! Good morning:) I hope today is a good day too and way to stay flexible yesterday. Sometimes plans change and rolling with the punches is a good thing to be able to do. I am not so good at that. Things change and I just stop and give up! A bad habit that needs breaking for sure:) Maybe next time Dan could go with you? :D
 
RAMBLE to myself. Don't feel obligated to read.

Thanks for stopping by michelle!

Today wasn't good food wise, but I had a lot of fun hanging out with my little sister.

Dan and I had a long talk on the 1 hour drive home from my father's house. We talked about next September when we are going to move out. Yep, thats definitely around the time we are going to get our own place to live. Its just going to be sort of hard with saving up money, seeing as we still have 1 more semester of college. So we decided to ask for as many hours as possible now, come christmas break (in between semesters) we will work as close to full time as possible; and then go back to "as much as we can" during our last semester.... followed by a summer of full time jobs; moving out the following September/October time. Its a pain in the ass to think about things. But the upside is once we move out... we have almost every piece of furniture that we'd need... all except for dining room chairs. Its really a lot to think about.

This month my main goals are to get enough sleep, to do yoga 2 mornings a week, and to go on a walk daily. I've been pretty good so far... not great... but pretty good. By December I want to add a goal of waking up before 9 am every day... I haven't been sleeping my mornings away lately; but I was before the last few weeks.... and that really sucks.

Tomorrow's Plan: Wake up at 6:30 am and do yoga with Dan for 30 minutes. Breakfast consisting of pineapple orange juice, and raisin bran crunch. Then I will get myself ready. At 7:30am Dan and I are heading down to the mall to pick up a video game for Danny. Then we will get back around 8:30am; where we will then go for a walk for 30 minutes with Dan. Then I will either go to work early; or I will come home and clean. I might just come home and clean for a little while. Then I have work from 11am to 6pm. The rest of my night after that might include 30 minutes of step aerobics... CLEANING, PLANNING for the life ahead of me; and going to bed early for work again early on Saturday morning from 8am to 2pm.

I know this is a blabber entry for me... but I need to vent to myself through typing. I really want a second job, but Dan suggested that I should just pretty much beg my boss for more hours because then I wouldn't have to learn a new "trade" all over again, I'd just have more hours where I am. Its a good idea...but who knows if its going to actually get me the money I need.

My work schedule the way i would ideally have it for the rest of this school semester:

Sunday: 8-2
Monday: 10-4
Tuesday: 8- 4
Wednesday: 8-12...(school 1-4) .4:30 to 7:30
Thursday: off
Friday: 11-7
Saturday: 8-2

Very unfortunately.... I know that won't happen. I think I should just call her every day and ask if she needs me to come in to work. lol. Just like every other college student... I'm struggling ROUGH.

OK... that was ridiculously boring and stupid to write about. lol. I will pack my lunch tomorrow for work... probably just a sandwich. No chips, no popcorn. And I will have a cashew sweet and salty bar for a snack; I just don't feel like eating such horrible foods. It really makes me feel disgusting. I realized today that the only time in my life I felt good about myself was when I was pretty much starving myself... 300 calories a day was what I was averaging. And it was because I was stressed, depressed, and dealing with teenager hormones. OK NOW... I need to learn to get back to my "skinny" place... because I know I can do it if I try. I need to smack myself around a couple of times and remind myself that its really not all that difficult if I won't be so damn lazy.
 
Brandy that was a great post! Don't give yourself crap about rambling, its good to do sometimes. BTW, Dan does yoga with you? Good guy! Keep him around! People I work with kinda look at me funny when I tell 'em I do yoga with my wife. IDK, I guess it doesn't sound macho enough like lifting weights...

Sounds like you two have a really good plan to start putting together your financials to move out. I wish I had used as much forethought and planning when I first went out on my own!!! I learned all that crap the hard way.
 
If she won't give you more hours maybe you could get a second job on campus? They are usually easy and very flexible because of school...just a thought. And wow you sure have your head together at such a young age. I still had my head way up my butt and thought everything was just gonna fall in place. Just don't forget to stop and take some time to enjoy right now :)
 
Karl and Lisa: LOL. I do think that I have my head straight and I realize a lot for my age. I'm barely 20 years old. But growing up, my mom taught me that I have to work for everything I get/need/want, and pretty much since I was 16/17 years old I have been planning, planning, and planning. I moved out when I was 18, and even though I didn't have to pay rent or anything, I still had to figure things out for myself. My mom has sat down with me multiple times to teach me about how to manage my finances.

Karl: Dan does yoga with me because he knows little things like that will keep me happy. But don't worry, he refuses to admit it to anyone. lol.!

Lisa: For some reason I have always thought to opposite. Instead of thinking everything will fall into place, I always think the worst will happen, and start to plan for that situation. lol. I'm a worry wart.
 
Today I went into work early. I worked 10 to 6. It went by really fast, because I really didn't stop moving the entire time. I guess thats a good thing though.

I've decided not to plan on yoga in the morning, and rather I will do it at night as a way to wind down. Because even when I wake up early enough, I am awake enough to start doing chores and such, and I don't want to do yoga. I'd rather go on a walk or something. And I'm having A LOT of trouble getting my alarms to go off when they are supposed to on my phone. Hmm.... I should figure that out soon.

I ate pretty well today. Exercise was equal to running around the bakery all day.

I have to work again tomorrow. I have to get there somewhere between 9 and 10am; and I will stay somewhere between 3 and 4. There is a lot to do, so I'm sure it will go by fast too. And because I need the hours, if they need my help, I will go back around 4:30/5:00. I just want to get home to see Dan before he goes to work tomorrow. I plan on going to bed somewhere from 9 to 9:30; and waking up at 5:00/5:30am so I can get plenty of chores done before I go to work.

I am going to lift free weights for a little bit before I go to sleep.

Hooray for hours! Hooray for paying bills! BOOOOO for having bills in the first place! lol.


Sorry I haven't been by anyone's journals... I promise to get there tomorrow night... I've just been really busy for the past couple of days.
 
yea, i've been there...paying bills is a blessing and a curse at the same time! lol I just got my student loan...4 grand, and after I paid all my bills, 2 mths of rent..ok and a little shopping (sarah palin anyone?) lol I have $100 left..it lasted 3 wks! sucks.

hows school going??? are you excited about the upcomming semester??? i know i am! i'm finally in clinicals!!! yay!
 
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