Brandy's Success Diary

So far today:

Breakfast: 3/4 cup Cinnamon Toast TOTAL cereal, 1/4 cup 2% milk

Lunch: 3 slices of beef bologna(1.7 oz), 2 slices whole wheat bread, .75 oz American cheese, 2 tsp yellow mustartd, .5 oz tortilla chips

TOTALS: 743 calories, 74 carbs, 40 grams fat, 25 protein.

I was going to eat the ham sandwich that was on my sparkpeople planner, but the ham in the fridge was BAD. So instead I had bologna and cheese, because I already put out bread and put mustard on it. No biggie. I still have plenty of room for the day!
 
I exercised for the first time in quite a while, and it felt great. Unfortunately I forgot my camera, but the foliage was SOOO beautiful. I told Dan I want to go daily... 30 minutes out of my day is NOTHING. I will take more pictures tomorrow. My boss called and asked if I could come in early because one of her workers didn't show up, so... seeing as I was on "bad terms" before, I'm going to do it for her.I am going to bring a whole bunch of water bottles, and a snack if I can find one. And i will just work and work and work until she makes me leave, or she goes home herself. I need recognition, and I need money. When I get home I will start of my huge amount of homework.

I really like sparkpeople. I personally like it much better then fitday that I tried to use before. There is so much on Sparkpeople...that it makes me WANT to go to the page. I really like that they break down how many calories you should burn a day to reach your goal by a certain time. Or maybe thats not exactly how they do it, but it says I should burn 244 calories a day, so far on my 30 minute walk I burned 198 calories. Thats pretty awesome. WHen I get out of work I might immediately go on a 15 minute walk, to relax, and to let out some steam. And of course to get the rest of my exercise in.IF my body isn't too sore, I will do all the strength training exercises they recommend.
 
I've been wanting to take some pics while the leaves are still changing too. I've wished I had my camera several times the last week and hubby said he'd take me on a drive but hasn't followed through ;/. So what do you do at your job? I'm sure all your hard work will pay off. Just make sure your boss isn't just trying to take advantage of your giving personality. She sounds like a butt :X
 
douknowjello said:
I've been wanting to take some pics while the leaves are still changing too. I've wished I had my camera several times the last week and hubby said he'd take me on a drive but hasn't followed through ;/. So what do you do at your job? I'm sure all your hard work will pay off. Just make sure your boss isn't just trying to take advantage of your giving personality. She sounds like a butt :X
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hey lisa! I am going to go on a walk tomorrow morning and take some pretty pictures. I am a baker, so I bake cakes, cupcakes, pies, breads, brownies, tarts, lemon/lime/raspberry bars, you name it... and I decorate cupcakes too. I know my boss takes advantage of me. She is a butt... but I deal with it to earn what little money I can, and get the experience.
 
Picture taking around New England right now is pretty good stuff with all the foliage. I'm actually thinking of switching up my routine tomorrow and doing kayak cardio instead of bike. Maybe I'll bring the camera and see what kind of shot I can get.

Hope your having a good weekend!
 
So my boss called me in early to work, so I went in at 1:30 instead of 3. And instead of working until 8 (I was scheduled to work 3 to 8)... I worked until 11pm! 1:30 to 11:00!!! Thats insane. So needless to say I didn't eat anything there, and I was running around like crazy, all damn night... and I went to McDonalds afterwards. STUPID me. But I really enjoyed it. lol. My calories are at 1623 calories for today. Not bad considering my ending. Tomorrow will be even better. I had 12 cups of water, and I'm going on finishing my 7th waterbottle, making it 14 cups. I am not going to do strength training tonight, I am FAR too tired. And FAR too sore. I am going to finish my water and go to sleep.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Picture taking around New England right now is pretty good stuff with all the foliage. I'm actually thinking of switching up my routine tomorrow and doing kayak cardio instead of bike. Maybe I'll bring the camera and see what kind of shot I can get.

Hope your having a good weekend!
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OOOH. I bet you could get some EXCELLENT pictures kayaking!
 
Hey Brandy, sorry you had to work so many hours today but I'm impressed by your profession. That's an awesome job :) Did you go to school at all for it or just learn through apprenticeship?
 
douknowjello said:
Hey Brandy, sorry you had to work so many hours today but I'm impressed by your profession. That's an awesome job :) Did you go to school at all for it or just learn through apprenticeship?
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I am going to school right now for culinary arts, there is a combination between baking classes and hot food classes. I just got the job by applying for it. I was already in school for it when I applied. For most jobs in the culinary arts field, its best to find a place to get your foot in the door, a place that will train you.
 
bmohearn said:
I was already in school for it when I applied. For most jobs in the culinary arts field, its best to find a place to get your foot in the door, a place that will train you.
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...Which is why it is a great thing to do the mature thing, like you did, and suck it up a little (just don't get taken advantage of), even if your boss is an ass...

Because other side of the situation is called a resume with references.
maybe even a letter of recommendation. It's all good.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
...Which is why it is a great thing to do the mature thing, like you did, and suck it up a little (just don't get taken advantage of), even if your boss is an ass...

Because other side of the situation is called a resume with references.
maybe even a letter of recommendation. It's all good.
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Yeah, I was proud of myself for sucking up all insulting,and just apologizing even though I know I didn't do anything wrong. She likes me again because of it. lol. Its weird how that happened. But its much better then having to find another place to work. It would be really hard because I'm still in school.
 
I went on a walk this morning for 27 minutes. it would have been longer, but Dan's shins started hurting, so we only did the basic walk; and I will go out again later. Reading Karl's journal made me want to exercise more. Damn.. he OWNS the gym. I need to do more stuff like that. So I am going to go on another walk this afternoon, maybe put some music on my iphone first. And after that I really need to do some of my MAJOR amount of homework, and when I'm done with some of it I will do some strength training. I am very motivated today! Motivated to do exercise, not homework. lol.
 
Things don't always go to plan. But I ate a great dinner. 3/4 cup of rice pilaf, 1 small chicken breast, 3 little pieces of shrimp, and a bunch of broccoli. YUMMM. My calories are low for today, so I might eat something else later.

My totals so far today: 919 calories, 113 carbs, 32 fat, 46 protein

I really need to get some homework done before I attempt exercise. I got my 30 minutes in today, so I am proud. I will do more again tomorrow morning.
 
Hi Brandy! Glad your day went well:) You and your low calories! lol. I would be borderline psychotic if I had only had that much! but your doing well :) Hope you continue to have a good weekend and hope Dan's shins get better! kudos on sucking it up for the work situation. I had a female boss who was crazy and sometime she would be really nice and sometimes she would just crack and get on a tangent and I would just duck my head and let it roll. We eventually became good friends and I moved with her to a new school and we worked really well together. I used to write letters that jut ranted and raved but of course I never sent them anywhere. Just to get my feelings out:) Stay strong but beware of truly unfair behavior.
 
Hey Brandy, I think it's awesome how you handled the work situation and yea funny how by not defending yourself she is fine again. That usually seems to work but you are wise beyond your years for realizing that. It took me alot longer in the work force to figure that out. And some people never figure it out at all so you should feel very good about how you handled that.
 
Thanks Michelle and Lisa for stopping by and giving me support for the work situation. I'm over it now.

Dan and I woke up this morning and the first thing we did was go on a 32 minute walk. And my favorite part was that HE asked ME to go on the walk. Our morning went like this: Open eyes. Dan says "good morning, do you want to get up and go on our walk", and I say "yeah, that sounds great".... we get dressed, and leave. How awesome is that?

When we got back it was close to 11am, so I had something to eat as a combination breakfast/lunch. BRUNCH. I had a grilled cheese sandwich and .5 oz of tortilla chips, and a bottle of water. It was delicious. I love grilled cheese for some reason,lol... must be the little kid in me. I could eat it all day long if I had to.

Then I went on Sparkpeople to log my food and exercise. I love sparkpeople. I really do. I never made a new one, because I didn't really care to. I have the same username for 90% of my online sites, so I just left it as it was. I like their meal plans. THough I can't afford to follow them exactly, I like to use them as a guideline when what I want to eat is up for questioning. And I like how they have the "fastbreak" part of dieting and such, and I am restarting that even though it looks Like I have been in Stage 2 for the past 2 years or something like that. I love reading all the articles, and motivational stories and such. I'm glad that I have started using it again.

Today I have to finish my homework, and I have to go to the bank to deposit money. After that I have no idea how much time I will have of daylight, but if I have any I might go on a 15 minute walk, but... we'll see how that goes without making any definite plans.

My fastbreak goals for spark people are simple things. Drink 64oz of water a day, go on a walk one time a day, and write in a journal once a day (which I do here anyways). Simple things will add up over time.

I have been trying to get the hang of this diet thing for probably over 2 years now... and I have only lost 20 pounds that have actually stayed off. And with the amount of times that I "fell of the wagon", I'd say I'm still doing pretty good. More and more will come off as I go on with this weight loss journey. When I "fall down", the time I stay down is getting less and less. I fell off the first time for 4 months or so... maybe even more. Now its 3 days at the max- like over the weekend that I celebrated my birthday... I ate badly for 3 days... but even so... I didn't go AS OVERBOARD as I would have 2 years ago. I have learned a whole lot here at WLF. I'm proud of myself still.

Last night I told Dan I wanted a Sierra Mist because my calories were low, and I really thought one sounded good. He gave it to me and said "It feels really weird giving you a soda instead of a water bottle". I laughed because I VERY VERY VERY rarely drink soda. Even when I eat out... I get water with a lemon. For my birthday I got sprite with lime (because its my favorite non-water drink), but I only did that because it was my birthday. Just goes to show that I have improved.

Well, I need to stop procrastinating, and go to the bank to make sure my school tuition will have enough money to be covered. Then I need to start up on some homework.
 
OK. I may overpost in here... but it helps me stay focused with my diet and exercise, and also every other aspect of my life. I went to the bank, and my tuition is going to be paid, I just have to worry about my car insurance now. I need to save up money. I got in another 13 minute walk this afternoon... which brings me up to 45 minutes for the day. I even got one part of my homework done. I have an easy thing, a medium thing, and a hard thing. I got the medium one done. I'm proud. But now I need to concentrate and get the rest of them done.... I will do part of the homework and then play online for a few minutes.... and then return to homework. I'm at less then 800 calories for the day so far, and for dinner I will have a little bit of chicken pot pie and mashed potatoes I think. Not too much though! ;) UGh... homework.
 
OH crap. last night i had a panic attack about something my teacher emailed me.. and I really don't want to get into it too far... but I went DOWN. I just wanted to eat. I was telling dan how my mood DIRECTLY affects my cravings, and what I want to eat. I will have no problems if I don't get into an awful mood. I did really well until I ate like a pig at midnight/1am... and brought my calorie totals up so much. I've never kept track of how awful I eat, but I kept track of it... and here was my totals yesterday:

2,728calories 306 carbs 148fat 56protein.

Wow. Yeah. Gross. I now know how bad my mood can affect an originally great day. I appreciate being able to track this on spark people... I can just look back and hope I have learned from it.
 
Why do I do it? WHY? I know its stupid. And I really don't want to do it, but I sabotage myself EACH and EVERY time. And that leads to self hatred. And I know whats going to happen, and yet my body does it anyways. This is ridiculous. I feel like I need someone to babysit me in my diet and exercise. I want an accountability buddy. Someone who wants to push me to my limit, and will tell me like it is. Dan is always here for me. But he will never tell me "NO", or "you must". He does what I want to do, and OBVIOUSLY I can't be trusted to keep myself on track without a push. I have tried many times on this site to get a "buddy", and it works for a week or less, and then the person usually disappears off WLF, which is understandable...but I just need something like that. I always do so well during big challenges and such... but when they are over... I fail myself again. And it will drive me to tears, because it makes me feel so horrible, because I don't know why I always do this to myself.

So would anyone like an accountability buddy? Or does anyone have any suggestions for me?
 
I'm getting over myself now. I just went through the fridge and searched for healthy food... which is VERY hard around here because Dan's family (for who I am very grateful and appreciative because they let me live here, and they feed me) don't eat healthy.. ummm... EVER. I didn't find too much healthy food. But I did find enough to concoct a breakfast and lunch for myself tomorrow. I even thought of a dinner... but I don't know where I will be for dinner tomorrow, so... its still up in the air. I could be at work, or I could be at home. I don't know.

Breakfast is going to be 2 egg whites with 1 slice of american cheese, 1 slice of whole wheat toast with strawberry rhubarb jam.

Lunch is going to be a tunafish on whole wheat bread, with 2 cups of popped popcorn.

I don't know how much time I will have tomorrow because I might be working crazy hours, and then school is right in the middle of it... but I want to do strength training, and my usual walk for 30 minutes.

I'm still up for anyone who wants an accountability buddy... but everyone else I talk to here seems to be doing GREAT, so I'm not sure anyone needs one.

I need to get a good night sleep because tomorrow might be crazy.
 
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