Brandy's Success Diary

Thank you everyone for stopping by. Thank you for the support. I'm not really in the best mood today. I'm extremely disappointed in myself for no eating healthy 2 days in a row. I am eating so HORRIBLY that I don't even want to discuss it. If I don't have support on my decisions... its hard for me. ANd I hate that. So, I'm stopping it. I got the pedometer. But I also called into work tonight because I just didn't feel like going. What the hell is wrong with me? I want to go out for a walk, but its too dark outside. I want to hook up a VCR... or TRY to, and do an exercise video. I can do some strength training... but I'm not sure. I don't feel like sitting down much longer because I feel so crappy about myself today. I had a quick glimpse at Onederland, and it disappeared again. I know I can do it though. I know I can. I'm just failing today. Right now I will go find some sort of exercise to do, I REALLY don't want to sit around. I hate this feeling.

Tomorrow WILL be better.
 
Start now Brandy. Think what is the best thing you can do for your health and weight loss right now and do that. Choose a healthy pleasure if you possibly can. If necessary just give yourself the power to stay calm and do nothing till you eat a healthy breakfast. Patience works. You deserve to give yourself the patience that's needed for your rewards. You're entitled. Take care. :)
 
Thank you felici.

I just went out and bought a Yoga DVD. I've never tried yoga... but I've always wanted to take a class. It also came with a motivation audio CD. So I think I might listen to that, and then try out some YOGA. YAY.
 
I did the audio cd. And I haven't done the video because I need to find something for the little boxes to lean on. I will find them for the morning. It was only 20 minutes long, but I think it calmed me down, gave me a lot of motivation, and put me in a good mood. So, I am planning out my entire day for tomorrow.

Wake up- 7:00 am.
Wake up yoga video
Breakfast- Peach Yogurt (100) and a bottle of water (16.0 oz... 0 cal)
Shower
Beautify myself
Leave for work at 10:40 am.
Work from 11:00-3:00 pm. Break: snack: 1 low fat granola bar (90 cal) (I will try to drink 2 16.9 oz water bottles)
Home at 3:30pm.
Lunch: apple, ham sandwich. 1 bottle of water.
Exercise: 50 minute yoga video. 1 bottle of water
Homework
Dinner: Some sort of protein and a vegetable. 1 bottle of water
More homework
Snack: 1 bag of popcorn- 100 cal.
Bedtime by: 10:30pm.

I think that sounds like an amazing day. Hopefully I will be able to squeeze in 10,000 steps.

Tonight I want to try to go to bed NO LATER then 11pm. I think it might be closer to 10-10:30.

I am going to try and get some more homework done. I have a lot to do. :)

Goodnight!
 
Sorry you've been having a rough time of it these last few days. Looks like you're back on track though. I think planning ahead like you've done for tomorrow (today by the time you read this..lol) is a great thing. I find that I'm most likely to fall off the wagon food and exercise-wise when I haven't planned--especially when I'm busy.
 
Aw, Brandy :( I was really sorry to read about your bad patch, but I'm so glad that you're feeling better now. Perseverence is the key! When things go badly it's so tempting just to wallow and think about giving up (this happens to me SO much). But if you force yourself to get back on track, things actually start to improve again really soon.

Hope you have a happy day and reach all your goals.
 
Hi Brandy! Sorry about your bad days and going back above 200. Don't worry. It will go down quickly if you stay good. Just keep up with the good food and exercise and it will come back down. I bounce around all the time when I lose... when I used to that is;) I hope you are having a better day and enjoying that yoga video:D
 
Howdy Brandy,
Obviulously you had 1 bd day and you PICKED yourself back up again and your back ontrack again,and thats the hardest part is getting back on track,I struggle with that lot.Your doijng gr8 don't let a small setback getcha down!Hope you have a nice day and also I am going to try to find more time to visit my kids schedule is soooo hectic to where I barely have time to update my diary and check on teams.I promise to be a nbetter supporter!Tammy:D
 
I think that the yoga will be a good thing for you. You might inspire me to try it again. I loved it for a while, especially when my best friend lived in town (actually the next house over) & we did it often. She is an instructor so it was cool to do it free & spend some bonding gal time together. But that was years ago & she is now living in Manhattan so I rarely get to see here & then it not to do yoga!

hm... let me know how you like it & I might have to dust off an old yoga DVD at my house. Good luck.
 

My day at work was OK. My boss got in trouble, and it made me smile cuz he's such a jerk. It's too long of a story to get into.

I ate my yogurt and a granola bar. BUt I haven't had any water yet!!! Well, I have chewed on A LOT of ice... so that still counts. BUt I think I'm going to start chugging some soon.

I haven't had lunch yet, but I think I'm going to go upstairs and have an apple, and half a sandwich, because dinner is approaching fast, and I want room for veggies and protein.

I am going to sit down and do some more homeowork, and then it will be yoga time. I like yoga. I truly believe that it calms me down, and makes me have a much more relaxed outlook on life. So... I will DEFINITELY continue with it. My steps are very low. BUt I am thinking about a walk today. Its beautiful out. I don't know if I can convince Danny to come with me... but that would be really nice.

SO much to do, and so little time. Today is going great...and I'm hoping to be back in ONEderland by weigh-in. Its completely possible as long as I don't screw up in the next few days.

 
Glad your having a better day! Sounds like your boss got some come uppance his way:D lol Good job. You are working so hard. Good luck for weigh in on Saturday! You are doing so good this time! Keep up the great work!
 
OK. I am updating because I know exactly how the rest of my day is going to go.

Here is my foods first:

Breakfast: 100 cal yogurt and 90 cal granola bar.

Lunch: 2 slices of bread( worth 160 cal together), 4 THIN slices of Ham, 1 slice of American Cheese, and 6 VERY THIN slices of bread and butter pickles. ((I can't figure out the cals for them. I'd estimate.. 175)

Dinner: 1 SMALL slice of meat loaf, 1 SMALL baked potato, and A LOT of broccoli. (300 for meat[if I eat a GREAT size] + 290 for potato + 50 for broccoli)

That is about 1165 calories. Still low for the day. I don't think I will be hungry after that... but if I am I will eat 100 cal popcorn pack.


For the rest of the night.. my plans are:
Homework and yoga.
 
Howdy! I just finished my 50 minutes of yoga. It felt great. I don't know if it will help me lose weight... but it is definitely going to make me more flexible. Not to mention how awesome it makes me feel. I feel relaxed, peaceful, and able to handle stress. And I also feel incredibly motivated.... in a way that my brain keeps telling me "the weight will come off slowly, but it will come off"

I also have one of those step video's... that I found a POSSIBLY working VCR to do it with. So I can do a little more exercise... DDR is really fun, but sometimes I don't want to do it. Yoga is awesome!

My homework got a lot more done. I still have quite a bit left to do in my culinary class homeworks. (LOTS of reading.)

So... I'm feeling great. I hope the scale goes down at least a little bit tomorrow. Today was excellent.
 
Well, I have a pair of 13 pants that I just keep staring at. ahah. I keep talking to myself too. My boyfriend thinks I'm crazy. I just keep saying.. "by the end of the Halloween challenge these pants will fit again. I can do this. It is simple. The weight of 189 used to seem big to me.. I can get down to that easily.

I bought this pair of pants... knowing I would never be able to fit into them. But they look like the most comfy pair of pants. PLUS... I have been this size for a year now... and I refuse to buy anymore pants of a size 15. I have 10000 pairs of pants that are 14 and 13. So Just losing a pants size... I would have a lot more clothes.. and not resort to ONLY wearing the elastic waist pants that I do now.

Amazing. I can do this all if I set my mind to it. I just expect it to happen faster then it is. And thats ok. Because I am satisfied with 2 lbs a week.. even 1 lb a week would satisfy me.

I feel great. I am going to go plan out my day for tomorrow. :D

Good night!
 
OK. SO I weighed in at 202.0 this morning! I'm happy with myself. Yesterday and the day before I was 204.4 so... this is a good sign. I don't think I can be back at 199 by weigh in... I'm aiming for 201.

I just did 30 minutes of yoga. I feel good. I will do the other section of the dvd (which is 20 minutes long) later tonight.

Today's plans:
Yoga for 30 minutes
Breakfast
School from 12:30 to 3:15.
Come home and have lunch.
Go to mom's house to visit the fam
Do some homework
Eat dinner
Come home.
Do other 20 minutes of yoga
Go to bed.


I'm not sure what I'm eating today.

Breakfast is either a bagel with bacon and cheese (for lots of protein to start the day) or the usual yogurt.
Lunch is whatever one of those I don't have.
Dinner is HOPEFULLY a salad. But.. its up to my mom I suppose.

Snacks: 100 cal bag of popcorn, grapes, and a 90 cal granola bar. I haven't quite organized this all yet. But... I know what I want my choices to be throughout the day.

I hope today goes as well as yesterday did. In the next few days I WILL see onederland again. And I will stay in onederland this time. FOR GOOD.

I hope all of you have a good day!
 
Horrible horrible horrible. I have such a hard time losing and keeping control during my period week. This week hasn't been too terrible. I mean.. I've exercised every day. My exercise isn't too intense. I've been doing yoga now. And I love it.

My foods today:

Breakfast/first lunch (11:30 am) 3 slices of bacon, 1 slice of cheese, 2 slices of bread (160), and 1 sliced plum tomoato. And 1 small ladle full of chicken noodle soup.

Lunch: at 3:45- 3 slices of bacon, 1 slice of cheese, 2 slices of bread (160), and 1 sliced plum tomoato and a bag of smart food (100)

Dinner: a piece of steak 1 1/2 times the size of my palm, 4 small potatoes (the ones that are REALLY mini. Like... nectarine size) with dill and garlic powder. And 1 ear of corn.

I drank 3 water bottles, and a caramel frappaccino. (OUCH! 500 cals.)

I counted 1819 for the day. I suppose its still lower then 2000... is this ok? my food isn't up to my standards.. but is this average??

I finished a lot of homework today too!!! I am happy working hard. I have also decided what I want to do with my future. A little bit anyways. I am going to finish getting my associates degree in culinary arts from Massasoit Community College, and then move to vermont for 2 years to go to UCI, and get my Bachelor's degree in either pastry arts, or culinary. I'm not sure yet. But I want to go to that school afterwards. My first apartment will be in Vermont. *crosses fingers* I want the experience of moving out of state... I hate being away from my family. BUt I think it will make me happy. I think it MIGHT be possible to pry myself away from the fam for a while... even though I find it very hard not to live with them as it is!! I always love seeing them. Well, we'll see. But that is what I want to look into right now.

I think I am going to go read after a bit more of yoga. I want to do the 20 minute video before bed. BUt... I'm getting really tired, and have to wake up early in the morning.

I hope I am staying at 202-201 for weigh in on Saturday. I can't get down to 200 in 2 days.. sorry guys. I know this is negative points for my team. I effed up. I'll really try though.
 
Don't worry about the weight gain, dear. It is natural during TOM. You still might get back to 200 by Sat. I have done it before. Don't be discouraged. Even if you don't, it's nothing to be down about. It's only 1pt--no biggie!! We'll still love you!!:beating:

I was so happy to hear that your prick of a boss got into trouble! heehee..:rotflmao: What goes around comes around, eh?

That's cool that you're really enjoying the yoga. I have a video that i've watched a bit, and tried even less..lol. I think that once I lose more weight I'd enjoy it more b/c it would be easier to do the positions. I used to be really flexible--but lost it. As you get older you lose it if you don't keep it up. And gaining 90lbs doesn't help either!! :rotflmao: So just keep doing yoga, and you'll stay flexible even when you're an old lady like me..haha. My MIL does it and loves it.
 
BB- thank you for the support. I will stay with it. After a while I hope to be super flexible. Because all my life I have always wanted to do gymnastics..and always been the fat girl who couldn't ever do it right. So, I will try to get more flexible now.

ANYWAYS...



I went to my culinary class today. First day in the kitchen. It was fun. We worked on knife skills... and I'm really not that great. We tried small dice, medium dice, mirapous, (meer- a-pwah [thats how its pronounced, I don't know how to spell it.])

Today is pretty much my day off from everything. I usually either have work, or want to spend time with the family, or something. BUt other then my 8-12 class today, I am home, and relaxing, and enjoying myself.





I have been great with foods today. I am happy.

Breakfast: (100) calorie STRAWBERRY yogurt.

Snack: a strawberry flavored water - (25) calories.

Lunch: 1 cup of chicken noodle soup - (75 calories), and a FEW bites of Fettuccine alfredo with chicken and broccoli. (about 81 calories) and a bottle of water.

That is really low for the day so far though. Only 281. That should be just for 1 meal. So, I won't feel oh so guilty when I go back upstairs to grab some more food. ahah. It was so good. ALL of it. I felt that I had enough food when I finished it, but in another hour of two I will go back upstairs and get a snack of some sort.



So It is ALMOST 1pm, and I have a whole day ahead of me still. IT feels so great to not be going to work tonight, and being able to enjoy my evening.

I am going to do the 50 minutes of yoga. I want to read, maybe do a little bit of homework...

I weighed in AGAIN this morning at 202.0. I am surprised because yesterday's meals were very carb filled. I guess it goes to show that my metabolism can handle a lot more then it used to be able to. When I first started dieting.. if I ate more then a sandwich's worth of carbs... I knew I would gain.

I hope tomorrow I can get down to 200 again. That would make me so happy.

I am definitely enjoying the fact that my house is full of delicious foods that are REALLY low calorie. I can eat SO MUCH food. And I won't have to feel depressed about having to many calories! Its so awesome. :rotflmao::rotflmao:

Well, well, well... I think I am going to enjoy my next hour or so, and read my book while I relax. :sleeping::drooling:

 
Howdy Brandy,
Haha I was reading the part about gymnastics
and whats weird I can still do what I learned when I was 6-11 and I am 34
lol I was trying to show my daughter who's cheerleading but has trouble with the flips I can still do a backbend,cartwheel,roundoff,handstands,but I suck as a teacher tho.
Congrats on your helthy menue's and continuous exersices and dediacation you will meet your goal in NOTIME!Have a nice weekend Tammy
 
Thanks for stopping by Tammy. Ya see, I have never learned to preform any gymnastics. I mean.. I could tell someone step by step how to do them, and how your body should be positioned... but I could never actually have the strength or stability in my body to do it!


I ate more food to bring my calories up a little bit.

1 serving of Fettaccine alfredo with chicken and asparagus- 162 calories
25 green grapes- 75 cal.

So the new running total is: 518.

I think dinner is going to be steak subs. I will see how they look when I go upstairs, because more chicken noodle soup or fettuccine alfredo sounds like it would hit the spot again.

To also try tonight: 1 pack of mini pringles. (I think they're 100 cal) and 1 chocolate caramel square.

Today is great. :D
 
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