Brandy's Success Diary

Bikinibound Kim- I am thinking about waitressing, but all restaurants around me are DEAD right now, I need to work down near cape cod. But from my house, that's a good hour away. If not more. If I still lived with my father that would be different. But this is supposed to be one of the worst years for finding jobs. I'm praying that I'll be able to make it through. Thank you for the suggestion, I will see what type of hours I can get.

Missladybug kim- thanks for popping by! I really really really really REALLY want to be under 200. The 2 servings of bread thing has really been working for me! Because I don't have to deprive myself of anything, but I'm not going overboard either. I'm making sure to get plenty of water in too. With the weather these days, its too hot to drink sugary drinks- I'd feel sick and icky afterwards. For exercise I am trying to form a routine. A walk for as long as I can (at least one time around my block or the street across from my house) and I am trying to get into the habit of doing a yoga DVD every day, and a pilates video once a week for 20 minutes at least.

I weighed in this morning and found that my crap scale said 207, which means that I'm down to around 202!! I am soooooo happy. What I'm doing is actually working, and I've lost 15 pounds so far! Just 2 pounds until I reach my 2nd goal. I like setting small goals for myself. I hope today continues to go well. Just like my past 2 days.
 
I am very excited for you Brandy!!! Congrats on the 202. It is so nice to see your ticker saying 15lbs down!! That is a big number! The bread servings a day sound really good! It is amazing what you can eat without bread! I hope you have a wonderful day today and great job on what you have done!!
 
michelle- thank you soo much for stopping by. I think I am losing so much because I allow myself to eat a decent amount of anything I crave. But I won't allow myself something else later. Like today I gave in and ate nachoss for lunch , and now instead of a burger for dinner I'm going to have special K cereal and some watermelon. Its about balance.
 
breakfast- special K cereal and watermelon
lunch- 1/2 chicken breast. 3 oz steak, watermelon and nachos.
Dinner- is going to be special K cereal again, and some kind of vegetable.
 
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Bikinibound Kim- I am thinking about waitressing, but all restaurants around me are DEAD right now, I need to work down near cape cod. But from my house, that's a good hour away. If not more. If I still lived with my father that would be different. But this is supposed to be one of the worst years for finding jobs. I'm praying that I'll be able to make it through. Thank you for the suggestion, I will see what type of hours I can get.

I weighed in this morning and found that my crap scale said 207, which means that I'm down to around 202!! I am soooooo happy. What I'm doing is actually working, and I've lost 15 pounds so far! Just 2 pounds until I reach my 2nd goal. I like setting small goals for myself. I hope today continues to go well. Just like my past 2 days.
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Really? They're dead? I mean, the economy where I live still kinda sucks, yet the restaurants are still pretty hoppin'. What about a local cafe that does breakfast? Those places always seem to do well no matter what. Sure you have a more turn and burn mentality there (get as many customers in and out..lol), but I made good money working at one. The good thing about waitressing is that you can work a 4-5hr shift and leave with $60-120 in your pocket, so you might not need to get a lot of hours. ;) Anyway, good luck with that!

And 202 is just incredible!! You are soooo close to Onederland! :party::party:
 
hi brandy :) sorry i haven't been too active on WLF lately :(

I just wanted to see how your doing!? Hope all is well, i'll be back later!
 
Hey Brandy! Hope you're doing well. Sounds like you're getting yourself into a nice routine! And 15lbs is AWESOME! Trust me when I say that onederland isn't far away. You'll be there before you know it!!!
 
I've had a busy weekend...and its been pretty much terrible. I'm really sick of weighing myself every day. Because seeing a higher number can get me in a bad mood. I haven't done any exercise. But I'm motivated to do it again. I still have my goal of attending the 2010 Boston Marathon. And I'm doing for myself...but also for other reasons. I have a 4 year old sister. And I want to set an example for her that you can reach whatever goal you want. To never let ANYONE tell you that something is impossible. To never give up. That anything can be within your reach. I want her to be empowered. I know she will only be 6 at the time. But I will do it again after I finish it the first time. I want to throw a HUGE party for it too. Because I will cross that finish line. Not now I wouldn't! But eventually I will. I don't think that I can win by 2010...but just to finish would be amazing. Sometimes I feel like this weight loss thing is too much. But I can do it. I just have to pace myself. Just like a marathon.

Starting tomorrow... NO. Starting RIGHT THIS SECOND... I will not be weighing myself. I will concentrate on exercise, and making good decisions. I will wait until every Friday to weigh myself. I want to be out of these 200's. I want to stay out of them. I want to be healthy. I want to strive for something. I want someone to look at me and say "wow!" I want to be someone motivation.

I am very upset about my grandmother again. She was making fun of me at Father's Day dinner today. There were a plate of brownies... probably 20 of them. And I took one that my little sister gave me. Then my nana jumps up and says "I better get one now before brandy eats everything". Umm... I almost cried. But I'm over it now. I will not let someone ruin my self-esteem like that. I've worked too hard in the past 2 years to get ANY self esteem at all. And I don't care what she has to say about me.

1 more month until I head up to Maine for a week. I'm hoping to get out of the 200's..maybe to 195 by then.

Hope everyone is doing great.
 
Sorry you had such a yucky experience. My first memory of my grandma on my mom's side was when my brother and I first met her as older kids and I asked for a cookie. When I was little I had some kidney issues which made my face really puffy and I looked fat and I was really sensitive about it. When I asked for the cookie my grandma told me "Don't eat too many of those or your gonna get as big as your mother." It was awful. She insulted me and my mom in one sentence. That is the only memory I have of her and it is vivid. I never really wanted much to do with her after that. People can just say hurtful things to you.
I don't know if you could talk to your grandma about it but she may not even realize she is hurting your feelings. Mine lived so far away and I was so young that I didn't have the option and she died so now I will never know her as a nice person or if she realized what she said and how it made me feel.
Your aspirations for the 2010 marathon are wonderful and just pace yourself. If you kill yourself over it then it won't be an enjoyable experience and you won't want to do it again. You will get there!
Hope you have a great week this week and my fingers are crossed for under 200!!! Yay Brandy!!
 
Mishi- Thank you for the kind words. I could talk to my grandmother about what she said... but I know I'll never do it. I'm not a confrontational person; so I'll just sit here. I could have 100 people tell me to confront her, and I won't. But I'm letting it pass through me. I won't kill myself over the marathon thing... but thats why I'm giving myself until 2010 and i'm not trying for 2009. I'm so hoping to be under 200 soon. Its been way to long.

I just woke up. Its almost noon time. So I threw off the plan i had for myself today. No big deal. And when I woke up... TOM was here. JEEZUS... I am around 4 or 5 days early. I think its because I have a UTI. Which also sucks. But I'm not in pain or anything. When I get sick, it comes early. If I follow this schedule... I'll have my period the week before vacation next month, and that would be awesome!! I was really bothered seeing the scale go up to 208 and 207 again...but when I weighed myself this morning it was 204. Yes... I forgot when I woke up this morning that I'm not supposed to weigh myself! Its a habit for me! Open Eyes... Bathroom... scale...back to bed. lol. I'll try to remember. My main concern is that it will put me in a bad mood...and I'm really trying to work on that. I think I may still go and have some cereal for breakfast with a glass of sunny D, and maybe an apple if I have room. 195 by next month is an attainable goal for me at this point... the only concern is actually doing it. Every trip to Maine that I've been on before (past 2 years) I gained about 5 to 8 pounds. DISGUSTING. I just eat and eat and eat. This year it will be different for me. I'll have a share of snacks...but I will eat as healthy as possible when i'm there. If I get to 195... that will be about 25 to 30 pounds lighter then last year. I was probably around 220-225 when I was there, at least at the end because I never exercised past swimming a tiny bit, and I ate every second i could. I'm past that now. I almost want to change my ticker because 220-225 was my highest weight!! Another thing I want to do is start weighing in by my new scale. Somehow...I feel like I'm cheating when I say I weigh 204...when my scale said 209. Its just that this scale adds 5 pounds more then my old scale did. I don't know! Well...I am going to go start my day off right!

EDIT: I changed my first weight (because of that technically being my highest). I will continue using my -5 pounds method until I actually reach 195. Then maybe I can get a new scale. lol.
 
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Aunt Flo is kicking the crap out of me today. I have NO energy, and cravings are through the roof. I don't even know if I can manage exercise today, its taking all my motivation to eat healthy and not binge on chocolate cake and chips. Lunch was a small bowl of Special K and a glass of Sunny D. Snack was 1 tbsp of PB. I didn't like the apple I cut up to go with it. Now I need a nap after being awake for 5 hours. And I'm super moody. LOL.
 
Aw, Brandy it sounds like you're really having a difficult couple of days. Remember to take good care of yourself first before anything. Before thinking about exercise, before picking what you eat - before anything. Really think about giving yourself a small break. I love the way you talk about the marathon and running it in 2010. That's an awesome goal and definitely one that is more important than being a size 2 or something crazy. ;) Remember what you're in this for - you want to be healthy. The idea of being a role model is just awesome. You have all the right motivators - just focus on that self-love aspect. You aren't something that needs to be fixed. You as you are right now are a beautiful, talented woman. You don't need to be fixed! Your work to be a healthy woman who makes good choices for herself and to better the function of her body is simply work to make sure that you can live a long, healthy life and provide a good example to other women. That's awesome!!! Give yourself a break when it comes to TOM, because we all know how crappy that makes us feel. Take it easy today and let yourself cave to a craving. It's ok - it's still a process that takes time, work, and most of all - self love!!!! :)

Ok. . . .*steps off soapbox* :) Hope this evening finds you feeling a little bit better :)
 
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Aw, Brandy it sounds like you're really having a difficult couple of days. Remember to take good care of yourself first before anything. Before thinking about exercise, before picking what you eat - before anything. Really think about giving yourself a small break. I love the way you talk about the marathon and running it in 2010. That's an awesome goal and definitely one that is more important than being a size 2 or something crazy. ;) Remember what you're in this for - you want to be healthy. The idea of being a role model is just awesome. You have all the right motivators - just focus on that self-love aspect. You aren't something that needs to be fixed. You as you are right now are a beautiful, talented woman. You don't need to be fixed! Your work to be a healthy woman who makes good choices for herself and to better the function of her body is simply work to make sure that you can live a long, healthy life and provide a good example to other women. That's awesome!!! Give yourself a break when it comes to TOM, because we all know how crappy that makes us feel. Take it easy today and let yourself cave to a craving. It's ok - it's still a process that takes time, work, and most of all - self love!!!! :)

Ok. . . .*steps off soapbox* :) Hope this evening finds you feeling a little bit better :)
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Heather, thank you. You are right. I need to work on my self-esteem...and its definitely get better. I really appreciate you saying those kind things about me. That is what I want to be at the end of this... an inspiration to someone who thought they couldn't do it. I did give into the craving. :willy_nilly::drool5:
 
I did great today! And i even gave into a craving for having a spectacular day.

Breakfast: small bowl of special K with a glass of Sunny D (315)
Snack: 1 tbsp of Peanut Butter. (95)
Dinner: 6 steak tips, 1 shrimp, 1 cup summer squash. (350)

As you can see... I was very low on calories. But I have been sleeping most of the day. And I wasn't that hungry. I was very content. But the cramps were killing me, and I wanted a little something to make me happy. I was very proud for making healthy decisions all day. So I allowed myself a small ice cream cone.

Probably another 300 calories. 1060 calories for the day. Still far too low. But I'm content. I will probably munch on some cheezit party mix later. Maybe a handful. But I am so proud of myself today. NO exercise what-so-ever though. I just couldn't find the energy. With my horrible cramps...I didn't want to walk too far.

I'm hoping that I have a bit more energy tomorrow. I couldn't even muster up the energy for yoga. I have a DVD with 20 minutes of yoga for during the menstrual cycle. It is called "energy balancing yoga" I didn't even want to try today.

It is going to take me a long while to be able to run long distances. So I have started some planning for what I can do to accomplish this goal of mine.

Starting tomorrow (or when I have enough energy) I will start walking regularly. That will get me used to being out and about. Then once I reach 190 I am going to start doing the couch to 5K plan. But I will take my time getting used to it. Every "week" section.. I will do over the course of 2 weeks. And this time I will only run the every other day...which what was recommended. I don't want those nasty shin splints again. I will stay on Week 9 for a little while. Then I will start a training schedule I found on marathonrookie.com. It shows how many miles to run, slowly building yourself up. I will take that nice and slow until the day comes that I can finally run the marathon.

I think by the end of the week i might be out of the 200's. If I can have such healthy days on DAY 1 of TOM... I think I can do well the rest of the week. I am very motivated. I wish I could scream it to the world. I will be thin. I will make it to 195 in the next month. It is about 7 pounds away. But I can definitely do it! And I WILL NOT gain weight over my vacation. I will be out exercising every damn chance I get. Especially since I won't have my period that week.

I am so excited to see a number less then 200 on the scale!!!! I just have to keep remembering how much I want it!

On another note... I need to go make a doctor's appointment for next week some time. I definitely have a UTI..and I need to get medication.

My random rant is over now. :waving:
 
I stepped on the scale this morning and it told me 201.5! i have a new low! not by much...but its a new low. I will definitely be able to make that 195 goal by July 20th! I am still happy even if its only .5 lbs lower then my last low. Onederland is just around the corner. I can feel it. I'm going to have another good day today. Hopefully no cheats at all! I have a tiny bit more energy, so exercise is possible today! I'm just feeling great. Dan and I cuddled so much last night, I think when I woke up and we were still cuddling... it made in a good mood right away. The scale just confirmed it!

Edit (12:51 AM) I had about 1420 calories today. I went on a 30 minute, fast paced walked with Dan, and over-all...everything went great. I don't know if I will see 201 on the scale tomorrow, but I am proud of my day. I resisted McDonalds, and other really fatty foods today. I am so incredibly proud of the work I have done so far.I keep wanting to tell people that I've lost so much. I mean, its not much considering how long it took me. 23.5 lbs in 11 months. But I really didn't start losing much until February. I lost the first 10 pounds easily, then got stuck at 217 FOR the LONGEST time. Now I'm almost out of the 200's! Its unbelievable. Only 6 pounds this next month; and I will reach my goal. I can't wait!!!! Determination and Motivation are running through my veins.
 
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200 pounds today! That means my second goal is complete! Next goal: 195! I think that 5 pounds is a short goal...but thats what I want to be when I go to Maine on July 20th. So.... lets see where that takes me!
 
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Lets talk numbers.

I have lost 25 pounds. That is 87,500 calories.
Eating an average of 1600 calories a day, That is about 54.6 days worth of food.
My long-term goal is 135 pounds. From my highest weight.. thats a 90 pound loss.
I have lost 27.% of my ultimate goal.
I have lost 11.% of my weight thus far.
:party: Onederland here I come.
 
I just went clothes shopping with Danny. And I came back SOO happy. I am down to a size 16; which might seem big. But that means I've lost a dress size since the last time I went shopping in March or April or something. I was in a size 18.... there was NO WAY a 17 would fit. And now... I'm a solid 16-17. All 17s would fit...and MOST 16s fit. But I did find a few that were more like an average 14 size, that I am not ready to fit into. I have a lot of nice size 16's and quite a few 14's that I can't wait to fit into. But, I came back with 1 shirt, 1 pair of cloth shorts, and 1 pair of jean-capris. I'm definitely a happy camper. And what an awesome day to shop on my goal of 200! Dan's mom had to return clothes that she paid for with cash... and she just let me return them and get the money to buy more! Dan also bought us both a memory foam contour bed pillow. The are so comfy!!!

Today has been almost perfect. I had pasta with dinner, but I'm ok with calories and everything. I am on a role.
 
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