Brandy's Success Diary
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bmohearn
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It lets me see what I weight compared to the day before, and figure out what I have to change the next day. It motivates me!
bmohearn
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I just ate my breakfast/lunch... I will be full for a LONG time. I had 2 egg whites scrambled with cayenne pepper and 1 slice of American cheese between 2 slices of whole wheat bread. 390 after all the ketchup I used. Not too bad! I have to keep this up for the rest of the day!
bmohearn
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I think I've had about 1490 calories... lets round to 1500. Its quite possible I had fewer. Snack: 100 calorie snack bar,
Dinner: Large Turkey Sub, handful of fritos, and some homemade french fries. Chips and Fries.. not so good, but I had plenty of extra calories for them. My goal is 1600 per day. So I did well, I might be having a few popsicles later tonight. Which would hadd 30 calories...I've done pretty well today, I still have 30 minutes of exercise to do tonight.
Well, I'm off to let my food settle.
I'm pleased with myself again today. Everyone else ordered pizza, and they all ordered MY FAVORITE type of pizza. BBQ chicken! Yumm.. And from my favorite pizza place! But I kept telling myself that I can get something else there. So I got my turkey sub, and allowed myself chips, and fries. Not that many of either really. I really hope I have a loss tomorrow!!
Dinner: Large Turkey Sub, handful of fritos, and some homemade french fries. Chips and Fries.. not so good, but I had plenty of extra calories for them. My goal is 1600 per day. So I did well, I might be having a few popsicles later tonight. Which would hadd 30 calories...I've done pretty well today, I still have 30 minutes of exercise to do tonight.
Well, I'm off to let my food settle.
I'm pleased with myself again today. Everyone else ordered pizza, and they all ordered MY FAVORITE type of pizza. BBQ chicken! Yumm.. And from my favorite pizza place! But I kept telling myself that I can get something else there. So I got my turkey sub, and allowed myself chips, and fries. Not that many of either really. I really hope I have a loss tomorrow!!
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bmohearn
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Hey you!!TY for stopping by and MONDAY I will be back on track with my
pregnant self lol,my girls have a b-day party this week so I am still enjoying time off for now! Keep up on all the exersicing your doing gr8!!Tammy
I've been worried about YOU! Thanks for stopping by!
bmohearn
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First, let me start by saying this is a rambling post to clear my mind.
A few days before TOM arrives, my self esteem goes down just a bit every now and then. I have been working really hard lately. (almost a perfect past 4 days) and I feel like I'm disgusting to look at. I'm worried that the scale won't go down tomorrow. I'm worried that this will never come off, and my self esteem will never be at a normal level. I remember in 2005 when I was just 145 pounds. What happened to me!?!? I gained 65 pounds or so in 2 years...and this past year is when I've been working the hardest. Hell... I know I haven't done well until this point...but still. How could I do that?!?!? I just want to put on smaller clothes. I want to feel as beautiful as all the other girls I see. ((I can tell TOM is coming because I'm having WEIRD mood swings)) I want to take my clothes off when I get into the shower, without having to AVOID looking in the mirror, because when I do, I see someone who is HIDEOUS. Food is my comfort. And its really hard to stop that. Food hasn't always been my comfort...in fact, when I was upset... I used to NOT eat at all! Now...I use it for EVERY emotion. I use it to celebrate, when I'm sad, when I'm angry, and when I'm bored. I can't do this anymore! Its wrong! This week I have gotten a little better at deciding what food I want to eat BEFORE I shove it in my mouth. I chose tuna over pizza, I chose turkey sub (NO mayo or cheese) over pizza. I chose salad instead of McDonalds. I am figuring this out. And yet... I feel like I might still be doing something wrong. This could really just be the bloating and stuff thats starting to occur because TOM is on his way.. But I just want to vent and get my thoughts out of my own head. I am 2.4 pounds away from getting rid of my first 10 pounds. 10 pounds at a time... that is a good goal for me. I like to see my ticker move across... it makes me feel like I'm doing something right. Setting my ticker at 135 as my goal... I will barely move!! But I can keep moving it back 10 pounds. MoonGoddess posted something a LONG time ago that was A certain amount of weight...and what object that was equivalent to. I printed this out, because at ALMOST every pound... I could compare it to something. I have lost about 7.5 pounds...which happens to be the average size of a newborn baby. I guess that sort of puts a smile on my face.
Ok... what else can I compare my weight loss to...
7.5 pounds lost..(pretty much)
That could be... 7 guinea pigs, 5 dozen Krispy Kreme donuts, 3.75 racks of baby back ribs, 2.5 human brains, 1.875 ostrich eggs, 1.5 chihuahuas, and the weight equivalent of 1.25 human's skin, or 1 average new born baby.
I can be VERY proud of that.
As you can see...this post has pretty much turned itself around. Thats the brilliance of rambling. I still don't like to look at myself in a mirror... but I have faith that someday I will get past all this.
A few days before TOM arrives, my self esteem goes down just a bit every now and then. I have been working really hard lately. (almost a perfect past 4 days) and I feel like I'm disgusting to look at. I'm worried that the scale won't go down tomorrow. I'm worried that this will never come off, and my self esteem will never be at a normal level. I remember in 2005 when I was just 145 pounds. What happened to me!?!? I gained 65 pounds or so in 2 years...and this past year is when I've been working the hardest. Hell... I know I haven't done well until this point...but still. How could I do that?!?!? I just want to put on smaller clothes. I want to feel as beautiful as all the other girls I see. ((I can tell TOM is coming because I'm having WEIRD mood swings)) I want to take my clothes off when I get into the shower, without having to AVOID looking in the mirror, because when I do, I see someone who is HIDEOUS. Food is my comfort. And its really hard to stop that. Food hasn't always been my comfort...in fact, when I was upset... I used to NOT eat at all! Now...I use it for EVERY emotion. I use it to celebrate, when I'm sad, when I'm angry, and when I'm bored. I can't do this anymore! Its wrong! This week I have gotten a little better at deciding what food I want to eat BEFORE I shove it in my mouth. I chose tuna over pizza, I chose turkey sub (NO mayo or cheese) over pizza. I chose salad instead of McDonalds. I am figuring this out. And yet... I feel like I might still be doing something wrong. This could really just be the bloating and stuff thats starting to occur because TOM is on his way.. But I just want to vent and get my thoughts out of my own head. I am 2.4 pounds away from getting rid of my first 10 pounds. 10 pounds at a time... that is a good goal for me. I like to see my ticker move across... it makes me feel like I'm doing something right. Setting my ticker at 135 as my goal... I will barely move!! But I can keep moving it back 10 pounds. MoonGoddess posted something a LONG time ago that was A certain amount of weight...and what object that was equivalent to. I printed this out, because at ALMOST every pound... I could compare it to something. I have lost about 7.5 pounds...which happens to be the average size of a newborn baby. I guess that sort of puts a smile on my face.
Ok... what else can I compare my weight loss to...
7.5 pounds lost..(pretty much)
That could be... 7 guinea pigs, 5 dozen Krispy Kreme donuts, 3.75 racks of baby back ribs, 2.5 human brains, 1.875 ostrich eggs, 1.5 chihuahuas, and the weight equivalent of 1.25 human's skin, or 1 average new born baby.
I can be VERY proud of that.
As you can see...this post has pretty much turned itself around. Thats the brilliance of rambling. I still don't like to look at myself in a mirror... but I have faith that someday I will get past all this.
bmohearn
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Friday- 214.0
Saturday- 213.8
Sunday- 211.0
Monday- 209.2
Tuesday- 211.0
Wednesday- 209.4
Thursday- 209.4
FRIDAY- 211. 0
I shouldn't have gained weight yesterday. But TOM is around the corner, and is getting even closer. So I hope I don't go higher then this while he's here. This usually happens, so I'm trying not to be so worried about it. I've still lost 3 pounds from last week!!!
Saturday- 213.8
Sunday- 211.0
Monday- 209.2
Tuesday- 211.0
Wednesday- 209.4
Thursday- 209.4
FRIDAY- 211. 0
I shouldn't have gained weight yesterday. But TOM is around the corner, and is getting even closer. So I hope I don't go higher then this while he's here. This usually happens, so I'm trying not to be so worried about it. I've still lost 3 pounds from last week!!!
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I haven't eaten a lot today. I had a meal from the mall, and that was it..I'm just not hungry. Its weird that I have NO munchies, and NO cravings right now...when TOM is so close. That hasn't happened before! I've probably had 900 calories in the meal. Maybe. It was chicken in a Sesame sauce with rice. Not good for me, but it filled me up for the past 8 hours. I need to put something else in my system...even though I still feel completely content. *shrugs*.
heathercb04
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Hey Brandy! I SO feel your pain on the TOM crap! I've been a human garbage disposal and moody as all get out as well. Luckily the water weight goes away! I hope you're having a happy Friday 
bmohearn
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Newbride02- I think I just didn't want to eat afterwards...and I was still content. lol. Its not like me!
heathercb04- I think men should have to deal with TOM! Instead of women!
FRIDAY- 211. 0
Saturday- 209.4 AGAIN
I'm happy that I lost weight, but I can seem to stop see-sawing between 211 and 209.4. I hope that today and tomorrow will allow Monday's weigh in to be in the 208's.
Something snapped inside of my head yesterday that made me want to eat to live instead of live to eat. Its very strange, and I don't know what caused it. But I'm hoping it will stick around for a while!
Well, I have a bit to get done today, so I'm off!!
heathercb04- I think men should have to deal with TOM! Instead of women!
FRIDAY- 211. 0
Saturday- 209.4 AGAIN
I'm happy that I lost weight, but I can seem to stop see-sawing between 211 and 209.4. I hope that today and tomorrow will allow Monday's weigh in to be in the 208's.
Something snapped inside of my head yesterday that made me want to eat to live instead of live to eat. Its very strange, and I don't know what caused it. But I'm hoping it will stick around for a while!
Well, I have a bit to get done today, so I'm off!!
mishi
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Glad to see you are doing well!! Your ticker has gone down while I have been away and I am glad to see it! I know you are watching it daily and changes seem slow in coming but you are changing and that is awsome!! Sorry about TOM!! He sucks!!! lol Hope you have a great weekend and know that even though I don't always post I do read!! Keep up the good work!
bmohearn
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Thank you so much for stopping by! Yes, it is slow, but its working its way up.
bmohearn
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Food so far today:
100 calories worth of nachos
Tuna sandwich. 180 cals bread; 45 cals tuna, 68 calories of mayo, 5 calories of pickles. 160 cals of chips. (458 for the meal)
That means 558 total for the day. 2 water bottles so far as well. (out of the 4 I need to drink in a day)
100 calories worth of nachos
Tuna sandwich. 180 cals bread; 45 cals tuna, 68 calories of mayo, 5 calories of pickles. 160 cals of chips. (458 for the meal)
That means 558 total for the day. 2 water bottles so far as well. (out of the 4 I need to drink in a day)
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My food wasn't so perfect. But it wasn't horrible either.
I posted my lunch... but for dinner I had 2 MINI slices of pizza, 1/2 a Caesar salad.
Then the oopsies...that I had PLENTY of room for.
1 pretzel, and 1/2 an ice cream cone. I ended up being about 1300 calories for the day even with the slight oops.
I posted my lunch... but for dinner I had 2 MINI slices of pizza, 1/2 a Caesar salad.
Then the oopsies...that I had PLENTY of room for.
1 pretzel, and 1/2 an ice cream cone. I ended up being about 1300 calories for the day even with the slight oops.
mishi
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bmohearn
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lol or don't you mean down
1300.... decent for the day
I agree. I try to stay at or below 1300. ....and yes, I did mean down.