Brandy's Success Diary

I weighed myself yesterday and was at 215. But when I weighed myself this morning I was down to 210.5. :) YAY for me. I am still losing weight!! I am slowly getting things done that I need to today. Next on my list is getting dressed and doing the dishes. Hmmmppphhhhh... one thing at a time today.
 
Hi there! :seeya:

Just wanted to come by and take a peek at your diary and say hello. And to say THANKS for the summer solstice challenge. :) I really like this challenge, and I'm proud to say that I will be in it for the long haul!

Was reading about your frustration that you are in the battle alone against weight loss and I completely hear you. I'm from a line of women where starvation was the answer against that nasty fat, and no one can comprehend how a 200+ lb woman could POSSIBLY feel good about herself. (God forbid!!!) So I can hear you on the lack of support! I also live with a fiance who sustains himself on 1-2 meals a day and video games. I totally identify with feeling alone!! And it sucks - but even though I have never met anyone from the forum in person, I have to say that knowing they have my back and will keep me accountable REALLY helps. Ultimately, you are alone in your battle, but at least you have nonjudging supportive people here at the WLF!!!

Anyway just wanted to say hi and wish you a happy Saturday! :)
 
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Hi there! :seeya:

Just wanted to come by and take a peek at your diary and say hello. And to say THANKS for the summer solstice challenge. :) I really like this challenge, and I'm proud to say that I will be in it for the long haul!

Was reading about your frustration that you are in the battle alone against weight loss and I completely hear you. I'm from a line of women where starvation was the answer against that nasty fat, and no one can comprehend how a 200+ lb woman could POSSIBLY feel good about herself. (God forbid!!!) So I can hear you on the lack of support! I also live with a fiance who sustains himself on 1-2 meals a day and video games. I totally identify with feeling alone!! And it sucks - but even though I have never met anyone from the forum in person, I have to say that knowing they have my back and will keep me accountable REALLY helps. Ultimately, you are alone in your battle, but at least you have nonjudging supportive people here at the WLF!!!

Anyway just wanted to say hi and wish you a happy Saturday! :)
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Thank you so much for stopping by. I appreciate the support. I'm happy you like the challenge!
 
I need advice guys and gals. The rule for my challenge is you MUST post before Friday EST midnight. Anything after that, I have to count as not checking in. And the person who doesn't check in OR the person with the lowest over-all weight loss percentage is the one eliminated. On one of my teams 4 people didn't check in. Unfortunately I had to pick one to be eliminated because only 1 person can be eliminated every week. The person I chose to be eliminated posted stating he could not post until Today (saturday). So I gave everyone until 3:00 pm on Saturday (today) to post. Then I had to do as I was planning. The person I chose to be eliminated is angry. Did I make the right decision? After all... I couldn't post pone the total counting of everything even further. I am supposed to post Saturday before noon.

I feel bad. I truly do. But rules are rules, right?
 
Today has already started out horribly. And its only 1pm!! My list for the rest of the day:

Ab chair
step aerobics
Yoga
Pilates
weight lifting

Then there is also some cleaning and some homework.

I just ate Funyuns. I had so many that I feel nauseated. So disappointed in myself. But I will make up for it. NO MORE of that crap today!!!!
 
Hey there!

Just wanted to back you up on your decision for the challenge. You clearly stated the rules when we all started. If the person knew they weren't going to be able to post on Friday, they should post on Thursday. I dunno, that's the way I think of it. Yeah, there's not that extra day, but at least you're on time.

Sorry to hear about your icky day, but we all have them :) Just remind yourself that tomorrow is another day and you are making a lifetime change!
 
Hi Brandy!
I'm sorry for not checking on you lately, but work has been hectic and I hardly came online at all.

I think you took the right decision with the challenge. Unfortunately on this forum (and on the internet in general) there are many rude people who think they can offend and hurt people freely because you can not see them in their face. I bet that if you could meet him/her in person he/she wouldn't be so bold. Don't get too upset about these things, some people are just rude and you can't do anything about it. Smile and go on with the challenge.Let him/her have chocolate cravings to sooth the anger. :p

Hugs!

India
 
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Thank you for backing me up on the challenge everyone!

My weekend was just plain horrible. And yesterday matched it! I have been outside quite a bit lately. I've been playing frisbee with Dan and friends a lot.

Today's food has been bad. But I just got back from a 30 minute bike ride. I'm hoping to get into that. I could tell Dan was getting frustrated with me because I was so slow, and I had to stop quite a few times. But he apologized and said he got over it. I will have to do it more often so I can get into shape. I'm still proud of myself for going at all! I need to take a brake from signing up for challenges because I just can't do that right now. I thought I was a lot stronger with my plan that I actually am. I need to take things one bit at a time, and one activity at a time. Things are getting hard on me. My boyfriend thinks I'm happier when I eat. But in actuality it makes me feel worse. Every time he offers me food, and I deny it...it almost turns into an argument.. and I always end up giving in. I've already talked to him about it, and it only lasts a short time... so I need to find another way around it.

I am going to my mother's house today. I need to take my shower first. I might bring my frisbee and play with my brother when he gets home today.

I'm sick of being out of shape. I want to be able to run!!! I want to start the couch to 5K running plan (I have the podcast on my iphone) But I'm just not in that kind of shape yet. And thats such a disgusting feeling. It truly is. I wish I could bring my bike to my mother's house, but my car isn't big enough for it. And I don't have a bike rack on my car. But seriously... I need to start doing that more. I don't think I can reach my goal by my anniversary because of all these bad days. I can make it if I don't have even 1 bad day in 7 weeks, and I bike ride every day. That is the only way. ONLY way. Because the weight I'm carrying right now is "you're not exercising enough" weight, and "You didn't need to eat that, did you?" weight. I could be down to my goal, and I know I could. I just have trouble with eating right.

Well, I want to go over my mother's house soon, but I have a few things to do first. I need to change my bed sheets, take a shower, and vacuum my room. (I should be cleaning my hamster's cage too, but I might wait until tomorrow)

Lets see if I can change my life around for the better in the next 7 weeks and meet my goal!!

I hope to make my goal for the last week in July which is 175 lbs... and I will start running the week I am up in Maine on vacation. PLUS..I'll be kayaking, and swimming, and everything else. I need to make my goal. I've never made ANY of the goals I've ever set for myself...and therefore just keep failing, and I "drop out of the race". This can't happen this time!!
 
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Oh I feel you. I have that constant burning desire to run, but I'm so completely overweight, I can't go far. It doesn't help that I have certain songs that I listen to when I walk that get the energy going.

I did however start running in small bursts. Sometimes I'll walk to a light post, then run to the next, and keep doing that until I can't do that anymore.

But keep up the work! 175 sounds like a great goal :)
 
Hey, darlin'--just stick to your guns about the challenge. I get angry PMs from eliminated people sometimes, too. It's just par for the course. :)

If Danny wants you to be able to keep up with him on the bike, he needs to be more supportive of your fitness/weight loss efforts. Just remember that you are doing this for you and the babies you want to have in the future. Do not give in to Danny's temptations, and let him know that he is only making things harder for you when he does it. He is either with you or against you--let him know that. :grouphug:
 
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Hey, darlin'--just stick to your guns about the challenge. I get angry PMs from eliminated people sometimes, too. It's just par for the course. :)

If Danny wants you to be able to keep up with him on the bike, he needs to be more supportive of your fitness/weight loss efforts. Just remember that you are doing this for you and the babies you want to have in the future. Do not give in to Danny's temptations, and let him know that he is only making things harder for you when he does it. He is either with you or against you--let him know that. :grouphug:
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Thank you for giving me that advice. Dan understands now. I opened my mouth about it- and I wasn't quiet. lol. I was sick of being sabotaged every week for stupid reasons. He knows not to push things like that anymore. I go on bike rides as fast as I can, and take breaks when it hurts my knees to badly. I tell him not to go with me if he's going to be impatient. You're right. I am doing this for me. I don't care what he has to say about it. I want to get into this lifestyle so I am able to provide a good example for my children in the future. *insert firm face/nod here*
 
I have decided to take a (sort of) break from being finicky about my calories. When I over-do that, I just go overboard one day and end up gaining. And it always seems to be at the end of the week. So I've decided to eat healthier, but not forbid myself from anything. I will have a little bit of the bad foods every once in a while if I feel the need. But I need to learn not to go overboard on anything. I try to only have 1 or 0 meals a day that have a large amount of fat in them. (like cream cheese, or a grilled cheese sandwich) because when my fat content goes up- I always gain. But it has DEFINITELY worked for me. Last Friday I was back up to 215, and today I weighed in at 211.5 lbs. I am very happy. And I always make sure to get 30 minutes of exercise a day or more. Whether it be a bike ride (which I love doing still even though it always hurts my butt! STUPID SEATS!), a walk, playing frisbee, or yoga/pilates. Usually when I play frisbee for 30 minutes I through in a 15 minute walk or bike ride because frisbee isn't too strenuous...(sometimes anyways.) But things are going so awesome. I'm in so happy. I am trying to keep up with school, and its going pretty well. My room is almost COMPLETELY clean, and I washed my rug today. I'm happy happy happy!
 
Today is ok. It is 2 days before my period is due, so I have some weight gain and major mood swings. lol. It is 6pm, I am going to make myself a chicken patty for dinner because thats all I have in the house. And I won't have bread, because I don't have any. lol. Then I think I will explore my neighborhood on a bike. I need exercise. Hopefully I will be able to make it for about 30 to 45 minutes. I'll update after dinner to let you all know if I actually did it. Umm.... I'm having a great time relaxing today, and I hope to stay in this great mood because I'm sick of going through random mood swings. I usually don't get this bad when TOM comes!!!
 
So for dinner I had a salad with a bit of chili on top. Yumm. My bike ride didn't go as planned. I only made it 5 minutes of going up a hill, when my knees stopped working. So I am going to let my food settle for a bit, and then around 7:30 or 8:00 I am going to go for a walk/jog for a bit. Until then I am going to watch a movie, and relax. (No snacking!) I hate not being in good enough shape to ride a bike. It disgusts me! So I guess I have to train that much harder until I have strong enough leg muscles to have a decent amount of endurance. I'll get there. I just keep telling myself that. I'm a bit bummed out about it right now, but where TOM:reddevil: is coming... It makes me feel like a whale. Even with TOM around the corner, I have lost 1 lb from last week. It might have been 2 or 3 if he wasn't coming! Well....I'm going to watch the movie for a bit. Then I am DETERMINED to go on a nice walk for exercise!!!!!!
 
I am so proud of myself. I really wanted macaroni and cheese, and I even started to cook it. I put the water on to boil, and then I stopped! I put the water in the tea kettle instead, and I am about to sit down, watch the movie JUNO, have some tea, and draw.
 
Hey there! YAY YOU on not going with the macaroni!! And kick that boy of yours into shape - he's gotta be supportive and understand what you're going through. But lots of times the menfolk don't understand, so I'm glad you had a chat with him. :) Hope you have a great weekend!
 
Yay Brandy for resisting temptation!! It is so hard. I put a piece of cake back on the shelf in the store last week and then broke into tears! It is hard to resist sometimes so good job!! Sorry I haven't been around as much. I settle in to post and then something happens and I have to get up and go! But I have been keeping up with your diary:) Glad you were able to talk to Dan and of course food makes you feel good... that's what it does! It's the weight that doesn't!! I am so there with you! My hubby and I are still trying to work the kinks out of losing weight together. It is tough when you are in a relationship and we are both total enablers for eachother *sigh* :)
I am glad to see not only your weight going down but that you are committing to exercise! I am sorry about your knees! Take care of them and start slow with the jogging but you will be surprised at how fast you build your endurance. I used to do the lamp post jogging thing and now I can jog 2 miles:) You will get there and running is such a nice feeling... just be careful on those knees and get a good bra lol. Nothing pretty about smacking yourself in the face!! lmao - I have so done that btw;) Hope your having a good weekend and if you have some spare money there are bike seats that are more cushy! I had to get one because my butt was falling asleep!
Ok I have written a novel here. Just wanted to say hi:) Have a good weekend!
 
I plan on making today a fabulous day. Right now I need to do some work on my challenge. Then I will put away all my clothes (thats right... my laundry is finally DONE... I just need to put it all away now). After that I will wash a few dishes, and take my shower. Then I will walk around the yard and look for the pedometer that I lost.(a few hours after I actually found it from the last time I lost it), and head out on a walk for as long as I can go. It WILLLLLL be a good day. I just really hope I can find that damn pedometer!!!
 
I am just so motivated today!! I am about to head in the shower to get clean, and then go out on a walk. And I'm not going to go in circles today either! I am going to just walk in a giant loop (not sure of the distance), but I will make sure to time it!!!
 
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