BirdieGene's Diary

BirdieGene

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When you're fat, another pound or two doesn't seem like fussing over. So another couple are added this month, that month and, hey, who cares? This is the mentality that's enabled me to gain from my low of 260 up to my current weight of over three hundred pounds. Three hundred pounds, could you imagine it? It's more than a number, it's a way of life. My entire day is altered from the time it takes me two pumps to get out of bed in the morning. I'm embarassed. All the time.
This is ridiculous. I'm youngish, smartish, and I can't help but think if I was of a normal weight I could live a normal happier life. It's easy to dismiss weight as an after effect of living, and those that love me insist it's not a big deal, but it is a big deal and at the center of my life.
This isn't the first time I've tried to loose weight. I have succeeded, once, five years ago I dropped from 330 to 270 in about 9 months. I felt awesome, I want to feel awesome again.
 
still working on it

well, haven't given up yet :)
Thanks for the support warpgm, I can't reply to private messages until I have 5 posts.
Treadmill is starting to feel like less of a chore and the color in my cheeks is brightening up. Lost a couple of pounds, yesterday was a fabulous day in terms of diet. Nothing but delicious whole foods all day :)
Breakfast:
Oatmeal and raspberries with skim milk. Coffee with skim milk.
Lunch:
Skipped it. I know, not the healthiest choice, but the previous day I had kalbasa with pasta and cream sauce for dinner. Didn't kill me to skip a meal, and I ate breakfast late anyway.
Snack: Grapes and an apple. I hear people say bad things about fruit, but it sure feels healthy to me.
Dinner:
Chicken leg, Chicken wing, Green beans. Yummy!
 
birdie keep trying... and i know about what its like to just say whatever to a gain of a pound or two... and now it has really added up D: but at least we are coming to our senses and creating/remaking ourselves into confident people.
 
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