My guinea pig died: Sniffles snifels wifels wiffles... this morning... ugh ...
My little baby died this morning at 10:58am ... He was crying all night and this morning. I just hid myself under the covers this morning waiting for his last breath. Totally in shock that a guinea pig only one year and four months could die so young. Death sucks! But I love him and I have kept some of his toys and his igloo... I am going to wash the igloo and I also kept his salt wheel...because we always talked to each other through the salt wheel. He loved it, I would make the same sound as him licking the salt wheel and he would lick it and what not. He was a calico little guinea and he was so cute. I bought him when he was two months old, or rather my mom did for me. Mendalin died that morning a year and two months ago and mom came home with Sniffles that night. The cage was prepared for Sniffles, but I was crying over my Mendy. When Sniffles came we instantly connected. and he Sniffled once and I knew his name was to be Sniffles, but I knew it before he came! Which was rather funny that he gave a sniffle out and was named Sniffles before he walked through the door.
Dookie is doing well ...
the long name is the tag ..is Sniffles nic
Sniffles Snifels wifels wiffles. Its was fun. He loved it. It was a combination of what Alex wanted to call him, which was Snifles and what I named him... Sniffles ...so I used it to branch the two together, so he would recognize his names. And it worked. He would jump up and down. I saw it coming in hindsight, but we think it might not have been cancer... it might have been an infection from cutting his teeth with the vet. He was held tight by me ...tried not to ...but the teeth are hard to do, because you don't want them to get nicked in the tongue, because than they bleed to death ...but looks like it was too late the minute I walked into that door at the vets. Or it could have been cancer unbeknowenst. But next time, I am paying real close attention when bringing Dookie home from the vet. He is going in for the first time with a teeth cutting. He hopefully, won't be as upset as Sniffles used to get over going to the vet. I hated bringing him, but when it was time, it was time. He couldn't eat with long teeth. After he got his teeth cut things seemed to get better, than a few days later my mom said he felt heavy ...swollen... but I thought she meant something else... it didn't click... next time I am going to pay attention to what my mother notices. The last thing I noticed before he died, other than the cries, was his body became really heavy and his stomach was just ... almost none existant ...don't know what happened, but twas not good ... now I know what to look for ...and I shall ...
but at first he wouldn't let me pet him, than he started to let me pet him.
I put him on the bed last night and pet him ...he did something he never does, he came close to me, beside me and than after petting him a little, he cried. So than I put him back in his igloo... he was so fragile ...
later when I was under the blanket listening to him breathe I heard him cry and he slowly stopped breathing...too slow for me .. I was praying all night for God to just take him and put him to sleep and not let him go through the pain. But he ended up going through the pain. So the last thing I knew, he stopped breathing and I got up after one minutes and looked into the cage ... he had walked across the cage trying to come to me.. I felt horrible ...so I lifted him up and gave him a kiss right on the nose to say goodbye ...but he gasped for air ...so I put him down and he died ... so I picked him up and watched him and realized it and cried ...and as I cried I put him to rest ...
it was an awful morning ...but I went to my therapy appt .... seven minutes after he died ... She called right after he died and she was very upset ...because I told her I had to take care of him before I came ... I didn't just want to leave him there, my poor baby. But to make sure he was ok.. I tied the bag ... so he could def be in God's hands ....and I put him in the box and put the cover on the box and left it for mom. I couldnt do it ... he was too precious ...
Thats my morning ...and I talked to my therapist and found out gastro-intestinal cancer is very common with little animals ... but my mom doesnt feed or didn't feed him much ... so I am thinking when I came home ..he wasdamn hungry ...so I fed him and thats when he cried ... and his stomach felt like nothing was there... it exploded ...
so I was thinking that he ate too much in that moment and just boom ..his stomach ruptured ..I guess this is one lesson ...that can happen to a human ... you can rupture your stomach by expanding it too much, tis true ... the same thing can happen to a human ...
so I am thinking ..she fed him two leaves of lettuce and half a carrot ... I usually fed him five leaves of lettuce and half a carrot ... I was slowly bringing him down to the right normal eating level ...but I went away for four days and I came home to a guinea pig that was very upset and I think very hungry ... lordy .. I don't want to even go away on the weekends now ..because I know my animals ...mom doesnt ... uhh ...well its over now ...
but I have Dookie ..Dookie is actually five weeks old .. Ive had him for three weeks ...Sniffles was very upset and jealous when I brought him home, but I made sure to pay all my attention to Sniffles ...
but Dookie loves looking out the window with me ...we just sit there ..relax ..catch the moonlight and just head to head ... just stare out at the sky ... which was nice after all day today ...the crying ...was non stop ... I even cried in the clothing store ..and it wasnt from gaining weight ..even though I have ... it was from my baby ...gone ..but still here... with me ... he put up a fight ... just for me ... but he couldn't keep death from coming ...
But Dookie ... is coming on his first Vet visit ... Please cross your fingers that his teeth go right ... they are overlapping ...there is a clinic.... in portsmouth ..which is thirty minutes away that deals more with small animals ... think I am going to look into that ....
we went to the Vets todays and he was shocked...cause he saw Sniffles three weeks ago ... so he was ... dumbfounded ... I felt bad .... but I didn't know what to say ...so I shouted .. "Sniffles died, this morning!" and he took a step back and turned and looked stunned and shocked ... He didn't see it coming ... he said he was just a little chunky when I asked about his weight ... it might have been the cancer ... he weighed 3.5 pounds ... three pounds is normal for a little guinea of full size ... and he was beautiful ... my little piggy ...lol he loved to eat.... just like me ...lmao ... Maybe I fed him too much ... too much love ... because I remember when Mendalin died ...he didn't get enough to eat and his appetite went down and when he finally got his teeth cut ..when I realized that was the problem ..he couldnt or had no interest or strength to eat and he died ... fast ...
but thats why I am so obsessed with my animals health ..they get visits every six months ..or so ... Whisper died ... Ophelia died from Kidney cancer ... tragic ... it also seems to happen when I am at my worst ...and nothing seems to be going right ... suddenly something happens and they die ..and I cry ...and the world just stops ... and I am dull ... with so much crying ...
but Dookie is taking up some of that time .. I was lucky I got him ..because there would be no way I would have made it through today ... Knowing I had Dookie to snuggle with ...while lamenting over Sniffles was a good ..and is good ... Because I need snuggle with the little guys ...
but now I know what to watch out for ...
but anyway
ttylater folks ...
I don't know how much I have gained, but I know its from stress eating ..still haven't taken the final .... I am going to prepare for it this week .. all week ... I have one thing to do and than I dedicate all my time to micro ...
than micro will be over and I can breathe and take care of this terms classes ..but I found out I can intern as a librarian at the Universities library next year ..two days a week ..the days I go ...taking four classes per semester ... finishing school in two years ... it will be fourteen thousand more dollars to do days ...but I want it now, not later ... I have things I want to do with this degree ... I want to move in with Alex ...be independent ... be and entry level librarian ... move up and on ... I need to get my head screwed on straight and get to work ...because work is what it will take to get this BA and the Masters to boot ..lots of work ... I plan to still excersize ...but my studies need to get attention too .. I need to learn how to allott my time ...
but anyway... must run ...have to read and write three page paper on one of the stories I read ...
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
I will look at my weight next Tuesday ...after I have excersized this week and have finished studying for the test ...
love yas
natalie jo ..always
pI shall get a pic of Dookie to put up and I will put a pic of Sniffles up later ..work work ..must get to work ...
Dookie is gray and white lmao ...he is albino ... lol should be interesting pics ...lol but I have the most beautiful pics of Sniffles ... wowser ..and my cats ...I just take so many pics of them ...because I want to have something from them or of them ...just in case and morning like this happens ...
well guys ..better jett ...
love yas
always
natalie jo
Five to six miles is a long long way. Lets be honest - most skinny people would think twice about it and wonder if they were up to it. When you are a bigger person - it is a really BIG achievement. 
Thinking of you,
