"Big Girls (You are Beautiful" <-- Mika's song: Nataliejo's Diary.

[nataliejo]

Hi Natalie Jo,

I hope that your arthritis is causing you less problems now. I had a yoga class today and the teacher said that she had pretty much sorted out her own arthritis with some well-chosen exercises. It may be worth you speaking to a yoga teacher about your arthritis and seeing if they can recommend any exercises to strengthen that part of your body.

I hope that your test goes well. If you can eat fruit while studying instead of high calorie stuff you save the work of trying to lose some extra weight (but you knew that!!!). The really important thing is that if the weight goes up you dont get depressed and put on more weight - abandoning the project. I have done that more times than I care to think about. New weight often comes off quite quickly if you refocus.

I think that it is an excellent idea getting scales for your boyfriend's place. I know that I need to weigh myself every day to keep focused. I was away last weekend and I took our scales with me. I know that you cannot take your scales with you - but clearly you have been with your boyfriend for a long time - so you know that you are going to be spending a lot of time with him now and in the future. I think that it will be central to keeping focused.

Also when I was away last weekend I continued to wear my pedometer all the time (apart from one evening when I wore a dress with no belt). I did less steps than I would have done had I been at home - but a lot more than I would have done if I had not worn a pedometer.

I always have some wine gums and glacier fruits in the house. These are reasonably low calorie fruit flavoured sweets which you suck so it takes quite a while to eat them. It sounds like you have a similar strategy at home - extend it to your boyfriend's house.

It can be difficult spending time with skinny people. They eat what they like and act as our temptors. Try to ignore what they eat. Eat the food that you know will make your dreams come true. You never know, their bodies may suddenly change and their weight may come up as yours goes down.

Take care and stay focused. You know what you want and you know that you can make it happen. We all can with each other's support.

Love
Margaret

Margaret,
Your not going to believe this! I got my monthly!
I will update you on my journal entry. BUT I have actually been thinking of some things you said about PCOS.. maybe its because I have lost weight... highly unlikely ..hmm

well ttylater hun
love yas
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

Hey, NJ!

I've not been around much lately because, like you, I've been really busy.

I hope you do well on the test.

And ditto to what Jess said. I like to snack too, but I can't. I won't allow myself. However, I eat a fair amount of food. How am I able to eat so much food and as often as I do? I eat primarily whole foods, most of which are very low in calorie. The two things that I eat that are calorie dense are almond butter and tofu. Anyway, my point is, if you eat low calorie foods that are whole or unprocessed, you get to eat more!!!! Now, I'm not suggesting you (or anyone!) go out and buy a bunch of celery. The reduced fat Triscuits are a good idea!

I'm glad your weigh in went well. You need to change your ticker though!


-Tamara

Hey Tamara!
I will have to come check your diary for an update! Haven't seen you in a while. I bought a ton of fruit today and snacks that are low sugar and low calorie and I am doing good today ... thanks hun

ttylater
love yas
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

While it would be easy to say "don't snack" -- there will be weak moments. So definitely, pack up a little box of snack foods that you like and take them over to his house and keep them there, stashed in a closet if you have to so the roomies won't eat them. That way, when/if the urge strikes you won't eat the unhealthy snacks, but grab something you CAN eat without so much guilt. We will all have our moments when we fall off the wagon, and yes, you may put a lb or two back on. It doesn't change anything, it's just a blip and it's best to just forget about it and move on. Tomorrow IS another day.

(and I can't BELIEVE I've just quoted "Gone with the Wind." Smack me with a dead mackerel).

"What were you talking about???" jk Yes it is in the past Lagniappe! **big hugs**
I appreciate your words. I feel so guilty after binging on so much. But today I spent good money on stuff... that I won't gain weight on ...as fast as I would on raw junk ...lol

I bought so much goodies ..watermellon .. apples (honey crisp)... etc...
I feel good ..

love yas
always
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

I Got It , I Got It!

Your not going to believe this peeps,
BUT ...
I GOT MY MONTHLY!!
I had to call the gyn, she was shocked! So am I! I am sitting here trying to figure out how or what happened, to cause me to get it...and its really ... flowing ...

I don't know what to say. I am so excited! That could have been all those cravings. I still have them. I get them everytime I take the pill that causes me to have a monthly every two months. BUT I got it with out the pill this time. No pill required, just being a woman of late lol

ITs astonishing how it can disappear for seven to ten years and reappear one day ..lol at first I didn't believe it .. I just pulled up the shorts and I looked into the loo and saw a tint and thoughts .."Well thats wierd. I never ..my kidneys or liver must be in rough shape! I must go drink more water!"

I went back upstairs later after sweating my butt off at the therapists appt. Came home and pulled down the shorts and low and behold ... "Holy Meow!" and I yelled down to my mom, who was surprised, but in her own world. I quickly jumped into the shower and cleaned everything up and ran downstairs and called my gyn. I was supposed to see him the next day, wed. But I called and she said "yes?"
and I said .."I have my period!" and she was like ... "You did?????"
"How???" and I said "not by a pill, on my own!" and she said "You serious???"
and I said "Yup!" and so we rescheduled. She said I could come in, but today is seriously been over due. I get my physical at the end of the month...and we will see if I get it next month. Hopefully I will. lol

Usually my testosterone level is so high. And they did a ultrasound seven months ago and I was chaulk full of abnormal cells and what not...
but they weren't cancerous. But this is mind blowing ... I feel like an actual woman .. I know it won't last long .. I am sure this is a once in a life time thing and next time I will most likely have to take northidrone to commence the final days of my youth in one pretty package of ten pills every two months ... but it seems as if thirty isn't going to stop the flow yet ..

looks like I am still in menopause, but the flow is going once again ..and

we are coming up with ideas...

1) the northidrone moved the hormones out of life a little ..into line and than whack I just got it when I was supposed to... which would be now, except one things, I didn't take the pill this month like I was supposed to ..

so maybe now its on a bimonthly basis of natural fine tuning by the pill ...but I will probably have to take the pill ..

2) My labido is in an uproar. My bf doesnt know what to do ...
he is finally figuring out how to use things and what not ... and he really came onto me the past three weekends and this past weekend was just
explosive! So between going over my body and what I should do to beautify it for him and him ...just blowing my mind ...

maybe that somehow got the hormones cookings ... estrogen is flowing this week ..its been I think for the past two weeks ..this is crazy ...

3) Loss of weight, more movement... Went on a tuff bike ride Saturday into Porter Sq. In Somerville MA ... I think I may have jolted a few things around in the old system ..maybe some nuts and bolts put back in place for the moment ..

to arise to this occassion and monthly

Don't know ..or losing two or three pounds more (Which I highly doubt) made me go intro retro PCOS... dont know

but anyway ..those are the theories flying around
and buzzing in my head ..but I am continuing all said things and hopefully will get a natural monthly next month. Now that would be lovely ..but hopefully it won't get in the way of the Colposcopy! AND NO that was not colonoscopy ..
I wrote Colposcopy: when they go in like a pap and take a biopsy lol
that will be done next month ... after my pap on The thirty first ... than every three months I see him ..etc etc etc.. until it turns cancerous ..than they will remove the rascallions ..and I will have my sanity back ... lol

well I also went shopping today

bought
bagel chips (multigrain)
Watermellon
Apples (honey crisp) four
Unsweetened tea, after sweetened with aspartame.
Chai Coconut tea
Flax Seed Oil Pitas (60 calories per pita)
Salad (ate for a snack)

my mom bought
turkey meat
swiss cheese
etc to go with my pitas
I bought more but I can't remember lmao

well ttylater lovies
love yas always

btw ..took a thirty minute bike ride through some hills and such!
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

I feel like I am 16!

I feel like I am sixteen ..where I would get my flow every three months and they were VERY painful and I WAS A TOTAL bit**

but I am not being a bi***

but I am in a lot of pain in my lower abdomen ..forgot all about this part of the flow ...with the northidrone it doesnt hurt ..but it really doesn't make me flow ..

I am really flowing this week .. I hope this might last a little past a week ..maybe nine days ..because than I will have a lot of flow and clotting come out and maybe the abnormal cells will turn over and go away ...

I am not used to a flow like this ..its painful ..
well going to bed ..will report tomorrow

love yas all

always
natalie jo

Goal for tomorrow: An hour to two hour bike ride or cycle. Know the way I am going, hard cycle, but well worth the while. Will be painful like todays ride, but will take a full bottle of water. Somehow the cold water keeps my head up and forget some of the pain ..

love yas
always
btw.. my ticker.. I decided to put my starting weight in..so I remember what I am working on and how hard I worked to get this far ..its kind of set me up where I feel motivated enough to go for an hour to two hour bike ride or cycle tomorrow ... love yas guys ..always all of you are my inspiration ..
natalie jo

 

[Omega]

Hi Natalie Jo

Congratulations getting your period. It sounds like your doctor was stunned. Maybe you are a medical marvel!

Although you are in pain - I bet you feel VERY feminine. Just think about how many female hormones we have compared to the average girl.

They always say that the best thing that you can do to help PCOS is lose weight - having said that they always follow it up by saying that we put on weight easier than everyone else and find it more difficult to lose than anyone else. I always used to translate that into - so there is nothing that you can do about it. Now we know different - and look - it seems like your hormones have noticed that you have lost weight.

Talking of PCOS - you know how our hormones play tricks on us and our emotions. I have always said that I live my life on a knife-edge - a roller coaster where things are ok or I plummet to the depths. My husband was just commenting the other day on how I have been much more even and tranquil since I started losing weight.

This losing weight thing is clearly what we need to keep on doing.

Take care (extra big hug for the girl with the pain in her tummy)
Love
Margaret

 

[nataliejo]

Hi Natalie Jo

Congratulations getting your period. It sounds like your doctor was stunned. Maybe you are a medical marvel!

Although you are in pain - I bet you feel VERY feminine. Just think about how many female hormones we have compared to the average girl.

They always say that the best thing that you can do to help PCOS is lose weight - having said that they always follow it up by saying that we put on weight easier than everyone else and find it more difficult to lose than anyone else. I always used to translate that into - so there is nothing that you can do about it. Now we know different - and look - it seems like your hormones have noticed that you have lost weight.

Talking of PCOS - you know how our hormones play tricks on us and our emotions. I have always said that I live my life on a knife-edge - a roller coaster where things are ok or I plummet to the depths. My husband was just commenting the other day on how I have been much more even and tranquil since I started losing weight.

This losing weight thing is clearly what we need to keep on doing.

Take care (extra big hug for the girl with the pain in her tummy)
Love
Margaret

Yea I know..l should continue losing weight and this is a good reason. I seriously think it is now because I am losing weight , so now I want to lose weight more than ever!
Thanks Margaret!

My sister only had hers every five months. Since losing twenty five pounds she is getting hers every month now ..wierdness what twenty five pounds can do ..coollness .. hopefully I will get it next month. I know I still have pcos ..but maybe I can stop from getting cancer by losing weight ..they said eventually I would get dysplasia... I probably still will ... but they will remove the precancerous cells when that comes ...

but ... I am happy ..and do feel feminine .. I feel like I have a chance to reverse some of it ..so I am not in menopause and can actually stop some of this by losing weight ... my pants are falling down and this guy at starbucks likes me a lot ..but I have Alex, but it is nice to window shop!!

I think he has noticed the weight loss ..this guy! He is liking what he sees ...his eyes brighten and his mouth twitches when I walk in and talk with him and approach him .. I dont know ..starbucks is now my favorite place to go to ..even though its for tea...

I ate really well today ... awesome! AND I ended up getting all my chapters read ... just about ..this is coollness ..
and my mood swings are bipolar ...
its just the way it flies with me ..plus the borderline .. I try to control it... I am taking meds ... its going well ..

ttylater
love yas
natalie jo

 

[Omega]

Hi Natalie Jo

Well done for eating really well and managing to keep on top of your reading. A lot of people let down their guard when they have their period.

I was just saying to my mother at the week-end - most women think that they are on a diet when all they do is cut out their chocolate biscuits. We need to do so much more it is silly to try and lose this weight. And we know that we put on weight if we eat what they all eat to stay the same.

But - things like this demonstrate that it is all worth-while. We have so much to gain if we can only battle our way down to being of normal proportions.

I am not surprised that you love Alex but get pleasure from feeling attractive to other men. Everyone gets pleasure from feeling attractive.

As you know I love my husband more than words could ever say. As you also know I put on just about all my weight just around the time that we were married. That was when my PCOS was dated back to. Anyway my wedding ring is really tiny and also very pretty - patterned and inscribed. This meant that I never wanted to get it sized so I never wear a wedding ring.

Since I started walking four men have approached me when I was out walking and asked me if I was single and would go out with them. Naturally I have told them that I was very happily married - and would not dream of doing such a thing. The first time it happened I could not stop laughing. It was in the spring and I was a VERY big 47 year old lady then. Also I looked so far from my best it was silly. I was exhausted after walking and carrying three big heavy bags of groceries. The fact is that although I am definitely not looking for anyone else - part of me liked the fact that I got a little attention. It is just nice to think that someone might (just might) look at my husband with a slight air of envy and think that he has an attractive wife.

Keep feeling feminine and keep feeling focused. If we focus we know that we can do it.

Take care
Love
Margaret

 

[Jess393]

Hey Natalie! Congrats to ya altho, I am not gonna lie- its not something I would be sad to miss. OOohhhh well... lol.
Have a great day tomorrow, good job on focusing a little harder!

 

[nataliejo]

Hi Natalie Jo

Well done for eating really well and managing to keep on top of your reading. A lot of people let down their guard when they have their period.

I was just saying to my mother at the week-end - most women think that they are on a diet when all they do is cut out their chocolate biscuits. We need to do so much more it is silly to try and lose this weight. And we know that we put on weight if we eat what they all eat to stay the same.

But - things like this demonstrate that it is all worth-while. We have so much to gain if we can only battle our way down to being of normal proportions.

I am not surprised that you love Alex but get pleasure from feeling attractive to other men. Everyone gets pleasure from feeling attractive.

As you know I love my husband more than words could ever say. As you also know I put on just about all my weight just around the time that we were married. That was when my PCOS was dated back to. Anyway my wedding ring is really tiny and also very pretty - patterned and inscribed. This meant that I never wanted to get it sized so I never wear a wedding ring.

Since I started walking four men have approached me when I was out walking and asked me if I was single and would go out with them. Naturally I have told them that I was very happily married - and would not dream of doing such a thing. The first time it happened I could not stop laughing. It was in the spring and I was a VERY big 47 year old lady then. Also I looked so far from my best it was silly. I was exhausted after walking and carrying three big heavy bags of groceries. The fact is that although I am definitely not looking for anyone else - part of me liked the fact that I got a little attention. It is just nice to think that someone might (just might) look at my husband with a slight air of envy and think that he has an attractive wife.

Keep feeling feminine and keep feeling focused. If we focus we know that we can do it.

Take care
Love
Margaret

Hey Margaret,
I actually finished the reading. I just have to review the 1) terms
2) many graphs and concepts developed with the graphs 3) and other concepts have to do with numerous theories with microeconomics..

I did fit time in to do a 40 minute bike ride. It was hard for thirty minutes and than it was an easy push through the rest.

I hope you are doing well.. I checked out your diary and you are doing so awesome. I can't wait or will have to wait until I am below 200 pounds ... like I have 92 pounds to go until I am 200 ..difficult, hard road ahead and will take a couple years, but I am not going to give up! There are times I may dismay, but I will think often of all your words ...

everyone here is so wonderful!

ttylaterz hun
love yas
always
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

Hey Natalie! Congrats to ya altho, I am not gonna lie- its not something I would be sad to miss. OOohhhh well... lol.
Have a great day tomorrow, good job on focusing a little harder!

When you haven't gotten it through your twenties and feel like an old lady with menopause and gain lots of weight because of PCOS ...than you miss it... lol when you finally get it back naturally after seven to ten years you reach peak excitement lmao

ttylater Jess
love yas hun
thanks for stopping in
always
natalie jo

 

[nataliejo]

Hey all,
Well I did well with my eating today. I ate a fair amount of food, but better food and no soda.

Only Tea and water. Mostly hot tea with sweetnlow.
I did have cold tea mixed with water in my bottle when going on my 40 minute bike ride. I worked hard at certain points of the bike ride, but overall it was too easy. Not as hard as it used to be. I shirked my exercise duties. I figured it would be slightly more easy. So time to start my third route, which is much harder.

The last time and only time I did it, I fell over close to the top of the hill and almost broke my other toe lol That would have maken it two ...
I broke my left toe from a biking adventure. A fifteen minute bike riding adventure last year...
its gets to be painful, but I deal. Half the foot sometimes hurts after a one hour or two hour walk, but thats natural seeing as it is broken. And I am not getting it fixed. Its the little piggy toe, and I don't think it is really worth the money. Still owe money on the hand, which was put back together beautifully and luckily the surgeon took pitty on my crooked finger on my right from Carving the third pumpkin three years ago ..that he felt I would need a workable hand. I owe him one hundred fifty dollars.. its been a year since I have seen him .. I think I will start paying him off in January! Good idea!
He was an awesome surgeon ...

Anyway ... I haven't lost any weight. I actually gained two pounds and some oz right after the said period left out the back door ..this always happens .. I end up gaining weight after my period ..maybe its the fullfilling the cravings part ..choco was bad to get my hands into this past week ..didnt do too much ..but enough .. I hate cravings around that time off the month lol

but anyway ... So I did some exercise .. Lizzy, my sister has lost fifty pounds ..she is doing so awesome ..and is trully an inspiration for me ...
at first I was too envious and green with jealousy ..but she talked with me and told me I would lose weight and that we have different body types ...

she is really tall ...and has small ... well ..boobs..
I have huge ones and a shapely figure is coming back

I am hourglass ...she is thin stick ..or is supposed to be ..but will be in a year ... next summer she will be a knock out .. I will be looking pretty good too ... I am happy she is happy ..and I will be happy when I break the plateau from hell ..but I am sure I will run into more of them ..so hopefully I won't keep wrecking my diet over them ..because of discouragement ..

anyway ttylater peeps
love yas
always
natalie jo

 

[Omega]

Hi Natalie Jo

I put this in my diary for you.

Hi Natalie Jo

I am sorry that you are having problems with your back. I hope that it feels better soon.

Definitely get a pedometer - it is the best thing that I have got this year. Wear it all the time like I do. When you see how many steps you do it challenges you to do more and also makes you feel good. I certainly do not look like an athlete but no-one can take away the fact that I now have a stepcount of an athlete. Skinny folk have to admit that (despite appearances) I do more exercise than they have ever done.

As far as your sister is concerned - you cannot compare apples and oranges. Is she a PCOS lady like us? If not - then she would find it easier to lose weight. We have to be really focused or it just does not happen. But we can focus and we can make it happen.

As far as stones are concerned - it is the way that we always look at weight in England. It is how my generation learnt weight in the school - the youngsters use Kg now. Whenever most people talk about weight here - they think in stones and half stones. Everything fits into a nice 7 pound boundary. This means that if you are looking to lose weight you get a nice milestone where you see that you have achieved something every 7 pounds. And I cannot tell you how much lighter I felt when I got under 280 pounds and became a "teen girl" since the stones no longer started with "twenty". It was a major celebration and my husband and I talked about it a lot.

Take care
Love
Margaret

In addition - since seeing your diary I would add that it is a great achievement of your sister's to have lost 50 pounds and it is good that you find it inspiring. I can understand your initial jealousy though.

Just like after your birthday celebrations the little bit of weight that has gone on will come off straight away as long as you refocus and continue being good and doing the exercise. Everyone has cravings when they have a period.

Well done for being good with your food and doing exercise. Like you, we can all eat huge platefulls of food as long as it is sensible food that we are eating and still lose weight. I sometimes quip that I eat rocket-fuel now because the food that I eat is so much healthier than some of the things that I used to eat.

Regarding your comment of your journey ahead down to the 200 pound line - my best advice is to set yourself lots of milestones to see you down the road.

Milestones that I use are as follows:
1/ every half stone boundary - you are always no more than 7 pounds away from one of those
2/ every 10 pound boundary - you probably notice those already
3/ major change points in your BMI - these come on BMI multiples of 5 - I particularly enjoyed officially stopping being morbidly obese
4/ not predictable by weight - but I can tell that you are also looking out for change in clothes sizes.

With a solid sprinkling of milestones there always seems to be another one just ahead to aim for.

Take care
Love
Margaret

 

[Lagniappe]

Just checking in. Lots going on with you!!! Congrats on getting your TOM -- that's great and proof positive (I think, anyway) that your health is getting back on track because of the weight loss.

 

[nataliejo]

Hello peeps, Margaret, Jess, Lagnia...

Hello peeps,

Margaret thank you for the much needed advice. I have been faltering yet again. And hello lagnia...and Jess ...and everyone...

I have faltered as I said. I am at 293.4, but I know, but don't feel, I can still pull it around. Its going to take a lot of work to really break this plateau and keep at it. I have all this studying to do for my final and I have a five page paper to write on concepts and theories in microeconomics on this article I have chosen to do it on.

My room is a disaster, but I do look forward to doing more with my new huge ball ..its even fun just sitting on it...

my back is feeling a little better, my bf cracked it to be honest.. it still hurts ..but going to take some ibuprofen..
Tomorrow I am going for a walk and a bike ride... I want the bike ride to be about one hour long ...it might turn into an hour and a half ... and than walk for forty five minutes .. I think that will give me plenty of exercise ..plus use the ball a little in different exercise/ toning routines...

anyway .. I am so tired of being overweight, but aren't we all. But I think I have the most weight than all of you combined lol I feel so ...low ...so down ... after my period I weighed in at 293.4 ...
and I found out I can't fit in my old size 24s ... I can only fit in the new pair.. I think they made the fit bigger in the new jeans that are coming out ...

so I am actually in a size 24-26... its sucks ...to feel stuck back there.
The other pants I have, the size 24s from old do pull up and do pull in and are able to be buckled with out fear they will blow and all my tummy will come flowing out... but the tummy is bulging over the top of the pants and the shirts look strange with a bulge coming out of the stomach area ...so obviously I am close to the real size 24 in days before ..which would be the now size 22 ..because I tried on the new size 22 and it fits like the old size 24... see how fashion changes whats triggered as what size is what... they have made the sizes largers in each numerical size ..so I am actually a size 24-26 ..because I tried on my size 26 pants and actually fit in them ..

this is so discouraging and so ... messed up ... so I do shrink the new size 24 ..so I can wear them ... but there the only pair I have ...
I don't have any other jeans ... I only have one pair of jeans ...so I plan to go buy another pair on Wed ...because I can't very well wear out one pair of jeans ..and I have the gift card for it ..and mom has some coupons .. I am like a dreary cloud has come over my wonderful horizon and ruined everything ..ugh

what a depressing post ...well tomorrow is a new day and time to get it right ...so I have a full day ahead tomorrow .. I will make the best of it ..

love yas
always
natalie jo

 

[catiew21]

Sorry you're feeling a little bit down... But I really liked the end of your post - tomorrow is a new day. You can do it girlie!

 

[misty22]

Hey hun,

We all have those down days and days we think we can't pull through- but the truth is we can. If you have gotten this far what makes you think you can't go farther? You can. You, me and the rest of us here WILL lose the weight. Just keep pushing through, keep telling yourself you can, keep at it. Hard work never killed anyone. The thought of losing all the weight is daunting. Depressing, yes. But take it a day at a time.

I wish you the best of luck with the school work load, I know it can get very stressful. But there's nothing Natalie Jo can't handle, isn't that right?

 

[Omega]

Hi Natalie Jo

I have read what you have written. This is your hormones and your bad back talking. I promise you. I have told you about me having lived on a knife edge, on a roller coaster. You are going through one of the troughs that I have plummeted down on more than a few times. You know that your hormones are screwed - and on top of that you have just had a period. Can it be a surprise that your hormones are making themselves heard? Add to that a bad back giving you pain and we get what you have written.

Point one: All of us that are trying to lose more than a handful of pounds hit plateaus. These plateaus do break in time if we keep chipping away at them. The trick is not to give up.

Point two: You have studying to do and that involves a certain amount of bookwork. I understand that - I have a degree myself. Try and allocate some time for studying and have some low calorie treats to hand for when the muchies attack. Little bits of melon and grapes are quite good for that.

Point three: You have a paper to write. Much of the work in that is collecting your thoughts - brain-storming by yourself. I do my best thinking while out walking. See if you can get hold of a little tape recorder - if not carry a notepad and pen. Jot down ideas. At the end of the walk you have done your exercise and got some great ingredients for the paper.

Point four: Your room is a disaster. Let it be. Tidiness is of lower priority compared to other things for you. If you think that my house is tidy / organised - you are very wrong.

Point five: I am pleased that you have some exercise plans. That sounds like a really good idea.

Point six: You say our stones and pounds are a chipper way of looking at things. By the way 293.4 pounds is 20 stones 13.4 pounds. You are only 13.5 pounds away from being a "teen girl" - I loved becoming a "teen girl". I have lived my life where you are weightwise and know exactly how it feels. Anyway - I think that your clothes sizes are a chipper way of looking at things. At my largest my clothes where UK sizes and I was between size 30 and 32. This by the way is about the largest that the UK "outsize" shops go up to. I must admit that I was a bit concerned as to what I would wear if I got any bigger. The main shop for cuddly ladies here is called Evans. I am sure that if you see what Evans offer the larger lady by way of options that you will see the positives in the range that you are currently speaking of....

Uk Sizes - you need to scroll down


The wonderful range of possibilities for the English larger lady!!!!


Try not to be depressed. Understand what is happening with your body. Retain your health as a high priority and retain your focus regarding the project. Yes - it is a mountain that we are climbing - and there will be setbacks along the way - but with the focus and with each other we will all get there. These things do not happen in five minutes - but all the things really worth having do not come too easy.

Take care
Love
Margaret

 

[freaksgurl]

Hi Natalie Jo,
I have been out last week and boy did I miss alot! Congrats on getting your period! It's amazing to see what differences weight can make in our bodies.
Sorry you are having a bad day, I know how you feel I have been wallowing in the same pit myself. But we can do this one day at a time. So we had a few bad days, who hasnt? We are stronger than we used to be, we can and will do this. Ummm......I think you need a trip to starbucks LOL.

Keep up the good work you are doing great. Go use that shopping card and have a little retail therapy!

TTFN

 

[nataliejo]

Hi Natalie Jo

I have read what you have written. This is your hormones and your bad back talking. I promise you. I have told you about me having lived on a knife edge, on a roller coaster. You are going through one of the troughs that I have plummeted down on more than a few times. You know that your hormones are screwed - and on top of that you have just had a period. Can it be a surprise that your hormones are making themselves heard? Add to that a bad back giving you pain and we get what you have written.

Point one: All of us that are trying to lose more than a handful of pounds hit plateaus. These plateaus do break in time if we keep chipping away at them. The trick is not to give up.

Point two: You have studying to do and that involves a certain amount of bookwork. I understand that - I have a degree myself. Try and allocate some time for studying and have some low calorie treats to hand for when the muchies attack. Little bits of melon and grapes are quite good for that.

Point three: You have a paper to write. Much of the work in that is collecting your thoughts - brain-storming by yourself. I do my best thinking while out walking. See if you can get hold of a little tape recorder - if not carry a notepad and pen. Jot down ideas. At the end of the walk you have done your exercise and got some great ingredients for the paper.

Point four: Your room is a disaster. Let it be. Tidiness is of lower priority compared to other things for you. If you think that my house is tidy / organised - you are very wrong.

Point five: I am pleased that you have some exercise plans. That sounds like a really good idea.

Point six: You say our stones and pounds are a chipper way of looking at things. By the way 293.4 pounds is 20 stones 13.4 pounds. You are only 13.5 pounds away from being a "teen girl" - I loved becoming a "teen girl". I have lived my life where you are weightwise and know exactly how it feels. Anyway - I think that your clothes sizes are a chipper way of looking at things. At my largest my clothes where UK sizes and I was between size 30 and 32. This by the way is about the largest that the UK "outsize" shops go up to. I must admit that I was a bit concerned as to what I would wear if I got any bigger. The main shop for cuddly ladies here is called Evans. I am sure that if you see what Evans offer the larger lady by way of options that you will see the positives in the range that you are currently speaking of....

Uk Sizes - you need to scroll down


The wonderful range of possibilities for the English larger lady!!!!


Try not to be depressed. Understand what is happening with your body. Retain your health as a high priority and retain your focus regarding the project. Yes - it is a mountain that we are climbing - and there will be setbacks along the way - but with the focus and with each other we will all get there. These things do not happen in five minutes - but all the things really worth having do not come too easy.

Take care
Love
Margaret

Hey Margaret!
Well I tried going out to walk, even though I didn't want to. I am like, Warm blooded.. I swear...

I also had this winter shirt on ...and these thick jeans on that went past my ankles and it restricted my feet and the new shoes didn't fit as well as they did when I put them on first ...the tops are too high ... and the back is curved inward. I need shoes that are loose... hmm ...

So I have decided the elements are against me today ...yea the hormones are talking lol and the back won't quit ...but I am going to do dance aerobics today instead of walking ..play some good music in the livingroom and get grooving ..

ttylaterz
love yas
always
natalie
btw ..thanks for stopping in hun ...
I do appreciate it .. I wish even more people stopped in ..lmao ...

well ttylater hun

natalie jo