"Big Girls (You are Beautiful" <-- Mika's song: Nataliejo's Diary.

Hey Natalie,
That is really scary. You must be really strong to be working towards your goals. I've known a couple people who were diagnosed pre-diabetic and they never did a thing about it. :(
One of them was an old boss of mine and his philosophy on the matter was "I have to die some way, and if this is it, then thats okay." I thought it was the dumbest thing he had said in all the time of me knowing him. Great guy, but bad decision. He hates the shots he has to take.

Another friend of mine was diagnosed and it was a little shocking to everyone. He's totally fit, eats a lot of decent foods, but probably drinks too much beer and alcohol. He's only 25 and no one expected he'd be diagnosed with anything but being underweight.

Have you thought about joining a gym and getting a personal trainer? I know its really expensive, but if cost isn't a concern, it might be a great motivational tool. I know there are quite a few people on the forums who are having wonderful success now that they have a trainer to work with.

- Sunny
I am joining the gym in October ..that is when I will have the extra money ...
I def look forward to having that option ... I plan to go outside ..and bike at that time ..because it will be beautiful ..but I will also have the gym to work in ...good stufff ...

thanks for the suggestion Sunny ..or Healthy Habbit ..

always
natalie jo
 
Hi Natalie, just to say hi and to congratulate you on what you are doing. I haven't been diagnosed diabetis or high blood pressure yet /and honestly not even tested properly for both/ but I got a mum with high blood pressure from a very early age and my father was a diabetic as well so being already obese makes me feel scared too. I feel for everyone who have troubles with both because of my family history and my personal worries.
But let's be optimistic - even a small change in our weight will decrease the risks and make us feel better. :jump:

Thanks Wulsk ..def every pound counts...
hopefully I will start the descent into a thinner and healthier me ..
I made a very good move and bike rode for fifty to fiftyfive minutes ..it was a hard bike ride ..I was slow ..but I did it ..I hope my speed picks up ..
thanks for writing in my journal

always natalie jo :)
 
I had to stop taking metformin all together. It just made me way too sick. I am trying to just go natural now. Lose weight, exercise, not eat too much sugar, take chromium and gymnema.

I am not pre diabetic, I am just insulin resistant. But diabetes runs in my family, so I am trying to prevent it as best I can.

I wish I didnt have to take the metaformin ...but my bipolar gets out of control and I think it benefits me mentally .. I have less anxiety and what not ..and don't get depressed .. I think it helps with my sugars to the point where I don't feel horrible all the time .. I just want to take it for a little while ..and hope by next summer ..I wont be on it ..or just be on 500 mg instead of 1000mg..

ttylater hun
always natalie jo
 
Hello everyone!
So I didn't eat that hot today and I ate last night while I was supposed to be sleeping, which sucks for me. Got into that habit once again. I have been emotionally eating .. I know for a fact thats what it has been..

I can't seem to move on from Alex, but I am. I am falling out of love with him, but I like him as a friend, and still am in love with him. BUT I am working on it ... he plans to still come up in Sept and onward and doesn't plan on being on the market for a while. We are just going with the flow. But I know this is not the solution, but this is my way of weaning myself off of Alex ...
I know ..it sounds like an addiction ..its not ..I am just in love with him, but quickly falling out of love. I can't honestly say to him "I love you" and mean it anymore.

But I am getting exercise benefits out of being friends with him.
WE went swimming Saturday and I burned myself, not such a hot thing. I went for a fifteen mile bike ride Sunday (an easy one, anyone could do it. Flat ground virtually through the whole thing)...

BUT today I decided it was time to do something about this whole "fat"
things ..even if the word should not even exist..

BUT today I biked for 55 minutes on a very rough terrain .. I fell over in a ditch thats how hard I was trying to make it up one of the hills ..its the only hill I had to walk up ..the rest I had a hard time with, but I must prepare for the bike riding coming up. This weekend will probably be a beautiful bike ride in the country roads, but a hard one. With country roads, come steep hills and and I will need a high endurance level to make it up all or most of the hills ..
Only had to walk up one hill on Sunday, but otherwise a very satisfying ride ...but I am going to make the ride that I did today everday ..until I make it up that damn hill! lol and I will keep going on this route until I am speeding through all the terrain and than I will move to my next big ride... going from Berwick to N. Berwick on this small little back road ..almost like a swirvey highway ..should be good ... it will probably take me two to two and a half hours ..but I plan to do it ..once I get this route conquered ...

and I ate awfully today ..Shame on me!~
But tomorrow is another day ..another day to do it all right!:jump:

love you guys
you are all my inspiration

love always
natalie jo
 
But tomorrow is another day ..another day to do it all right!:jump:

Hey Natalie Jo,

This is an awesome attitude and the one you should keep. You can't change what has happened so why dwell upon just look towards tomorrow with a clean slate.

As for Alex... at least he's keeping you active and you're able to hang out without it being completely awkward. You do what feels right for you and what your comfortable with and what will help you with your future.

Keep up the great effort!!

Lots of Love
~Jenna
 
Thanks Jenna..
its one I should live by ...but sometimes I fall out of place ..and forget those sentiments ... Thanks :)

You have some really awesome quotes I noticed ..I really love the quotes ... they are very inspirational ...

always
natalie jo
 
Hey everyone,
So far it has been a hot day, but only going up into 85 ..so not that bad ..
I plan on going for a bike ride or walk or both ..
haven't quite made up my mind ...
the heat is kicking in ..and it is getting hot ...and the humidity is horrid .. I think bike riding would be the best ..because theres a lot of wind that goes into my face and body when going down hills ... so that would be a very cooling exercise ..and maybe later ..after five .. I will go for my walk ..thats what I did yesterday ...

Thanks everyone for writing me ...

ttylater folks

and I ate a small bowl of cereal last night with one cup of skim milk

and so far
I have eaten a bowl of cereal ..one cup of cereal with one cup of skim milk ...trying to stay away from dairy however ...
grapes don't sit well with me found out

ugh

but my mom is picking up strawberries and a yogurt that gives more fiber
plus some whole wheat cheerios ... for breakfast and what not ..maybe some blueberries. .never wrote it on her list ... but for the most part its all good

triscuits ... not having them with cheese although .. I need to take Calcium pills ..def and a regular vitamin ... would be a smart idea ...

well ttylater
always
natalie jo
I think I am going to go and have a pluot ..had two already this morning ..but they are soooooooooooooooo good ...
 
Hey NJ,

thanks a lot for dropping into my whacky diary. haha I swear, the girls there can be something else, especially that Jenna broad, right? hahaa! (Love you, Jenna..lol) So I see you're back on track and really, that's awesome. :)
Also I like the way you arrange your ticker by 10 lb goals. Actually, I'll probably start doing that. Thanks for the tip. It's so much easier to see me reaching 10 lbs goal and getting a new ticker as opposed to just clicking my ticker here and there and noticing those damn inches left til I hit my goal weight. hahaa I'll change it this coming weekend or so. Anyways, once again, good on you for getting back on track, doll. I'm wishing you all the best and believe me, I'll be dropping in more often. :D

-Sheryl
 
Hey Natalie,

I'm soo glad you like my quotes. I'm even happier that you are back and seeming mroe upbeat. You can do this... and you will. You have a great plan of action the head and humidity that has been plaguing us up here in New England does not make it easy to get out and do exercise... but your out there doing it.

Keep it up Natalie:hug2: :hug2:
 
Hey Natalie,

Just popped in to see how you were doing today. I don't miss the hot weather on the east coast too much. Its probably about 71 here today.

- Sunny
 
OK folks ..lemme break it down to you

I have been eating penutbutter and jam sandwhiches ..which increase the size of my waist ..the size 24s are not fitting as well as they were.. not even close ..which really bits ...sugar cookies have been my best friend ..I belong on the weight loss forum of shame ..lol

BUT I didnt touch the pbj at all last night ...but I did the sugar cookies ..but will be touching neither tonight .. I am going to do this ..will not break concentration ..

been emotionally eating ..not good ..
not anymore. .not going to let this happen

walking or bike riding today ..depends on what my friend wants to do

well ttylater
lovies
natalie jo
 
Hey, don't worry! It happens! Think logically - is it possible never ever to touch bad foods in our lives - of course not! You have treat yourself and you can continue now.
 
You sound sooo determined! You are going to do this... we will help you. You don't belong on any forum of shame! You recognize your weaknesses and have a great attitude... those two things can only bring you great things:hug2:
 
How did you do with avoiding the PBJs and Cookies?
Its so tough to say no to that stuff sometimes. I had my fair share of brownies last week. :eek:

:D

- Sunny
 
Hey everyone,

Well, Jenna I am def back and for good! I went to the eye exam and my eyes are having a hard time. With an allergy and being pre-diabetic, they are becoming much worse. The left eye is much weaker than the right eye. The right eye has changed by three points and the left eye has changed by two ... I can see 20/40 out of my old glasses, which I have on my face now. The eye doctor said it wasn't going to be perfect, because with these weathering condition to the eyes come constant change in sight and strength in the eyes, but that the new lenses should do just about right...

I have def had a change in eyes and its very scary for me that diabeties can do so much to your eyes. I will probably have to go for another check up and lenses in a year, try to hold off two years, but last year was when I bought these lenses and had my eyes done. They hadnt changed much at that time, but this visit today really shocked me a whole bunch and proved undoubtedly that I need to take care of myself on a diabetic diet or pretty close to it and exercise more than I have been and use the weights every night. Weights break insulin resistance and exercise uses sugar up ...

she said with this forum in place, which she said it was a good forum, it should hold me accountable for my actions ..which is awesome ...

so ..Ghetto thanks for dropping by, and yes, Jenna is spectacular, along with all the other friends I have made on this forum..

Sunny...thanks for stopping by... You really rock... with such a positive outlook... I had two pbjs last night, but the size of the bread fit in my palm and that doesnt include my fingers and I did not spread anything to thickly, but the fact is... no more pbj ...as of ...yesterday! lmao ..well really today ...
and I did eat four sugar cookies, but luckily not the whole bag! ..which I have been known to do. I am trying to cut them out slowly, but I think it is time I cut them out completely, because I woke up in a horrible mood, with a horrible feeling... sugar was caught in my eyes and my eyes were in horrible shape, at least she was able to see them at their worst and take an assessment ...

Anyway and Sunny, I am so happy you are able to study the way you can .. I could never keep my head above ground to study to my max level ...
but I start classes in Sept..and when all is said and done I will have this great degree and an awesome load of resume experience with my library volunteer work and what not ...


Misty ..thank you for writing ... no ..nothing is impossible, and I believe losing weight and not becoming diabetic is possible. It will take a lot of will power and strength and I am happy to see you ... :)


Thank you Amba, determination is right. To become and healthier and more active me. Losing the weight is a bonus, but being able to do 23 mile bike rides every weekend will be really awesome ..:) lol Cape Neddeck here I come!!

I still feel like I belong on a "forum of shame" but I am cutting out the mean icky gritty stuff that builds up in my eyes... the sugar...
I am cutting out the sugar cookies and the pbjs tonight... they were cut down smaller ..and now its time to make the move to get rid of them... I was thinking of having a small bowl of cereal ..one cup ... whole wheat cheerios ..with five or six grams of sugar and one cup of skim milk ... for eating at night... my midnight snack! I think that will do very well ..:)

Anyway so thats the update folks .. I am starting to chip away the bad in my diet and get to a healthier and happier me ..

love always
your friend
natalie jo:jump:
 
Can you throw away the cookies?
I've stopped buying that stuff completely. It really helps when I have major cravings for something that isn't in the house.

As for PBJs.. while the peanut butter isn't bad for you, its a high calorie food. I won't encourage you continuing to eat them, but if you do, try switching to an organic chunky peanut butter over Jiff or one of those. If you have to mix the oil on the top into the rest of the jar, its the good and healthy stuff.

Those others are loaded with so much crap and generally sugar too. :(

Also, PB with no J is a great snack if you've just been working out. A whole wheat bread, toasted, with peanut butter lightly spread on it is a great boost for energy.

Maybe you should work out a meal plan for today and tomorrow and try not to deviate from it. I know you've been having a hard time and you must be so stressed! I can't imagine how much stress you'd encounter just from finding out things like needing new glasses, etc.

*Hugs*

You helped me get started here. I want to help you keep going. :D

- Sunny
 
My meals for the rest of the day ...

Ok here goes Sunny:

Breakfast:

Ham-egg and cheese sandwhich on English muffin, white English muffin...
(probably should have eaten a whole wheat english muffin, but none available)

Lunch:
One Small bowl of whole wheat cheerios, plus skim milk.

Snack (BAD ME!)

Barbeque chips.

I am so horrible...

anyway, although if I keep thinking I am horrible, I will probably bring my self confidence and esteem down, which is too late, because it is down.

Dinner: (will get back to you on this one, once I get it)



love always
natalie jo
 
Ok here goes Sunny:

Breakfast:

Ham-egg and cheese sandwhich on English muffin, white English muffin...
(probably should have eaten a whole wheat english muffin, but none available)

Lunch:
One Small bowl of whole wheat cheerios, plus skim milk.

Snack (BAD ME!)

Barbeque chips.

I am so horrible...

anyway, although if I keep thinking I am horrible, I will probably bring my self confidence and esteem down, which is too late, because it is down.

Dinner: (will get back to you on this one, once I get it)



love always
natalie jo

Snacks are good so long as we pick things low in calories and a little more filling. Is your family helping you lose weight? Would it be possible to stop keeping high calorie snacks such as chips/crackers/cookies/etc in the house?

My favorite snacks are: carrots, cottage cheese, wasabi rice crackers (from whole foods. 15 crackers = 120 calories), a few almonds, a glass of milk, tea with honey, etc.

You had a wonderful start to your day and its not too late to keep it going. Don't get down about it. Some chips aren't going to ruin a diet. It just means you get to eat less calories later.

I can't remember... are you using fitday?

I don't care what anyone says about this, because I whole-heartedly believe its true: Your family is responsible for your health as well as you. They contribute to your wellbeing in so many ways, including helping you curb desires for sweets. If you live with them, make sure you're including them by explaining your goals and what needs to change in order for you to see that goal.

You can do it! I believe in you. :D

- Sunny
 
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