"Big Girls (You are Beautiful" <-- Mika's song: Nataliejo's Diary.

The weather around here has just been awful... up and down... my body can't get comfortable and adjusted.

Aerobics at home sounds fun... I wish I could get my apartment clean so I can do some exercise at home... no motivation for cleaning ... I hate it.

As I said in my journal in response to your question... Martial Arts sounds AWESOME!!!

Have a good evening
~Jenna

Yea Jenna..
aerobics dancing will be happening today ..because I was outside and felt wicked awful .. I mean the heat is just over the top today ...

So inside aerobics it is and sprints under the maple trees in the shade ...

ttylater hun
always
natalie jo
 
Today!

Well, I sent an email to my ex bf, who I broke it off with three weeks ago. Last night I came to a realization .."Its really over!" and today I cried, than I did my aerobics, because I couldn't just let myself lye around and gain weight over my lack of motivation over my loss. He treated me horribly, but our friendship was good. We were good friends, but not great as lovers. And it was worth the last three and a half years and now after my loss, (forty five pounds more). I have come along way in the past two days...

I did twenty five minute aerobics cardio. And did ten minutes with SOME weights. I plan to use the big Weights tonight to finish off my day. Its great with the weight, I just sit on the bench and start working my arms like mad and working my legs. And I work my stomach .. its awesome ... its a bench and more... it has different exercises you can do on it!

But I have been down and let myself drop, but now I am picking myself up ...
I sent an email to my ex bf about how I felt... I am still in love with him and I wished I could erase that, but I couldn't, all I can say is it will take time and I am not going to rush into any relationship I don't want. U know, not going to act out of desperation. I shall enjoy being single at 30..lmao.. do my best anyway ... I plan to go out on Thursday nights... and I meet with my other friend and her children on weekends. Cera is such a brat, but I love her. She thinks lying is funny, ugh, I talked to her about that. She twas not happy, but I don't think she got the point. But Her bday is five days after mine, so I guess I can forgive the little begga... literally ... for everything ... I ended up buying the child a necklace and a cool auntie bracellet .. Auntie, yes me, was pretty nice that day ...lmao ... she cornered me, she is good, and slick at that... lol ugh ..kids ..but ILOVEHER! lmao

and than the little one ...almost six months old ...beautiful ...she keeps sticking out her tongue ..its her past time ..and taking off her left shoe.. lol
and Laurie looked great ... she had the Surgery GBS done about three and a half years ago and seem to be doing well. Sometimes her blood sugar drops, but she keeps candy on her... so she doesn't faint ... She looks fabulous ..maybe a little TOO thin, but she is as usual, beautiful!

But I am proud of her, she used to be a cocaine addict, and now she is happily married, quit coke seven years ago, and has been clean since. Had Cera two years after she quit .. who is six now ...and she just had the little one ... almost six months ago ... :)
But we are going to the beach next time, or actually Wentworth lake, pack a picnic lunch. It will be great!

well trying to get my life back in order, hopefully I will lose four to five pounds this month, actually I think I shall!

always
natalie jo
 
Hi NatalieJo

Yes time will heal the pain (I know all too well about that)...the exercise will help you get through it (the endorphins ya know..and endorphons make you happy...A line from Legally Blonde). You will feel good about yourself if you keep it up.

Have a great night...

Joots
 
Great job getting your work out in today.

Its good that your trying to heal after the end of your relationship and that your still communicating with your ex. It may help bring closure to you. Go out on Thursdays and have an awesome time!! Enjoy being single.

Sounds like you have a good time with your friend and her children. I miss having young children to be around... I used to have my neighbors, babysitting, and working at a day camp.

Have a good night
~Jenna
 
You're doing so well. Doing aerobics now and everything? That's awesome! You're very brave for continuing with your endeavors while going through such a difficult time. But as several people have mentioned, exercise is a great stress reliever, so you're definitely benefitting from it.
 
Hey guys and gals,

I ended up in the hospital, but was quickly released... it was ...good ...

but anyway .. I am now down to 292.4...
so I have still been working on my eating habits ...

found out I am taking too much Effexor, so my doc is cutting me down to two .. I was on the max dose and it sent me tail spinning, thus the hospital...

but I am doing good now...

I am actually spending the afternoon with my ex. I don't want to be with him, but we do make good friends. I have had enough of the relationship. I have done the break up, make up thing many times. And he even said, he is not interested in anything more than a friendship. Good! Because he even said if he was to consider coming back with me than I would need a full time job .. and I am a student ... with voc rehab of NH ...and they won't fund me if I have a job ...so I have to wait until I am done with my four year degree...


anyway ...so I have lost weight and am very proud of that ...time to change the ticker!! yea!! :):jump:

Well I will ttylater guys ...

always
natalie jo

and yes .. I am doing alright, just had a few days of bumming out ... :eek2:

My friend John is coming up for the whole last week in august .. I only wish I could motivate him to lose weight... he loses breath when he is taking his socks off ... hm..

but anyway ... you all have a wonderful day! Its beautiful here!:)
 
Hi Natalie,

Congrats on your weight loss. I'm very glad that you're doing better and got your meds straightened out:)

Its great that you and you're ex have come to a place where you can spend enjoyable time together as friends. I hope you have a very good day with him.

Maybe you're friend John will see how great you are doing and feeling when he comes to see you that you will motivate and inspire him to try and lose weight also.

Enjoy this beautiful day
~Jenna
 
Hiya

Glad your ok and it was a short hospital stay!!
And after all that you still manage to loose WELL DONE
your doing great

Sorry cant stop long
Will speak to you soon
Sarah
 
Have a wonderful afternoon with your ex. Or maybe we should just call him your friend... I find it's always better to not think of the guys I've gone out with as my "exes" if I want the friendship to work. They're just my friends. :) Then there's none of that negative connotation involved.
Congrats on losing a couple more lbs! That feels good, I'm sure. And it's great to hear that your medications have been adjusted to work better for you. :)
 
Hey Chica,

Glad you're ok! I wondered why I hadn't seen any posts by you in a few days.

Congrats on the recent loss! Doesn't it feel good? :D

-Sunny
 
Hi NJ; During yoga class, a couple days ago, our instructor asked us to focus on an "intention" during each pose and breath and I chose you, NJ. I read your posts about breaking up with bf and your hope that you are not single forever. My intention was that you find the strength to love and take care of yourself and trust in life that until someone deserving of your goodness comes into your life, you will know that you ... are ... enough. Because you are! You're doing great.
 
Hi Natalie,

Just stopping by to say hi. How are you doing? You still feeling ok?
If you need anything or need to talk feel free to pm me..

I Hope you are doing well
~Jenna
 
I did it! I climbed and conquered! :)

Ok.. so guys and gals ..
I climbed and Conquered Mtn. BlueJob. Its called Mtn. Bluejob... because it is loaded with blueberries and other berries ...black berries ... everything for the dear, bears and what not ...

Its absolutely beautiful.

Usually I just go up to the blueberry fields, which is pretty easy ... but my friend , ex, actually got me to go up to the top. I hiked, stopped a few times. We walked around the little pond up there....we walked where my family never goes! It was so much fun! and we walked finally up to the tower...and I didn't think I was going to be able ...but I actually went up the tower too.. I was trying to escape the horseflies ...but they just went up with me ... oh well ...but it was such a clear and beautiful day! Perfect for climbing ..
and I am still at 292.4 and holding ...
but I plan to get out for a walk tomorrow and maybe a bike ride ... I am so thrilled and plan to catch up on all of your diaries ...
and Sunny you are right, calling him my friend is better!

thanks all of you ...

always
your friend
natalie jo
 
Hi Natalie,

I am sooo glad you are doing well:) That hike sounds awesome... is it in the white mountains?

My b/f and I keep talking about going for hikes in the white mountains but we end up never going... I'd really like to someday!

Keep goign and the scale with start to go down... and its great that its holding stead rather than going up:)

~Jenna
 
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