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RobertaLee
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Hi Minus86
Thank you for visiting my diary! I also thank you for the encouragement. It helps me so much. I've only been here since August, and the help and support I've been given here is beyond compare. I've been able to log my journey into finding myself. I'm also glad you are enjoying the meditations. I never thought I would see the day there were meditations to address overeating. Now that there are, I want to share them. They help me so much and so do all of you.
I'm still here, no plans to go anywhere. I still have 72 pounds to lose and a tummy tuck to undergo after that so I'm here for the long haul.
Thank you so very much for being here for me.
Love and hugs
Berta
Thank you for visiting my diary! I also thank you for the encouragement. It helps me so much. I've only been here since August, and the help and support I've been given here is beyond compare. I've been able to log my journey into finding myself. I'm also glad you are enjoying the meditations. I never thought I would see the day there were meditations to address overeating. Now that there are, I want to share them. They help me so much and so do all of you.
I'm still here, no plans to go anywhere. I still have 72 pounds to lose and a tummy tuck to undergo after that so I'm here for the long haul.
Thank you so very much for being here for me.
Love and hugs
Berta
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 37!!!
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 19, 2008
~ SERVICE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Give and it shall be given unto you;
good measure, pressed down, shaken
together, and running over.
The Bible
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
An important lesson in life is that in
order to get something we need or want,
we first have to give some of it
away. If we want friends, we have to be
a friend. If we want to be loved, we
have to love. If we want recovery, we
have to help others recover.
Then we begin to "get it." The tingling
excitement of hope is aroused in us. A
source of power to live is discovered
inside of ourselves.
Giving service is as important a part of
recovery as abstinence or working the
Steps. It includes everything from
organizing materials at a face-to-face
meeting to hosting meetings online. It's
sharing our problems and our solutions
on the loops as well as sponsoring. Just
as someone once said that love is
nothing until you give it away, it seems
that recovery is incomplete until it is
shared by giving service to the program
or to individuals. It's remarkable how
service brings us closer together,
allows us to make friends, helps to end
our isolation and gives that feeling of
self-worth and confidence that we so
desperately need. Simply put, service is
as much a lifesaver to us as it is to
those we reach out and touch.
I want to be a giver to the program so
it is always available to those who will
come after seeking their freedom from
this dread disease.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 19, 2008
~ SERVICE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Give and it shall be given unto you;
good measure, pressed down, shaken
together, and running over.
The Bible
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
An important lesson in life is that in
order to get something we need or want,
we first have to give some of it
away. If we want friends, we have to be
a friend. If we want to be loved, we
have to love. If we want recovery, we
have to help others recover.
Then we begin to "get it." The tingling
excitement of hope is aroused in us. A
source of power to live is discovered
inside of ourselves.
Giving service is as important a part of
recovery as abstinence or working the
Steps. It includes everything from
organizing materials at a face-to-face
meeting to hosting meetings online. It's
sharing our problems and our solutions
on the loops as well as sponsoring. Just
as someone once said that love is
nothing until you give it away, it seems
that recovery is incomplete until it is
shared by giving service to the program
or to individuals. It's remarkable how
service brings us closer together,
allows us to make friends, helps to end
our isolation and gives that feeling of
self-worth and confidence that we so
desperately need. Simply put, service is
as much a lifesaver to us as it is to
those we reach out and touch.
I want to be a giver to the program so
it is always available to those who will
come after seeking their freedom from
this dread disease.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
RobertaLee
New member
Hi Reluctant Cabbie!
Thanks for stopping by. I have my good days as all of us do and I have my bad days...then I have my VERY bad days. The VERY bad days come when I have to interact with my family, let me tell you. I'm sooo very glad that I went for therapy over a decade ago or I would be into the food.
Otherwise, how are YOU?
Just popping in to say hi.
HI!
Seems like you are keeping the faith. Best of luck!
Thanks for stopping by. I have my good days as all of us do and I have my bad days...then I have my VERY bad days. The VERY bad days come when I have to interact with my family, let me tell you. I'm sooo very glad that I went for therapy over a decade ago or I would be into the food.
Otherwise, how are YOU?
RobertaLee
New member
I've decided....
I've decided to break down my weight loss goals into 10 pound increments. That way I don't get so overwhelmed with all that I have to lose...73 more pounds in all. If I set my next goal to be 186 that should make me feel a bit better. Breaking anything down, including problems into little chunks makes more sense to me than to try to bite off the entire rock! This is too much! Once I lose the goal 10 pounds, I'll set another 10 pound goal and so on until I reach my ultimate goal of 73 pounds.
My thoughts on weight loss have changed since since I came here and since I joined Overeater's Anonymous. I'm having to look at the reasons I overeat as opposed to dieting. A food plan that I can live with is part of the process of recovery, and it is based on each person. OA does not endorse any food plan, what I had to do with my sponsor was pick a food plan, my own, that worked for ME. I decided to cut out sugar and flour. As you can see from my diary, quitting these items was like cutting off a major drug. And food to me is a drug.These are my trigger foods and when I eat foods that contain either of these, I can't stop eating. I've done much better since then. The natural offshoot was a reduction in the amount of carbohydrates I take in, a major plus!
So let's see how it goes this new goal setting plan of mine.
I've decided to break down my weight loss goals into 10 pound increments. That way I don't get so overwhelmed with all that I have to lose...73 more pounds in all. If I set my next goal to be 186 that should make me feel a bit better. Breaking anything down, including problems into little chunks makes more sense to me than to try to bite off the entire rock! This is too much! Once I lose the goal 10 pounds, I'll set another 10 pound goal and so on until I reach my ultimate goal of 73 pounds.
My thoughts on weight loss have changed since since I came here and since I joined Overeater's Anonymous. I'm having to look at the reasons I overeat as opposed to dieting. A food plan that I can live with is part of the process of recovery, and it is based on each person. OA does not endorse any food plan, what I had to do with my sponsor was pick a food plan, my own, that worked for ME. I decided to cut out sugar and flour. As you can see from my diary, quitting these items was like cutting off a major drug. And food to me is a drug.These are my trigger foods and when I eat foods that contain either of these, I can't stop eating. I've done much better since then. The natural offshoot was a reduction in the amount of carbohydrates I take in, a major plus!
So let's see how it goes this new goal setting plan of mine.
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 38!!
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 20, 2008
~ FILLING THE VOID ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
You can't have everything. Where would
you put it?
Steven Wright.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
I brought little in the way of material
things into my marriage 16 years ago. My
husband had a house that was already
overfilled with furniture, so my
clothes, books, albums, linens, a chair
and a TV were all that I had to be
moved.
I'd thought marriage alone would heal
all the hurts I'd gathered up in my
life. My husband, also the product of a
dysfunctional family, felt the same
way. We quickly learned that our love
for each other was not enough to fill
the holes inside us. I was used to using
food to temporarily fill the inner
holes; he was used to abusing another
substance to fill his inner
holes. Neither worked well, and we soon
discovered that buying things we didn't
need, but merely wanted, would also help
to fill some of our hurts
temporarily. Pretty soon, we had a house
that was full of things we'd bought that
had only given a few moments of pleasure
at best.
One of the benefits of program life is
that I've learned to fill the holes
within me in ways that really work. I
want to make my life more simple and
less cluttered. Three years later, I'm
still getting rid of things we bought
and never used again. But the best part
is we can go to the mall when we really
do need something and not feel the
compulsion to buy something we don't
need in every shop we pass.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will use the lessons I've learned
working the program to finally heal the
hurts within me instead of looking for
material things to repair these inner
holes.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 20, 2008
~ FILLING THE VOID ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
You can't have everything. Where would
you put it?
Steven Wright.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
I brought little in the way of material
things into my marriage 16 years ago. My
husband had a house that was already
overfilled with furniture, so my
clothes, books, albums, linens, a chair
and a TV were all that I had to be
moved.
I'd thought marriage alone would heal
all the hurts I'd gathered up in my
life. My husband, also the product of a
dysfunctional family, felt the same
way. We quickly learned that our love
for each other was not enough to fill
the holes inside us. I was used to using
food to temporarily fill the inner
holes; he was used to abusing another
substance to fill his inner
holes. Neither worked well, and we soon
discovered that buying things we didn't
need, but merely wanted, would also help
to fill some of our hurts
temporarily. Pretty soon, we had a house
that was full of things we'd bought that
had only given a few moments of pleasure
at best.
One of the benefits of program life is
that I've learned to fill the holes
within me in ways that really work. I
want to make my life more simple and
less cluttered. Three years later, I'm
still getting rid of things we bought
and never used again. But the best part
is we can go to the mall when we really
do need something and not feel the
compulsion to buy something we don't
need in every shop we pass.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will use the lessons I've learned
working the program to finally heal the
hurts within me instead of looking for
material things to repair these inner
holes.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
RobertaLee
New member
2 more pounds off since my doctor appointment!!! Only eight to go in this particular weight goal.!!!!!
I'm worried what will happen when I go to school. That's always a stressor for me and school represents all the good food I can eat after class while waiting on my ride!
I'm going to plan some things today before school starts tomorrow. Have to in order to stay alive. This disease is a dangerous killer who will lie to you.
I'm worried what will happen when I go to school. That's always a stressor for me and school represents all the good food I can eat after class while waiting on my ride!
I'm going to plan some things today before school starts tomorrow. Have to in order to stay alive. This disease is a dangerous killer who will lie to you.
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 39!!!
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 21, 2008
~ NEW WORLDS ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Each friend represents a world in us,
a world possibly not born until they arrive,
and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.
Anais Nin
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Most of us are so compulsive at almost
everything we do, that allowing people
in to know our garbage of the past and
present is unheard of.
You go to a meeting, find a new recovery
friend and that friend opens a new
door. You and that friend step through
and WOW ... the world in that room looks
great! Later at another meeting, you
meet another recovery friend and another
door is opened. You and your two new
friends step through and you find an
even better world view. This continues
to happen meeting after meeting, step
after step, room after room and your
personal lives begins to look much
brighter and more beautiful, like there
really is hope.
Funny how it's still the same world but
friends, recovery and Higher Power make
it a much better worldly view.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will never end this beautiful cycle of
finding new worlds as long as I never
lose sight of my Higher Power, my
recovery friends and my recovery
program.
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 21, 2008
~ NEW WORLDS ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Each friend represents a world in us,
a world possibly not born until they arrive,
and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.
Anais Nin
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Most of us are so compulsive at almost
everything we do, that allowing people
in to know our garbage of the past and
present is unheard of.
You go to a meeting, find a new recovery
friend and that friend opens a new
door. You and that friend step through
and WOW ... the world in that room looks
great! Later at another meeting, you
meet another recovery friend and another
door is opened. You and your two new
friends step through and you find an
even better world view. This continues
to happen meeting after meeting, step
after step, room after room and your
personal lives begins to look much
brighter and more beautiful, like there
really is hope.
Funny how it's still the same world but
friends, recovery and Higher Power make
it a much better worldly view.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will never end this beautiful cycle of
finding new worlds as long as I never
lose sight of my Higher Power, my
recovery friends and my recovery
program.
RobertaLee
New member
I started school today and stuck to my food plan!! I thought I would go off my diet today because of the stress and the huge array of tempting foods both my school food court and the bookstore offer. But I took my own breakfast and coffee, even my low carb creamer and splenda! I had oatmeal and was full. I had a couple of strawberries after one difficult class and remembered to take along my sugar free werthers for "just in case". It worked!
I joined the 10,000 steps club and will wear my pedometer tomorrow to measure my steps. 10,000 steps equals one mile. I walk all over campus so we'll see. School is difficult this time let me tell you. So I keep low carb snacks..almonds, werthers and even slim fast bars with me.
Wish me luck! Got an on-line meeting to attend!
I joined the 10,000 steps club and will wear my pedometer tomorrow to measure my steps. 10,000 steps equals one mile. I walk all over campus so we'll see. School is difficult this time let me tell you. So I keep low carb snacks..almonds, werthers and even slim fast bars with me.
Wish me luck! Got an on-line meeting to attend!
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 40!!!!! YAY!!!!
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 22, 2008
~ ACCEPTANCE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
"And acceptance is the answer to all my
problems today. I need to concentrate
not so much on what needs to be changed
in the world as what needs to be changed
in me and in my attitudes."
The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Dissatisfaction has been part of my
disease and it played a significant role
in bringing me to recovery. It is the
human condition to dislike where we
are. Like many of us, I used to think
that only some mystical, non-existent
person, place, thing or situation would
make me happy. If only my spouse loved
me as I want to be loved; if only the
boss would see and appreciate my
contributions; or if only my house and
children were perfect. I sat year after
year speculating and fantasizing my life
away.
The Serenity Prayer tells me to ask God
for the wisdom to know His will for
me. I lived in darkness and despair
until I learned that my Higher Power is
here. He is in charge. I must, through
prayer and meditation, seek God's will
and do the next right thing. I need to
cooperate with my Higher Power to change
my attitude. To that end, I do the
footwork just for today.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will seek and accept God's will for my
life.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 22, 2008
~ ACCEPTANCE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
"And acceptance is the answer to all my
problems today. I need to concentrate
not so much on what needs to be changed
in the world as what needs to be changed
in me and in my attitudes."
The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Dissatisfaction has been part of my
disease and it played a significant role
in bringing me to recovery. It is the
human condition to dislike where we
are. Like many of us, I used to think
that only some mystical, non-existent
person, place, thing or situation would
make me happy. If only my spouse loved
me as I want to be loved; if only the
boss would see and appreciate my
contributions; or if only my house and
children were perfect. I sat year after
year speculating and fantasizing my life
away.
The Serenity Prayer tells me to ask God
for the wisdom to know His will for
me. I lived in darkness and despair
until I learned that my Higher Power is
here. He is in charge. I must, through
prayer and meditation, seek God's will
and do the next right thing. I need to
cooperate with my Higher Power to change
my attitude. To that end, I do the
footwork just for today.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will seek and accept God's will for my
life.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
thecabbie
New member
Good luck!
Although luck can't beat determination, and you seem to have lots of that.
BTW, oatmeal, is top quality food and it sounds like you are taking care of business with the other methods of dealing with cravings and temptations. Good call on the 10,00 steps too.
And last but not least, another couple pounds on your mini goal is excellent news!!
RobertaLee
New member
Sorry I have not written. I'm in school...lots of homework and new concepts. I'm so busy! But I am keeping to my diet by being creative!
I am actually taking care of my looks!!! I take care of my hair..make sure I put on VERY nice clothes, and I even put on MAKE-UP! That was one of my goals when I came here. I must be doing good, a guy hit on me today! LOL!
Love you all and I gotta go. Homework on top of homework!
I am actually taking care of my looks!!! I take care of my hair..make sure I put on VERY nice clothes, and I even put on MAKE-UP! That was one of my goals when I came here. I must be doing good, a guy hit on me today! LOL!
Love you all and I gotta go. Homework on top of homework!
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 41!!!!
Recovery Meditations ~ Emotions ~ One Day at a Time ~ September 23, 2008
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RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 23, 2008
~ EMOTIONS ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
A life lacking the emotional upheavals
of depression and despair, fear and
anxiety, grief and sadness, anger and
the agony of forgiving, confusion and
doubt, criticism and rejection, will not
only be useless to ourselves, it will be
useless to others.
Scott Peck
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Because I have always thought of myself
as such an ordinary person, as life
moved along I was surprised to find so
many emotional events happening in it. I
have had severe periods of depression
and despair; I have known fear, anxiety,
anger and doubt. I have wrestled with
grief and known the agony of
rejection. I have been subjected to
criticism and experienced firsthand the
difficulty of forgiving those whom I
once thought I would never be able to
forgive.
What I have learned about life and
recovery is that no one is ordinary,
that everyone experiences emotions of
all kinds, and what is important is that
each of these upheavals are instructive
and not wasted.
Whereas once I would block my feelings,
I now allow myself to feel them. Instead
of sweeping my emotions under a rug, I
express them. Rather than blocking grief
from my soul, I experience it ... then
heal from it. When I am rejected, I try
to move on by exploring the reasons why.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will turn my negative emotions into
positive ones by transforming them into
useful learning experiences both for
myself and for others.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
Recovery Meditations ~ Emotions ~ One Day at a Time ~ September 23, 2008
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 23, 2008
~ EMOTIONS ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
A life lacking the emotional upheavals
of depression and despair, fear and
anxiety, grief and sadness, anger and
the agony of forgiving, confusion and
doubt, criticism and rejection, will not
only be useless to ourselves, it will be
useless to others.
Scott Peck
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Because I have always thought of myself
as such an ordinary person, as life
moved along I was surprised to find so
many emotional events happening in it. I
have had severe periods of depression
and despair; I have known fear, anxiety,
anger and doubt. I have wrestled with
grief and known the agony of
rejection. I have been subjected to
criticism and experienced firsthand the
difficulty of forgiving those whom I
once thought I would never be able to
forgive.
What I have learned about life and
recovery is that no one is ordinary,
that everyone experiences emotions of
all kinds, and what is important is that
each of these upheavals are instructive
and not wasted.
Whereas once I would block my feelings,
I now allow myself to feel them. Instead
of sweeping my emotions under a rug, I
express them. Rather than blocking grief
from my soul, I experience it ... then
heal from it. When I am rejected, I try
to move on by exploring the reasons why.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will turn my negative emotions into
positive ones by transforming them into
useful learning experiences both for
myself and for others.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditation for my day 42
Recovery Meditations ~ The Future ~ One Day at a Time ~ September 24, 2008
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RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 24, 2008
~ THE FUTURE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
When I look into the future, it's so
bright it burns my eyes.
Oprah Winfrey
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
I receive the gift of abstinence one day
at a time. I am relieved from the
obsession to eat one day at a time. With
the help of my Higher Power, I can live
life on life's terms... one day at a
time.
As my recovery builds and builds, I
start to imagine all the possibilities
for my life. Things I never had the
confidence or emotional stability to
pursue are options for me. Now that I am
free from the despair and
self-destruction of overeating, there is
space to actualize new adventures. But
before I become overwhelmed or grandiose
in my thinking, the Program gently
reminds me that it is STILL just one day
a time.
ONE DAY AT A TIME ...
Recovery Meditations ~ The Future ~ One Day at a Time ~ September 24, 2008
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RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 24, 2008
~ THE FUTURE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
When I look into the future, it's so
bright it burns my eyes.
Oprah Winfrey
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
I receive the gift of abstinence one day
at a time. I am relieved from the
obsession to eat one day at a time. With
the help of my Higher Power, I can live
life on life's terms... one day at a
time.
As my recovery builds and builds, I
start to imagine all the possibilities
for my life. Things I never had the
confidence or emotional stability to
pursue are options for me. Now that I am
free from the despair and
self-destruction of overeating, there is
space to actualize new adventures. But
before I become overwhelmed or grandiose
in my thinking, the Program gently
reminds me that it is STILL just one day
a time.
ONE DAY AT A TIME ...
douknowjello
New member
Hey Berta
So glad you're finding ways around stuff while going to school and so busy. I'll have to bug you for some of those creative tips when you have time. I'm very sorry I haven't been around to post...don't know if you saw when I was able to get online at the college that my internet was out. Actually still is...tree landed on our cable line and took out the pole with it. I have no idea when it's going to be up and got dial up today. Takes forever to post but at least I'm back online...and not a minute too soon. I'm not real happy with myself right now for some of the food I've been junking out on recently and need to be able to keep track. Anyway hope you're studying is goin good....soon as I catch up here I'm about to hit the books myself. *hugz* ~Lisa
RobertaLee
New member
Recovery Meditations ~ Courage ~ One Day at a Time ~ September 25, 2008
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RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 25, 2008
~ COURAGE ~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:
Courage faces fear and thereby masters it.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
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I've never been a brave person and was
always very fearful. I would watch movies
where the hero would rescue the heroine,
or where someone would climb Mount
Everest, or perform some feat of daring,
and I would be totally in awe. I was afraid
of the dark, of rejection, of failure and of
most other things that I was convinced
took courage. No way would I go parasailing
or deep sea diving as that seemed to require
the courage that I lacked. I didn't understand
then that people who do those kinds of
things are not totally without fear, but they
have a way of overcoming their fear and still
doing it anyway.
When I came into the program and learned
that I would have to do an inventory and then,
worse still, make amends to the people I
had harmed, I was paralyzed by fear.
Eventually I realized that, even though I
feared doing these things, all I had to do
was ask my Higher Power for strength and
guidance and then do the things I'd most
feared. Perhaps these weren't the feats of
daring that I had seen heroes perform, but
for me they were great victories, and in being
able to do them, I knew that I was developing
courage.
ONE DAY AT A TIME ...
I will continue to walk through my fear with
my Higher Power at my side, knowing that
I am developing the courage that I thought
I lacked.
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RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 25, 2008
~ COURAGE ~
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Courage faces fear and thereby masters it.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
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I've never been a brave person and was
always very fearful. I would watch movies
where the hero would rescue the heroine,
or where someone would climb Mount
Everest, or perform some feat of daring,
and I would be totally in awe. I was afraid
of the dark, of rejection, of failure and of
most other things that I was convinced
took courage. No way would I go parasailing
or deep sea diving as that seemed to require
the courage that I lacked. I didn't understand
then that people who do those kinds of
things are not totally without fear, but they
have a way of overcoming their fear and still
doing it anyway.
When I came into the program and learned
that I would have to do an inventory and then,
worse still, make amends to the people I
had harmed, I was paralyzed by fear.
Eventually I realized that, even though I
feared doing these things, all I had to do
was ask my Higher Power for strength and
guidance and then do the things I'd most
feared. Perhaps these weren't the feats of
daring that I had seen heroes perform, but
for me they were great victories, and in being
able to do them, I knew that I was developing
courage.
ONE DAY AT A TIME ...
I will continue to walk through my fear with
my Higher Power at my side, knowing that
I am developing the courage that I thought
I lacked.
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
douknowjello
New member
Hey Berta, I'm back on here with full internet now so I'll come by more. I'm in classes too and taking Chem and trig..bleh. Hope your classes are goin great...how's everything else? I'm good except I've been eating like crap lately...any tips for things I could have on hand when I'm on the go to classes?
RobertaLee
New member
What happened to the ticker?
I log in today to update my weight and can't log in to my ticker!! I have lost weight and now the ticker displays a weight that I have not weighed in 2 years!!! Is anyone else having problems with the ticker?
I log in today to update my weight and can't log in to my ticker!! I have lost weight and now the ticker displays a weight that I have not weighed in 2 years!!! Is anyone else having problems with the ticker?
RobertaLee
New member
All fixed!
The ticker issue is all fixed. I do not know what happened. But I've lost two more pounds of the goal of 10 pounds. As I said earlier in my thread, I'm measuring my weight loss in short term goals.
School is heavy and I maintain my serenity by taking my breakfast of oatmal to school along with sugar free creamer for my decaf coffee and cheese or nuts in the event I am in a snacking mood. So far I've been able to stay away from the bookstore where there are goodies.
How has everyone else been? I'll go through my thread to see if anyone posted. This is a hello to you all! I'm still here.
My school as a 10,000 Steps program which I've joined. 10,000 steps equals one mile. I'm going to be interested in how much I walk on campus each day!
Berta
The ticker issue is all fixed. I do not know what happened. But I've lost two more pounds of the goal of 10 pounds. As I said earlier in my thread, I'm measuring my weight loss in short term goals.
School is heavy and I maintain my serenity by taking my breakfast of oatmal to school along with sugar free creamer for my decaf coffee and cheese or nuts in the event I am in a snacking mood. So far I've been able to stay away from the bookstore where there are goodies.
How has everyone else been? I'll go through my thread to see if anyone posted. This is a hello to you all! I'm still here.
My school as a 10,000 Steps program which I've joined. 10,000 steps equals one mile. I'm going to be interested in how much I walk on campus each day!
Berta