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RobertaLee

RobertaLee

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Hello, I'm new here. I am beginning a step on my journey to finding the part of me who is healthy. Gastric Stapling and Bypass did not work for me. But the good news is that I am down to a weight where I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I am here to lose these last 80 pounds and I know I can do it. I'll log my trials, tribulations, successes, atta girls and so forth here. I'll also pledge to come here when I am on the verge of cheating.

I'm going for the same diet I learned with gastric bypass....lots of water, lots of protein, veggies, good carbs and again, lots of water. I've gotten all of my journals which detail my plan of action at my bedside.

Let's see how I do. I take my journey along with the rest of you.

Let's do this.

XOXO
 
Hello!!!

Welcome and congratulations on deciding for a better much healthier life.
We will all support you in this, after all we are all in the same boat.

This is a great place to start and to finish, you can do it, just have faith in yourself.:hurray:

:D
 
The look of pity

I was sitting outside a store today. It was hot and I was dressed in a loosefitting, airy dress. I was also eating a candy bar because I was frustrated. I saw a lady looking at me, and the look of pity, along with her shaking her head was too much for me. I'm going to do this now.:willy_nilly:
 
Ugotwillugotway said:
Hello!!!

Welcome and congratulations on deciding for a better much healthier life.
We will all support you in this, after all we are all in the same boat.

This is a great place to start and to finish, you can do it, just have faith in yourself.:hurray:

:D
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Thank you so much for your support. I'll need it and more. I hope to be able to also inspire each of you in my own way.

Where do I get one of those weight loss bars I see beneath the siggys here?


XOXO
 
RobertaLee said:
I was sitting outside a store today. It was hot and I was dressed in a loosefitting, airy dress. I was also eating a candy bar because I was frustrated. I saw a lady looking at me, and the look of pity, along with her shaking her head was too much for me. I'm going to do this now.:willy_nilly:
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I know i eat when i am frustrated, angry or feeling depressed. Food is my drug of choice, I have an addiction and am into 12 step programs. I have not been to any personally, but I read the books.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning, which I hope to take advantage of. I just have to remember after my medications to begin the day with a full glass of water, then my protein for breakfast. I learned during the bypass, and it worked for me, not to skip meals. I lost a great deal of weight, although I put some back on, by eating small meals. I really did work. Now I have to practice what I learned and reintegrate these things back into my life.


XOXO
 
RobertaLee said:
I know i eat when i am frustrated, angry or feeling depressed. Food is my drug of choice, I have an addiction and am into 12 step programs. I have not been to any personally, but I read the books.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning, which I hope to take advantage of. I just have to remember after my medications to begin the day with a full glass of water, then my protein for breakfast. I learned during the bypass, and it worked for me, not to skip meals. I lost a great deal of weight, although I put some back on, by eating small meals. I really did work. Now I have to practice what I learned and reintegrate these things back into my life.


XOXO
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Oh, I forgot. I went to the doctor today. I was 205 llbs, much lighter than I had thought. I lost five where I thought I had gained at least 15 since I am out of school.
 
I'm going to be doing other things, like polishing my looks as I go along. When I let my weight balloon out of control, I tend to let other things go as well...my hair, no make up, no manicure or pedicure,etc.

I'm going to do one thing each day to add to my self esteem. Tomorrow will be such a beautiful day. I have my water ready to drink first thing in the morning. Another doctor's appointment in two weeks where I hope to have lost at least a pound.

XOXO
 
Today is the day!

Well I got off to a good start. I had some cravings before I fully awoke, as usual, but I did not act on them. I'm about to eat breakfast.

Food has become a compulsion for me. Night time is the worse because I am winding down and there is so much to think of since my divorce. Life is not the same for me. It's hard and its very lonely. So food has become almost like a companion. But I will get through this. I'm so glad the doctors scale read 205 as opposed to what I thought I weighed. I struggled so hard to keep my weight DOWN but I do know times when I just could not do it.

I also begin the Unstoppable Women's Challenge on Monday. My breakthrough goal is to lose 30 pounds, which is my interim goal. Once I lose my interim weight I shall reward myself by changing my hairstyle! I believe goals should be attainable, and I think 30 pounds is an attainable goal.

We'll see!

XO
Berta:seeya:
 
So far so good. Had a cup of decaf coffee with three equals. Have a slim fast high protein shake chilling in the fridge. Not very hungry. But I know the cravings are coming. Cross fingers.

I realize I have no power over food and that I must change the way I view food.

The next three days will tell the tale.

Good luck to all of you taking this journey!!

xoxo
berta
 
I know what caught me off guard before, not having protein snacks available to me to eat when the urges or cravings come. I am preparing all kinds of protein snacks as we speak. I have salmon salad and have stocked the fridge with slimfast bananas and cream drink, which I love. I also have lowfat Yogurt which I will put into serving size containers, according to carb count.

I think I'm on the right road. Have green beans cooked and ready.

Now blast off.

Good luck to us all!

Berta
 
Lots of water!! I just remembered that. I hate water normally, so I use Crystal Light. So now i'm drinking to curb those cravings.

I think I will do ok today.

We all will.
 
You are doing amazing!!!!!!!!!!

Keep it.

I know how it feels to want indulge in food when feeling sad or depressed or angry. I am an emotional eater too and I think that's the worst thing to be EVER!!! It's bad that food is our comforter but we need to learn that food yes is good for us but it's not good in a sense where we life for food and depend on food to make our problems go away. Truth is any problems that are present in our lives currently won't EVER go away until we face them head on, and head on means facing them without crawling into a corner with our junk and sugars, it means thinking about, handeling them else how, talking about them or getting our frustrations out by exercising. And believe me it works. So many times this week I've been quiet tired and angry and depressed but I took that and actually had to FORCE myself to get up and go run, and afterwards all my emotions left the building, i knocked them out of myself a different way and it worked.

Try that.

:party:

I wont sit here and tell u that this lifestyle change is a piece of cake after a day or even a week, it's a battle, but it's a battle for our happiness and a life.
I am much more willing to suffer a little while getting used to this eating healthy and exercising thing then indulging myself with junk for a temporary moment of happiness and probably a large decrease in the years I have to life.

And HEY!!! If you fall of the wagon for a day, don't think that's an excuse to give up. Get back up and start again, if you have to cry for food CRY, if u have to scream for it SCREAM, but always have control over your body.
Do not starve yourself and don't stay away from the foods u love a 100%, eat in moderation. Allow urself that cookie or piece of cake once a week or go ahead and have a scoop of that ice cream, you know? It's not about giving up everything u like in life.

I'm here if you need support or if u feel like u just can't do it today :)
And Im hoping myself to have some support from u when I feel like I cant do it no longer.

Hopefully this won't happen to either of us :D
 
Good luck Berta! I'm a compulsive eater too, so I feel you.

If you like cheese, a great craving-cutter I've found very recently is Laughing Cow cheese wedges. The light ones (French Onion, Garlic and Herb, Classic Swiss) only have 35 calories and with a few wheat crackers, they're very satisfying.

Water's been a huge help in losing weight for me too. It suppresses the appetite pretty well if you remember to drink enough.

You're doing great!
 
I remember my gastric bypass diet. So I got in the protein. Had a couple of egg whites and a bit of salmon for lunch. Began to sip water. Satisfied for now.

Layed in some sugar free werthers for when the sweet tooth hits me. Let's see how this goes.
 
You are awesome!

Ugotwillugotway said:
You are doing amazing!!!!!!!!!!

Keep it.

I know how it feels to want indulge in food when feeling sad or depressed or angry. I am an emotional eater too and I think that's the worst thing to be EVER!!! It's bad that food is our comforter but we need to learn that food yes is good for us but it's not good in a sense where we life for food and depend on food to make our problems go away. Truth is any problems that are present in our lives currently won't EVER go away until we face them head on, and head on means facing them without crawling into a corner with our junk and sugars, it means thinking about, handeling them else how, talking about them or getting our frustrations out by exercising. And believe me it works. So many times this week I've been quiet tired and angry and depressed but I took that and actually had to FORCE myself to get up and go run, and afterwards all my emotions left the building, i knocked them out of myself a different way and it worked.

Try that.

:party:

I wont sit here and tell u that this lifestyle change is a piece of cake after a day or even a week, it's a battle, but it's a battle for our happiness and a life.
I am much more willing to suffer a little while getting used to this eating healthy and exercising thing then indulging myself with junk for a temporary moment of happiness and probably a large decrease in the years I have to life.

And HEY!!! If you fall of the wagon for a day, don't think that's an excuse to give up. Get back up and start again, if you have to cry for food CRY, if u have to scream for it SCREAM, but always have control over your body.
Do not starve yourself and don't stay away from the foods u love a 100%, eat in moderation. Allow urself that cookie or piece of cake once a week or go ahead and have a scoop of that ice cream, you know? It's not about giving up everything u like in life.

I'm here if you need support or if u feel like u just can't do it today :)
And Im hoping myself to have some support from u when I feel like I cant do it no longer.

Hopefully this won't happen to either of us :D
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Thank you so much for stopping by! I am encouraged by your post. I like the part where you say "its a battle for our happiness and our life". So very true. I'm going to read at least one of the 12 step books that I have today.

You are also right. I need to cry for food. Sometimes I feel as if I'm going to scream if I don't get food. But I need to cry or mourn over this as I need to. My life is out of control when it comes to food and I need to cry over how it got this way and how I'm going to get out of it.

I'm reminded of an old Michael Bolton song when I read your post..."when I'm back on my feet again, I'll walk proud down the street again. And they'll all look at me again, and I know I'll be strong. I'm not going to fall a again, I know I'll stand tall again..."

Thank you.

xoxo

Berta:hurray:
 
Thank you! Thank you!

maverick said:
Good luck Berta! I'm a compulsive eater too, so I feel you.

If you like cheese, a great craving-cutter I've found very recently is Laughing Cow cheese wedges. The light ones (French Onion, Garlic and Herb, Classic Swiss) only have 35 calories and with a few wheat crackers, they're very satisfying.

Water's been a huge help in losing weight for me too. It suppresses the appetite pretty well if you remember to drink enough.

You're doing great!
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Hello Maverick!

Thank you for your post of encouragement. I love laughing cow cheese. But didn't know they made it in "light". I was in the cheese section at the store yesterday and bypassed it because I didn't think I'd find a "light version". I love cheese and know it to be a good "craving-cutter", but I feared the fat in the cheese. I'll go back and see if they have the laughing cow at my store in "light". You are so right. It's full of protein and what I learned on the gastric bypass diet is that protein was so very important, but light proteins. I also have protein supplements in the house in the event I have to make myself a fruit smoothie...I can make it protein filled.

Now to go drink water. That too was part of the diet to keep the water handy.


Thank you again.

Love and hugs

Berta
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The cravings came just that quickly. I drank a full glass of crystal light. That did help. That on board with the protein should hold me a a bit. Let's see.

I am looking to my higher power for growth in all of this. I need to GROW. I know what feels right, but is it right? I need to learn a lesson as I lose this last 80 pounds. I need to learn to control my food cravings. If I do that, that will be real personal growth.

Now to drink more water.
 
For me drinking a lot of water is a life saver. I also do 5 small meals/snacks a day. I think it helps to limit cravings. After a few weeks of eating light my stomach shrunk and now I couldn't eat a huge meal if I wanted to.
 
I'm quite proud of myself in this moment. Normally when I get a call from a particular sister, I head straight to food. But this time, I was full of water, and took some time to digest today's message in my 12 step book. I then reached for an egg-white instead of baking something or going for some fattening foods!

Drank more water and took vitamins.

Off to a good start. I have to be able to identify those things within that drive me to food.
 
Thank you NC_BMAC08!!!

nc_bmac08 said:
For me drinking a lot of water is a life saver. I also do 5 small meals/snacks a day. I think it helps to limit cravings. After a few weeks of eating light my stomach shrunk and now I couldn't eat a huge meal if I wanted to.
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You are so correct, water is a lifesaver. Especially in this battle of wills with food. Sounds as if you have a handle on your food cravings!! :party: Very good. I'm so glad you posted in my diary!!

you keep up the good work. I can tell that you are well on the way to recovery. Keep me in your thoughts. This battle is just that a battle. I'm determined to win it.

XO
Berta
 
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