Bellaryna's Journey

Wow was yesterday a mixed up day emotionally.
I would go from one extreme to the other.
I didn't eat well. Not that I ate badly just didn't do it in proper form.
I skipped breakfast all together.
Didn't eat until noon and then I over ate 'cuz I was so hungry.
Then since I didn't feel hungry I didn't pack any lunch for work. Though I did have 3 Fiber One chewy bars in the car. I ended up eating those instead of a real meal.
They were giving us Rootbeer Floats at work for something good we did last week.
At first I wasn't going to have one but when I am tired and have started my day out badly when it comes to eating I generally continue the trend thru-out the rest of the day.
So yeppers I had a float. Only 1 scoop of ice cream but one whole can of rootbeer.
I haven't had anything that sweet in a looooooong time.
I did grab a large chili from Wendy's somewhere along the way.
So you can see.........not such a good day.
Yesterday when I got up I had a new low of 204.8, which was a .6 drop.
Today the scale said I weighed 206.6, which I know is not true.
As well as eating badly yesterday I also didn't drink any water. Bad, bad, bad!
So though the scale was up today I know it isn't a true weight gain.
'Cuz even though I ate badly I certainly did not overeat enough calories to warrent a 2 pound gain. So hopefully tomorrow's weigh in will reflect better.

I also found out I won't be able to compete in the 5k in June. The start time is at 7:15 in the morning and they won't give out any of the participant packets until the night before.
Since I work the shift that I do that will make it nearly impossible for me.
So I am looking around to see what other kind of opportunites are in my area.
Though I had better get back to the program of running if I hope to be in one of these races. lol
There is always Monday.
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Update on my birthdaughter-
She has invited me to come to her Graduation Party in June. I told her I wouldn't miss it for the world.
I really would like to see her before then but I am leaving that all up to her. I don't want her to feel overwhelmed by the whole situation.
 
Bellaryna said:
Wow was yesterday a mixed up day emotionally.
I would go from one extreme to the other.
I didn't eat well. Not that I ate badly just didn't do it in proper form.
I skipped breakfast all together.
Didn't eat until noon and then I over ate 'cuz I was so hungry.
Then since I didn't feel hungry I didn't pack any lunch for work. Though I did have 3 Fiber One chewy bars in the car. I ended up eating those instead of a real meal.
They were giving us Rootbeer Floats at work for something good we did last week.
At first I wasn't going to have one but when I am tired and have started my day out badly when it comes to eating I generally continue the trend thru-out the rest of the day.
So yeppers I had a float. Only 1 scoop of ice cream but one whole can of rootbeer.
I haven't had anything that sweet in a looooooong time.
I did grab a large chili from Wendy's somewhere along the way.
So you can see.........not such a good day.
Yesterday when I got up I had a new low of 204.8, which was a .6 drop.
Today the scale said I weighed 206.6, which I know is not true.
As well as eating badly yesterday I also didn't drink any water. Bad, bad, bad!
So though the scale was up today I know it isn't a true weight gain.
'Cuz even though I ate badly I certainly did not overeat enough calories to warrent a 2 pound gain. So hopefully tomorrow's weigh in will reflect better.

I also found out I won't be able to compete in the 5k in June. The start time is at 7:15 in the morning and they won't give out any of the participant packets until the night before.
Since I work the shift that I do that will make it nearly impossible for me.
So I am looking around to see what other kind of opportunites are in my area.
Though I had better get back to the program of running if I hope to be in one of these races. lol
There is always Monday.
~~~
Update on my birthdaughter-
She has invited me to come to her Graduation Party in June. I told her I wouldn't miss it for the world.
I really would like to see her before then but I am leaving that all up to her. I don't want her to feel overwhelmed by the whole situation.
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Hey Bella! I think we alllll do the same.. one bad choice makes a trend for the rest of the day. BUT today IS a new day. Im totally starving right now! I just got to work and im only here for 4 hours but all I have is 2 apples!!! I could eat a cow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think your weight will taper back down. Maybe salt?? I know that chili is loaded. Dang, that sounds good right now too..

That is some amazing news about your birth daughter.. I havent read in your prev posts about her.. but WOW.. sounds great. Baby steps, ya know.

Sorry to hear about your friend at church.. but praise God because we KNOW that to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.. AMEN to that! Still very sad I know. So my thoughts and prayers are definately with you.
 
Hey you :)

Thanx for being in my diary and being such an awesome support:)

Im sorry I havent been by lately. I havent even been in my diary, just a bit pre occupied and a bit crazy busy lately.

Ive still being doing all i need to do and such.

Im sorry for all that has been going on:hug2:Losing a friend is hard and sucks:(:hug2:

But you have alot of good going on too:D

I will be back soon:)!
 
Well this always happens. At least lately it does. I do well for about 2-3 weeks and then I start to slip up.
I was doing really well up until last Friday (the day I found out about Marcia) when I didn't eat breakfast. I ended up not eating until nearly 12 noon.
Between the wonderful news of my birthdaughter contacting me and the sad news of my friend losing her battle with cancer I have been on an emotional roller coaster for the better part of 4 days.
And with that came all those old comfort food issues. :(
I know all I need to do is just get right back to it but saying it and doing it are 2 very different things.
Tomorrow is the funeral and I am hoping that once that is behind me I will be able to get back into the swing of things. Right now I don't even feel like running let alone exercising. Just don't have the heart for it. And even if I wanted to hubby is up at the church with Marcia's family so there is no one to watch the kids.
So like I said hopefully after tomorrow I will feel better able to get back into the game.
 
I'm sorry you've hit a hard place in your life! Just remember, you are superwoman!

You can get right back up and continue on. I'm sorry about the loss of your friend. I'm sure the funeral will be beautiful. Keep your chin up!
 
it always seems for me that when something good happens in my life, something bad comes along with it...which seems to be the case here too, unfortunately.

i'm happy to hear about you talking to your birth daughter and the invitation to her graduation party in june. that's so exciting...i'm excited for you--i bet june can't come soon enough!!

on the other hand, i'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. you're in my thoughts and prayers.

once all the commotion and the funeral is behind you, i'm positive you'll be able to get back on track. we all have a little set back every now and then. like kimmy said, you are superwoman...so dig out that cape!! :)
 
kimmy.j said:
I'm sorry you've hit a hard place in your life! Just remember, you are superwoman!

You can get right back up and continue on. I'm sorry about the loss of your friend. I'm sure the funeral will be beautiful. Keep your chin up!
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Thanks for poppin' :lurk5: in today and giving me some love. I sure need/ed it. I know the funeral will be beautiful. Since Marcia was fully aware that she was dying she helped to plan the whole thing. *sniff*
The hard thing is I haven't let myself cry yet. So I know tomorrow I am going to be bawling buckets! *note to self to not forget the kleenex's*
Shep03 said:
it always seems for me that when something good happens in my life, something bad comes along with it...which seems to be the case here too, unfortunately.
I seem to always notice things like that too. I really wish I could of had the chance to tell Marcia about my daughter but I really have a feeling that she already knows. :)
i'm happy to hear about you talking to your birth daughter and the invitation to her graduation party in june. that's so exciting...i'm excited for you--i bet june can't come soon enough!!
I am extremely excited!!! :hurray: I chatted with her again tonight. It was just pure bliss.

on the other hand, i'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. you're in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you. Please if you would pray for Marcia's daughter. She is having a really really hard time with all of this. :angelsad2:
once all the commotion and the funeral is behind you, i'm positive you'll be able to get back on track. we all have a little set back every now and then. like kimmy said, you are superwoman...so dig out that cape!! :)
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I'm sure I will find that cape lying around here somewhere. Most likely under a large pile of clothes! hahaha
I too think that I will have no problem getting back on track after tomorrow. Just for now I need to put all my energy into helping Marcia's family.
Sometimes our priorities need to be rearranged, even if only for a few days.
Thanks again girls.
I really appreciate the uplifting and encouraging thoughts.
 
I got to talk/chat with my birthdaughter again.
It sounds like her parents have raised her well. She seems to be a very nice and caring young lady.
We decided that it would probably be best for us to meet before the Graduation Party. So I left it up to her and she decided that next Tuesday would be a good day for her. So I will be heading up into Michigan next week.
I will hopefully be able to visit with Kimberly aka BikiniBound and see that beautiful baby of hers during the day and then once school lets out (Laura only has 13 days left as of tomorrow) I will spend the rest of the evening with Laura.
I am soooo looking forward to seeing her.
The new avatar that I put up (me in the red shirt) was taken yesterday just before church. I wanted her to see an up to date picture of me.
It is funny because she looked at it and then proclaimed,
"You look like me. Especially now that I cut my hair short........or maybe rather I look like you!"
I got a real kick out of that.
 
Hi Dawn, dear. :hug2:

So sorry to hear about Marcia's passing. How old is her daughter? I'm sure that she is looking down on you from heaven and is thrilled for you and Laura finally getting together.

It was great to talk to you on the phone this afternoon, and I can't wait to see you next week--and hear all about your afternoon with Laura. :party:

Oh, and I'm loving the new avi! That is a great pic of you. I wish I was as photogenic as you. :cuss:

And that sucks that the Whitecaps were the team that lost. :ack2:
 
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Long time no chat sweet-heart. ;)

Super-Big Hugs 4 ya! :grouphug:

I have missed ya.. <3

The new avie is sooooooooooooooooo precious! I love it.

It warms my heart to hear of the updates/news re: Laura. :)

******

Jose and Jenna are wanting to set up a meeting with Chrisy and all of us sometime in May to be with them and Jaxon. :)

MaeMae is still thinking about it.
That is a huge decision she has to be sure of.

Nice to chat with ya again doll!

:hug2:

<3 Stacy
 
Bellaryna said:
The new avatar that I put up (me in the red shirt) was taken yesterday just before church. I wanted her to see an up to date picture of me.
It is funny because she looked at it and then proclaimed,
"You look like me. Especially now that I cut my hair short........or maybe rather I look like you!"
I got a real kick out of that.
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Your a very beautiful woman Dawn!!!

You will need to give May lots of hugs from all her forum admires!!!
 
Hope you're havin' a Blessed Wed!

:hug2:

PS:
I started a fresh diary: Time2Change...Stacy's Journey

That's where you'll find me. *wink*
 
Well here it is Thursday afternoon.
I hadn't/haven't gotten much sleep in this past week.
So even though the funeral and all the related things that went with it are over I have still not got back on track. Exercise wise that is. I am eating a bit better. Could I do even better than that? Sure. But I am taking baby steps.
Personally I am feeling much better. Though I am still sad I am not as sad as I was at the start of this week.
I just know that when I am as tired as I have been that I will only end up making myself sick if I try to "hit it hard" with the exercise.

I found a guy at the YMCA who works at a local am radio station that we have here in town who is going to make me an 8 week c25k program using Christain music that I already own. He owns all the "professional" equipment needed for dicing and splicing sound and music. So it will take him next to no time at all.
I enjoyed doing the c25k alot but I was unable to get past some of the music that was on the podcast that I downloaded.
I am really looking forward to getting back into the c25k, though I will most likely have to start all over again, with music that is inspiring to me.

Laura and I are still chatting on the computer on a fairly regular basis. I find that I really enjoy chatting with her. I am pretty sure that we share just about the same sense of humor. I can't wait for Tuesday to get here!!!

Well for the most part that is about everything that is going on around here.
Just wanted to check in and let everyone know that I am doing well.
Thanks for everyone continuing to pop in on me and encourage me this week.
You guys are the best.

*As a side note*
My weight says that it is up. However I am unsure how much of that is due to taking the week off and how much is due to PMS. Guess I will have to wait it out and see. :)
 
Shep03 said:
i hope everything went well today. :)
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Thanks. The funeral was beautiful. It was nice to be able to share stories about Marcia with other people who loved her as much as I do.

bikinibound said:
Hi Dawn, dear.

So sorry to hear about Marcia's passing. How old is her daughter? I think Michelle is the same age as me. Maybe a yr older. That would put her at 36-37? I'm sure that she is looking down on you from heaven and is thrilled for you and Laura finally getting together. Thanks I would like to think so too. :)

It was great to talk to you on the phone this afternoon, and I can't wait to see you next week--and hear all about your afternoon with Laura.
I enjoyed speaking with you too! And can't wait until Tuesday to see you and May.
Oh, and I'm loving the new avi! That is a great pic of you. I wish I was as photogenic as you.
Thanks! *chuckling* Trust me if you could see the part I cropped out you wouldn't like it nearly so well! hahahaha

And that sucks that the Whitecaps were the team that lost.
Don't worry. Though we beat them that day, they beat us in the series so overall they got the best of us. :)
I think if I have my facts right that the Whitecaps and the Tin Caps are the 2 best teams in the midwest minor right now.
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hickgurltx said:
Long time no chat sweet-heart. ;)

Super-Big Hugs 4 ya! :grouphug:

I have missed ya.. <3

The new avie is sooooooooooooooooo precious! I love it.

It warms my heart to hear of the updates/news re: Laura. :)
Glad to see your back! Missed ya bunches.

******

Jose and Jenna are wanting to set up a meeting with Chrisy and all of us sometime in May to be with them and Jaxon. :)
Wow. I don't know had Phil and Sue given me that option when Laura was younger if I would have been able to do that. I think if MaeMae can do it that is great.
MaeMae is still thinking about it.
That is a huge decision she has to be sure of.

Nice to chat with ya again doll!

:hug2:

<3 Stacy
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cinderelly said:
Your a very beautiful woman Dawn!!!

You will need to give May lots of hugs from all her forum admires!!!
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Thanks Relly! :blush5:
You know it!!!
Kimberly will be lucky if she gets to hold her at all while I am there! hahaha

hickgurltx said:
Hope you're havin' a Blessed Wed!

:hug2:

PS:
I started a fresh diary: Time2Change...Stacy's Journey

That's where you'll find me. *wink*
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Good now I know where you took off to. *snicker*
I'll check it out right away.
 
SS about your dear friend hon.
:grouphug:

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Re: Christian Music

I love Mercy Me (almost there) I know every song word 4 word by heart. Just love that one!

I'm about to get Randy Travis (My Rock-My Faith-My Shield)
My b-day is the end of May but I bet I get it early! lol
:p

*Hugs*

<3 Ya!

Stacy
 
Hi Dawn. It is nice to know your name as you have been very kind to me in my own diary. I don't know the whole story behind your birthdaughter but I hope you have a good visit with her.
I did spend about 20 minutes skimming through some of your diary. 120 something pages is a lot to read for someone with reading comprehension issues. LOL
I can tell you have had a battle but you seem like a fighter so keep on fighting! :coolgleamA:

One of these days I am going to have to download my favorite Christian songs also. I don't like all of them but some of them really give me goose bumps and I almost find myself raising my hands in church. :D
 
Derrick said:
Hi Dawn. It is nice to know your name as you have been very kind to me in my own diary. I don't know the whole story behind your birthdaughter but I hope you have a good visit with her.
I did spend about 20 minutes skimming through some of your diary. 120 something pages is a lot to read for someone with reading comprehension issues. LOL
I can tell you have had a battle but you seem like a fighter so keep on fighting! :coolgleamA:

One of these days I am going to have to download my favorite Christian songs also. I don't like all of them but some of them really give me goose bumps and I almost find myself raising my hands in church. :D
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Hi Derrick!
Thanks for poppin' in on my journal. I see that you posted pretty late. I imagine it might be because you were feeling in pain again. I really pray that that clears up for you soon. I really want you to be able to compete in your triathalon.
Your right I am a fighter. Sometimes the battle does overwhelm me but I always come back swinging.
I know what you mean about some songs giving you the goosebumps.
I get that alot. Usually for me a song will hit me right where I need it to with some circumstance that is going on in my life.
Thanks for the good wishes for my visit with my birthdaughter. I am really excited!
 
hickgurltx said:
SS about your dear friend hon.
:grouphug:

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Re: Christian Music

I love Mercy Me (almost there) I know every song word 4 word by heart. Just love that one!

I'm about to get Randy Travis (My Rock-My Faith-My Shield)
My b-day is the end of May but I bet I get it early! lol
:p

*Hugs*

<3 Ya!

Stacy
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Hey there lovely lady!
I love just about every Mercy Me song there is!
Plus side to being in the ministry hubby usually gets just about every cd that is out there (he's got an account for that at the church) and then I get to enjoy them to!
Hope your having a great Friday!
 
~*Happy Friday!*~

:hug2:

That's right, you're able to get the goods! :D lol

When hubby's job (printing company) used to put out People and Time mags, we got a ton of stuff free..lol

Not no more.. All the major mags pulled out bc of the economy and stuff wrong at the plant. (they need upgraded machines)

The only major one they have left is US Weekly.

They do a lot of brochures and sales ads now.
Mary Kay signed with them a while back, so they do most of those brochures.

Have A Goal Reachin' Day Doll!

*Hugs*

<3 Stacy
 
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