Before: Suzie Slim? After: Suzie Slim! - Diary

I wish I had my scales with me I just cracked and ate tow mars bars if I had my scales I could've weighed myself and maybe seen a shift.. nothing happened in the week I was at home, but I had some cheating moments then to .. I must stay focused I must stay focused. I feel confident now that when refeed comes and maintanence I will be able to keep the weight off. But at this moment in time I still need to drop more weight I am not even half way there so focus is critical.... (this is self talk coz I need it at the moment)

I still need to work to create a comfortable summer body where I can wear shorts, or skirts comfortabley without my thighs rubbing making me want to just stay home instead .. i want to enjoy the sunshine with the rest of them ....:rolleyes:
 
Wake Up to myself

Ok I have a new pledge that I would like to make for my self it is my before the end of 2007 resolutions. Coz I am not strong enough right now and I still haven't really seen anything through the whole way. So this is what I want to be:

SMOKE FREE
FAT FREE
DEBT FREE


yep its that simple in words so as off tomorrow I have to make a really good go of it, not even try just do it :boxing:
 
Yay im proud!!! I have just been maintaining:( Argggg. I keep cheating myself out of what i really want! I'm glad you are getting onto your resolutions!!!
 
Oh Mel, that is just what I listed as a dream I hope to realise. I have been real bad for the last two days last night I went to KFC and was only supposed to buy one piece of chicken so I could rip of the white meat, I ended up coming back to my room with a full meal plus a cheesecake and the night before I had two packets of chips (Crisps) and a two mars bars. I was almost going to do it again tonight, but I thought about the set back it will cause and didn't do it and ate microwave steamed chicken and a salad this accomodation didn't have a kictchen it has a kitchenette, which means a sink a fridge and a microwave no stove top for cooking so that kind of discouraged me. I am gonne try and not smoke tomorrow, Iwas going to today but the colleauge I am with smokes so I decided to do it tomorrow when I meet up with my boss he doesn't smoke, and the hotel has good cable so hopefully that will distract me, fingers crossed.
 
End of Week 10 and someone has really fallen off the wagon! .. hang on thats ME!!!

Well I have had the most un cohens week ever and it has cost me. With regret I am no longer a 70's chick, and just pushed myself further away from the goal of 74kg. I am hoping I can still make goal by the end of the year. I am sad I have a social function every weekend but I really need to focus and the one I want to make an impression on is the one on the 28th so I have two good weeks to makle a mends and get back on the wagon, so note to self: this is not an option it never was and never has been, don't become your miserable self again you are on a good path follow it all the way through and stay on it. THIS IS THE YEAR OF CHANGE!!! the last week was just a hiccup, just hold your breath for 20 seconds and the hiccups will go away! May WEEK 11 bring me joy and happiness! :beerchug:
 
I am 70's again yeayyy ok I ama away from home I hope something really amazing happens hahahah in the next day my body already dropped 2 kg so far so it is highly unlikely I will move maybe not evenat all, but I will write if I see what how I will feel;

If scales show 79+ something i will be :mad:
If scales show 78. something i will be :)
If scales show 77. something I will be :jump::jump:


so fingers crossed until sat arvo weigh in
 
On a very hopeful calculation i really hope to be at my goal weight before the end of this year I have 3 weeks of in January and would really like to be on refeed then it would be perfect timing and then I feel like I can start a new life ..I seriously feel that way I still want to quit smoking as well, I have just ordered my pro active so I can get my skin clear, savings (or i should call it debt paying) is going well major covered by the end of the year, and I want to get health insurance, and in the new year I want to work from 8am to 4:30 pm be home by 5:30 and work normal hours, and i want my relationship to be happy and healthy with no drama, I am getting older and I know what I want from life now I feel like i really do. Right this minute I am feeling flat, I don't know why I just rambled I just did maybe coz I got no one to talk to, I also want to enjoy time at home and by myself and I want to go to bed early and I want to sleep well and i want so many things I guess I want to be healthy, really don't i. I mean that is what I am really saying isn't it.. coz up until now I haven't been healthy and I am scared I am scared about what damage I have done to myself? I hope there is time and room to correct them
 
I just wanna kick myself for all my deviations I could've almost been at goal had I had been 100% all the way but nope I am not ! I suck :confused::mad:
 
I have been bad bad bad.. well I have binged and deviated left right and centre. I nreally need to focus. I have lost all sense of control, I feel sick and I am losing time and losses I am feeling real crap. ts nice and quiet here so i JUST WANTEd to write it here I have gained back 1.3kg so I need to get back on track maybe do some mild moving around to help things along.

:cuss:
 
I am really having a crap time, its nice and quiet here so I will get it off my chest for myself. Diet and weight loss wise I have been terrible all the social occassions of October and this week in november have been a literal cohens write off!!!. Now for more emotional issues, me and my partner, I am at a point and I have been here before where I am thinking is it worth it, I do love him with all my heart but relistically that isn't enough. Well not for me what i give in a relationship needs to be returned and i have to admit its not, at my bbq on tues he left just like that my friends and family asking me where he was and just took off i felt like such a fool, tonight he can over half drunk and then expected me to stay with him when he already told me during the day that he wouldn't be coming and wouldn't be able to see me all weekend. then when he came and i could see he had been drinking i asked hi to stay home and he got angry said i was trying to rule his life and i realised there is no escaping it he is an arrogant drunk and i have been in many crappy situations because off it, not p[hysically abusive or anything but none the less still as emotionally paiful. i have experienced physical violence and i have to say that arrogance is just as hurtful.

well thats about what i am feeling is this worth it.. maybe not if he doesn't care enough about ne our relationship or to be respectful why am i wasting my time?

:nopity:
 
Suzie- Hi sweets! There must be something in the air because I'm feeling crap at the moment too. We all need to learn to love ourselves. I think that is probably the reason we put the weight on in the first place. I think it was for me anyway. No-one deserves to be in a relationship & not feel valued & loved. It's hard to stay motivated to lose but remember you are doing this for you. I'm sorry I haven't been here for ages. I have been trying to work out where you were & have been looking at New You & hadn't quite worked out if it's you over there. (same picture-must be!).I just remembered where your diary is. Duh! Come visit me sometime in my epic diary! Take care of yourself, xo Cate
 
Hi cate, I haven't been on much either I have had a massive drop in motivation and everything. i don't know what it is i hope I can change sson the travel with work is getting to me trying to keep up this routine when moving around so much has become in a way more and more difficult. I just have to stop going on about it and keep sticking to the plan. Thanks for visiting it was a really nice suprise to hear from you xox
 
suzie my dear!!!

there has been an intense drop in motivation all round it seems!!! i hope we can all work ourselves out of this small rut!!!!! hope you are doing well though, and lets keep chatting and updating.

mel xxx
 
Mel !!! I have missed you where have you been hope you wont be away too long again I know I have lost it big time but tomorrow I aim to get back on track I have done my shopping and my colleague is really good and doesn't let me slip.

Come back real soon xoxxo
 
Still Struggling

I am still struggling The start seemed so good and focused but as soon as the care and preparation goes everything spins out of control
 
Suzie, If you can try really hard to remember just how great you felt when you first started Cohen's & know that you can feel like that again it is worth the effort to re-commit. Pretend you are starting all over & see howyou go. I would so like to see you get to your goal weight & take control. You can do it. I know you can. If I can anyone can! Stop beating yourself up sweets. Try again, xo Cate.
 
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