BEFORE, INBETWEEN, AND AFTER 170lbs to 122lbs
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confidence and cellulite questions
I saved your thread to my email for inspiration. It helps me not only to remember that the weight loss I desire is achievable, but also that I don't have to feel insecure around girls that look like you do now b/c they may have been in my shoes once before. I struggle with self esteem issues to the point where I actually find myself despising women that look how I want to look... and questioning my boyfriend b/c I worry he is checking out all those girls and wishing he had a girl that looked like that or comparing me (when really it's just me doing it). He's really respectful and doesn't stare at girls or try to check them out etc - but I imagine it all the time. I even have bad dreams about it b/c I fear it so much. My ex husband compared me all the time and put me down and made me feel terrible. He turned me down all the time when I would put on sexy lingerie for him and then go behind my back and watch porn instead. I started hating myself and took a lot for me to stand up and tell him I was finished. SO glad I divorced him. I used to weigh 199 before marrying him and got up to over 230. I dieted for a few weeks before weighing in at the 230, so I don't know how much my highest weight was. I am 5'10" and I have gotten back down to 248... but I still am extremely fearful of my 2yrs boyfriend fantasizing about others behind my back when he's never done anything really that shows he is or ever would. I can't shake the mental issues from my marriage even after it's been several years away from him. Did you ever have jealousy, insecurity, or mistrust issues? If so, did they get better once you felt better about yourself?? Do you think I can overcome my past and truly trust my boyfriend? I hope so - I am in therapy for it - just started. I don't want to lose him. And finally (sorry this is so long, I guess I needed to get all that stuff out) - did you have much cellulite before weight loss and if so did that improve a lot with the weight loss? I have a 'lot' of cellulite on my thighs and butt.
I really hate it... and b/c I push for my boyfriend to be honest about 'everything' and on top of that, asked him when he had been drinking a lot (truth syrum they call it right?) - he admitted that he wished I didn't have the cellulite too. He said it bothers him a little bit sometimes - he made clear that he never thinks it's gross or that I look bad or anything, but just would like it if I could get rid of it somehow. I am glad he's honest.... and it's actually motivated me to try harder. Thanks so so much for reading and hope you reply soon.
I saved your thread to my email for inspiration. It helps me not only to remember that the weight loss I desire is achievable, but also that I don't have to feel insecure around girls that look like you do now b/c they may have been in my shoes once before. I struggle with self esteem issues to the point where I actually find myself despising women that look how I want to look... and questioning my boyfriend b/c I worry he is checking out all those girls and wishing he had a girl that looked like that or comparing me (when really it's just me doing it). He's really respectful and doesn't stare at girls or try to check them out etc - but I imagine it all the time. I even have bad dreams about it b/c I fear it so much. My ex husband compared me all the time and put me down and made me feel terrible. He turned me down all the time when I would put on sexy lingerie for him and then go behind my back and watch porn instead. I started hating myself and took a lot for me to stand up and tell him I was finished. SO glad I divorced him. I used to weigh 199 before marrying him and got up to over 230. I dieted for a few weeks before weighing in at the 230, so I don't know how much my highest weight was. I am 5'10" and I have gotten back down to 248... but I still am extremely fearful of my 2yrs boyfriend fantasizing about others behind my back when he's never done anything really that shows he is or ever would. I can't shake the mental issues from my marriage even after it's been several years away from him. Did you ever have jealousy, insecurity, or mistrust issues? If so, did they get better once you felt better about yourself?? Do you think I can overcome my past and truly trust my boyfriend? I hope so - I am in therapy for it - just started. I don't want to lose him. And finally (sorry this is so long, I guess I needed to get all that stuff out) - did you have much cellulite before weight loss and if so did that improve a lot with the weight loss? I have a 'lot' of cellulite on my thighs and butt.
I really hate it... and b/c I push for my boyfriend to be honest about 'everything' and on top of that, asked him when he had been drinking a lot (truth syrum they call it right?) - he admitted that he wished I didn't have the cellulite too. He said it bothers him a little bit sometimes - he made clear that he never thinks it's gross or that I look bad or anything, but just would like it if I could get rid of it somehow. I am glad he's honest.... and it's actually motivated me to try harder. Thanks so so much for reading and hope you reply soon.
ktjean430
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I saved your thread to my email for inspiration. It helps me not only to remember that the weight loss I desire is achievable, but also that I don't have to feel insecure around girls that look like you do now b/c they may have been in my shoes once before. I struggle with self esteem issues to the point where I actually find myself despising women that look how I want to look... and questioning my boyfriend b/c I worry he is checking out all those girls and wishing he had a girl that looked like that or comparing me (when really it's just me doing it). He's really respectful and doesn't stare at girls or try to check them out etc - but I imagine it all the time. I even have bad dreams about it b/c I fear it so much. My ex husband compared me all the time and put me down and made me feel terrible. He turned me down all the time when I would put on sexy lingerie for him and then go behind my back and watch porn instead. I started hating myself and took a lot for me to stand up and tell him I was finished. SO glad I divorced him. I used to weigh 199 before marrying him and got up to over 230. I dieted for a few weeks before weighing in at the 230, so I don't know how much my highest weight was. I am 5'10" and I have gotten back down to 248... but I still am extremely fearful of my 2yrs boyfriend fantasizing about others behind my back when he's never done anything really that shows he is or ever would. I can't shake the mental issues from my marriage even after it's been several years away from him. Did you ever have jealousy, insecurity, or mistrust issues? If so, did they get better once you felt better about yourself?? Do you think I can overcome my past and truly trust my boyfriend? I hope so - I am in therapy for it - just started. I don't want to lose him. And finally (sorry this is so long, I guess I needed to get all that stuff out) - did you have much cellulite before weight loss and if so did that improve a lot with the weight loss? I have a 'lot' of cellulite on my thighs and butt.
First off i want to say im so sorry about your first husband treating you like that, men like that need to be slapped across the face a billion times! Everyone has flaws and if the person loves you enough the flaws dont matter! I did feel insecure somtimes when i was at my heaviest and dating my husband bc when we first started dating i weighed 140-145 and when i started cosmetology school is where i gained the rest of my weight. He was completely honest with me about my weight which i respected. When i would complain about being fat, he straight out would say your not "fat" but you could lose some weight. He wouldnt ever just out of the blue say your fat or lose weight! The only time he would bring anything up is if i was complaining about my weight. He would get upset with me bc i was constantly complaining but i wasnt doing anything about it. So he asked me to start coming to the gym with him. He was/is really into working out so that helped me a lot. I really just needed someone to put my head on straight and to tell me "well if you think your fat, then fix it bc i know you can you just have to stick with it". I am pretty much his creation haha! ya i did all the cardio and changed my diet myself but he pushed me into being a healthy person and we would weightlift together and he'd push me to do the best i could do!
All you can do is trust your boyfriend and know that he loves you. Trust me, if he sees your trying to make yourself a healthier person, he will be proud of you and he should support you. Dont try to get worried about other women, your just as beautiful as them! Guys dont like girls based on just their appearance. My husband will think some other girl is hot but that doesnt mean he wants her, woman do the same thing about men, we think they are hot but guess what our significant other is hot too and their personality makes them even BETTER. So all you can do is stay confident and if he screws up the relationship, he wasnt worth it anyways bc every girl derserves to be treated like a queen
As for cellulite, i have it on my thighs. It was worse when i was heavier but i still have it (not as bad but its still there). Every woman has some cellulite (i would think!) somewhere on their body...same with stretch marks, I had some on my stomach but they faded so much when i lost my weight and i do have some on my boobs but i know a lot of woman do so i dont worry about it. I use to be so scared to have my husband see me completely butt naked but now i dont give a crap. He loves my body (even with my flaws) and im proud of it! So you should be too!!
Just keep it up girl and dont let anyone tell you that you cant do it and be proud of the body you have before and after your weightloss!
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thanks for replying!
The cellulite on my thighs is really really really bad. It's a lot and I am hoping most of it will disappear with my weight loss. Did you use any kind of skin firming lotion or anything? I'm wondering b/c the slightly droopy belly button completely firmed up and snapped back for you. I'm somewhat worried about that as well... I don't want to have loose skin
Thank you so much for being so nice. It's really a strange feeling for me to be treated kindly by someone that looks like you. I'm always feel crappy about myself when I'm around girls that look how you do b/c I think they look down on me. I guess the same as with men - I had some bad experiences and got it into my head that all thin/attractive women are the same. I never thought about how they could have been where I am before - I guess b/c I never thought that someone could lose that much weight without still looking like they used to be big. I don't know. Hopefully I will stop feeling the way I have before and realize that just b/c someone is skinny and beautiful doesn't mean they are a shallow b*tch that wants other girls boyfriends to check her out and make the girlfriend feel bad. Thank you.
The cellulite on my thighs is really really really bad. It's a lot and I am hoping most of it will disappear with my weight loss. Did you use any kind of skin firming lotion or anything? I'm wondering b/c the slightly droopy belly button completely firmed up and snapped back for you. I'm somewhat worried about that as well... I don't want to have loose skin
Thank you so much for being so nice. It's really a strange feeling for me to be treated kindly by someone that looks like you. I'm always feel crappy about myself when I'm around girls that look how you do b/c I think they look down on me. I guess the same as with men - I had some bad experiences and got it into my head that all thin/attractive women are the same. I never thought about how they could have been where I am before - I guess b/c I never thought that someone could lose that much weight without still looking like they used to be big. I don't know. Hopefully I will stop feeling the way I have before and realize that just b/c someone is skinny and beautiful doesn't mean they are a shallow b*tch that wants other girls boyfriends to check her out and make the girlfriend feel bad. Thank you.
Dorrie
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Wow!! You look amazing!! I am getting married this July and I am going to drop some weight for it! You inspired me with these photos!! Thank you!!
My question kind of connects with angels. Just wondering if you had stretch marks? If so did they disappear or did you use something? So inspired! I came from 185 last year (February) to now at 139..looking to at least get to 130 and then possibly 125! Seems crazy to even think I will get there but you are my living proof its possible!
shesgoinhollywo
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OMG do you look INCREDIBLE. So jealous. I would love to look like you!
jmlls07
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KT Jean - I have NO IDEA where I have been to have missed this thread and your amazing transformation all this time, and yes I am posting to it even after a month of it being old.. but PLEASE I beg you - never take down these photos or your comments of how you made such a transformation. Your progress is a HUGE inspiration, its completely insane. Every day for the rest of my life Im going to reference this thread until I look just as hot as you. I'm sure I speak for all of us (over and over) to say THANK YOU for sharing such an amazing accomplishment. Oh and congratulations on your wedding! You look so very incredible! 
ktjean430
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Ya I still have stretch marks. I have them around my belly button but they faded so much that I can barely see them. Lets just hope they don’t get a lot worse since im pregnant..and if they do oh well its a part of life. Im almost 6 months now and my stretch marks around my bully button are still pretty faded so I hope it stays that way. I use lots of lotion too (Lay It On Thick Body Cream from Bath and Body Works) You will for sure get to that weight if you believe it and keep up the hard work ? Good luck!! ?
Aww thanks ?
Your WAY too sweet!! It was a hard journey but well worth it…and ill be taking that journey again once our baby girl is born ?KT Jean - I have NO IDEA where I have been to have missed this thread and your amazing transformation all this time, and yes I am posting to it even after a month of it being old.. but PLEASE I beg you - never take down these photos or your comments of how you made such a transformation. Your progress is a HUGE inspiration, its completely insane. Every day for the rest of my life Im going to reference this thread until I look just as hot as you. I'm sure I speak for all of us (over and over) to say THANK YOU for sharing such an amazing accomplishment. Oh and congratulations on your wedding! You look so very incredible!
Speechless
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Wow, congrats girl. Well done!
i wanted to ask what your height is.
even tho i'm way late, just wanted to thank you for sharing your before and after. it's
a big inspiration to me. gives me a kick on the butt to get back on the wagon and don't give up. also congrats on the baby and you look great 6 months into your pregnancy still.
even tho i'm way late, just wanted to thank you for sharing your before and after. it's
a big inspiration to me. gives me a kick on the butt to get back on the wagon and don't give up. also congrats on the baby and you look great 6 months into your pregnancy still.
I know I'm totally repeating what evryone else has said, but you are the one that inspired me to join this site and hard core loose weight. I am a newlywed myself and fear when I loose the weight I will gain it back in pregnancy, but again you've shown me otherwise. I'm 5'4" at 160lbs. And hope tto get downto at least 135 if not less. I tooo am taking a bikini pic now to help motivate myself. Thank you for the inspiration and showing me it is possible with hard work
ktjean430
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Thank you so much!
Thanks! My husband picked it out…it had to grow on me but I LOVE it nowI love the baby's name! Ah, stretch marks. I have them...not much you can do. I guess they tell a story, & a great one at that.
Ya stretch marks aren’t fun but your right, they for sure tell a great story!Im 5’3”. Thank you so much. Im excited to kick my butt back in gear once she is here! lol
I totally understand, I was really scared too. Ive gained 30 pounds and im 36 weeks, even though that’s a normal amount to gain during pregnancy it still shocks you, but if you can lose the weight once, you can do it again!
I wish you the best of luck with your weightloss and marriage!! CONGRATS!Thank you!! Best of luck to you too with your weightloss journey!! Stay motivated and you will surprise yourself on how strong you really are!Very motivational thread. Thank you!
I started my journey (again) a week or so ago. Your photos are a huge inspiration.
Best of luck with the pregnancy, and I hope you share your post-baby weight loss journey with the forum after the baby is born.
Awww thanks! I cant wait to work hard to get it back again!
