BeckyB's diary

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BeckyB

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This is my diary. I've never been good at diary keeping.

Let's start at the begining. I am Becky age 29, live in northern Indiana so there are lots of lakes and maybe this summer I can do some swimming since I love to swim. I was always thin (see below)

age 17

age 18

I was a dancer so 6 nights a week 10 -13 hours a day I was moving and dancing is a form of exercise. By age of 20 I was near 179 pounds.

age 20

The weight continued and continued until I got to 280 pounds.

age 28

So today I started making a real effort to get to 145, which still more than when I was dancing it is a healthy weight for me and my build. I started off by walking a little more than a mile. maybe 2 miles I didn't measure it but I know it took 37 minutes to walk it. I was told to vary my activities so I plan to do some outdoors exercises tomorrow (today). I am surrounded by people who don't eat healthy or eat breakfast so I am sure that will be a small hinderence in my journey but I will keep trying.

starting weight: 280
goal weight: 145
 
hi becky and welcome to wlf. i hope you find us useful - digging through other peoples diaries can be a great help as well as keeping your won. 145 is a very good target and by posting those pics it means youve realised that you can do it and its achievable. :) what are you planning to do do reach that weight? may i recommend a food tracking website called fitday that will help you calculate what is going in and out of your body.
good luck with the journey to a healthier you! xx
 
hey welcome to wlf, :) what sophie said is right. get a strategy. Think about some life changes. :) Get to know some of us. I think thats one of the reasons I come back to my diary because i enjoy the conversations here. People that understand what you're going through.
But yeah, I know what you mean about being nice and thin in your late teens and then gaining weight through your 20s. I'm 26 I got up to 186 lbs, and I used to be very petite. Yep. those were the days. :) We can have them again with the right tools!
 
thank you both for the wonderful support. I have a dietician who on Mondays maps out a menu for the entire week and if strong enough I can stick to it. Today I ate only what I needed to eat and ofcourse dug out the older issues of a fitness magazine I had. I learned a great deal about myself today. I learned that I eat for 3 basic reasons and none of them deal with needing to or eating to survive.

I eat because I am depressed which reminded me of Austin Powers 2 when the Fat man said.. "I eat because I'm unhappy and I'm unhappy because I eat".. so I have to learn when I feel depressed I have to avoid food. The second reason I eat is because I'm lonely. my younger sister asked how I am lonely when I'm never alone which I think may stem back to my depression. and Third I eat because I am bored. Now when I get bored I will exercise or if I have done my daily alotment of exercise I will find a good healthy hobby.

I put my pictures up not only for others to see but to help motivate me. For anyone who can understand my mind, this is my theory: if I can see it, I can be it. I see myself they way I want to look and therefore it motivates me to make the needed changes to be the way I want to look.


How often do you check to see if you lost weight?
 
AS I prepare to go to bed I browsed through several postings some helpful some didn't make much sence, but I read one which was written about sex and bondy image and Steve made it all crystal clear for me. he said and if I get this quote wrong feel free to correct me "It makes losing wieght harder if you hate your body". I hate my body and how I look. When I met the man I am with I was so scared for him to meet me face to face. We met online and he lives in Western Canada and I live in Midwest USA. When he saw pictures he still seemed fine and when I flew out to meet him I was scared. I feared he'd reject me because I am fat and in my eyes ugly. But he didn't. infact he and I have remained together for over a year and though he'd like to see me again he knows I can't go out there just now. He however is my rock and my support. I learned that he loves me for me and my body and if I learn to love me and my body then Even if I don't make it to my goal of 145.. if I only get to 165 or 175 as long as I love my body I will be happy.
 
most people weigh in once a week. at the same time. IMO, the best time is in the morning before breakfast and after youve been to the loo.
i think loving your body is important - you are in this journey because you love your body and you want to improve it and treat it with respect by leading a healthy lifestyle.
x
 
frustration is something I have t learn to deal with. I'm frustrated cuz I know how to lose the weight, but I just can't seem to get it to come off and not to criticize anyone but the show Celebrity Fit Club (an American Reality show where celebrities who are over weight try to lose weight) has be frustrated. not a single celebrity lost less than 8 poundes in their first 17 days and I have lost 0 in 7 days..

Who knows maybe it's just because I want to see immediate results that I'm frustrated. I mean I am happy everyone around here is losing weight I'm just not sure why I'm not..

time to rest and start all over again in the morning..
 
Don't be discouraged...On Celebrity Fit Club they have people designing workouts and telling them what to eat and that's all they have to do for the time they're there. You have a normal life to live and don't have all that at your fingertips..so it's ok..give it time. I've been stuck at the same weight for quite a while too. Just keep truckin and things will go your way!
 
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