Back on Track

I really did want to take a nap at work for a few days there. This cold was a yucky one.

On the way home from work I was feeling a bit blue. Same in the shower last night - that's when I just let it all go.

But this morning I woke up happy. Actually happy. Have my precious girls with me. We had cereal for breakfast and are watching cartoons.

I looked up a few people on the weight loss table who seem to share some similarities with me (age, height, weight lost or to be lost, etc) and visited their diaries. Also visited some people who have always been here for me and I hope they know how helpful they've been.

I am going to put on workout clothes now and go to the apt gym. Don't know what I'll do there yet, but will report back. There is a kids' play room next door that the girls are always asking me to take them to.
 
So I went to the "gym" yesterday.

Brought my laptop for the girls to play on. There is one in the playroom next door, so they could each play on one. Right now their obsession is webkinz. Don't ask.

Did the leg press. Don't normally like to do lower body because my legs get muscular pretty easily, I usually let the running take care of lower body. But tried it anyway.

Also did the treadmill. The "forest" walk. Starts at 0 incline and works up to 7 incline, and then back down to 0. Just walked it and just did a mile. Far cry from my running a 5k, but I am still sick with this cold and I did get a little clammy and dizzy, so it was good to just do it anyway. Have only been running about 4-5 times in the past 6 months....

Not much in this "gym" to do, but at least the girls can be nearby.
 
The treadmill - lol - Ive used it once and only went a miole - lol - I think Id prefer to walk - however my goal is to start running on the treadmill...Im going to move it in the living room and hope it gives me more insentive to use it...

You are getting through this Patty just keep holding on:):):)
 
Slept in late for me today, younger daughter was up sick a lot last night.

Woke up in a productive mood and decided to clean the apt and do laundry. Have not been in that mood in about a month! Have a bunch of other stuff to do today before I get on a 7am flight out of town tomorrow, so don't know if I'll get it all done. Want the girls to have fun too, not just work today. We are about to go shopping.

My mood is a little sad right now. It washes over me sometimes. I know it will get better someday, but my heart was broken and I just can't imagine opening my heart to someone ever again. So? I've got plenty to keep me busy with my kids and work, and I'd have been happy with that. I wish I'd never met that person. It is NOT better to have loved and lost....
 
Patty said:
My mood is a little sad right now. It washes over me sometimes. I know it will get better someday, but my heart was broken and I just can't imagine opening my heart to someone ever again. So? I've got plenty to keep me busy with my kids and work, and I'd have been happy with that. I wish I'd never met that person. It is NOT better to have loved and lost....
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Here here girl...after 3 long years of being seperated from my x I know I am finally done and feel better abt it and ready to move on and not move on wiht someone else just move on with my life...I knwo you arent talk in abt your x but still...suffering from a broken heart sucks...
 
Am in Ohio, again...

Had an important demo this morning. Got through it ok. Don't have much to do until the plane goes back tomorrow at 5pm. At least I get to ride the company plane this time....

There's a "gym" at the hotel. Two treadmills I think is all it is. Maybe I'll get on it tonight or in the am. Did some stretching in the hotel last night. Guess I could do sit ups or pushups.

Am actually in the mood to go out for drinks tonight. The work is done; the pressure is off.
 
Hi Patty, thanks for stopping by my diary the other day. Your post was so kind and I needed that when I read it tonight.

Congratulations on your own weight loss. Your life has been up and down for awhile. I hope it calms soon and you find some peace away from the future ex. Divorce just really stinks, sucks, brings out the worse in some.......you get the point since you are living it.

I haven't found your diary whining at all, rather inspirational with your ongoing fitness along with life's curve balls and how busy your life is......traveling, kids, work, it makes mine feel calm.
 
Have actually been lurking around the forum more often recently, reading other people's advice and sometimes posting.

Just don't have much to enter in my diary. I guess I'm maintaining. Lost some weight in the last few weeks due to stress, but can't claim much victory there except be glad I didn't turn to food in time of stress. Now it's the normal up one lb down one lb.

Will someday reintroduce walking, running and weights. These are a few of my favorite things....

This is still a place I come to for advice, friends and support. Someday soon I hope to be at a place where I can give more than I receive.
 
Hey you - you sound like you are doing better - Im sorry it has been awhile since I have gotten in here - been a bit of a crazy wek - I appreciate you dropping by my diary...it is funny isnt it what they can call a gym - I guess I have a gym as well - i have a treadmill a bike and an elliptical - LOL!!!

You sound liek your going on the right path your posts sound better and im glad the pressure is off of work anyway
 
Today met with the husband's divorce attorney he hired. The idiot signed an agreeement with her. We were trying to handle it ourselves and were going to go through mediation together. Now I guess it will go faster but cost thousands.

P.S. I don't like men right now.
 
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chin up girl. having gone through this, I know there's times no matter what others say or do to try and cheer you up just falls short, it's the nature of the beast. the only thing I can share is when this is all said and done, your glow will blind me from 10 states away.

*does a shot of Jose` Gold in your honor*
 
Patty said:
P.S. I don't like men right now.
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Heh heh heh...I havent liked men for a looong time sister ... somethign abt nasty seperatations and divorices and such but honestly if you can just get it done and over with as soon as possible than do it - I think you will all be better off...dragging it out really sucks ass man...

As always your in my thoughts:hug2:
 
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chin up girl. having gone through this, I know there's times no matter what others say or do to try and cheer you up just falls short, it's the nature of the beast. the only thing I can share is when this is all said and done, your glow will blind me from 10 states away.

*does a shot of Jose` Gold in your honor*
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ah.... there's my friend. your pm box is filled up. we haven't visited in ages. don't make me call you.

will you make it patron???? thanks and big hugs as usual.
 
Patty said:
ah.... there's my friend. your pm box is filled up. we haven't visited in ages. don't make me call you.

will you make it patron???? thanks and big hugs as usual.
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oh yeah, the PM thing *sigh*

I don't fear you calling me, I do however fear what you'll call me :p

Hope the day treats you well :)
 
Howdy Patty,

I hope you're doing well - sorry to hear about the attorney - they definitely have a way of sucking up the cash :eek:
 
Thanks guys for the well wishes. I had the girls last night and will have them all day and tonight. That will be nice. I share the girls 50/50 with the ex because he seems to need it, but I miss them terribly when I don't have them. I'm currently drafting visitation for 4/3 days in my favor so I get a little more time, but he gets them when I travel, so it pretty much evens out. I leave for NY tomorrow.

We are going to be bad at Whataburger for breakfast, then probably go swimming today. Might go work out first. Shop later. Clean the apt (I know I shouldn't do that today, but I want to return back to town to a clean place and make the kids help).

Did not sleep well again last night. Woke up at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep. Ugh. Got my doc to prescribe sleeping pills last month after not sleeping for about a month. Really helps me be able to function during the day (by giving me a full night's sleep), but if I don't take it before bed, I still really have problems with waking up between 1-3am and "thinking" all night.

I hate pills and have never wanted those to be a solution, but this is temporary. Until the divorce and life is settled.
 
Am people watching at the coffee shop....

Have a little work to do before I pack and get on the plane this afternoon, but don't have to go into the office. So can run errands, etc. now.

Will poke around a few diaries now.
 
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