Back Fron An Unnecesary Hiatus

[SadTreeHugger]

I never stopped having a problem with my weight. I was chubby baby and as I grew I became aware of how I was discriminated against at school solely because of of my being overweight, Mom promised me it was only baby fat and it would be gone soon enough. However, to cope with how I realized being outcast made me feel, you guessed it: I ate.
I guess I never stopped eating. I tried diets, probably restricting myself as young as twelve years old. This past January, I gave it my all and kept giving for six months. I lost twenty-five pounds.
Something happened in the middle of the year, I don't know what triggered it, but it's been a steady downfall since then. Binging, purging, bulimia, anorexia (with a buddy from high school)...I stopped losing. However, I did lose something...my courage, self-respect, will power and sight of my goals.
I changed my user name. I have been here before. I'm starting fresh. I need to get back on track. Food, at present, is ruling over my life. I am a prisoner of food, and anyone who can't understand that...you can't begin to imagine how terrible it is.
It's good to be back, and if I have to use this forum as a tool for the rest of my life, at least I'll be free.

Thank you for your time. I'm ready for this again.

 

[fat2fit]

Welcome back! Stick to your plan and stay focused and you will do great. I would like to see you change your user name again to HappyTreeHugger!
Oh, and if you are still binging/purging or suffering from anorexia...please seek help. It is too serious to play around with.
Cathy

 

[yarmiah]

Getting started is the first step. There will be tought choices to make, especially at the beginning but stay focused on your goal and don't choose to diet- instead make changes to make a healthier happier you!

 

[SadTreeHugger]

Welcome back! Stick to your plan and stay focused and you will do great. I would like to see you change your user name again to HappyTreeHugger!

You know, hugging trees does make me happy, but when I think of all the trouble other trees are having right now and all the environmental troubles plaguing out our beautiful Earth right now...I get sad. If I had been able to make it longer, my UN would have been HugThePolarBears.