B A Rabbit

somesaymisty said:
I'm sorry to hear about your puppy! I hope he feels better soon. I have a cat who is allergic to everything, and she's always at the vet for some medicine or treatment or other illness, so I can identify with how expensive those vets are! I really want a puppy, but I'm terrified I would get another sickly animal (that always seems to be the way it goes for me) and not be able to afford it.!

Nothing risked, nothing gained. Maybe it would be better to get an older dog. one thats not ripping the house apart faster than you can fix it? one that if he was sickly, you'd know about it before hand. just a thought.

somesaymisty said:
If the hydroxycut is giving you that much energy, I bet you're dropping weight as we speak. Don't worry about hitting the gym. Just try to get in some pushups and situps to keep building lean muscle. You'll keep burning calories that way! Good luck and keep it up!

SHEESH! yeah, as if... It really did boost my energy levels so mush so that when I got to work this morning, I looked like I was doped out on speed or something. I actually scared myself this morning. I took the two pills and then sat in traffic for an hour on the way to work. Not recommended. By the time I got homne this afternoon, I still felt a little strung out and couldn't come down enough to get any sleep. Now its after midnight, And I've finally calmed down enough that I know I could sleep. But I'm at work... Ah well, I can't say I didn't expect this.

Tonight, I felt.... Like mybody was mad at me for NOT working out. That the themogennisis that I've been hitting the last couple few days wasn't happening and my body was releaseing energy, but it had no where to go, so it was getting recycled back into the fat cells.Too deep I guess. never mind.

Time for me to back off! Complete system reset coming up. I will pick everything back up tomorrow afternoon with a good gym session.

Did I mention that I had a healthy lunch yesterday? Nice roast beef sandwhich. It was on one of those rolls that you you could tell was going to be tasty and fattening, But good. See ya gotta understand that normally, I would have had a full size calzone with side of fries and a two liter of Coke. So, just the fact I was able to stay away from that and stick to the sandwhich and water is a plus. (At least as far as I look at it)
 
Well no sooner than I reset my meter to purge any guilt from not having the best of days, than did I go right upstairs and eat myself four huge Peanut Butter Chips cookies.... "AND THEY WERE GOOD TOO!!!! It would have been six, But I gave two to my partner and told him if he didn't want them to throw them away becouse I didn't need any more sugar in my system.

I either skipped breakfast becouse I felt guilty, or I was to tired to try and find something to eat. Either way, I guess it worked out ok.

But not for poor Phoenix, Lori left the window open in the living room last night to air it out and becouse it was nice out. But this morning it was kinda cool. I went to shut the window just as Phoenix jumped up to look out it and I shut it on his good paw. Ouch, I felt so bad. He's alright though. He;'s mad at me, But I think I can live with it.

I went to bed around 10am and asked Lori to complete what she had to do by 6pm as I wanted to go to the gym before work. that gave her 8 hours.

well she didn't make it home 'till seven but she had a good excuse. She went to get her nails done. Waitaminute.... You went to get your nails done? We've got no money, and no food in the house But she could afford to get her nails done? Something didn't quite add up. especialy since my diet has been thrown into chaos becouse we are living on whatever we can find. But I didn't make a fuss about it. She said she went to the bank and took out some of the money she had been saving to get her new used car by the end of the month. Saving money? and yet we still our back rent? I'm hoping this is a turning point for her realizing we can't afford a second car right now. I Just hope she's been taking stock the last couple of weeks on this whole car thing becouse It dosen't give me a rosey feeling.

Anyway, It was off to the Gym at around 7:30 with the hope that I could still get everything in, before closing and give myself enough time to get ready for work. She asked me to stop at Petco and pick up some wet dog food as she
forgot to get some. And naturally the line at the store was long and slow moving. I finnally made it to the Gym at 8:15 and had to forgo my streaches in lue of the real fat burning stuff like running!

I checked my heart rate before I started and it was cranking out at 130. I don't know if this was becouse I was moving fast to try and get going, or it was the Hydroxcut. Anyway, I don't think I'm going to go with max doses anytime soon as this is some powerful stuff and I don't need a heartattack. 2 pills with food before myworkout is enough for me right now. maybe if I'm feeling froggy I'll take one before work.

But if I'm humming along at 130 with two pills, I shudder to think what I'll be like on three pills two times a day.

Anyhow, My workout was winding down around 9:45pm. I had finished my running. (walk for .25, run for .25 up to 2 miles) and my weight lifting. legs/knees, upper body and abdomins. plus twenty minutes in the steam room. and was just settleing into the jaccusi to rest tired muscles, when the woman came down and told me Lori was on the phone. WTF?

I high tail it out of there without a shower and gave her a call. She's going to work. Again WTF? Didn't I just screw with my schedule for the last two days so the dogs wouldn't be home alone? and now she was going to work on her night off AND leave the dogs by themselves? I calmed myself down and told myself we could use the money and just sucked it up. It wasen't the best workout I ever had, But it wasen't the worst either.

Lori is alright, She's just like me ,stubbon. We're both pieces. bithdays 8 days apart. and if it wasen't for her, I'd prolly have punched some store cleark out for looking at me the wrong way. Basiclly she keeps me calm and square. She really dosen't deserve me bad mouthing her, And tries her hardest to get things done. Well she haden't been trying her hardest, But anybody here knows that "a body at rest tends to stay at rest and a body in motion tends to stay in motion" SHe had been down for so long that she really didn't want to do anything and now that she's working again, she's back to trying to do her best. Playing catch up, sure. but even thats better than not playing at all. As far as I can see, She deserves her little rewards. We all take our breaks when we can get them. I take mine with cookies in the middle of the night, I'd rather get my nails done. :D
 
You should make sure she knows what you just said about her. A girl needs to hear those things! :eek: It only makes us want to try harder. I just wanted to let you know that I've been reading up on stretching. The theory out there now is that stretching before a workout might make you more vulnerable to injury because your muscles aren't warmed up and pliable before your stretches. So don't worry about not getting the stretching in. That can be something you do at home after the workout! Keep up the good work.
 
Ahh I can totally relate to your you and your wife. Sometimes I spend way too much money that I don't have, just in order to live as I normally do (when I am employed and not in school). My boyfriend used to get so frustrated with me, but surprisingly I am usually the one that's better with our money! He recently went to college and now is not making the $25/hour he was making before getting an education, and is having a really hard time with it. I think it would be best, like somesaymisty said, to just discuss this with her. Maybe she has some concerns to discuss with you as well? :) Prolly not eh? :p
 
lindsz said:
I think it would be best, like somesaymisty said, to just discuss this with her. Maybe she has some concerns to discuss with you as well? :) Prolly not eh? :p

Oh we discuss it. Thats one of the best things about our relationship. In fact we talk more than we... well nevermind :eek: . SSometimes, Not often mind you, I can be so pissed that I'll jump out of the car at a red light and not get back in until she's crying like a little baby. But after everything calms down, we are both willing to talk things out. She knows I couldn't survive without her... in fact she reminds me of that fact quite regularly. But enough about her. Its gettin' to mushy in here.

I just wanted to let you know that I've been reading up on stretching. The theory out there now is that stretching before a workout might make you more vulnerable to injury because your muscles aren't warmed up and pliable before your stretches. So don't worry about not getting the stretching in.

Here's what I know as fact: When I don't streach before I run, The quality of my run is not as good as when I do.

Lets see if I can outline those streaches that I mostly do as part of my work out.

1) Heel to tow rocking.
2) Partial squats
3) Butt kicks.
4)Neck flexion and extention
5) Neck Lateral flexion
6) Trunk Flexion
7)Trunk Laterel Flexion
8)Upper back streach
9) Chest streach
10) Shoulder and neck streach
11) Triceps Streach
12)Quadriceps streach
13)Modified Hurdler streach
14) Hip and back streach
15) Groin streach
16)Hamstring streach
17)Lying down ITB streach
18)Single leg low back streach
19)Pushups
20)Crunches
21)Elbow to knee crunches
22) Side crunches
23)Side leg raises
24) Steam engines
25)Side straddle hops

The Push-ups and Crunches are vital becouse they are both in the Army's Annual Phyical fitness test. This whole thing takes about 15 to twenty minutes.

Usually after that, I try and do two sets of "Surya Namaskar" (yes I spelled that right) or the Sun salutation of Yoga persuasion. its twelve steps holding each position for a five count. Although If I can't find a private spot in the gym, I tend to leave these out as a fat guy with no hair and a bandana can look really funny standing there with his hands in the air. Heck it gets me giggling just looking at myself in the mirror.

After that I get on the treadmill. I do at least two miles. (last night I did almost three. I try and alternate running and walking. but if I had my preference I'd make it all running and no walking. (30 to 45 minutes)

From there its back down to the weight room where I work very lightly on my legs/knees, my upper body including weight assisted chin-ups. ANd my abs.

From there I'll spend about twenty minutes in either the sauna or steam room (depending on which is empty) just to give my work out that little extra omph.
Tonight I was feeling wasted after all that. so my time in the steam room was cut in half.

The whole thing takes about 2 1/2 hours. At which time I have dinner (tonight it was chicken+salad) then head off to work for the night. and another mile and half walk.

After work, I'll grab some breakfast and head to bed for the day. Tomorrow is friday, and I don't have to work or work out based on my schedule. I'll prolly get some good drawing/coloring in while watching starwars or Lord of the rings for the upteenth time.

This weekend, I need to go food shoping, DO the dishes, laundry, and take the dogs for a walk, provided Phoenix has his little cast removed. :(
 
Hi B A rabbit,
Just reading thorw some of your journals, and you are doing good with your exercises. Keep it up. And with you and your wife, I'm glad to hear that ya'll talk it out. It's always good to talk things out after the fact. I know my hubb y and I talk alot of Sh*t to eachother and hurt each's feelings at the time of argument but then when we calm ourselves we talk it out and all that good stuff.
Have a great day and Stay POSITIVE
 
jelly belly88 said:
I know my hubb y and I talk alot of Sh*t to eachother and hurt each's feelings at the time of argument but then when we calm ourselves we talk it out and all that good stuff.


Thanks, It helps to know other people beside us do the same things. I guess it's normal. Nothing to really worry about. Maybe it's just my nervous nature.

On to to this weekends drama.

Friday morning I gotout of work and high-tailed it to the Army recruiters office to show off my progress and do that weigh-in thing I had set my goal for but missed becouse of the dog. But friday was good friday and the recruiter was closed. I figured this out after standing on his poarch for 30 minutes watching the traffic go by. Well, I figured I had earned it. SO I went to McDonalds for breakfast. AND IT WAS GOOD TOO! After stuffing myself like I used to do everyday, I went home and sat down to relax. Just when it was time to hit the rack (navy term for bed), Lori got up, clenching her jaw. She was is pain. Pain like I haven't seen her in since she got that Abscess removed from her bunghole. This time the culprit was wisdom teeth.

Off to the dentist we went to see what could be done about this. Needless to say, she needs a good two grand worth of work done. Thank heavens I have some insurence to defry the cost. Otherwise between this and the dogs stiches, I might never see the light of day again.

(The thing that kills me is she still thinks we can afford another car. Go figure. But I'll leave that alone until the time comes for it. )

Anywoo, I spent the rest of the day running around trying to get everything done and take care of her. I filled her prescription for, get this, Vicidin with codine(if she was in any pain before this was sure to kill it)
and Amoxicilion. Then I had to take Phoenix back up to the doctor to get his bandgae changed. No cost there, thank heavens. and drop my truck off for its promised repairs. Between the dogs, The wisdom teeth and the talk of a new car, AND being up all day after working all night, I wasn't in any mood to stick to my diet. I had a Sprite, and a roast beef sandwhich. And to chase it down, I got myself a (small) pizza.

In the past, a day like friday would have been the end of me. Everything I had faught so long for would have gone by the wayside and I would have given up. But come saturday, I took the road less traveled and was right back at it again! I ate a very samll breakfast, (and my hydroxycut hardacore) took care of more tasks, like the laundry, and food shopping, Even took Lori's sisters leaves down to the dump. I intended to go to the gym and do a little measured walking, and when I started something strange happened. I started running. There's nothing like going beyond yourself psyically to stop all those down-troden thoughts and feelings of the day before. I had a good workout and was back on track just in time for Easter.

...In which the gym was closed. For some reason, my family ain't big on Easter. Sure we bought the DOgs some treats, But no big meal. I spent most of the day wasting away on the couch doing taxes and sleeping.

So on sunday night, I came to work with every expectation of doing my streaches and running through my tours to make up for the Gym being closed. and I did! So right now, I feel great! Fridays massacre at Mcdonalds and the Pizza factory seems to have been averted. I didn't let it drag me down. And hope to have some really good thermogennis happening again by this time tomorrow and into wednesday.

I upped my dose of Hydroxycut hardcore and am now onto the three pills 2times a day thing the pacage says to take. I didn't think I could handle this stuff last week, but am really getting a good burn from it lattely.

I hope everybody had a good easter and is ready to hit it hard this week!
 
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Omg i totally slacked off this weekend as well! Too many home cooked meals i'd say. My boyfriend and I had a HUGE argument (too many words were used that shouldnt have been) and i packed up to go home and stay with my parents for the weekend. PHEW, that did not help the diet. hahah, but good to hear you're back on it and optimistic about the week ahead! Some people, like myself, would slip back into eating whatever the hell we wanted all the time again. great job :)
 
Hey rabbit, thanks for stoppin in on me. I wrote somthing in there for you lol but i didn't think you saw. thanks for the help though :)
 
princessmylissa said:
Hey rabbit, thanks for stoppin in on me. I wrote somthing in there for you lol but i didn't think you saw. thanks for the help though :)

Acctually I had every intention of checking out yours and Lindz's and Misty's Blog, But ran out of time this morning. I spent to much time talking about myself. :( But I'll check it out latter tonight.
somesaymisty said:
You have a great attitude! I'm trying to adopt the same outlook on getting off track. Stay positive!
Thanks, I've tried to hook all this crap into the fact that if I loose all this weight, Then these problems will go away. Strange form of motivation to be sure. I know they won't, but at least they'll morph into different ones, and with a better attitude about facing them, I'll be able to handle them better. and thats the goal.

lindsz said:
Omg i totally slacked off this weekend as well! Too many home cooked meals i'd say. My boyfriend and I had a HUGE argument (too many words were used that shouldnt have been) and i packed up to go home and stay with my parents for the weekend. PHEW, that did not help the diet.
Lindsz, I know this is eaiser to say than do, But don't let things like this stand in your way. I know he dosen't mean it, But losing concentration over a fight with your boyfriend means he got the better of you concerning your diet. When considering your diet, fighting with your boyfriend is an "outside" influence. Like a car accident. You would feel silly if a car accident derailed your diet. It can happen, mind you, but you gotta stay strong,focused and impregnable.

Not much happened yesterday, except a major battle of my wills.

Lori and I both got off work at 8am and went food shopping for her Grandmother. I was so hungry I could have bought anything and enjoyed it. But I managed to find a magazine and bury my head in it and try not to think about where I was. Of couse this got Lori (lets see whats her name today... I think it was "Hope.") mad at me becouse I wasn't paying attention to where I was going or keeping up with her. But thats OK, I appoligized and moved on.

Then came the bread ilse.

Entenmann's pastry of every shape and sized were staring me in the face and begging..."Please eat me!" Oh, I was so close... and just as I turned away, I saw the Krispy Kreames. I mean, I could have eaten a whole dozen right there. AND THEY CAME WITH THREE FREE ONES!!!! 15 DONUTS FOR THE PRICE OF 12!!! It would be so easy to just put one in the carrige. I could deny it and get away with it. No one had to know...

But I would.

I quickly found the water isle and loaded up the rest of the cart with my Sparkling Poland springs. I made it out alive. ALIVE, I TELL YOU!!! Not one sweet felt the tender touch of my hand!!!! SWEAR TO GOD!

The red Sox came on at 11am this morning becouse Patriots Day is a state holiday and they got an early start due to the Marathon. So I got to listen to the begining of the game while Lori dropped off the groceries. We both went home and went to bed around 1pm.

7pm came all to soon and I was up and at the Gym by 8pm. I forgot my book, so I did some half asssed streachs. Had a good run (less walking) and took to the weight room. Chin ups are getting easier. and increased the weight on almost everything else. Most notably on my squats. I figured If I weigh 270, and I was doing only 100 pound squats, I really wasen't doing much So I upped the weight to 150. still might not be enough, But its better than what was going on before. I am thinking however of axeing all the weights in favor of more run time, becouse I really don't want to gain any muscle right now, The toneing that comes with jogging and running might be enough.

anyway, I was done at the gym by 10pm, went home played with the dogs and was at work by midnight.

Pretty lame day. :cool:
 
Pretty lame day???? I hope you were kidding because you did awesome! You resisted temptation and increased your workout. That's fantastic!
 
HEY HEY !!!!
That's right, You have been doing such an AWESOME job with everything... :D Keep it up. Have a beautiful day and STAY POSITIVE.
 
somesaymisty said:
Pretty lame day???? I hope you were kidding because you did awesome! You resisted temptation and increased your workout. That's fantastic!

jelly belly88 said:
HEY HEY !!!!
That's right, You have been doing such an AWESOME job with everything... Keep it up. Have a beautiful day and STAY POSITIVE.


Thanks gals That means a lot, but no I was serious. Maybe I felt this comin' on. I don't know. But today was even lamer than yesterday. I am totally run down.

Got home from work, ploped on the couch and started surfin'. I had a smaller than ususal breakfast, BUt I just wasn't hungry. Went to bed around noon with every intention of getting up six hours latter and hittin' the gym but I just couldn't do it. I wonder If I had kept up with the proper breakfast If I wouldn't have felt this way.

SUre I woke up around six thirty. I even took my Hydroxycut, which ain't making me jumpy anymore. But I couldn't find the energy to drive to the gym.
To compound the problem, I skipped Dinner also.

A L L O F T H I S L O W E D M E W A Y D O W N .:(

But hey thats expected. IT's not easy keeping up the level I was going at for the last couple of days. I guess My weekend was more active than I thought. Today my body is sore. Not becouse I have been pushing to hard. But becouse it needs a good long rest. Always look forward, never back. WHats done is done. If it was wrong, Harping on it won't help. Just reconize it and keep moving.

I'm also Mad at myself for starting a fight with Lori tonight. It's her weekend and I asked her what she had planned. She said she didn't know, Nothing. I reminded her that there were a lot of things that needed to be done around the house, And one of the best things to do would be to write it down so as not to forget about it.

XXX

Wrong answer. fight time!

Before it was over and I left for work, I had to tell her that I accept responsibilty for her laziness.

See when I had first met Lori she had such and inocent glow in her eyes that has died over the years. And quite frankly, thats my fault. She used to do everything for us. Everything. And I just let her. I never seemed to help out. And it has taken it's toll. Now that I've finnally woken up and tried to square all this away, To create a new start for us. she's resistent to it. It's natural I know, to deny change. And this process won't and isn't easy, But the alternative is death or living death. Life with no meaning, no feeling. And I don't want that and I know deep down inside, she don't either. I want that Innocent glow back. I took it away, And Now I'm going to restore it. If that means the occational fight to motivate her. then I am happy with that.

Don't get me wrong, This wasn't one of those knock-down drag out two day no talking fights. I said my peice, got my message out and moved on. The thing that scares me though, is the thought that I did this becouse I was so down and just needed the rush of a fight to get my body moving again. I don't think it was, She was the one that threw it in my face about how her laziness was my fault. But I think I surprized her when I accepted that sin as my own. She's impressionable and I have flaunted and destroyed that without knowing it.

FOr the life of me, I don't think she'll really understand any of this until I lose this weight and start my new carrer in the service. Maybe not even then. But when i step off that plane returning from Boot camp. Thats when I will see the glow and know everything is alright. That the promise of a better future will have been fulfilled and it will be up to us to make that future work and we will know NOT to hinder either other. But to love each other and cherish what we have built and worked so hard for TOGETHER!

Damn I get so deep sometimes... I'm a regular drama queen.:p Feel free to laugh your guts out.
 
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B A Rabbit said:
IT's not easy keeping up the level I was going at for the last couple of days. I guess My weekend was more active than I thought. Today my body is sore. Not becouse I have been pushing to hard. But becouse it needs a good long rest.

That's exactly right!! You're body needs a rest. It's a good thing to take a day of rest. Your body can't make any progress if it doesn't have time to repair itself. You'll have a much better workout after that rest. Your body will have the strength it needs so that you can give it your all.

I'm sorry to hear about your fight. You both need to say the things that bother you. Otherwise, it'll fester and grow until it finally bursts out. But it won't be pretty then. You'll be more inclined to say things you don't mean. I've learned my lesson in this early on in my relationship. I made up an excuse to let the things I didn't like about the relationship permissable. Then I got to the point where I wasn't happy and couldn't just "deal with it". Once we finally talked it out, we were able to make compromises and save our relationship. It was a rough couple of months, but well worth the talking and crying and arguing. It's never too late to work things out. It shows that you both really love each other, and you'll be able to get through anything. I hope this advice wasn't unsolicited. I don't want to cross any boundaries!

I hope you're having a good day. Stay positive and EAT! :)
 
somesaymisty said:
I hope this advice wasn't unsolicited. I don't want to cross any boundaries!

Don't sweat it Misty. I write this stuff down here becouse I want someday to show it to her. SO that someday she'll know what I was thinking the whole time. We do talk. And talk a lot.
I know it maybe "Off-topic" for the most part as far as discussing "Dieting" goes, But I don't consider myself to be on a diet. "i'm on a mission from God" :D
But seriously, In in a life style change. ANd that means every aspect of my life and my approach to it has to change. I hope it'll be all for the better, But I'm realistic in my fears that they won't be.



Today, I was more concerned about getting my diet back on track than my work-out. Sure I went to the Gym, But I didn't run. I walked. Got my heart rate up to about 141 max. When i run I can max out at about 158. But I gotta ease back into it.

I got home from work this morning and had my Standard Breakfast. that is Apple Jacks with Milk. Well, they were really "Apple Dapples" but six of one, half dozen of another.

I did work late today, so the guywho releives me could do something he needed to do, Not important. But he will releive me two hours early on thursday. Thats good Becouse I could use the two extra hours of sleep.

Anyway, I went to sleep about 10 am or so, And got up at 6pm and hit the Gym. I did my walking as stated above and my weights. and pulled a good twenty minutes in the steam room.

I then went home and had a nice turkey wrap for dinner.

I think the chicken I bought this week may be tainted. It tastes really fattening and not really in a good way. So I am trying to avoid it till friday and I can buy some more. I also am avoiding my hydroxycut tonight. I took my three pills for my work out, But I skipped them for work. I fell they may be making my stomach upset and that may be casueing my recent bout of fatigue, SO I'll let them work there way out of my system till tomorrow night.
 
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