Ascendency

No maybe's about it Kinyo! Your here now, forget about last time. We've all had our moments(I have to- just got back in here after a few months of "vacation" lol) where we just wanna quit or don't think we need the support to keep going. Well, screw that noise! We're all here for the support- we're here to support you to. I read your top 100- I hear ya on a lot of that stuff.. I have a skinny sister(like, we're talkin size flipping 5) and yeah, I'll never get that skinny, just built differently, doesn't mean I'm not gonna try, hahaha! So heres the deal- you check in on me a lot, I'll check in on you a lot, k? :D we'll kick each others butts into skinny gear!
 
Jess, thank you so much for the reply, and I'll really appreciate your support and you bet I will check up on you on a daily basis.

I've been feeling good for the past few weeks, finally getting off my butt two weeks ago to do some walking a few nights out of the week. In time, I hope to develop stamina so I can do light jogging, as this has always been a problem for me. I just can't run or jog for even a moderate amount of time, lol, I feel pathetic.

I've also been eating really healthy, brown rice, steamed or boiled vegetables (I did add salt, which I'm trying to cut down) and grilled meat.

Usually, I'll follow a tight regimine in having a protein shake for breakfast, which is very filling. Afternoons I'll come back to my main meal of the day, which is what I've listed above. For substitution of the brown rice, at times I'll have whole wheat pasta, to have some variety.

In the evenings, feeling still rather full from lunch, I'll eat a piece of fruit or two.

Daily, I drink TONS of water. I know a lot of people complain that they can't drink water and such, but this is no problem for me. I can guzzle probably a couple of gallons of water a day without having any problem. But of course, I don't, I try to drink maybe 64 oz or so of water, often more.

A big goal for me is to try and not eat after 7-8 PM. I'd like to go to bed with a light feeling in my stomach or it'll be a problem with me when I try to sleep.
 
I think back, and one of the major reasons why, I think my first attemp stopped was because I lost focus. My time was occupied somewhere else and I just stopped visiting the boards.

For a while in the beginning when I noticed I was going downhill, I realized I avoided the forums as much as I can. Regrets, most likely. I had a good amount of people checking up on me, and I really didn't want to let them down, but I did. I really hope this won't be the case again.

Losing weight is on my mind, constantly, just like before. My main goal is to get to the 200's. Never ever will I want to see a 3xx again. Lasttime I checked, it's around 323-324. It fluxuates, and I HATE it. But, I do check almost everyday, I know its a bad habit and I need to stop.

So with that said, my short term goal is 299. I'll worry about the rest later, lol.


I look at my brother, who's a few years younger than me, I'm 25, but a few inches taller, but not by much, and he weights 215. He doesn't look anywhere close to 215, because hes so skinny. I just think to myself: "Wow, if I just lose 100 pounds, I'll look like that?"

I deal with it constantly, imagining how I'd look if I lose weight. Maybe in a few years, hopefully less, I won't have to imagine it anymore.
 
Had a very good day today, other than the low stomach growling I had while in class, everything went well.

Had 2 servings of wheat pasta boiled, served with a piece of grilled chicken with corn.

Still a bit early for dinner, maybe fruit or some tuna/turkey, who knows.

Blister afetrmath is still a bit bothersome, I'd really like to go to the park, but I guess I'll stay home and use the free weights I got.
 
What a long, but good, day!

For breakfast my usual shake.

Lunch was grilled chicken and shrimp served ontop of brown rice with boiled vegetables, was delicious.

Before dinner, I went to the park to test out my foot. It was somewhat painless. Yesterday I bought Dr Scholes footpowder and used it. The removed blister still causes a litte friction with the foot and sneakers itself, especially the left one. I think I'll be good to go for Monday, for sure. Although I was pretty happy with what the powder did, as it kept the foot very dry for the long walk.

Dinner time, had two bananas and an orange. Very satisfying. One more day til my "first" weigh-in. Pretty exciting.
 
Kinyo,
It's *SO* good to see you back and posting!!

Good for you for taking control, coming back and looking at what you need to do and making a plan to SUCCEED!!

You CAN do this - it's one day at a time :)
 
M2M said:
Kinyo,
It's *SO* good to see you back and posting!!

Good for you for taking control, coming back and looking at what you need to do and making a plan to SUCCEED!!

You CAN do this - it's one day at a time :)
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Thank you so much :(

When I fell off the plan, I really lost sight on my goals. When I was actively posting quite a few months back, I saw my road clearly ahead, and knew exactly what to do. I knew there was noway I could power lose all the weight off, and I was fine with that. Little by little, the weight dropped off and I was so happy.

It's just a weekend of enjoying bad food that did me in, lol. But it's fine, the veil has been removed and I can once again see my goals. Dropping this weight is on my mind all the time now. I'm careful of what I put into my mouth and drink plenty of water. I read somewhere on this forum of trying to carry a small notebook, to write down whatever I eat, so I know I can keep track. Also, it'll pinpoint a time during the day where I tend to maybe snack, and I would try to do something for that time so it keeps me from thinking about food.

Anyways, in reality, I can't remember the last time I felt skinny, or was skinny. It's a very sad feeling, but I have the power and support of this forum and that's really all I need. It's what I relied on my first go around, and I did fine. :D
 
It's what I relied on my first go around, and I did fine
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And you'll do fine now :)
Just let go of where you could have been, where you fell off track, and look at what your plans are now, what you need to do to stay focused!

I know I too do better when I'm here posting away!
 
M2M said:
And you'll do fine now :)
Just let go of where you could have been, where you fell off track, and look at what your plans are now, what you need to do to stay focused!

I know I too do better when I'm here posting away!
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Thanks M2M :),

All the kind words help so much. I get so down on myself sometimes, but lately i haven't hehe.

Weightloss is a test of endurance and patience. It took a while for me to put on all this weight and I know it's going tot ake a longtime taking it off. But I know I'll be definately a better person whenver this weight comes off, I can feel it. Not only do I want to make myself proud, but friends and family too, because deep down inside I'm sure they're pulling for me.

I see you've lost 72 pounds, thats great! Can you link me your jorunal? I'd like to support ya ;).
 
They are absolutely pulling for you!

I know before I started losing weight, there was no doubt in my mind that my friends and family loved me REGARDLESS of whatever I weighed or looked like - but as I've lost the weight, it was apparent that they were worried about me tooj.

Feeling proud of ourselves is one of the BEST gifts we can give to ourselves :)

As for my diary, it's at:http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/4018-day-life-m2m-152.html

Hope the last bit of your weekend goes well Kinyo :)
 
Hey Kinyo! Sounds like you had a pretty good weekend, thtas great :) I work at a gym, and I'm a manager of GNC(crazy, right?? lol) and I work long weekends, so I don't get in here on the weekends very often. I saw you were trying to cut back on salt: I've never been a big salt person, but I can say, go get some herb seasonings- they're salt free, a lot of hospitals carry them for patients who can't have that extra sodium- but they taste great, and make a huge difference in veggies.
I'm with ya on the water thing. I love water... could drink it all the time. Who needs sugary stuff? bleh...
Anyways, keep it up :) Good luck on the jogging... I hate jogging... :rolleyes:
 
M2M said:
They are absolutely pulling for you!

I know before I started losing weight, there was no doubt in my mind that my friends and family loved me REGARDLESS of whatever I weighed or looked like - but as I've lost the weight, it was apparent that they were worried about me tooj.

Feeling proud of ourselves is one of the BEST gifts we can give to ourselves :)

As for my diary, it's at:http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/4018-day-life-m2m-152.html

Hope the last bit of your weekend goes well Kinyo :)
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Thanks for the reply M2M,

unfortunately for me, 1 of my family member really isn't supportive to me...but I'm not going to get into details lol.

But it's fine because I did it before with him not supporting me and I'll do it again.
 
Jess393 said:
Hey Kinyo! Sounds like you had a pretty good weekend, thtas great :) I work at a gym, and I'm a manager of GNC(crazy, right?? lol) and I work long weekends, so I don't get in here on the weekends very often. I saw you were trying to cut back on salt: I've never been a big salt person, but I can say, go get some herb seasonings- they're salt free, a lot of hospitals carry them for patients who can't have that extra sodium- but they taste great, and make a huge difference in veggies.
I'm with ya on the water thing. I love water... could drink it all the time. Who needs sugary stuff? bleh...
Anyways, keep it up :) Good luck on the jogging... I hate jogging... :rolleyes:
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Hey Jess,

Yea working at GNC's gotta be the coolest job! I'll try the herb seasonings, should be good and adds more flavor than salt anyways.

I havent jogged yet, don't think my legs can handle the pressure. I've been hauling my butt up the stairs everyday just to increase some strength in them. And then after I feel comfertable, I'll begin some light jogging.
 
Forgot to post what I ate yesterday lol,

Shake for breakfast

For lunch, 2 cups of wheat pasta (Yes I know this was overboard, I'll definately do 1 cup nexttime, this was also the first time of me measuring pasta, so i really thought 2 cups was ok) served with a light eggplant/tomato sauce.

I had the lunch around 3 PM, so it really carried over for dinner as I wasnt hungry at all.

Later in the evening I did have a few egg whites when the hunger finally caught up.

When I start using the little notebook to record what I take in, my portion control will definately be monitored/better.
 
Ok for the first weigh-in for my new found motivation:

320.8 or 321. This numbers a bit high, I thought I did better for the week, but I guess it'll take a bit for my body to adjust to the good food I'm eating, and hopefully next week I'll have a nice drop!

edit: I've also noticed some bodily changes as well. My thighs, again, seem like a deflating balloon, lol. My arms are definately getting stronger from the weight lifting. My stomach seems a little flatter, for sure. I'm feeling tons better endurance/stamina wise while walking up the stairs.
 
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Kinyo,
Isn't it cool to see the body responding in non scale related ways!?

Excellent that you are feeling stronger and getting greater endurance and stamina!

Here's to a good 2007 :D
 
Yea the human body's really a magnificent thing. It's just sad I took such bad care of it, lol. But, looking past that now of course ;). Got a lot of maintenance catchup to do :).
 
Ok

For breakfast today, protein...nothing new. ;)

Lunch, brown rice, 1 cup this time served with half of a grilled tomato and chicken with boiled vegetables then sauteed a bit in olive oil and some pepper. I'm turning into a pretty good cook! It was really delciious.

Dinner I had a cup of coffee and a banana, really not hungry at all.

Cool thing I did today was drank coffee without any sugar. I just added a fat free cream and it was satisfying.

Think this is an easy lifestyle. :)
 
Change of pace for today!

Breakfast - egg whites of 9 hard boiled large eggs, had it with a dab of srirachi hot paste.

Lunch - Just a little under a small cup of wheat penne pasta served with 2 pieces of grilled chicken, side of grilled tomatoes and string beans cooked in olive oil and garlic. I was starving!

Snack - Fruit salad (peaches and banana)

Dinner - Can of tuna, 3 egg whites and one large tomato. I did put a little ranch dressing in it...I shouldn't have...but oh well :/. It gave the tuna a lot of good flavor.

The dinner was around 8:30ish, right after i finished lifting some weights. I was so hungry afterwards and couldnt stand it. But the good thing was atleast I ate healthy.

Today I'm noticing some skin changes, just like the ones from my previous diet. It seems like a big balloon is deflating. It's a scary process, but it also makes me see that this is paying off.
 
Yay for 10lbs :D!!! and congrats on the new found stamina, energy, feel-good, etc. Keep it up, you'll be at your goal before ya know it!
 
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