merciful_vanity
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Hello everyone.
My name is Sarah. I'm 18 years old, soon to be 19, and this year I want to blow everyone away with a huge improvement. I want to lose a lot of weight, about 50-60 pounds to be exact.
I;ve been overweight my whole life. I was born 9.5 pounds as a baby, born in southern Ontario, and it only got worse from there. I blame my upbringing partly... my Mom left when I was a year old, leaving my father with two very young kids. He had bad eating habits himself, and we often ate out at McDonald's and other bad places. He spoiled us rotten with food, and even when he tried to lose weight himself, it was hard for us to do the same. My brother was lucky, he has a freakish metabolism and can eat and eat, but still be very slim and tall.
I'm 5'8", and I'm over 220 pounds. I just discovered this today. I knew I was overweight, but passing the 200-mark is a bit of an eye-opener.
I have a long-distance relationship with a guy who lives in Ohio. We're 350 miles apart but have been together over 3 years now. He's always thought I'm beautiful the way I am, and is particularly fond of my thighs and butt. He's never bashed my appearence, if anything he's partly why I've let myself go even more the last couple of years. It's hard when you feel comfortable with someone who makes you feel like the sexiest woman on earth.
My main complaint is my stomach, which is where about 75% of my excess weight sits. This means love handles and unattractive flab. And with a smaller bust, it looks even worse. Bottom line, I hate my entire midsection.
I don't complain about my behind or my thighs, and I have long legs with lean muscles. If anything I don't look as overweight as I am because it's all focused in one area. "Pregnant" is more the word that comes to mind. And believe me, I've been asked when my baby is due before. It's humiliating.
I suppose coming up on my nineteenth birthday is finally making me think, 'Okay, that's it, I've had enough' when it comes to my weight. I also have my health to think about. I'm tired of being discouraged after three hours of pant-shopping, trying to wrestle into sizes that the world clearly wants me to be. I'm tired of the shame I feel when the only size that fits is L or XL. And being taller than most women I know, I feel like an out of place ugly giant.
I guess I joined this site because I want people to know who I am and what I want to achieve. All my friends are slim and beautiful, so I don't know anyone in the same boat as me, really.
My goal is to be around the 160 lb mark by July, which according to my personal trainer a couple of years ago, is my ideal weight. If I go under 150, then I'll be too skinny and possibly unhealthy. Big boned isn't just a mythical excuse, you know.
I already have a plan ready to go, and I start officially tomorrow. But I will peruse the site's resources in search of new tips and advice, exercises and good-foods. I hope it will be useful to me.
Thank you for reading this and listening to my goals. =)
- Sarah (merciful_vanity)
My name is Sarah. I'm 18 years old, soon to be 19, and this year I want to blow everyone away with a huge improvement. I want to lose a lot of weight, about 50-60 pounds to be exact.
I;ve been overweight my whole life. I was born 9.5 pounds as a baby, born in southern Ontario, and it only got worse from there. I blame my upbringing partly... my Mom left when I was a year old, leaving my father with two very young kids. He had bad eating habits himself, and we often ate out at McDonald's and other bad places. He spoiled us rotten with food, and even when he tried to lose weight himself, it was hard for us to do the same. My brother was lucky, he has a freakish metabolism and can eat and eat, but still be very slim and tall.
I'm 5'8", and I'm over 220 pounds. I just discovered this today. I knew I was overweight, but passing the 200-mark is a bit of an eye-opener.
I have a long-distance relationship with a guy who lives in Ohio. We're 350 miles apart but have been together over 3 years now. He's always thought I'm beautiful the way I am, and is particularly fond of my thighs and butt. He's never bashed my appearence, if anything he's partly why I've let myself go even more the last couple of years. It's hard when you feel comfortable with someone who makes you feel like the sexiest woman on earth.
My main complaint is my stomach, which is where about 75% of my excess weight sits. This means love handles and unattractive flab. And with a smaller bust, it looks even worse. Bottom line, I hate my entire midsection.
I don't complain about my behind or my thighs, and I have long legs with lean muscles. If anything I don't look as overweight as I am because it's all focused in one area. "Pregnant" is more the word that comes to mind. And believe me, I've been asked when my baby is due before. It's humiliating.
I suppose coming up on my nineteenth birthday is finally making me think, 'Okay, that's it, I've had enough' when it comes to my weight. I also have my health to think about. I'm tired of being discouraged after three hours of pant-shopping, trying to wrestle into sizes that the world clearly wants me to be. I'm tired of the shame I feel when the only size that fits is L or XL. And being taller than most women I know, I feel like an out of place ugly giant.
I guess I joined this site because I want people to know who I am and what I want to achieve. All my friends are slim and beautiful, so I don't know anyone in the same boat as me, really.
My goal is to be around the 160 lb mark by July, which according to my personal trainer a couple of years ago, is my ideal weight. If I go under 150, then I'll be too skinny and possibly unhealthy. Big boned isn't just a mythical excuse, you know.
I already have a plan ready to go, and I start officially tomorrow. But I will peruse the site's resources in search of new tips and advice, exercises and good-foods. I hope it will be useful to me.
Thank you for reading this and listening to my goals. =)
- Sarah (merciful_vanity)
