Another New Me!!

katehunibun

katehunibun

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Hello. My name is Kate :seeya:

2 years ago I was at a really low place and weighed 210lb. I found this forum and it changed my life!!!! With the help of some totally amazing people I met on here, I got down to 155lb!!!!! I did loads of exercise including taking up running BUT I am now back up to 180lb :( I have tried getting my obsessive focus back but have failed again and again. When I started loosing weight with the help of this forum 2 years ago it was the one and only time I have managed to loose weight to a point where I wasn't fat (not that I realised it at the time). I've been on a bloody diet pretty much since I was 11 years old!!!!

Anyway, what made me try AGAIN is........a few weeks before I started losing all that weight 2 years ago I had gone to Hyde Park in London so watch a Kings of Leon concert and my BEFORE photo is from then. On Tuesday evening we went to see Kings of Leon again in Birmingham and while stood outside waiting to go in I saw my reflection in the window and I was just disgusted with it!!!!! It really made me think about last time I had seen the band and how far I had come. So, here I am again. :blush5:

Here begins ANOTHER NEW ME :)

DAY 1

Breakfast: 50g porridge with raspberries
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, low cal crisps, yoghurt with raspberries
Dinner: Ham salad with 2 boiled eggs and cous cous and light mayo
Snacks: Kiwi and a nectarine


Things to be proud of
Actually coming back and doing something about being so unhappy with my body.
Walking past 2 boxes of big cookies at work all day today :)
 
Welcome back my lovely friend. You'll do it again sweetie. I know that you can & I know that you will. Working on that self-esteem is the key. You didn't have enough time to accept that you were slim. That is the danger period. When you first lose weight & get to where you think you should be on the scales your brain takes ages to catch up. I think we have to think of ourselves like alcoholics must think of themselves or we have relapses. If you start accepting that you are a slim person & that you like(love) your body & yourself, then you are much more inclined to treat your body with the respect it deserves. I know I go on & on about it, but I really do believe that building our self-esteem is the most important key to staying slim. I think it's sweet that you call me your forum mum btw. I don't have a daughter! Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
Welcome back Kate! I have a new thread too...losing that last 20 pounds. I agree with Caye (no surprise there!) that you probably never accepted yourself at slim. You can get back to that goal weight! I'm with ya girl! I'm at 169...on my way to 153...we can do it!
Xxoo
Sarah
 
DAY 2

Breakfast: 50g porridge with half a banana
Lunch: Egg, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich with low cal crisps and a yoghurt with rasperries
Dinner: 2 Wholemeal pitta filled with chicken, salad and xl mayo
Snacks: 1/4 melon and 2 biscuits

Things to be proud of
Not eating rubbish when I have had a really stressy day.
Not eating any of the big choc cookies that are still at work
Only having a twin pack of biscuits after I gave blood this evening
Giving Blood!! lol
Actually going TWO WHOLE DAYS on track :)
Didn't have pizza with Mark & Jack for dinner!!

On 30th August I am going to work in The Republic of Congo as a Dental Nurse for Mercy Ships. I am trying to raise money to fund this (i.e my flight and crew fees) I have about 400 raised to far and the last time I looked at flight prices it was about £500 so when I went to book my flight this morning I was totally floored to be quoted £2500!!!!!! I was in a right state. There was no was I could raise that amount of money, plus my crew fees in time. I was in a total panic but didn't stuff myself with comfort food!! Yay me :hurray: I managed to get hold of a company that gives discount to charity workers and got a flight for £800! Which is much more doable. I just now have to work my butt off scrounging money but at least it is a far more reachable target.
The link to my JustGiving page is by the way :blush5:

I'm really proud that I didn't use my stress and panic as an excuse to eat :)
I gave blood straight after work this evening and was hungry but I only had 2 biscuits (one packet) while they make you have a drink afterwards instead of about 3-4 packets. I knew that we would be going to the supermarket to do our weekly food shop straight after too, I wasn't going to be eating until late so well chuffed with myself for not having a f**k it moment :) Then had a healthy dinner while Mark and Jack had Pizza!!!!

Clarissa
:waving: hi
Thank you, I find that finding something to feel proud of even on the crappiest of days helps :)

Cate
You are totally right (as always) I didn't give my brain chance to realise that I was slim until I had gained and wasn't slim anymore. I still thought I was fat!! To be honest, I think it scared me, I have never been slim in my entire life and I really didn't know what to do. I have always been on a diet or binging. This time, hopefully, I will get my head round it WHEN I get there again :)

Sarah
It's so cool being back :) and yay! We will do this!!
 
Day 3

Breakfast: 4 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite
Lunch: Chicken salad with 1/2 baguette
Dinner: 2 wholemeal pitta with lettuce and home made coleslaw
Snacks: solero ice lolly

Things to be proud of
After a day of wanting to eat bad food, i'm chuffed that I kept within my calories :)

Busy, busy day and a bit stressy this morning. I got an email from paypal saying that someone tried to use my account but they had blocked it (luckily) as it was from the far east!!!!! But they had obviously used my password and seeing as I am stupid and used the same password for lots of things I had to change them all!!!!

The weekend is the hardest times for me to eat healthy as my routine has gone. Today I went out for lunch with Mark but was good and had a chicken salad then walked past several ice cream vans having none (I had my solero this evening). Then for dinner I really wanted to just have the pizza that was in the fridge but didn't :)
When I had my 'obsessive focus' last time I didn't want any of this kind of food. I just wanted to lose weight but this time I am craving it........Still not caved though which is a good thing :)
 
Well done on a brilliant first three days :D You'll get your obsessive focus back in no time! I dedicate this song to you and me :)

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Omg, thank god Paypal blocked that transaction.... They would have kept on going until your bank account went bust.

Ooooh, WOW, your going to Africa again :) That's amazing! I'll donate you a tenner later... Hope you reach your target! Have you tried skyscanner for flights? They have an option where you can see a graph of the different prices on different days.... Some days are half the price of other days. I am the master of getting cheap flights.
 
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Day 4

Breakfast: 4 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and home made coleslaw wholemeal sandwich & a bag of low cal crisps
Dinner: Hotdog, chicken & pepper kebab, salad and homemade coleslaw
Snacks: 1/4 melon

Things to be proud of
I've done a whole weekend of being good :)
We had a BBQ and I was super good and stayed under my calories :)

Another busy day but a good day :) I wore a strapless mini summer dress today (not that I went anywhere) but I wore it anyway! It was so hot!!
I sorted out my insurance etc for my Africa trip and did a photo album of my last trip to take to work. Hopefully the terrible pictures will make them sponsor me lots lol

Went up to our allotment earlier and picked loads of raspberries, gooseberries, strawberries and black currants. Lots of jam to make :)

We had a BBQ this evening and I was so so chuffed with how much of a good girl I was. :hurray:

I've done 4 whole days, including a weekend, of being good.........It's been months and months since I did that.....Yay me!!

Sunflower
Heya sweetie :) it's good to be back!!

Ruthie
Ooooo I love that song :)
It would be lovely if you could sponsor me, you are such a sweetheart xoxo
I think I did well with the price I got my flight for in the end. nearly 2 grand cheaper than my first quote lol. I got a charity discount which helped too.
 
Day 5

Breakfast: 50g porridge with raspberries
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, low cal crisps and a yoghurt with raspberries
Dinner: Quiche, cous cous, homemade coleslaw, salad and light salad cream
Snacks: 1/4 melon

Thins to be proud of Edit: I've just noticed that I put 'thins' instead of 'things'!! What a great typo to have lol
My uniform top wasn't tight and uncomfortable today :hurray:

For months, my uniform top has been tight (to the point where I wear a cardigan to hide it) and it is always worse on a Monday after eating badly at the weekend....Well, today it was looser :) and I didn't wear my cardigan :)
It really has given me a real boost.
Five whole days of being good :hurray: YAY!!!



 
That's awesome about your uniform! It's so uncomfortable being squished into something when your all fluffy and pudgy. I've gotten comments at work that I look slimmer, but I can't really see it yet... all in good time!

When are you planning to weigh yourself Kate?
 
Day 6

Slickasked when I was going to weigh and it made me think. I started this time on a Thursday so I was going to weigh then but, I go to slimming world (not that I am following their diet anymore, I just couldn't stick to it) and I paid for a block and have 6 weeks left so I thought I might as well still go and weigh. That is on a Tuesday night so I thought that I would change my weigh day to Tuesday...........So, I have lost 4lb!!! :hurray:
I'm really chuffed with that :)

I am going to have Tuesday after weigh in as my cheat night :) :)

Breakfast: 50g porridge with raspberries
Lunch: ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich with low cal crisps, yoghurt and raspberries.
CHEAT NIGHT :)

Slickzchik :waving:
Heya. Thanks for stopping by. I'm so pleased with my uniform, it makes such a difference doesn't it. I can wait until it is actually baggy!!!
Well done on your weight loss so far, you have done so well :)


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Day 7

Breakfast: 50g porridge with raspberries
Lunch: ham, lettuce and light mayo whole meal sandwich, low cal crisps, yoghurt and raspberries.
Dinner: quiche, marmite on whole meal toast.

Pretty busy day today at work and omg, it's so hot!!! I'm not complaining but it makes me feel so tired. Can't wait til the weekend, I am sooooo going to the beach!!!.
Another good day food wise though. I'm liking the feeling of my uniform not being tight and can't wait until it's nice and loose.

Babysitting friends kids right now so it's only a quick one tonight. I'll try and catch up with everyone tomorrow.

Much love to all. Xx
 
I know, its baking isn't it, the heat just takes it out of you! I was dripping with sweat earlier on just doing the housework.... I have never ever sweated this bad in my life... Make-up is pointless.

So jealous that your near such a lovely beach!

I know slimming world really does work for some people, and the phycological factor of *knowing* that you can eat unlimited pasta and potatopes with meals on the green plan might help people who equate a diet with feeling crap and starving themselves, but I think its silly. I could quite easily eat pasta till the cows come home, and lose no weight at all.

Well done on the weight loss this week :hurray:
 
Hi Hun, I'm sorry but I seem to have missed your last few diary posts :blush: I have no idea how, but I just thought you weren't posting. WELL DONE YOU on 4 straight days & a 4lb loss. I must confess to not having weighed for 2 weeks! I have had a couple of eating 'episodes' & don't want to look. I will soon. It is so good that your work clothes are not feeling tight any more. It's horrible isn't it. Lots and lots of love Cate
 
Day 8

Breakfast: 50g porridge with raspberries
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, low cal crisps, yoghurt and raspberries
Dinner: Jacket potato with tuna and sweetcorn, salad, homemade coleslaw and light salad cream
Snacks: 1/4 melon and one biscuit

Things to be proud of
Only having one biscuit when I wanted to eat the whole packet!!

Another intensely hot day, it was unbearable in the surgery this afternoon :( and my period started today :( :( but on the plus side, I managed to only have one small biscuit instead of the lots that I wanted :)

Tomorrow night is going to be a big test for me. There is a presentation evening for Jack and his drama lot down at the theatre and there will be lots and lots of bad food.........Please, please don't eat anything there Kate!!!

ANGEL
:waving: Heya. Thank you. Feeling good :)

Ruthie
Yay, this is an awesome part of the country, I am so lucky.
Slimming world has worked for me (sort of, I think I lost about a stone with them years ago) but I think I just need to eat less and eat healthy. That's how it has worked for me and I thought I should stick with it.

Cate
No worries sweetie :) I haven't had chance to check out other diaries either, life gets like that.
Don't worry about not weighing, you are pretty much where you want to be so it's not a problem. 'episodes' lol great phrase! I need to reach that point, for me it's still diet or binge. Hopefully soon I will be able to not worry about weighing because I have your control :)

Nostalgic
:waving: Heya.
Thanks for stopping by. OMG I can't imagine how bad the heat is for you!! I had my son in February (14 yrs ago) so had early pregnancy in the summer, that was bad enough. Thinking of you hun. Xoxo
 
Sounds like another great day.
Well done on the one biscuit. That would be a challenge for me also. I'm proud of you.

Events and picnics can be hard with all the food around. I always try and go for the healthy ones. Most French people provide healthy nibbles like baby carrots and radishes, cucumber cut into fingers along with the crisps and cakes. If I pick up one crisp..... Its over.

Yes, over 30 degrees all week :( I hope this baby comes soon. I'm way past over it!
 
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