ericam0143
New member
Female - 5'8 - 188 lbs
As I put my title "Another New Beginning", this weight loss story needs to end. I've been going up and down in weight for way too long and beating myself up about it like so many people do. One day trying to love me for who I am and the next telling myself I need to get this under control or else! I have been inconsistent and haven't kept to my word to myself. Going up and down from 170-190 lbs has not been healthy and I need to get this under control not only for medical reasons, but for emotional and psychological reasons so I can live my life like I want and stop it from holding me back.
Last October, I went from 193 lbs down to 170lbs in a month and a half by doing insanity and following a strict diet. The diet went very well for 2 weeks but turned into not eating much at all besides protein shakes in the AM once I started to noticed the weight dropping off and my clothes fitting better. I felt so good about myself because that was the first time I had actually seen a drop in weight. It didn't stay off long once I picked back up eating with my boyfriend again. I'm back up to 188 lbs and feeling bloated and uncomfortable in anything I wear. The boyfriend can tell as well and I'm sure he's annoyed of me complaining about it and my insecurities when I know he loves me no matter what but its hard to make someone else happy when your not happy with yourself first.
Day one of Insanity starts tomorrow, Monday 7-23-2012, again and I need to make this work. Knowing that feeling I've felt after losing before should be enough motivation, right? Well hasn't been enough for the last 6 months of trying so I need some help! I need to do this the right way so it stays off and doesn't come right back like it did.
As I put my title "Another New Beginning", this weight loss story needs to end. I've been going up and down in weight for way too long and beating myself up about it like so many people do. One day trying to love me for who I am and the next telling myself I need to get this under control or else! I have been inconsistent and haven't kept to my word to myself. Going up and down from 170-190 lbs has not been healthy and I need to get this under control not only for medical reasons, but for emotional and psychological reasons so I can live my life like I want and stop it from holding me back.
Last October, I went from 193 lbs down to 170lbs in a month and a half by doing insanity and following a strict diet. The diet went very well for 2 weeks but turned into not eating much at all besides protein shakes in the AM once I started to noticed the weight dropping off and my clothes fitting better. I felt so good about myself because that was the first time I had actually seen a drop in weight. It didn't stay off long once I picked back up eating with my boyfriend again. I'm back up to 188 lbs and feeling bloated and uncomfortable in anything I wear. The boyfriend can tell as well and I'm sure he's annoyed of me complaining about it and my insecurities when I know he loves me no matter what but its hard to make someone else happy when your not happy with yourself first.
Day one of Insanity starts tomorrow, Monday 7-23-2012, again and I need to make this work. Knowing that feeling I've felt after losing before should be enough motivation, right? Well hasn't been enough for the last 6 months of trying so I need some help! I need to do this the right way so it stays off and doesn't come right back like it did.