Amy's weight loss diary

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I love eat natural bars. I'm quite sensitive to gluten (they are gluten free), so they don't give me an attack of bum percussion like tracker bars etc... I always used to have them on the way to college for brekkie.

Glad your making sure your prepared, and that you managed the indian without any problems :D
 
Steamed veggies are good- but can be a short term fix. I find they don't stick to my bones, if you know what I mean. A bit like water- sure, for awhile it'll fill your stomach, but in no time at all I'm hungry again. It's why I still eat starches with most of my meals, even though they're higher cal than a lot of other things- they fill me and keep me full.

I ended up getting Special K chocolate chip bars. Would you believe they're lower calorie than the berry ones? And more protein, which is one of the factors I was looking at. And come in a value pack so are a decent price. I looked at the nut ones but they provided little to nothing in terms of a protein advantage. Don't see me complaining- 83 calories per bar, and chocolate :)

I'm going to make this for lunches: Hopefully it's as low calorie as it says it is- I find hot meals, rather than sandwiches, are more psychologically satisfying.

Also, I'm now over my calories for today. Not by much (63 calories), but I was starting to get giddy and hungry again and decided to have dessert (yoghurt and fruit). A smaller version than usual and all. I suppose I shouldn't feel too bad- I decided to lower my calorie allowance partway through the day and deliberately had a not filling and higher calorie lunch (as I wasn't hungry at the time but figured I should eat)- so I think although it's showing my calorie intake as over, I'm not going to beat myself up. Deliberately aiming at below 1500 calories is a big step for me, anyway.
 
Poking my head back in - work has been hectic! I'm not surprised on the chocolate chip bars being lower cal than the berry. Chocolate is actually awesome health wise - it's tons of fiber in cocoa powder - it's just that it tastes soooo good when loaded with extra fat and sugar ;)

Glad to hear today went well with only a minor over calorie day :D
 
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Thanks for poking your head back in :) I think I'm doing ok... if you ignor yesterday :leaving:

Anyway, I'm about to hit the hay, so here's today's food.

Thursday 23 June

Breakfast and coffee:
0.1% milk 310 g 108.5
Sainsbury's porridge oats 45 g 160.2
Tesco frozen raspberries 80 g 21.6
Spices, cinnamon, ground 0.8 g 2.0
Sainsbury's be good to yourself natural probiotic yoghurt 78 g 42.9
Sweeteners, tabletop, sucralose, SPLENDA packets 0.9 g 3.0
Coffee, brewed from grounds, prepared with tap water 335 g 3.4
Water, tap, drinking 136 g 0.0
0.1% milk 50 g 17.5
Sweeteners, tabletop, sucralose, SPLENDA packets 1 g 3.4
0.1% milk 86 g 30.1
Coffee, brewed from grounds, prepared with tap water 377 g 3.8
Water, tap, drinking 119 g 0.0
(the water in this case was boilng water to dilute the coffee and make it go further)
Subtotal: 396 calories, 26g protein, 61g carbs, 4g fat. 26/63/10

Lunch: (toasted the bread, cut up the tomato, put tomato on toast, added pepper and oregano, added sliced cheese, put in grill)
Kingsmill wholemeal bread (slice 40) 80 g 182.0
Cathedral city lighter cheese 58 g 180.4
Tomatoes, red, ripe, raw, year round average 257 g 46.3
Spices, oregano, dried 0.95 g 2.5
Spices, pepper, black 0.8 g 2.0
Subtotal: 413 calories, 27g protein, 41g carbs, 16g fat. 26/39/35

Snacks (to help with hypoglycaemia. Tea is a new kind of thing- the "tea bag" is to account for estimated calories, the water is to count the water)
Oranges, raw, navels 210 g 102.9
Water, tap, drinking 291 g 0.0
fruit tea bag (fruit tea 2g, fruit plus calorie free tea 1g) 1 g 3.0
Kallo Wholegrain rice cakes (10g- 1 cake) 10 g 29.0
Whole Earth Smooth original peanut butter 8.5 g 50.6
Tesco very fine green whole beans 202 g 54.5
fruit tea bag (fruit tea 2g, fruit plus calorie free tea 1g) 1 g 3.0
Water, tap, drinking 298 g 0.0
Subtotal: 243 calories, 8g protein, 42g carbs, 5g fat. 13/69/19

Dinner:
BBC Good food beef and veg stew (18 June)- total weight 3001 750.25 g 300.2
Subtotal: 300 calories, 25g protein, 34g carbs, 6g fat. 33/47/21

Dessert:
Tesco frozen blueberries 81 g 25.9
Gala apple 120 g 60.0
Sainsbury's be good to yourself natural probiotic yoghurt 132 g 72.6
Strawberries, raw 93 g 29.8
Subtotal: 188 calories, 8g protein, 37g carbs, <1g fat. 19/78/3

Plus a night tea, which I haven't counted as usual. Still pretty sure that's calorie free.

Total: 1540 calories (104% of new goal), 96g protein (104% new goal), 218g carbs (97% new goal), 33g fat (95% new goal). 3017.3ml water, 2717.2mg sodium (181% of goal... yikes) Final split 24/56/19... which is actually about where I want to be.
 
Actually, one more thing. Was going to mention it here but didn't given all that went on yesterday.

My boyfriend has a longer bathroom mirror than I do. In it I can see all of my torso. When I had a shower at his place yesterday morning, I saw my torso straight up, in real life, for the first time in a long time. I couldn't believe it. Who is this thin woman standing naked in my boyfriend's bathroom? It was something of a revelation. While I don't think I have full blown body dismorphia, I am aware I don't see myself the way that anyone else sees me. I see my flaws a heck of a lot more. A long time ago, I used to call myself Medusa- and I really did think I was that ugly. Yesterday, for the first time (probably ever, and I've been thinner than this before), I saw a body I was happy with. (OK, I couldn't see my thighs in this picture, but this is still a net positive) I saw a body that I never thought I could have- one I admired in other people.

All of this sort of lay forgotten in the wake of the afternoon's clusterf***, but I've just remembered now and I think it needs sharing. I feel I've come a long way psychologically.
 
Hmm. Have started today with a smaller breakfast- it's not been long since I've eaten, and I'm getting hungry already. That's not good.
 
I know the feeling. 7 weeks ago I felt hungry very fast after breakfast, nowadays I can tolerate the feeling much better.. Evenings are harder now when Ive eaten and would like to snack anyway. :(
 
hey amy
i see youre still struggling with the hg - my doc told me to try splitting my meals in two - half a bown of cereal at 8am, 10:30 - slice of toast with peanut butter, lunch - half a sandwich and handful of nuts or fruit, 2:30 - other half of sandwich more fruit. Dinner - full meal at 5:30 and a protein rich snack at 8pm - sometimes the chicken bits you can buy or a handful of brazil nuts or unsalted cashews. He also said to maybe try low fat noodles or pasta or savoury rice with meals as they are rich in protein. Hope this helps.
x
 
Thanks :) I think it's just something to get used to, to be honest. I deal with my hypoglycaemia more by snacking than breaking up meals, and psychologically I just can't get my head around a half meal. I think what I'll end up doing is gradually cutting my meals and snacking as normal to account for the lower calorie amount. Also, I've had a couple of cups of tea which has eased the feeling of hunger, so I suspect it was more a "stomach not full enough" rather than a blood sugar problem. (I deliberately have porridge not only because I find it more filling than other cereals, but because it's low GI and gives me the slow sugar release)
 
Lunch:

Eggplant, raw 241 g 57.8
Squash, winter, butternut, raw 697 g 313.6
Potatoes, raw, skin 161 g 93.4
Oil, olive, Extra Virgin 30 g 265.2
Pataks medium tikka masala paste 198 g 186.1
Onions, raw 292 g 116.8
Peppers, sweet, yellow, raw 266 g 71.8
Squash, summer, zucchini, includes skin, raw 296 g 50.3
Tesco finest tradizionale passata 680 g 204.0
Water, tap, drinking 500 g 0.0
Amoy reduced fat coconut milk 400 g 464.0

To serve 8. 227.9 calories/ serve, 5.1g protein, 28.9g carbs, 11.6g sugar, 11.6g fat, 280.5ml water.

Nom :D
 
It's pretty damn good. And apparently gets better as leftovers. Which is good because that's lunch for the next week. (Although next time I'm going to serve it with a starch. I don't know what it is, but most vegetables don't make me feel full, somehow. That could also have something to do with the fact that I've had under 550 calories so far today, though...)
 
:) Looks really similar to the vegetable curry I made for lunch yesterday (and have left-over in the fridge for tomorrow!).

I have it with brown rice. Which takes forever to cook, but I usually cook up a whole batch and then freeze it in little 1/2 cup serves, because I know it takes forever, but it is tasty and I like it. And slow release :)
 
Tomorrow, I'm definitely having it with a starch.

ION, why am I so hungry today?! Yesterday it was hypoglycaemia. Today it's out and out hunger. Stupid body, I do not understand you.
 
Well, I've had a very hungry day. I'm going to write up my day's food now, draw a line under it, not have anything else. Might go to bed early because nothing I'm doing is curbing this hunger.

In other news, my boyfriend is taking me out sometime in the next week for a special meal (not a "punishment" meal like we joke the curry was). I suspect it'll coincide with our "anniversary" of starting this relationship (we're counting it by months as we haven't been together a year yet, although we're getting there. This may make us sad and soppy and stuff, I don't care :) ) This is the upside of cutting my calories. The downside is that it's bloody difficult to aim at eating this little. I managed today. By the skin of my damn teeth.

Friday 24 June

Breakfast, tea, snack:
Tesco frozen blueberries 60 g 19.2
Sainsbury's porridge oats 30 g 106.8
0.1% milk 154 g 53.9
Water, tap, drinking 164 g 0.0
Tesco natural low fat yoghurt 102 g 71.4
Spices, cinnamon, ground 0.7 g 1.7
0.1% milk 17 g 6.0
calorie free tea 304 g 0.0
0.1% milk 20 g 7.0
calorie free tea 336 g 0.0
0.1% milk 20 g 7.0
calorie free tea 294 g 0.0
Gala apple 90 g 45.0
Subtotal: 317 calories, 16g protein, 51g carbs, 4g fat. 21/67/12

Lunch:
BBC Vegetable curry for a crowd (24 June)- 470.125=1/8 470.12 g 227.9
Subtotal: 2217 calories, 5g protein, 28g carbs, 11g fat. 7/47/46 (yikes!)

Snacks/ starving/ attempt to up protein
Kallo Wholegrain rice cakes (10g- 1 cake) 20 g 58.0
Cathedral city lighter cheese 26 g 80.9
Spices, chili powder 0.2 g 0.6
Tesco very fine green whole beans 230 g 62.1
fruit tea bag (fruit tea 2g, fruit plus calorie free tea 1g) 1 g 3.0
Water, tap, drinking 291 g 0.0
Plums, raw 93 g 42.8
Cadbury Bournville Cocoa 7 g 23.1
Sweeteners, tabletop, sucralose, SPLENDA packets 0.9 g 3.0
0.1% milk 247 g 86.4
Water, tap, drinking 47 g 0.0
Water, tap, drinking 445 g 0.0
Pears, raw 204 g 118.3
Subtotal: 478 calories, 24g protein, 79g carbs, 8g fat. 20/64/16

Dinner:
BBC Good food beef and veg stew (18 June)- total weight 3001 750.25 g 300.2
Subtotal: 300 calories, 25g protein, 34g carbs, 6g fat. 33/47/21

Dessert: (I'd rather have something natural over the jelly, but at this stage of the day, the calories don't lie)
Water, tap, drinking 421 g 0.0
Water, tap, drinking 444 g 0.0
Water, tap, drinking 452 g 0.0
Hartleys sugar free orange jelly- 140=1/4 280 g 16.0
Strawberries, raw 205 g 65.6
Subtotal: 81 calories, 4g protein, 16g carbs, <1g fat. 23/70/7

Plus the night tea as usual.

Total: 1405 calories (95%), 76g protein (82%), 211g carbs (94%), 32g fat (92%). 4695.5ml water consumption (yes, seriously!), 1967.8mg sodium (131% of allowance :( ). Final split 21/58/21

Not looking forward to weighing in tomorrow morning :( I'm afraid I've put on weight.
 
*wolf-whistle* So glad you liked what you saw when you stood in front of the mirror starkers :D I can't actually put into words how chuffed I am for you. I just want to give you a big round of applause, because you've MADE IT, you accept yourself and like your body the way it is! HURRAY :hurray:

Hope you had wild uninhibited sex with your bf that night ;)
 
Thanks :eek: :D

It's a really big step for me, that's for sure. And I'm sure my boyfriend, how he treats me, what he expects of me (to be me, basically), etc all plays a part in it, but I think other things have played their part. Like what I've said about being in control of my body and my weight for the first time.

As for other things... I don't normally talk about this stuff... but... Not after the digestive problems I had that night, but let's just say we don't have any problems in that department.
 
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