Amy's weight loss diary

Thanks guys :)

:( I'm exhausted. I want to go to bed. I don't know why. I desperately want a cup of coffee or something to perk me up but that'll mean I don't sleep properly tonight. This may mean I overeat today, because I have to do shit and not just sit here.

The last few days have been incredibly hard. :(
 
Yup, I am officially overeating. I have stuff to do and need to get energy back to do it. I think I'm making nutritiously good choices, but I had a big lunch so I may well be over calories today. The stuff I need to get done is infinitely more important than the weight loss, so today I'm going to be easy on myself (or try to be).
 
A day of going over your limit is fine occasionally :) Take your own advice and go easy on yourself <3 Good luck avoiding the coffee!
 
Thanks Sunflower. The strawberry jam in my fridge is calling my name. But that's a really bad idea- it's high cal and just asking for a sugar crash. I'll do as well as I can in the circumstances and hope that it's not too damaging (have had some fruit, nuts, rice cakes and Vegemite so far).

In other news, this has been building up for a few days now (the bump on my wrist in the second photo). It really hurts. My boyfriend thinks it's RSI, and it's only getting worse (at least it's not raging zit red at the moment, then it's really painful) and hurting in more situations. (By way of contrast, see also my other hand, which is the first photo to simulate me holding my hands together if I would for a photo if I could find a way to take a photo like that without using one of my hands)
 
You obviously have some stressful stuff going on in your life right now. Dealing with that is more important.
And ouch your wrist swelling looks painful :/
 
If I didn't know better I'd say my calorie counting way of thinking has changed the way I process food. I've been eating the same sort of stuff I normally do- just more of it- and all of a sudden I'm feeling really horribly ill. :(
 
im sorry for the stress you 're going through.I really have no idea what that swelling on your wrist.I hope you feel better tomorow and dont stress yourself more with food.I dont think its so bad to go of for a day especialy when you've already done some serious work.
 
Thanks :) It's not the food that's stressing me, it's everything else. I decided to eat more than usual to help me feel better, but I've either made myself sick or I'm getting sick. (Not sure how I could've made myself sick- I've only eaten things that I normally would've done)

I sort of feel like going and having a binge, but that's only because I'm in a disgustingly foul mood and I feel like throwing a spanner into the works of everything just to spite myself. Fortunately I think I'm too tired to go out and get the things I want to binge on- I'm exhausted and in pain and feeling bloody miserable.

I can get through this. I have to. I just wish I was getting shit done :(
 
Thanks :) I'm already making quite a point of drinking water. Not sure what's going on at the moment.

Anyway, here's my food for the day. I'm over- but I knew I was going to be. It's not catastrophic, although it didn't get me what I wanted (energy to get things done), which I'm a bit disappointed about. Might hit the caffeine hard again tomorrow morning.

Wednesday 8 June

Breakfast: 30g oats, 269ml milk, 59g raspberries, 54g yoghurt, with a cup of tea (285ml water and 57ml milk). Subtotal: 287 calories, 18g protein, 44g carbs, 3g fat.

Lunch: Bigger than usual, which was definitely part of my downfall. Two lentil patties (need to be used up), 74g tomato, 21g sweet chilli sauce (wasn't paying attention to what I was pouring), and a 64g hardboiled egg. 483 calories, 22g protein, 59g carbs, 24g fat.

It all goes wrong after this.

Snacking: Graze Bakewell Tart mix, 250g punnet cherry tomatoes, a 118g pear, 3 rice cakes with Vegemite (11g total), an 80g apple, and a 94g nectarine. Subtotal: 499 calories, 12g protein, 86g carbs, 10g fat.

Dinner: serve of turkey with citrus sauce as adapted, 178g green beans, 203g broccoli. Subtotal: 307 calories, 27g protein, 44g carbs, 3g fat.

Dessert/ oh sod it: 61g plum, 95g pear, 64g apple, steamed, with 80g raspberries, 98g yoghurt, and a dash of cinnamon. 9g chocolate. Subtotal: 254 calories, 8g protein, 46g carbs, 4g fat.

Total: 1832 calories (105%), 88g protein (102%), 280g carbs (98%), 46g fat (120%). Total water consumption 4023.7ml (that's apparently 141.6 fl oz), sodium 2459mg (164%). Final split 19/59/23

For a bad day, I think I've done ok. I'm certainly not proud, but when I started posting here I told myself I'd post everything, so here it is.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and things will start to turn around. I'm getting close to the end of what I can handle with the stuff going on in my life. ( world's smallest :nopity: )
 
*big hugs* sorry to hear things aren't going great at the moment, but good on you for still posting here. I had a binge yesterday and made myself feel sick :( I was more upset afterwards than I was beforehand, so my advice to you is to not chuck it all in coz it'll probably just make you feel more horrible than you already do.

As for your wrist, go get it checked out ASAP. You could have fractured something in your wrist without knowing it (trust me, it happens), or it could be RSI in which case you need proper treatment as well.
 
Tomorrow is a new day! Stressors are always an issue for binging. When I get really depressed that's the first thing I think of to do. Not to mention that its more of a pity party than it is to cheer myself up.
I don't know what is going on in your life, but sometimes other things take precedence. You'll get back on track. You seem to have such great advice for others and myself.
*hugs*
 
Thanks everyone :)

Aussiegal (still feels weird calling you that, being an Australian in a part of the world with few Australians), I'll get it checked out. I have a doctor's appointment for next Wednesday, or if it annoys me today I'll go to the walk-in centre at the hospital tomorrow (I need to be around there then, it's a bit out of the way most of the time). I think I did reasonably well in the circumstances, I was less than 100 calories over and my food was still healthy (or overwhelmingly healthy). What really disturbed me was my desire to chuck it all in- that hasn't happened before. Fortunately I resisted.

Thanks Ashy. So far when I've had stressors while I've been on this diet it's just hardened my resolve- get that right if nothing else. Yesterday I was trying to give myself a pick-me-up (energy- but without caffeine), which didn't work out, but I think that's an acceptable reason to go over calories and I did it in a controlled way (could've still been under if I hadn't been so down about it all and gone for a big dessert). I don't feel too bad about it. And yes, as you say, other things come before diet. Fortunately this diet has more or less become habit for me now so I think even on my worst days (barring illness or other things completely out of my control) I should be able to stick with it reasonably well.

And thank you for asking, Jasper, I appreciate it :) I'm doing better, I think. Very tired as I didn't sleep properly last night so I'm still waking up (yes, it's nearly 11am. Don't judge me). Trying to work out what to tackle- things I was trying to do yesterday, academic work, get some exercise in, do something to help clear my head? Going to finish my coffee then get on with something.
 
Sorry to hear your going through such a rough patch... Poor chicken! It's good to see that your day yesterday wasn't too crazily off the scales, which is easy to do when tough stuff hits you...

How are you feeling now you're back on the coffee? Scary! xx
 
HAHA I clicked on the link saw the title and closed it out!!! I am NOT the person to be asking about that. But I will say this, I learned how to knit using youtube videos, not my granny. So maybe you should check some web videos out? Good luck!

You seem so sensible with your dietary needs and balancing out your daily life. That is something for people to aspire to. I really appreciate how you don't over react. I think what messes most people up are their over reactions to a slight deviation from their plan. I think I am one of those people. And as I type this I am thinking that I need to come up with a back up plan for when those things happen, because the odds are saying it will happen eventually. Thanks for making me think about that ahead of time. :)
 
Hi amy, i just want to say that today i met a personal trainer and i talked with him about the "crunches vs planks" question :D

He said to me that Crunches are the WORST thing that i could to.
Crunches damage vertebral spin and could cause slipped disc

repeating hundreds of times the drop of the spine in the lumbar area could deteriorate the annulus fibrosus and the disc

he told me that the best thing that i could do to keep my abs strong is to do frontal and lateral planks ;)
 
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Ashy, you obviously haven't read back to about a week ago where I was in a plateau, thought I'd gained weight, and freaked the hell out. (I didn't change my diet, although I did vow- very short lived- to stick closer to 1200 and went off to the gym on the day I discovered it in a horrible rage intending to all but hurt myself! - fortunately I listened to my body's warning signs at the gym that I was getting close to injuring myself, so I slowed down) That's not something to be proud of, at all. For the most part I just plod along, but I don't think I'm anything special.

As to my diet, I'm incredibly fortunate that my mother drilled good habits into me from a young age and I've never been a fussy eater (she weaned me off whole milk when I was 8 and onto skimmed, now I can't stand whole milk, it tastes rotten. Even if whole milk were miraculously lower calorie than skimmed, I can't drink that crap now. :puke: That and a healthy attitude to fruit and vegetables. I resented the hell out of her when I was little for not letting me eat the way my friends did, but said friends now, if they're having trouble with their weight, wail and moan about having to eat a carrot because it's "not proper food"- by which they mean "not processed garbage") My weight loss has been very little about giving things up, more about appreciating the calorie content in healthy foods and adjusting accordingly, so I may have had an easier go of this than other people.

I would never presume to give parenting advice in most instances, but this is one exception- do what my mum did (don't ask me how she did it- but it worked with my fussier-as-children siblings as well, who now, like me, will eat almost anything) and encourage familiarity with, love of, and expectation of healthy food, rather than what my friends' parents did- let the kids eat whatever they want and produce fussy unhealthy adults who are paying the price now and will pay a lot worse in years to come if they don't shape up. (sorry, end sanctimony here)

I don't actively have backup plans in my mind- but yesterday I just thought "this is how I would've dealt with the sitaution before. Is there any other way to do it? No. What are my priorities and what will this do to my plan?" and went from there. There are some situations I don't know how to handle (like eating out- so I don't) which will prove to be a challenge for me when they come up (as I know they will).

My concentration on diet is also a function of my priorities. I have a bunch of health conditions which can make my life very hard. I know from previous experience that the better I eat, the better I feel. I have no desire to feel like crap, so I don't eat (much) crap. It's probably harder for other people because, unlike me, they may not immediately feel terrible after a meal (at worst) or a couple of days (at best) of eating mostly food that's not good for them. My body's just so much more responsive to nutrition than others' seem to be (or maybe others just don't care as much).

Thanks for that, ItalianGirl. I don't actually do crunches anymore, but until you showed me that I didn't have good justification. I just don't like them :biggrinjester: They hurt my stomach. Planks I can feel working but they're not terribly painful.
 
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