Amy's weight loss diary

This is an under-eating day.
I ate less than 1000 cals too.
Maybe it's summer air fault :D
 
Well, that was the last of my sleeping tablets (well, they gave me a lot more, but that was the last of the recommended course).

And I didn't get to sleep until after 4am, even though I took the tablet at 10pm. I'd definitely had it- I felt incredibly out of it- but I wasn't sleeping. :cuss: So I'll probably feel doubly rotten today. Had a really tough time dragging myself out of bed when I finally did.

I really hope it still has the desired effect now that I'm off them though- I desperately want to be able to sleep normally.
 
I hope that you'll be betternow eithout those tablets.I really admire your attitude!You could end up working as a "how to loose weight advicer"
(Sorry if the spelling is wrong)!!!
Just thinking that when i feel crapy in the morning , headache ect a nice shower makes me feel better.If you havent done that try it maybe it will help you
 
I've tried most things, I'm afraid. Cammomile, lavender, St John's Wort (can't take that with antidepressants), valerian, no tea or coffee after a certain point (was 6pm, then 5pm, now midday), relaxation techniques (massage, warm bath, etc), aromatherapy, self-hypnosis, meditation, sleep hygiene, toughing it out, trying to wear myself out to make myself sleep... you name it, I've probably given it a go. Well, except for frying pan to the head, but I suggested that to my boyfriend who was not amused.

I've had problems on and off for 15 years (since I was 10- that's that I can remember, anyway). But they've been getting to the point recently where I have to do something, it's seriously screwing with my quality of life.
 
Thanks Jasper :) I hope my attitude is a good one, at least for my sake, although I love that others are getting things out of it too.

I think I'm going to have a shower (I sometimes delay it as I drag myself into the world of the living in the morning), have some coffee (because I'm feeling very brain dead at the moment), throw on my gym gear and go for a walk/ run. Assuming it isn't raining out there, I haven't looked. *grumbles about English weather*
 
sounds good.I too feel better (so suprising for me!)when i work out!so i hope you're gonna feel better!i hate haedaches,i get them all the time.My tablets are always in my bag..its puts me down , no energy,just horrible but sometimes after showers and workouts i get better.Also if im in pain i go out in the fresh air.It makes a huge difference.Just getting out the house.
 
I've tried most things, I'm afraid. Cammomile, lavender, St John's Wort (can't take that with antidepressants), valerian, no tea or coffee after a certain point (was 6pm, then 5pm, now midday), relaxation techniques (massage, warm bath, etc), aromatherapy, self-hypnosis, meditation, sleep hygiene, toughing it out, trying to wear myself out to make myself sleep... you name it, I've probably given it a go. Well, except for frying pan to the head, but I suggested that to my boyfriend who was not amused.

I've had problems on and off for 15 years (since I was 10- that's that I can remember, anyway). But they've been getting to the point recently where I have to do something, it's seriously screwing with my quality of life.

I see. I'm so sorry. :hug2:
I understand that it's a devastating problem.
Maybe Acupuntur?
 
Thanks :)

I'll do some more research. There must be something out there.

I've just put on my gym gear (after shower, haha) and am having coffee before I go for a run. This new stuff is quite strong and so I'm put a little artificial sweetener in there (because although it's good, the overwhelming flavour so far was "bitter"- with a small teaspoon of sucralose I can pick up a lot more than that). It's an extra two calories per cup, not the end of the world (and although artificial sweeteners aren't the best for you, the quantities I have them in aren't going to kill me).

I've also noticed my sports bra is getting a bit loose, like I bought it in the wrong cup size, and I've had to do it up on the tightest setting to get the support I need. Sort of happy, sort of irritated by this.

Am going to go for intervals of running and walking, as my knees won't handle a full session running. Will report back on how it goes. I feel more alert/ awake just by intending to get out there and exercise.
 
Interested to see whether it feels a lot better for your knee by doing the walking and jogging combo... Good on you for getting out there, even though you didn't initially feel like it!
 
I officially suck. I was out there (including walk there/ back) for less than 40 minutes before I'd had enough!

Although that being said, I was probably running too quickly (I tend to be a bit all/ nothing about these things), and it wasn't just my fitness that stopped me. (The park was starting to get more crowded and I was running out of places to run) And although it was partly me getting too tired, my knees were the last straw, not something I had to work through. (the first thing was slight trouble breathing in- something I get a lot with running, not sure why. Then a slight stitch, then a bit of thigh ache, then my left knee started to niggle me)

I think this is definitely the way forward. I was mostly walking (probably not briskly enough, need to work on that) with small spurts of running (from this bin to that tree kind of thing)- between 30 and 70 seconds per spurt, average around 45 seconds.

I felt really good doing it, too- well, at least for most of it, when it started to feel more tiring and less invigorating it became a factor in deciding to pack it in.

I feel a lot better right now. I might do this again this afternoon, see how I'm feeling.

:D
 
I've just stumbled across this thread. It's very old, and I don't want to bump an old thread, particularly since this hasn't been hard for me (this time), but I think it's very interesting (it's on why people find losing weight difficult):

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/topic/11956-why-hard.html

Edit to add: I really like this.

In alcohol addiction, the folks who "white-knuckle" it - who feel as if they are deprived rather than gaining something - are the folks who tend to relapse time and again. And until they realize that the cell door is open and they can walk out any time, they will not be successfull. Whereas, if you accept the simple reality (i.e., to quit drinking, you can't drink alcohol) and move on while becoming educated about the addiction and replacing old habits with new ones, you will generally be successfull. But in that, too, there is a patience factor.

I mean, with weight loss, it's not as if we gained that weight overnight. Just as the alcohol addicted individual didn't become addicted after one drink.

All the education in the world won't mean a wink if a person is feeling deprived. And the media puts us in a constant state of feeling need.

All the contradictions out there really serve to f a person up. What's amazing is we are so cynical about other things (like news) the media feeds us - we're not stupid, after all. But we're so willing to latch on to the latest fad. What's up with that?
 
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Oh dear. Done bad. :(

Was just talking to my boyfriend- we want to see each other, but circumstances mean it's not practical for my boyfriend to come here tonight. He said "I guess that means we won't see each other then, because I can't do your fancy calorie counting thing"

I feel awful right now. I didn't realise how much it'd bothered him.

(Not that I'm stopping my fancy calorie counting thing... I'm taking my scales to his place for the night)
 
Maybe you should let him take you out? I know you've said he really wants to..Maybe plan in advance how many calories you can have and what sort of thing you'll chose so it's not too hard to have something lower in calories when you arrive. I know my boyfriend gets sick of my calorie counting and I don't know it anywhere near to the extent you do--Need to get me some scales! Maybe let him know that the calorie counting doesn't need to come between you two by going out for the evening :D
 
I feel like your boyfriend should be supporting you through this weight loss. Why wouldn't he? Who wouldn't want their partner to be a little bit sexier? If this negativity persists, I think you should talk to him about it. You shouldn't feel bad about counting calories and trying to get yourself healthy, you've done nothing wrong!
 
I actually asked him if he wanted to take me out- I think he has something in mind to spring on me, because I told him I was going to let going out back into my program, every so often, and he said no to going out tonight. (When we do go out I'm not going to bother with the calories- if I do it once a month or less, unless I go crazy which I don't plan to, it shouldn't make too much of a dint. Even three courses and a couple of drinks, if I'm on track the rest of the time, should at worst slow my progress, and I'm ok with that)

I'm going to his place, we're going to do some exercise together, and spend the evening together. Something home cooked. I'll work out the calories more or less there, write it all down, and then figure it out properly when I get home.
 
Snezy, he's entirely supportive (I couldn't ask for more), I think you got the wrong end of the stick on this one. I take this calorie counting business a lot further than most people and won't eat if I can't quantify things, which means almost no eating out (no eating out that he would like) and generally not staying at my boyfriend's place. This understandably makes him unhappy, and I need to do something to remedy that. I'm the one at fault here, and I know that.
 
Haha yeah I definitely got the wrong end, that's good that he's supportive! :) Hopefully you can find a good balance.
 
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