Always will be a fat man.........but

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Bigguy said:
So-
Had a really good session last night in the gym. I was able to rep 205 on the bench a solid 4 times with no spotter and deadlift 225 x 5. Both a personal bests. I know I looked like an idiot but I practiced my squat form also with a whopping 95lbs on the bar. I need to get this form down- it is very important to me to increase my range of motion and to be able to do a complete, deep squat. After I left the power rack 2 kids came in and 'squatted'. They were doing 1/2 squats at best and kept throwing more weight on the bar. I wanted to go up to them and give them lessons and tell them the weight on the bar only matters if the form is good... I did not- oh well.
I am not hurting today so I di something right.:)
After the weight I went on the arc trainer for 45 at interval 6. Kept to the plan to keep the strides per minute at 110 at the hard interval and 125 at the easy- it worked and did not tire me out as quickly as previous. I have good endurance but I need to build into it sometimes.
All in all a good workout.
The crap from yesterday morning was resolved and all is well with the world.
I slept well, am off today- have errands to run for a few hours later this morning- but really all is good.
I am finding a good place in life now, I think.

Anyway-
Good morning to whomever reads this.:)
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Good for you, B. That's a really great attitude to have. If you could bottle and sell it, we could make a fortune. (And yes I said we. Lol, a girl's gotta try! :D)
 
about2loseit said:
Good for you, B. That's a really great attitude to have. If you could bottle and sell it, we could make a fortune. (And yes I said we. Lol, a girl's gotta try! :D)
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You know darn well my attitude shifts wildly from day to day...
I cannot bottle that- people would sue you..

See what I did there....:D
 
Bigguy said:
Exactly.
Poor planning on her part...
Oh well.
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See, that is why attorneys should not handle their own schedules! I cannot stress this enough! (Of course, when left up to the support staff, all attorneys would be scheduled out of town on Fridays! lol)
 
Bigguy said:
Oxymoron???
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I was all set to congratulate you for getting your head out of your rear end and getting happy and then you had to mess it all up...way to go :)

My working had nothing to do with my ability or inability to plan my own schedule...in NJ motion days are on Fridays...I had a motion, it is Friday, you get the point :)

Miss me?
 
ali.smedley said:
I was all set to congratulate you for getting your head out of your rear end and getting happy and then you had to mess it all up...way to go :)
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Couln't break trends though now could we. Being happy for me in my own diary....who would a thunk it?
ali.smedley said:
My working had nothing to do with my ability or inability to plan my own schedule...in NJ motion days are on Fridays...I had a motion, it is Friday, you get the point :)
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All i hear is "Blah, Blah- poor planning on my part- Blah, Blah" :D


ali.smedley said:
Miss me?
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Of course sunshine- how are you?
 
Bigguy said:
Couln't break trends though now could we. Being happy for me in my own diary....who would a thunk it?

All i hear is "Blah, Blah- poor planning on my part- Blah, Blah" :D




Of course sunshine- how are you?
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See I missed this b/c I was having FUN at work for a change...

I was happy for you, it was short lived though b/c you just had to be a smart-aleck...

:D
 
So here I am at the end of May the exact same weight I was at the beginning of May. Measurements have not changed in any real way and I am still a fat tub of crap. I really need to get my ass back on track or I am going to gain all this back again and look even worse this time. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and the various little pulls and strains and do whatever I can do to get myself in shape.
I look like rolled crap and I am tired of it. Today this all starts again. I am going to write down what I eat and keep under a yet to be determined number, I am going to the gym 6 days a week and doing what I can. This is bullshit and I know I am better than this. I am falling back into the same patterns I had before and this scares the crap out of me.
This needs to and will stop now.....
Yesterday sucked for a variety of reasons- not going to go into any of them and it took the miracle of my wife being pregnant to get me into anything resembling a good mood.
I dropped into one of my finks yesterday- not sure why these happen. I find myself very melancholy and distant at these times. Interesting times for reflection but I get so pissed off at things..... this is officially one of them.
 
The thing that made me happy today is my wife is 7.5 weeks pregnat according to the ultrasound today. Everything is great and the heartbeat is 157 BPM.
All appears to be really good on that front right now.:)


It really lifted my spirits but not for too long.
 
Bigguy said:
So here I am at the end of May the exact same weight I was at the beginning of May. Measurements have not changed in any real way and I am still a fat tub of crap. I really need to get my ass back on track or I am going to gain all this back again and look even worse this time. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and the various little pulls and strains and do whatever I can do to get myself in shape.
I look like rolled crap and I am tired of it. Today this all starts again. I am going to write down what I eat and keep under a yet to be determined number, I am going to the gym 6 days a week and doing what I can. This is bullshit and I know I am better than this. I am falling back into the same patterns I had before and this scares the crap out of me.
This needs to and will stop now.....
Yesterday sucked for a variety of reasons- not going to go into any of them and it took the miracle of my wife being pregnant to get me into anything resembling a good mood.
I dropped into one of my finks yesterday- not sure why these happen. I find myself very melancholy and distant at these times. Interesting times for reflection but I get so pissed off at things..... this is officially one of them.
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Ok so you identified the problem, got pissed (appropriately) and now you have to let it go and move on.

And yes, I appreciate the irony of this as I prepare to write my own rant in my diary. Feel free to yell at me as needed.

Carry on.
 
Bigguy said:
I am still a fat tub of crap.
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That may be how you feel at the moment, but it is not at all how you look. You look great and anyone on here that has seen your pics agrees with me.

Bigguy said:
I really need to get my ass back on track or I am going to gain all this back again and look even worse this time. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and the various little pulls and strains and do whatever I can do to get myself in shape.
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Really good that you realize this now and not after you have regained 10, 20, 30 lbs. That happens - happened to me! - and you stopped it before it could happen. You are not where you wanted to be. Yeah, that sucks. But you are also not where you were before. That's a real good thing, darlin. You don't have to worry about undoing damage, you can just start back where you left off. June is going to be your month!

Bigguy said:
I look like rolled crap and I am tired of it. Today this all starts again. I am going to write down what I eat and keep under a yet to be determined number, I am going to the gym 6 days a week and doing what I can. This is bullshit and I know I am better than this. I am falling back into the same patterns I had before and this scares the crap out of me.
This needs to and will stop now.....
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Everyone has a relapse at some point. I came to this site at the end of one, disgusted with myself. A favorite female friend of ours experienced this a week ago. It happens to us all. We just have to stay on our toes. Seriously, changing your lifestyle, activity, and eating habits has not "cured" you. It's made you healthier, has given you self-esteem, and lots of other positive rewards . . . but we are never "cured." The temptation will always be there and we will always have to fight it. Sometimes it is just easier than at other times. You are now back in fighting mode. :D
 
Brian...........

did you see you are a senior member now???

We are on our way to taking over...Angela should be there tomorrow, we just have to get Matthew to up his post count and we will be ready to take over the forum!
 
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