Ajna's Diary

Ajna

Ajna

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Tee-hee... my very own diary!!! The way I see it, I'm talking to myself all the time anyways. Maybe it'll be fun to talk to myself with others watching? Good to mix it up every once in a while! Okay, well I'll introduce myself incase I'm not just talking to myself and other's are here too :) I'm 23, and I have to admit that even though I want to lose weight and think about it all day long and dream about it all night and I have since I was like ten (about the same time I figured out that people actually judge other people) I'm blessed to not have as far to go as some others do... and less weight to lose now than a year ago. My mom struggled with her weight her whole life... I grew up watching her obsess about it and talk about it and that sort of wore off on me I think. I'm only 150lbs, but 5'3 but most of the time I feel like I'm 200... I did the weight watchers thing and the running thing and lost about 20 lbs last year. I got to the point where I couldn't eat the weight watchers food anymore though. Day in and day out of "lowfat" processed low calorie low nutrition food made me feel like I was turning into the same kind of plastic all of my ready made meals were reheated in. So on came another life overhaul, I began getting really serious about my yoga practice and began eating a practically vegan diet and searching my soul for all the little parts of me fighting a new body and new life. I found most of them, not that they're ready to leave yet, but you know... they've been spotted, and are currently under observation. They'll get the boot yet.
Huh... there's something kinda therapeudic about being able to talk about yourself and not feel like you're being self-centered... maybe that's what I've been drawn here for? We'll find out soon enough... bwahahaha!!!!!!!!!

If you are reading this... well... hi! welcome to my brain. Hope to see you again.

Aj
 
So I was just looking around the site lastnight thinking to myself "I'm going to go read a whole pile of other people's journals" but I actually fell asleep doing it. That sounds wrong... they were WONDERFUL and helpful and so familiar all at the same time, but there's so many of them and there's a few veterans in here with the 20,50 100+ pages. I got overwhelmed.
 
Hey Anja. Just dropping in to say hello and give you a quick "welcome to your diary" shout out. You have a really positive attitude about your weight loss and I just wanted to stop in and wish you much continued success.
 
Thanks so much for popping in! I just figured out the Ticker thingy so I'm all excited *lol* I used to be really depressed and hard on myself until I began yoga. It really gave me a sense of respect for my own body, respect and curiosity now. And I realize nothing positive comes from a place of critisizm and judgement... for me anyways. And most of them time. Sometime's I'd rather just sit on the couch eating mac'n cheese and wondering why I haven't lost any weight yet
 
I totally know how you feel. I used to beat myself up about my weight also. But then I realized that I could either spend all of my time wishing I were thinner, or I could go out and actually do something about my weight. Keep up the positive attitude it'll really come in handy especially during the times you feel like giving up.
 
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WOOT!! It was only a half an hour, but I got off my ass and went on the elliptical... even though "it was my day off" and "I never get to just sit around" and "blah blah blah"
It's so nice to defeat the voices in your head, even when it's just a little victory :)
I'm lucky though... my boyfriend is good inspiration. I called him this afternoon and caught him in the middle of a work-out on his day off too. Nothing quite like healthy competition
 
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