Well, here's a picture of her, if your talking to me. She's also in the video I made on my myspace page:
Well, I'm currently looking for someone else. This girl was perfect for me, but she could never see me in the same way. But I learned a lot about love because of it. I learned a lot about sacrifce.
Here's a short passage of a letter I was writing to her, but because of circumstance that made the letter useless, I never sent it to her.
"In the past, I always tried to diet and exercise by myself, but it never would last for more than a week or two. So, I started a very intense diet and exercise program starting mere hours after Halloween. I’ll tell you what, I put myself through hell until Christmas. At that time I had no time for exercise. I was working 8-12 hours each night and going to school most of the day. So, I started exercising at work in the bitter cold. All I could really do was run, so I put myself through some running for 30 minutes for every 4 hours of work. I had to sacrifice, not just the physical torture to do this; I also had to hear the remarks of the employees coming to and fro from work. Plus, sometimes I had to watch the drunks coming out the bar right next to the lot. The drunks are liable to chase after me and think its funny. The exercise wasn’t the worst part of all this though, it was the diet. Before this all started I was a person who probably ate 4,000 calories a day with no exercise. So in one day I changed this and cut my intake to 1,500 calories. I sacrificed, and stopped eating and drinking a lot of the foods I love. All of this was like a frozen hell and many times I felt like quitting, but every time I would say your name and I would have the strength to continue. At the time, I didn’t understand why I was putting myself through this; I just knew I had to do it."
Well, all of you are probaly are saying, get over her. Well, I finally am. She was the first one I've ever loved, but I know she won't be the last. I'm just hoping the next time the feelings will be shared between the two of us.
