Hi diary. I'm going to use you to help me do a health 180. I have plenty of bad habits and a generally unhealthy way of living. I have dieted, pretended to diet, worked out infrequently, worked out frequently for short spurts of time, and given up and given up and given up. I know that this is everyone's story, and not just mine, but I need to see it.
How healthy have I been overall in the past 10 years? Not very, and now it's starting to wear on my system in a way that I feel/deal with on a daily basis. I must get better or I'll get no where.
I'm currently in college to put my life onto a more successful track than it was when I was a teacher. I've put a lot of thought into what made me leave and what parts of that job not working were me as opposed to what parts were the school I taught at. I have a few personality traits to clean up before reentering the working world. I'm also more than 100 pounds overweight, which appears in many people's eyes as an outward sign of an inward problem (sorry to quote Clean House, but there it is). Two of those eyes are my own.
I'm working on dealing with low self esteem, but it's hard to keep it up when I'm ashamed of the nothing that I'm doing to help myself. Lately I've felt a fire building. It's been getting bigger little by little as I realize how I've limited myself due to my size (and because of that, my osteoarthritis being more of a problem than it should and getting worse more quickly than it should, and bursitis in a knee making me realize that walking miles and miles at Disney World isn't just a financially-impossible dream, but a physically impossible one as well).
I see all the bad. The hard. The hurt. And I eat to quell it. That has to stop. So I'm making a commitment to myself, which goes as follows (mostly stolen a Bob Greene, in case you recognize it):
I, Amber P., hereby commit myself to 12 weeks of regular vigorous exercise (scheduled at 7 AM four days a week and 9 AM otherwise, but not limited to that) and to self-control when it comes to my eating.
I will be focused on challenging my abilities in the pursuit of elevating my physical performance and adding healthy habits to my daily life. In addition I will not indulge in more than one alcoholic drink per day, and only that if I have drunk at least 64 ounces of water previously.
I will also terminate my consumption of all food after 7:30 PM. I will endeavor to be conscious of when and why I eat and will, to the best of my ability, eat simply to satisfy my nutritional needs as opposed to my emotional needs.
I will also do my best to make healthful food choices. I realize that this contract is solely with myself and that is carries no rewards, penalties, or punishments other than those associated with the reflection of the strength of my character.
13 Day of November, 2009
ASP
How healthy have I been overall in the past 10 years? Not very, and now it's starting to wear on my system in a way that I feel/deal with on a daily basis. I must get better or I'll get no where.
I'm currently in college to put my life onto a more successful track than it was when I was a teacher. I've put a lot of thought into what made me leave and what parts of that job not working were me as opposed to what parts were the school I taught at. I have a few personality traits to clean up before reentering the working world. I'm also more than 100 pounds overweight, which appears in many people's eyes as an outward sign of an inward problem (sorry to quote Clean House, but there it is). Two of those eyes are my own.
I'm working on dealing with low self esteem, but it's hard to keep it up when I'm ashamed of the nothing that I'm doing to help myself. Lately I've felt a fire building. It's been getting bigger little by little as I realize how I've limited myself due to my size (and because of that, my osteoarthritis being more of a problem than it should and getting worse more quickly than it should, and bursitis in a knee making me realize that walking miles and miles at Disney World isn't just a financially-impossible dream, but a physically impossible one as well).
I see all the bad. The hard. The hurt. And I eat to quell it. That has to stop. So I'm making a commitment to myself, which goes as follows (mostly stolen a Bob Greene, in case you recognize it):
I, Amber P., hereby commit myself to 12 weeks of regular vigorous exercise (scheduled at 7 AM four days a week and 9 AM otherwise, but not limited to that) and to self-control when it comes to my eating.
I will be focused on challenging my abilities in the pursuit of elevating my physical performance and adding healthy habits to my daily life. In addition I will not indulge in more than one alcoholic drink per day, and only that if I have drunk at least 64 ounces of water previously.
I will also terminate my consumption of all food after 7:30 PM. I will endeavor to be conscious of when and why I eat and will, to the best of my ability, eat simply to satisfy my nutritional needs as opposed to my emotional needs.
I will also do my best to make healthful food choices. I realize that this contract is solely with myself and that is carries no rewards, penalties, or punishments other than those associated with the reflection of the strength of my character.
13 Day of November, 2009
ASP