A Shy Hi

[Polka]

(very long text but It would be nice if you could read it)

Hello!

I'm Polka (girl) and I'm new here... I was searching on google for some kind of forum where I could express my feelings about these problems you know so well... And I found it! I'm really glad
So... I don't know where to start...
I'm overweighted, not very much, but still much... I've 20kg more than I would want... I spent all my life with diets, I spent all my money with it... but nothing worked...
I've even (you will laugh this point) went to college to be Nutritionist!!! I'm in the second year... (I don't know how it works in your country, I know some countrys consider dietists above nutritionists, in my country nutritionists are higher than dietists... is just a question of names...).
I'm a pretty good student and I'm sure I'm gonna be a pretty good nutritionist cause I really know how is to be on the other side... Most of nutritionists have a really high lack of sensibility...
So you ask... how can I know so much about it and still be fat?
I've a lot of psycological issues... depression, stress, lack of confidence... all of this because I had an awful childhood, there was violence, fear, pression, I was abused... and oh well... it was a really hell... but now it's over and I'm a young woman with a lot to live, I'm free, I'm a fighter, I built strong values... From the outside people would consider me a really lucky girl... even boys desire me... well not all of them... but a lot of them... I know some of my friends are in love with me but I pretend I don't know it, so I can act naturally as a friend... But in the inside I'm still a mess, I'm still depressed and fear consumes me... I go to college everyday and I just can think about getting home to hide myself from world and then I eat... I spend days thinking I can't do that... But then... It happens... I just eat and eat and eat... to forget about my fears, to forget my pain, to forget about the mad world where I live and about the bad people who hurt me... I forget everything and I turn on the tv seeing someone else living in the movies and I live there... in the movies, the series... all the emotions and everything... I can live all of that while I'm safe at home with nobody looking at me or waiting something from me... And I eat everything I can...
But next.. I promise myself that in the next day I would start a diet and never give up... but it never happens...
So I guess I just need someone to talk to... someone to support me without knowing me, without judging me... I really need you... I don't want a psychologist cause they are very expensive and I just can go there once in a while and they look at me, I don't feel confortable to speak so openly with someone face to face about this...
So I'm sorry about saying all this... I'm in despair... I know I will get over all the problems when I lose the 20kg I want to... cause then I will feel strong enough to face the world...

Thank you so much!
I can answer all of your nutritional questions and I want to help you too very badly, let's all be slim, healthy and happy...
May it be a new sunshine for all of us...

P.s. I'm vegetarian too, if you have any doubts about your veggie diet, just ask! Don't be scared about me being fat, it has nothing to do with my knowledge, I one of the very best students at my class
P.s.s. Sorry if I made any mistakes, my english sometimes suck!

With love,
Polka.

 

[maleficent]

P.s.s. Sorry if I made any mistakes, my english sometimes suck!

that line just made me laugh... your english is fine but for someone for whom english is not their first languge - when they use slang it's funny to me

welcome to the site.. I hope you'll learn much from the members here as well..

enjoy your stay

What country are you from?

 

[Alibran]

Hi Polka, and welcome. Your english is way, way better than my attempts at any other language.

Feel free to talk about your feelings here as much as you want. That's what this place is for. And we all know there's a lot more to losing weight than saying "I'm going to start a diet tomorrow."

My advice (what has worked for me so far) is to take little steps. Don't start out by saying "tomorrow I'm going to change the way I eat forever, and I'm never going to eat chocolate/cake/dessert/whatever again, and I'm going to exercise for 2 hours everyday" and so on. Just make small changes, and every change that you stick with will make you feel so much stronger and better about yourself. At least that is what's happened for me.

Have you looked at the diary section of the forums? Maybe starting your own diary here will give you a safe place to write about and express your feelings.

 

[M2M]

Hi and Welcome to the WLF,

I want to talk about this...

I know I will get over all the problems when I lose the 20kg I want to... cause then I will feel strong enough to face the world...

I want you to look at my signature....
The FUTURE is NO place to put your better days.

They begin right now hon.

Who you are is NOT dependent on your weight. Your weight is NOT who you are.

It is a snapshot of where you are in time, but it is variable, and it is something you can change.

Your life and the value of it, is more then what the scale will tell you.

Now, you can lose the weight - we're all here doing it...one day at a time, one pound and generally, one meal at a time.

There's no easy answer - it's about learning what's right and healthy for your body, enjoying the fact that you are WORKING towards your goal - and be proud of yourself for doing it!

You wrote:

I'm free, I'm a fighter, I built strong values

You need to write this down, tape it to your bathroom mirror and read it every day.

Welcome to the wlf - I'm glad you're here.

 

[Polka]

that line just made me laugh... your english is fine but for someone for whom english is not their first languge - when they use slang it's funny to me

welcome to the site.. I hope you'll learn much from the members here as well..

enjoy your stay

What country are you from?

Hi, thank you for answering, I'm glad I could provide you some amusement
I'm sure I'll learn a lot here, knowledge it not all in the big boring books!
For now, I'll just say I'm a citizen of Europe, latter I'll tell you my country, hope you don't mind!

 

[Polka]

Hi Polka, and welcome. Your english is way, way better than my attempts at any other language.

Feel free to talk about your feelings here as much as you want. That's what this place is for. And we all know there's a lot more to losing weight than saying "I'm going to start a diet tomorrow."

My advice (what has worked for me so far) is to take little steps. Don't start out by saying "tomorrow I'm going to change the way I eat forever, and I'm never going to eat chocolate/cake/dessert/whatever again, and I'm going to exercise for 2 hours everyday" and so on. Just make small changes, and every change that you stick with will make you feel so much stronger and better about yourself. At least that is what's happened for me.

Have you looked at the diary section of the forums? Maybe starting your own diary here will give you a safe place to write about and express your feelings.

Thank you for the eulogy!
And thank you for all the sweet advices.
I don't know how I can explain this to you... I feel really dirty inside when I eat smt I shouldnt eat... So I spend the rest of the day depressing and then next day I wake up very happy and I can be the healthier person til I get home again... =/ The problem is I'm living with my mother and I tell her so many times... dont bring those things home cause I can't resist when I'm down... but she keeps on bringing them... it makes me really mad... but it's not far to treat her bad because I know she dont do that to harm me... She doesnt understand my compulsive personality... So I need to learn how to resist that desire... I know hormones are against me, so I need an extra stregth...
And I like the drastic changes... changing and never look back, just like I did when I turned vegetarian... if I made it step by step it would make me feel bad, because I still was doing wrong things.. so I guess I need to left it all behind... But in this problem... There are no moral values to stop me from eating... just images of me slim being happy... but those images arent strong enough!
But I will think very much about it, maybe I should really try to slow down... do it step by step than doing it all at once and then screwing it all...
Thank you very much for your lovely comment and time and yes, I shall use that diary section. I'll find it very useful!
Thank you one more time

 

[Polka]

Hi and Welcome to the WLF,

I want to talk about this...


I want you to look at my signature....
The FUTURE is NO place to put your better days.

They begin right now hon.

Who you are is NOT dependent on your weight. Your weight is NOT who you are.

It is a snapshot of where you are in time, but it is variable, and it is something you can change.

Your life and the value of it, is more then what the scale will tell you.

Now, you can lose the weight - we're all here doing it...one day at a time, one pound and generally, one meal at a time.

There's no easy answer - it's about learning what's right and healthy for your body, enjoying the fact that you are WORKING towards your goal - and be proud of yourself for doing it!

You wrote:


You need to write this down, tape it to your bathroom mirror and read it every day.

Welcome to the wlf - I'm glad you're here.

Thank you very much dear, you are a real inspiration!
I've just been here for some hours and I already feel how beautiful is this community...
I must say: I love my body! I love it, I hug it, I worship it... and I don't want to wait to live... is just that there are things in life that I'll need a lot of self confidence to do, and I feel really insecure if I feel people making me inferior because of the volume of some cells in my body!

But I have to say... fat cells are pretty cool to look at microscope!

 

[Steve]

Welcome aboard.

Knowledge certainly doesn't make you skinny.

I look forward to learning more about you. You seem to have some ideas that really oppose common ideologies, especially in exercise. I could just be me misunderstanding you, but please check some of the threads you have been contributing to as of late for my replies. I would like to converse with you.

Also, it is great that you are going to be a nutritionist and are a vegetarian. I know there are quite a few vegetarians around here and they all seem to have a hard time getting their protein intake in.

What advice could you offer to them?