A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

so much 2 say so hard though with my screen keyboard:hat:


i amreally glad your mum is ok,its a terrible feeling when u think your mum wont be ok.its great though that she offered 2 pay!you can have the tummy u dream of


the best thing from your weightloss adventure is not the loss alone it is ur mentality changing.....u went 4 a run cause u felt stress.....that is HUGE

i am so proud of u for so many reassons

hoope u have a fun night kisses and hugs:grouphug:
 
AI gained 4lb! :eek2:

What have i done wrong???????? OK i drank 3 pinks of beer last night and ate too much but i have been really good all week.
I am going to do what Lucy says and up my calories this week. Seems totally backwards but i will do as i'm told :)

I am sooooo not gonna reach my target by christmas now :( gutted :( :(

Gonna cheer myself up by putting the christmas decorations up, listen to christmas music and later watch my favourite christmas movie :)
 
AAh, my darling, BAD idea to weigh yourself after a night of beer!!!! Weigh yourself tomorrow and you'll be astonished - I promise. Dunc would put on 2kg at the drop of a hat if he had beer the night before, and then the next day it would all be gone. And we'd weigh every day, so it was a really obvious pattern.

TRULY.

Weigh yourself tomorrow!

What is the Christmas music you listen to to cheer yourself up? I was feeling tired yesterday when geting ready for our housewarming, so I put on Bing Crosby and the Andrews sisters' Christmas Album and HUZZAH! I was dancing around like an egit! :) :) :)

love love xxx (Tomorrow!!!)
 
ADAY 156

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and rhubarb & gooseberry jam
Lunch: Wholemeal sandwich with 2 slices of bacon, no spread
Dinner: 2 Sausages with roast potato, carrot, cauliflower cheese, butternut squah and gravy
Snacks: Birthday cake, birthday cake and more bithday cake!!!!!!!
Total calories = Not a bloody clue!!!!!!

Exercise: Rest day

I was totally gutted with my gain this morning. I sort of knew i was going to gain because the bathroom scales went up during the week and didn't go back down. I have eaten really well so am proper pissed off!!!!! I have really struggled with 'Oh god, this is it, i am going to lapse back into the old ways because i'm pissed off and upset that i have gained' If i had eaten badly then i would have thought 'serves you right' but i didn't. So gutted :(
I am struggling with not going into the kitchen and eating MORE cake (we have the biggest wedge of left over cake from last night in the fridge) or crisps or the chocolate biscuits right now!!! Please let me be strong enough to put this behind me!

Last night was a good laugh and i did really well to start with but did eat more than i should and i drank beer because wine has made me sick the last few times i have drunk it. Next friday is works christmas do and i'm going out for drinks on the saturday with a friend too. I am gonna struggle to lose anymore before christmas :cuss: So sorry about the self pitying rant!!!

Spent the day icing christmas cakes and putting up the decorations, still didn't cheer me up.

I am gonna try and be more positive :)

Jess Thank you, you are such a darling :grouphug:

Joh If only it was just last night, my scales in the bathroom have weighed me up all week, (I have got Mark to hide them so i don't weigh every day) i don't know what i have done, i have been under with my calories. I am going to try what Lucy sugests and up my calories to 1300-1400 a day. I understand not losing cos i haven't eaten enough but to actually gain that much????
I was listening to trashy chart christmas music, it usually gets me dancing and singing but not today. I hate being grumpy!!!!!
 
maybe u r retaining water?or waiting 4 period/>/?i dont think it is fat,u know it can be muscle from all that running.

dont be grumpy pleeeeeaaseeee u are marvelous no matter what.dont weigh so often

please as u s +2]aid increase your calories a bit,besides that u are perfect,such a winner:grouphug:
 
Hi Kate. I don't get on the scales if I even slightly suspect that they may have gone up due to some over-indulgence the day or night before because it would set me up to be grumpy & self-sabotage. The mind is our biggest battle. No more cake sweetie- don't do it to yourself! You are awesome. You have achieved so much! This will be fluid and/or muscle. I think the alcohol is a killer. I would be losing weight much quicker if I avoided it. You know what? I'm having lots of fun at the moment & I will just have to lose a bit slower, but lose I will. You are now one determined woman. You can do it sweetie. Don't shovel food in your mouth, because you're grumpy at the scales. Wait a couple of days of eating really healthily(no grog esp.) & then weigh. You are not going back to that bad place. It's all a learning process & you are doing really well. This is only a hiccup. Lots of love & hugs to you Kate, xoxoxo Cate
 
ADAY 157

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich & 97 cal crisps (283 cals)
Dinner: Chicken soup (212 cals)
Snacks: banana & 97 cal crisps (312 cals)
Total calories = 987

Exercise: 100 crunches and 50 bridges

I've been poorly today :( Spent a lot of time on the toilet (i know, too much info) Haven't been sick but have felt pretty sicky hence the lack of food consumed today. I know i said that i would eat at least 1300 cals but i really struggled to eat what i did.
Still grumpy but that's probably due to being ill.
Spent the day wrapped up in a fleecy blanket watching films and sleeping. I do feel a lot better now though so i'll hopefully be fine tomorrow.

Ooooh, i weighed again this morning in a vain hope that yesterdays weight was the Wii being rude but no such luck!!!! I can't weigh every day on my bathroom scales anymore cos Mark has hidden them for me. I think it is good for me not to weigh every day but i know i am going to struggle not knowing until next sunday :eek:

Jess You are such a sweetie. I don't know what has caused it, i'm not due my period either. I am better about it today. It will come back off. I know you guys will be here for me to help me thru it.

Cate Thank you so much for your kindness and advice, and as usual you are totally right :) I totally know what you mean about not weighing when you think you might have gained, it really does make our head think the most stupid things. I guess i shouldn't have weighed cos i felt soooo fat. I laughed at the 'no more cake' comment :) no one has told me to stop being a food monster before.....Love it!!!! There is still loads in the fridge and i have been good and not had anymore, ok, i have felt sick but cake can always be eaten :)

I'm gonna check out your diaries tomorrow, sorry for being neglectful :(
 
sorry u r feeling bad, sounds like u coming down with something or already passing it,

i felt like that last week plus the runs,it wont last long.

hope u feel better tommorow,
 
Yea never a good idea to weigh yourself after a big night. Also if you're retaining fluid usually it takes several days for it to disappear. Hope you feel better soon!!
 
ADAY 158

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt, 2 kiwi's & 1/2 a twix chocolate bar (538 cals)
Dinner: Chicken, dry roast potato & parsnip, carrots, cauliflower, peas, stuffing and gravy (433 cals)
Snacks: Banana & 97 cal crisps (202 cals)
Total calories = 1353

Exercise: 100 crunches & 50 bridges

Check out how many calories i have had today!!!!! I was a good girl and had over 1300 :)

I was still grumpy and feeling a bit rubbish this morning but today was a Rachel (hygienist) day at work and she is one of my best friends for a reason. She totally pulled me out of my grumps and gave me a proper telling off!!! She got upset with me and said 'i really wish you could see yourself as others see you.....you are stunning!' She really is a true friend, love her :)

I finished putting the chirstmas decorations up when i got home from work and feel far more christmasy now. :santa: I even wore my santa hat while doing it!

Hopefully i am over my 'i am a heffa grump' now :)

Jess Thanks sweetie, yeah, i feel much better today :)

Lucy Cheers sweetie, hopefully the Wii scales will be nice to me on sunday. Actually, i have got another bad weekend coming up!! :eek: Works christmas do, chinese and lots of wine then going out for a few drinks with Bec's on saturday too!!!! Maybe i'll give it a miss this sunday.....Or i could weigh on fri, i'll see how i feel.

OK, i'm gonna catch up on your diaries seeing as i have neglected you all for days now :( So sorry.
 
Good for Rachel!! I like the woman! I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better sweets. I think most of us know just how you have been feeling. Having "fat days" has nothing much to do with what we weigh or how we look. It's much more about how we perceive ourselves. It sure is one of the biggest battles we face.

Life is full of ups & downs but mostly life is good. We just have to rise above the shitty days! Never forget how far you have come already & what you have achieved Kate. Don't diminish any of that by putting yourself down. It seems to me that you are changing your attitude & your life for the better & I think it's really admirable. I love it when you see that you giggle. I think that is so sweet! A friend of mine on the forum once said to me that bad things can happen in your life but that doesn't mean we should lose our inner joy. I have kept that with me through some difficult times. At our hearts Kate we have inner joy :beating:

I wonder if reducing your meds to only 3 times a week may be a bit too drastic sweets. Can you break them in half & have half a day for a while, without missing any days? I know years ago I cut my meds down drastically & ended up a mess. Softly, softly sweetie, take it slowly.

I'm in a bit of a weird mood today & feeling a tad grumpy(tired?) too. Had a difficult, tiring day yesterday & had trouble getting to sleep last night, so am going to take it easy today & just potter about. I'm still on for the 6kg challenge but don't mind how long it takes me. So long as we get there, that's the main thing.

Sending you a great big slimmish (not fat any more but not skinny either) hug, xoxo Cate.
 
Arrgh I'm struggling to eat to my 1000cal deficit right now, because I'm suddenly exercising again and I'm on my feet all day I've gone from eating 1200-1300 to 1500-1600!! It's weird and feels wrong! Good to be up and about now though!!


I can't WAIT for Christmas, I'm super feeling it this year!!! Already got heaps of presents under the tree n everything. And decided on food... Love it!! Too bad I'll probably have to organise everything myself, both Wade and my husband will be working all Christmas Eve... and I'm sooo not cooking Christmas day, it's all getting done the day before!!

Hoping for a big loss for us both this week!!!!!!!!!!!
 
ADAY 159

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt, 2 kiwi's and a milky way choc bar (493 cals)
Dinner: Chicken salad with coleslaw and 2 slices of cheese (381 cals)
Snacks: banana, 97 cal crisps, 1 ryvita and an apple (299 cals)
Total caloreis = 1353!

Exercise: 100 crunches, 50 bridges, 10 min walk, 30 min run and 3x12 reps on the chest press

I feel soooooooo much better today :hurray: I even fett a little bit slimmer this morning :) I think i must have had this 'stomach bug' for quite a few days because i felt so much better this morning and i thought 'wow, i have felt shit for days, not just grumpy' I was wondering if it had anything to do with why i gained sooooo much! I was also thinking that maybe i had the shits and stomach pain because i had eaten crappy party food like sausage rolls etc on saturday night and quite a lot of cake on sunday. Do you think it's cos my body isn't use to crappy processed food and cake anymore cos i never eat that stuff these days?

Anyway, i feel much better all round today, i have even decided to try and not stress too much about what i lose between now and the christmas holiday's because i have so many things going on. I think i am going to aim for Damage control!!! and then hopefully we can all get cracking straight back into it in the new year. We can be there for each other. I kinda know deep down that i will be able to get back on track because you guys have brought me this far. I will soooooo be there for you all too. I hope to not gain too much over christmas and i would love to have lost that 4lb i gained but i am not gonna beat myself up about it if not. I can and will reach the weight i am happy with in the new year :)
Get me being all positive :)

Mark and Jack have finally finished the mammoth wedge of birthday cake, thank god!! I now dont have to cope with it waving at me every time i went into the fridge lol. Lots of chocolates at work still though, you would think that working in a dentist there wouldn't be all that stuff but our patients bring in shit loads!!! It's very lovely of them but shit, i am struggling with not having any. I sometimes think 'oh, one wont hurt' but then i know that i wont be able to eat just one, seven or eight is more like it lol :) So i don't have any.

Cate Yeah, Rachel is one of those totally awesome people that i am so grateful to have in my life. She is brutly honest with me and is a constant rock.
You are always right ya know, and so bloody wise in what you say. We do have our ups and downs but life is good. I know my life is awesome, I am blessed with an amazing family and truly wonderful friends. Food on the table and a roof over my head etc. It's just sometimes we lose sight of the important things huh. I am definatly so much better than i was with my confidence and my self loathing only rears it ugly head occasionally, i just need to work hard on acceptance, I know i will never be able to say 'i love me' i just wanna be able to accept myself and i am getting there :)
I read your post this morning while having my breakfast and have thought about what you said about my meds. They are capsules, not tablets so breaking them in half isn't an option. I did think that i might be a bit optomistic cutting them down that fast on the run up to christmas!!!!! :eek: What was i thinking?!?! I love christmas but the run up to it is always mega busy and stressy. Soooo i am going to wait. I, like a lot of other people get really down in jan/feb (i definatly think i suffer from SAD) so i think the start of the spring is a good time to do it and instead of only 3 days a week i will do every other day for a bit first. Thank you for being honest sweetie, i really do appreciate it. :)
Hope you had a lovely day pottering and recharged you batteries :)
Sending you much love and hugs, you are a truly wonderful friend :grouphug:

Lucy I am struggling to eat more than my 1200 calories!! I had to stick some cheese with my dinner to bulk up the cals cos i knew you would give me grief :) especially after running!!! But i was a good girl :) just for you. Well, i don't like being told off so i behave lol
I am kinda into christmas this year. My baby (well he is nearly 13) doesn't believe anymore and that has made a massive difference. I really miss his excitement about what to ask santa for etc.We do have all the families coming at some point over the holidays and Rob is coming and his girlfriend, Rachael is back from Thailand so will be great to catch up with them, i haven't seen her since April. But i am not organised, i have wrapped nothing or written a card and i think that is stressing me lol. And i'm stressing about food too but hopefully that will stop now that i am gonna just try and take it steady and not be too OCD about it.
Yes, defintly hoping for a good loss for us both, i think i will weigh on friday seing as i am drinking and eating all weekend :) I don't wanna throw myself into the depths of dispair with a gain two weeks in a row :)

Wow, i hav talked lots tonight, whoops. Also i have realised that i haven't said thank you to all you guys in quite a long time so..........

Thank you, Thank you, thank you for all your help, love, support and kindness you really have no idea what a massive difference you have made in my life!!!! TRULY!!!
 
ADAY 160

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt, 2 kiwi's and a milky bar chocolate (464 cals)
Dinner: Pasta & tomato, mushroom and pepper sauce (416 cals)
Snacks: 97 cal crisps, banana and a ryvita (239 cals)
Total calories = 1299

Exercise: 100 crunches & 50 bridges.

Another good positive day. Had quite a few compliments about my weight and even had people asking how i have done it :) I coped fine with it today. I seem to have cracked this taking compliments thing. Saying that, I am doing a Ann Summers party tonight for someone i know so there will probably be others there that i know too, i have to admit i am pretty nervous. But i am gonna be brave and get over myself :)

I am slightly under on the calories today but i am going out for our works dinner tomorrow night so i didn't wanna eat too much. I was a good girl and made sure i was over 1200 though :)
Lots of chocolates at work today but still didn't have any :hurray:

I am going to weigh in the morning instead of sunday as i am out drinking tomorrow and saturday night and really dont want to depress myself again with the result. It's really odd not having a clue how my weight has done over the week. I am not sure if i like this 'not weighing every day lark' I kinda feel lost in the morning, i go to the toilet, do my teeth etc then normally weigh. I supose i will get use to it in time. I am gonna try and get to the gym for a quick run before i go out tomorrow night. And maybe even get another little one in on saturday morning too :)

Ok, i'm off to sell some sexy underwear :eek:
 
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Exercise: 100 crunches & 50 bridges.

Another good positive day. Had quite a few compliments about my weight and even had people asking how i have done it
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I coped fine with it today. I seem to have cracked this taking compliments thing. Saying that, I am doing a Ann Summers party tonight for someone i know so there will probably be others there that i know too, i have to admit i am pretty nervous. But i am gonna be brave and get over myself
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GO THE NEW KATE!!

Feel the fear & do it anyway!

xoxo Cate.
 
AMorning all :)

I weighed this morning and....................................................................
OMG!!!!! I lost 6lb!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!

Can you imagine how squealy excited i was?? Secretly i was really hopeing to have lost that 4lb i gained last week and would have been proper chuffed with that but to have actually lost more had just made my month.
I might, only might but might all the same, actually reach my target for christmas if i work really hard and really keep my nights out in control!

Check out the new ticker :) I can't believe i only have 4lb to go!!!!!!!
 
AAAAAA KATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO

U ROCK ROCK ROCK@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


LOVELY TO GET THIS GREAT NEWS THIS MORNING YOU ARE THE 1 st post to read!!!!!FANTASTICCCCCCCCCCCCCC


Cant start to say how damn happy i am for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DONE it you have DONE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


hae super fun these days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOTS OF LOVELY HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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That's INSANELY awesome news!!!!!!!!!!!!! Make SURE you keep your calories up, I'm sure that's helped!!!!!! SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG 4 POUNDS TO GOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
 
I heard that squeal all the way down in Tassie!!

3 cheers for Kate- 0nly 4lbs to go!!!!!!!!!

Fan-bloody-tastic Kate!! xoC
 
ADAY 161

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: 97 cal crisps, 2 kiwi's and a yoghurt (209 cals)
Dinner: Shit loads of chinese and red wine!!! (don't even wanna think about it cals)
Snacks: Granola bar, banana and an apple (342 cals)
Total pre-chinese calories = 731

I was so so blown away with my weight loss this morning :) I really didn't expect that at all, thank you so much for your lovely comments :grouphug:
I was obviously in an awesome mood all day cos of it!!!

The staff christmas do was a good laugh but i was in so much pain from the food. I didn't eat as much as i would normally but my stomach killed. :( My body really doesn't cope with rich, fatty food. It did taste scrummy, though probably not worth the pain.
 
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