A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

Hi hot buns! :) That's your new nickname for me ;)

Just a quick one - very very quick, I'm sorry. I'll try to get back tomorrow before I choof off, but WOW you are DOING SO SO WELL!!!!

1. Weight is falling right off you!
2. Your head is in SUCH a great place right now - you are a joy to read
3. You didn't fall off the wagon at the party, and you must feel SO proud of yourself for that! Remember this feeling!
4. C25K - you are doing it! Yes, it is tough, but you are doing it! Ignore me and my gross feeling... I hadn't eaten enough, I had crushed bones in my ankle I was ignoring, I had asthma, etc...

Oh my man is turning the light off. I have to go. Will be back!

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SO well done on all!!!!!

For the loss AND not having fudge and the rest!!!thats so amazing!it just shows you , your willpower!!!
I think you are doing FANTAsTICLY well!keep on girl!!!!!

I too HATE it when others apologize when eating thing in infront of me.I feel like saying something bad to them.Its like im an alien or something.They even have that stupid look on their faces......
 
Day 16

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, yoghurt and a 97 cal bag of crisps
Dinner: small bowl of spag
Snacks: an apple

Exercise: session 3 of C25K

I woke up this morning and thought 'oh, i had cake yesterday, i bet i gained. What if i fall apart now!!!' I was really worried that the wheels were going to fall off but it didn't last for long. I had a really good day at work. We were really busy and ran late all day but i was like 'whatever' i'm happy. That's it, i just felt happy today :)
It was raining this morning and really bloody cold and i thought 'oh god, i've gotta do my C25K today' then i realised that i can do it at the gym and that made me think 'fhew!' I really ain't sure whether i would have kept going with it if i had to do it up the railway track again any time soon (i've since found out that it is an incline, sort of knew it was but didn't think it was that bad lol) Anyway i did it at the gym and i bloody loved it!! I managed it quite easily which is good cos the next session is harder.
I've gone from worrying that i am gonna cave this morning to thinking about being a size 12 one day while i was in the shower this evening.
The dentist i work with and I have moved to a different practice in town, in this new practice our surgery is upstairs and all my patients are laughing at the amount of times i have to go up and down the stairs (i have been working with this dentist for 20 years so all my patients really know me) and i have jokingly replied with 'i'll be a size 12 by christmas' but now i think 'hell, why not?!' I am a size 16/18 now and christmas is 5 months away. I'm thinking why not? It's worth a go huh?

DM Hot Buns??!!!!Really, lol no comment! It's weird, i normally hate being called Katie (i was Katie at school but it really makes me cringe now) but really didn't mind you guys calling me it! You can call me anything (nice lol) as long as you are here, i am hooked on your motivation :)
Yes, my head is in an awesome place at the moment, it has been forever since i have felt this good. I am happy with my life, i have an amazing man, a really awesome son and a great family and friends but i haven't been happy with myself for, well, forever really but i am so excited about this. You guys have really flipped a switch in my head and long may it continue!!!!!!
I did my C25K at the gym tonight and it felt awesome!! i totally loved it and could have carried on.

JasperThank you for your encouragement and glad you understand how annoying other people can be, especially the mother-in-law!!. What made me laugh to myself was that they are fat too and i thought 'i'm not gonna be like you for long!' I know it sounds bitchy but hey, it made me feel better tee hee!!
You are so going to get sick of me thanking you for that first post which got me off my fat bum and do something about my weight but you are just gonna have to put up with it i'm afraid cos you are a star. Xx
 
That's a great goal! You never know, you might even be a size 10 by then :D

Its only taken me 2 months to get from a 16/18 (UK) to a 14 in two months and I still don't quite believe it :) I've bought a few bits of 14 clothes, but I'm going to hold out till I can treat myself to lovely size 12 clothes! And we can both rejoice that we have DONE IT! And you won't be puffing up the stairs any more, you'll be running down and up them 20 times for a workout in between patients :)

I dug out a couple of my old tracksuits which are a size 12/14, and as the bottoms are elasticated round the top, they actually fit, so I'm going to go for a walk/jog tomorrow, in your honour :) Probably. If I get the guts lol.

Your unstoppable girly, glad that bit of cake didn't slow you down.
 
when i first read your diary,i remember it was late here where i live,i read it and went of line , iwas tired.But then i opened my laptop again so i can answer you,my husband asked me why im opening ,closing the computer and i told him that a girl from the weightloss place needs some help,and the only thing i can do is tell her what i belive.
You had this attitude in your writing that wasnt at all dynamic,i would say rather weak and that lilttle sad face on the title of your message made me angry!!!!
Nothing compared to you now!!!Really you are fantasic and from not so sure,you've become very decisive!!!
Thank you so much for your kind words too!It means a lot to me knowing i can help(helped)you!!!

I agree with rainbow!you'll probably be running up and down between lunch breaks!!!and maybe you'll be even a size 10...never know!!!!its so exiting waiting for resaults and seen your body change!!!
 
DAY 17

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: ham, light mayo and lettuce wholemeal sandwich, yoghurt and 97 cal crisps
Dinner: Small bowl of spag
Snacks: ricecake, apple and i'm gonna have a glass of wine tonight with a friend( it was cancelled from sunday)

Exercise: none today my C25K woman told me to rest, so i have!

I forgot to say yesterday about a little thing that made me smile. Mark was dishing up dinner and he said 'how much of this can you have?' i turned around and the bowl i was going to use was on the weighing scales and he was poised ready to put the pasta in it. How sweet that he thought about that. I am always 'on a diet' sort of thing and he is usually like, whatever! but this time i think he sees the difference in me and, bless him, he is so supportive.
Anyway, on to today. Another day in an annoyingly good mood. It is so true what they say about 'eating well-feel well, eating crap-feel crap' i feel really good and reading your awesome comments to my ramblings every morning puts me in a super good mood for the day!
I am going to the cinema with Jack and my mum & dad on thursday and i have been stressing about 'popcorn'!! I can't watch a film there without a constant stream of popcorn going into my mouth!! i thought about just having it and not worrying or having some but trying to save lots of cals for it but decided on taking 2 bags of low cal crisps with me so i can be sure what i am eating. How pathetic that i have been deciding on this for days now lol so so sad!!

Rainbow I have never been a size 12 in my life!! I don't even think i was born a size 12 lol. The best i have managed is a large 14. At my worse i was a 24!!!!!!!!
I would love to be a 12! That would be so so awesome, not sure how my 'fat bird' mind would cope with not being fat at all lol but hey it would be so cool if i could manage it.
It would be so cool to get there and also have someone who has reached the same target!!! Lets do it!
Congrats on the joggers hun!! And yay defo go for a jog in my honour!! I can't wait to do my next C25K i can't believe i am gonna say this but i'm actually getting abit addicted to running!! A few weeks ago i would have said that the only time i would run was if i was being chased!!! Now look at me!

Jasper The last 4 months or so have been really hard for me, it was like one thing after another on top of feeling really fat and not being able to do anything about it. The move at work was really really stressful!! I have now realised what a control freak i am, that i don't cope with change and that i am very impatient with myself when i am learning new things. We moved at the beginning of May and not long afterwards my grandmother was taken into hospital and i took time off work to sit with her. She died on the 19th of May and i was with her when she died, on my own. I have never been with anyone who has died before and it hit me really hard. Then my mum's family were just bloody horrible after Nan died and that just made it all worse, really long story but life was proper shit. I had got to the point where i didn't want to go anywhere or see people or talk to anyone and i think that saturday night was just me as a broken shell crying out for help. I genuinely don't think i have ever been at such a low point BUT.........You flicked a switch in my head with what you wrote me and look at me know, i am happier than i have been in years and you guys have done it pretty much instantly!! I really can't express my gratitude. Big hug. Xxxx

Ok i'm off to my friends for ONE glass of wine and a damn good gossip. Gonna tell her about all you wonderful people no doubt.
 
Kate - its great to see how well you are doing - we are all so proud of you for switching that switch in your head and getting on with it!! Its funny what the trigger can be - mine was 4 words that a guy said on the phone to me and from that moment on I was DETERMINED to lose weight as no-one had made me feel attractive in a long time - it was like an awakening.

So happy for you that your other half is being supportive in all the little ways! It really helps not to have to work against your family like some guys on here that live with "feeders"!!!

Hahaha lol - the C25K lady rules your life! Walk! Run! Rest! You must obey! Can't wait until you come back from your first 20 min run - the adrenalin and buzz of having done it is FANTASTIC!

Anyhowz, keep it up!
 
DAY 18

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: ham, light mayo and lettuce wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps and a yoghurt
Dinner: small bowl of spag (i have had the same thing all day every day for the last 3 days lol well, i do like spag. it's all gone now, gonna have to think of something to have for dinner tomorrow)
Snacks: 2 ricecakes and an apple

Exercise: Did session 4 on my C25K, it was a little bit harder than last week but i did it and felt really good after it. My face still goes beetroot red and i sweat buckets, but hey, i did it!!!!

Another good day today. I had one of those awesome days where i really noticed the differences in my body a lot today. I was wearing 3/4 length jeans to work and they were proper baggy, the crotch felt half way to my knees and the bottoms were down by my ankles. My uniform felt loads baggier and i had to turn the waist band over on my work trousers!!! How amazing is that?!?! I noticed my colar bones starting to stick out a bit last week but today i noticed a hollow at the base of my throat. I think i even did a little bounce and clap my hands tee hee!!! My confidence level is really growing too. Thank you so much, i know i probably say it every day but i feel so grateful every day.

Jjjay Yeah, it really is weird what flicks the switch, it's such a shame we can't do it at will lol
Mark didn't even ask how much pasta, he just did it tonight, wow!! he does have a memory in there lol. He is really cool, he even manages to make me feel good about myself, by noticing my hip bones and ribs. I asked him if he would mind if i went really slim and he said he didn't care as long as i kept my tits & ass!
You are so right about the C25K ruling your life, she is a little bit scary. I felt really naughty cos i wasn't supose to do a session today and i disobeyed. She is really motivational though. I noticed that week 5 i have to do 20 mins, i hope i can do it, but 20 WHOLE MINUTES!!!!!!
 
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as long as you keep your tits and ass!!!!
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I wish i can get to the point to actually eat like you do.I really love the way you eat,the stuff,its simple and nice.I read your foods every day and seems so little ,you dont have cheats and bad things , that is so good.I mean ok it happens ,now and then but it looks like you're very comited to this new way of life,
I am so happy you're feeling your confident growing!its a lovely feeling isnt it?
A few years back i used to dread going out in public.it wa so horible.I used to put my blouse down , pull my jeans up,try to straigten them at my waist,put my head down and yes, i used to pretend to speak on my cell while walking.I dont know why i did that....but i felt better,more secure...I love feeling good about the way i look,i Do adore crapy sweets and cakes but the taste of success is so much better!Plus it last longer!!!

So you'll probaply be needing a new uniform missy!!!:hurray:
Love discovering new thing on my body aswell!!!a a little bone there,and something new sticking out here!!!:hurray:
 
Yup = that first 20 mins is the really scary one but you can do it. Once you run over 10 mins, you just find a rhythm and keep going. Whenever I go for a run now - even a 10km run, the first 10 mins is always the hardest hump to get over. Its such a mind thing and yo will get such a buzz when you achieve that first proper run!

I love collar bones - when mine first started showing and also, when I lie on my back and can feel my hip bones properly...it sounds strange but its nice not to have flesh covering it all!
 
DAY 19

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Ham, light mayo and lettuce sandwich, 97cal crisps and a yoghurt
Dinner: 2 fishcakes and salad
Snacks: ricecake and an apple and i'm gonna take 2 bags of low cal crisps to the cinema to have instead of popcorn!

Exercise: No exercise today, Miss C25K told me to rest today!!

I have had a grumpy day today!!! Mark was grumpy this morning and when either him or Jack is grumpy in the morning it always ruins my bloody day too!! Didn't feel like cheating food wise but still grumpy. Off to see Harry Potter in 3D tonight with Jack and mum & dad which i'm really looking forward too. Hopefully i won't have a grumpy day tomorrow too.

Jasper I so know what you mean about not wanting to see people when you go out. I don't pretend to be on my phone but i do put my headphones in so i don't have to talk to anyone, i even leave them in when i don't have any music playing. And i always dress to try and not be noticed too.

Jjjay So, did you start with C25k? And you now run 10k!!!! That is so awesome, i would love to be able to do that. I love colar bones too, and i so know what you mean about hip bones in the morning. Great way to start the day thinking 'ooooh flat belly!'
 
I DID IT!!!!!!!
I went to the cinema and didn't have ANY popcorn!!!! That is a definate first for me. Usually i get a large and eat it constantly thru the film, but tonight i just had my low cal crisps. Have to admit it was quite hard, mum, dad and Jack sat there and ate it and the whole place smelt wonderfully of the stuff so i'm feeling really proud of myself. Yay me!!
 
DAY 20

Breakfast: 2 Wheatabix
Lunch: Marmite wholemeal sandwich with light spread, yoghurt and 97cal crisps
Dinner: Chicken stuffed with light philly, herbs and garlic and a salad
Snacks: ricecake, apple and a granola bar

Exercise: C25K session 5

Much better day mood wise today. I came on today, which explains the grumpyness yesterday. I started a new pill 5 months ago and my periods are still all over the place, have been on more than not Gggrrrr. I'm really suprised i haven't craved choc, i usually do!

I have been to the gym doing my C25K three times this week all on my own and i have loved it! today ABBA and Kings of Leon were my pacemaker!!! i have put a 'gym music' playlist on my IPhone. i really want to go tomorrow just so i can run to the tracks i have put on it, but i can't cos little miss C25K has told me i have to rest!!! We are probably going to our allotment tomorrow so i will listen to it then, maybe i'll work harder!
 
DAY 21

Breakfast: 2 small wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite
Lunch: ham and cheese salad with a little light salad cream
Dinner: 2 sausages, dry roast Potato and beetroot. Carrots and broard beans (all the veg was home grown and picked or pulled this afternoon!) and gravy.
Smacks: a small bar of dairy milk chocolate!!

Exercise: 2 hours of crazy, hardcore housework. Half and hour on the Wii fit and 2 hours working at the allotment.

I have eaten cheese, sausages and chocolate today and still haven't gone over my cals!! how has that happened? Totally cool though :)
Did the usual saturday morning jobs then i got stuck into the houswork and boy, did i get stuck in. I did it like it was a work out!! Put my ears (headphones) in and threw myself into it. Then did 30 mins on the Wii fit. I haven't used it for 189 days!! Whoops!, yes, it did tell me off tee hee. Really cool thing though was that i have lost 8lb since i last used it!! Awesome!
Then went to the allotment. OMG we haven't been for two weeks and it has grown bonkers, especially the weeds! Picked loads of raspberries (we freeze the fruit and make jam for friends and family for christmas) pulled up raddish's, beetroot and shalotts. Everything is looking really good up there. We are gonna have more potato's, squash, pumpkin, courgette, sweet corn, peas, balotti beans, french beans, cabbage, cauliflower, swede, parsnips, i think that is it.
Got home at about 6 and had a lovely long soak in the bath while dinner was cooking. I had a chocolate bar at the allotment today, i looked at how many cals i had left, 716 and it was 205 cals so i had it and it was just what i needed!
Weigh in tomorrow!
 
I'm somewhat new here. Just checking out some other people's diaries. I just saw your ticker...wow! You have come a long way in July! Great job. Keep it up! very inspirational.
 
Reading your diary has just given me the boost I needed, the hipbones in the morning feeling is amazing :) My clothes are all to loose now as well, they're hanging off me! I am having a proper fat moment right now, its nice to be reminded that I have got some recent slim feeling moments as well.

How did the weigh in go?
 
Morning.

Weigh in this morning and i woke up feeling bloated and horrible :( I so didn't want to get on the scales.
I have lost 1lb I am ok with that. I know it is hardly anything but i have my period and boy, do i have it today. I started lightly on friday but i've woken up with bloated painfull tummy, back and leg ache too and feel proper crappy!!!!. Haven't been that bad for ages. This new pill i am on has really messed me about, i will probably be on for about 3 weeks now. God knows what that will do to my weight loss. I hope this doesn't dishearten me. I was supose to do my C25K today but i hurt too much, i'll do it tomorrow instead. Hopefully i'll feel better later.

Bubbles Thanks for checking out my diary, glad my ramblings can inspire.

Rainbow I'm so chuffed that reading my diary has given you the lift you need. I so know what you mean about having a 'proper fat moment' i feel like a beached whale today and all i want to do is curl up with a hot water bottle stuffed down my trousers.
I am still plowing my way thru your diary, i'm on about page 9 (maybe i'll get to catch up more today as my body doesn't want me to do anything that doesn't involve the sofa!) and it is awesome!!! Your style of writing is amazing and you are so funny. I love that you just write what is in your head. it's brill!!! Keep it up. You are a great read.

Here is my new, not so different ticker.
 
DAY 22

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite
Lunch: 2 crumpets with marmite
Dinner: Roast pork, dry roast potato and parsnip, brocolli, runner beans and peas with gravy
Snack: 60 grams sugar puffs (no milk) just eating them instead of crisps

Exercise: none!

Felt rubbish for most of the morning but ended up actually having an ok day. I have had a lovely lazy sunday pottering and reading diaries on here.
I know i haven't lost much weight this week but i keep telling myself that i have eaten really healthy and haven't gone over my cals so it's all good, i'll get there, it's the long haul rather than the quick fix.
 
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