Hello everyone,
I just wanted to come and say hi to everyone.
This is my first time visiting this site and I hope to gain knowledge to help me turn my life around.
A bit about me:
Currently I'm 22 and stand at a whopping 5'11. Because of my height I have been able to live my dream as a freelance model. Now before you think that I am just someone looking to lose as much weight as possible regardless of the consequences or health issues please think again. I have been sucessful in the fact that after countless doors slammed in my face telling me I was too 'fat' by industry standards that I have become blessed with the work that I have gotten despite these barriers. I will not become a toothpick just to fit in some clothing sample made by some clothing designer for a body form that just isn't healthy.
No, there is a darker and more serious problem I am here for. Since late childhood I have suffered from a mental illness that has left me completely unhealthy [Bipolar and panic disorder]. This illness had made me turn to food and alcohol as a filler, something to make me happy [obviously, the alcohol came later in life]. After about a year of constant binging and drinking I have decided that enough is enough. I want to get healthy. I want to lose this weight I have gained from all the toxins and poisons I was/am putting into my body. I have talked to my family doctor and she has me on medication to help maintain my disorder and has given me her 'blessing' so to say to start an exercise program to lose weight.
I need to do this for myself, for my body, and for my life.
I just wanted to say hi and hope to make some friends a long the way. I am highly ambitious and ready to take this head on but one day at a time.
Thank you for listening.
Heather
I just wanted to come and say hi to everyone.
This is my first time visiting this site and I hope to gain knowledge to help me turn my life around.
A bit about me:
Currently I'm 22 and stand at a whopping 5'11. Because of my height I have been able to live my dream as a freelance model. Now before you think that I am just someone looking to lose as much weight as possible regardless of the consequences or health issues please think again. I have been sucessful in the fact that after countless doors slammed in my face telling me I was too 'fat' by industry standards that I have become blessed with the work that I have gotten despite these barriers. I will not become a toothpick just to fit in some clothing sample made by some clothing designer for a body form that just isn't healthy.
No, there is a darker and more serious problem I am here for. Since late childhood I have suffered from a mental illness that has left me completely unhealthy [Bipolar and panic disorder]. This illness had made me turn to food and alcohol as a filler, something to make me happy [obviously, the alcohol came later in life]. After about a year of constant binging and drinking I have decided that enough is enough. I want to get healthy. I want to lose this weight I have gained from all the toxins and poisons I was/am putting into my body. I have talked to my family doctor and she has me on medication to help maintain my disorder and has given me her 'blessing' so to say to start an exercise program to lose weight.
I need to do this for myself, for my body, and for my life.
I just wanted to say hi and hope to make some friends a long the way. I am highly ambitious and ready to take this head on but one day at a time.
Thank you for listening.
Heather
