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nolabone

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Starting a diary, because I'm not being honest with myself. And because I'd like someone telling me "no, don't eat that." I posted a "Looking for a diet buddy" thread, but no one has responded yet. Whine, I know, I'm just impatient. And if no one responds, at least I have something on the internet that people can see, and I can be embarrased over. No one wants to be embarrased, so maybe just this will help me do better.

This morning I did "Thinner thighs" and "I want those abs" off of the exercise on demand channel. About 25 minutes.

Breakfast - Carnation instant breakfast drink. - I need the protein from it, since I'm a vegetarian. Delicious.
Snack - Kashi cereal with 1% milk, homemade turtle. (second breakfast? haha)
Lunch - 2 Kudos bars, tomato soup, about 15 saltine salt free crackers, apple, orange, special K bar.
Snack - Tea and 1 biscotti. Half a package of M&M's.
Dinner - 1/2 McDonalds Asian Salad with no dressing, crutons, or chicken. About ten of my moms french fries. Haha.

I craved chocoale for a few hours earlier, hence the Kudos, biscotti, turtle, and M&M's. I can see that I overate. I'm not an emotional eater, just a "I have nothing to do/it's cold out lets eat" eater. During summer I'd go walking for hours and would bring apples or carrots with me, and just go. Since it's winter and we have feet upon feet of snow (I'm in NY), it is near impossible to do that...

I get cabin fever, and hate being in my house. I'm not interested in watching TV or really being on the computer even. Nothing I read keeps my interest, I always get half way through a book and stop carring about the characters (this never happens during sumer, when I read outside). I want to get a Y membership, but I can't drive yet, and my best friend wants to wait until spring for it. I like baking, but am having trouble finding recipes that are healthy.

I have dance tonight and after that am going to do DDR until I burn 500c on workout mode. Exercise makes me feel better.
 
Holy camoly, I ate near 2000 calories today. :eek:
If I just didn't eat that biscotti or those kudos bars! Gosh darnit!
 
diaries are a great alternative to buddies around here - because you'll have th entire forum offering support... once people get to know you a little bit -then buddy-ships will form.. you'll not be alone and you will get the support you need.

welcome to the site and I just love the doggie in your avatar :D
 
Uncoverbeauty and maleficent, thank you for responding. :p This diary is going to be really helpful, with or without comments. But preferably with!

The dog in my avatar is named Puddles, I'm sure you can guess why.

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Breakfast:
2 coconut hershy kisses (mom bought them, had to try... twice) - 32c
Plane Jane oatmeal - 100c
Apple - 100-ishc
Cranberry apple tea - 0c

I slept for 10 hours last night! I haven't gotten a headache yet, so that must mean that I needed the sleep. Not only did I sleep that long, I slept like a rock for all of it. My mom said the cat started running into her door at 4 this morning, then the dogs started barking and whining from 4-6. I think I've ignored it so many times that I no longer hear it. haha

The 10 hours was making up for the 3-7 hours I get during the school week. I should try to the change that, but it doesn't make me tired/unable to concentrate at school. I use to take a nap when I got home, which prevented me from over eating, but stopped that and now snack. I'm going back to the nap, dood. It's like while at school I am so stimulated, I couldn't dream of being tired, and I bring my own food so I have just the right amount to eat, but then I get home and am un-interested, and, well, eat my boredom.

Maybe I should try getting a job or start volunteering. Just not having my lisence (no one has taken me driving in over a month - and I have asked!), and my mom having never driven in her life makes it difficult.

I am ranting too much. My tea has gotten cold and I have only drank half!
 
I plan on enjoying it by tiring myself out today!

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Lunch:
2/3 cup muesli cereal
1/2 cup Kashi Go Lean Crunch

I would live off of cereal if I could. And I don't count milk in my calorie count with cereal, or else I'd never drink it.

I played DDR for about 40 minutes today. Would have continued, but today I actually have something to do! Har har.
 
welcome nolabone :) i'm sure you will find this place more than helpful. buddies, as mal said will come eventually. until then we'll be here to support you.
you and puddles have a great day :) Lena
 
Hey there!! I'll make a deal. You post in my diary, and I'll post in yours! ;)

Heheheheh. Looks like weight wise, we aren't that far from having about the same loss goal amount.

p.S. What did you have for breakfast? Gotta go for that exercise I was talking about (you'll know if you check out the diary) and I'll be back. Ciao!!
 
lena410 said:
welcome nolabone :) i'm sure you will find this place more than helpful. buddies, as mal said will come eventually. until then we'll be here to support you.
you and puddles have a great day :) Lena
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Awh, haha. I love getting comments here, they cheer me up. :)
Puddles and I did have a nice day, I can't wait to take him running again though.
 
photocrazed said:
Hey there!! I'll make a deal. You post in my diary, and I'll post in yours! ;)

Heheheheh. Looks like weight wise, we aren't that far from having about the same loss goal amount.

p.S. What did you have for breakfast? Gotta go for that exercise I was talking about (you'll know if you check out the diary) and I'll be back. Ciao!!
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It is a deal, for sure!

Ah, I'd love to see us both reach our goal! It seems easier knowing others have ones very similar to mine.

Breakfast was...
"Breakfast:
2 coconut hershy kisses (mom bought them, had to try... twice) - 32c
Plane Jane oatmeal - 100c
Apple - 100-ishc
Cranberry apple tea - 0c"

I need to try for more exercise! But I have been doing better this week.
 
The rest of my day has followed like this...

Snack:
Apple - 100-ishc
Kudos - 130c

Dinner:
Fajita Grill Vegetarian Nachos; pinto and black beans, cheese, hot salsa, lettuce, tomatoes, rice, tortilla chips - guessing i only ate about 500c at most of it (1/4-1/3?)

Snack:
I started eating my leftover salad from the other night, but couldn't muscle it down, so just ate the crutons - 60c
Kellogs Crunch Nut bar - 150c

Todays total is about 1500. Better than yesterday, but I really should stop eating snakc bars. My diet (and I don't mean diet) would be much better without them.

Again, too many carbs!
 
Weight Gain :/

Today I woke up, weighed myself, and gawked at the scale. It said I gained 7 pounds! (153lb) I haven't changed my diet that much, nor have I been exercising enough to gain muscle weight. On a typically day I eat between 1,000-2000 calories. I know that is a huge range, but sometimes I don't want to eat, and others I can't tell what real hunger is.

My stomach is a black abyss. Nah, but I never know when it's full, until I feel like I want to burst. It's not water that I'm craving either, I drink at least 3 water bottles a day, along with milk and tea. I usually don't over eat, but I do eat unhealthy things, like kudos bars, and hershy kisses. I'm taking the kudos out of my diet, but hershy kisses aren't so bad, as long as I only have 2-3.

This is horribly depressing. When I saw it I went and played DDR until I burned 150 calories, and now I'm going to go do an aditional 150+. I ate breakfast after the first 150, and doing another "set" will just cover breakfast.

Breakfast:
1 cup Kashi Go Lean Crunch - 200c
3/4 cup 1% milk - 77c
1 cup Apples chopped - 74c

This is according to sparkpeople, which I joined yesterday. I really like the site, but don't plan on using the forum.
 
Last night I googled weight loss, bakini, exercise, beauty, and searched for formal dresses for about an hour. I saved a bunch of them on my computer, and am using them for motivation. I also put one of my favorite dress's that I'd like to fit into in a few months as my desktop. Haha.

Then today I made a list of all the reasons I want to loose weight. I only had 14 reasons on it, but they were mostly pretty general.

I hope all these silly things help. :D

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Lunch:
2 slices whole wheat bread, no crust
2 tbs peanut butter
A smidgin of strawberry jelly. haha
10 baby carrots

Around 425 calories.
Todays total: 776
 
nolabone said:
Breakfast:
1 cup Kashi Go Lean Crunch - 200c
3/4 cup 1% milk - 77c
1 cup Apples chopped - 74c

This is according to sparkpeople, which I joined yesterday. I really like the site, but don't plan on using the forum.
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Sounds like me minus the apple, and I have skim milk.

Spark people's website is just too much for me to think about right now, other than the nutrition/exercise portion. :D

Although I haven't had lunch as I just got out of bed about 1/2 hour ago. I think I slept around 11-12 hrs. :eek:
 
well those silly things hehe actually keep me ve4ry focused. i put them all in my diary and come back to them every once and a while. i actually posted why i do want to lose weight but more importantly why i sabotage myself. so that helps me a lot.
those 7 pounds sound a bit odd. in how much time? did you adjust the scale in the meantime? there could be a lot of factors. some of it might be water weight.
 
photocrazed said:
Sounds like me minus the apple, and I have skim milk.

Spark people's website is just too much for me to think about right now, other than the nutrition/exercise portion. :D

Although I haven't had lunch as I just got out of bed about 1/2 hour ago. I think I slept around 11-12 hrs. :eek:
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Ah, Kashi is my favorite cereal. But skim milk... Hmn. I think my stomach would revolt if I tempted, the same with whole. :p

I'm just using spark people for the nutrition/exercise portion as well. They offer so much, which is good, but I don't need it all. I'm not that unhealthy. haha, i hope. :X
 
lena410 said:
well those silly things hehe actually keep me ve4ry focused. i put them all in my diary and come back to them every once and a while. i actually posted why i do want to lose weight but more importantly why i sabotage myself. so that helps me a lot.
those 7 pounds sound a bit odd. in how much time? did you adjust the scale in the meantime? there could be a lot of factors. some of it might be water weight.
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It's been at least a week since the last time I weighed myself...

I drink a lot of water, but last night I didn't eat after 7, at the latest. Haha, I don't know what happened! I'll try it again in a few days. Hope to see better numbers then!

My scale doesn't measure tenths of a pound, and isn't a winding scale, it's digital. *not sure how to describe it.

I haven't the slightest idea as to what I'd put for sabotaging myself? I'm going to go check out your diary to see what you mean.
 
So I just ate another third of my Fajita Grill leftovers... 400-ish calories?
Then had a take-5 and turtle - 160c
And some dark chocolate easter eggs - 70-ishc

Then after that my mom called and asked if I wanted any Wendys, and I told her no. Oh. Yeah. It isn't very often that I turn down Wendys. :) Hah, but then I ate her leftover frys. It was a lesser amount than a kids fry, but still. After the chocolate and nachos, it shouldn't have happened.

I wish I could tell my mom I want to become healthy. She came home from the grocery store (my older sister brought her), and showed me the honey buns she bought, along with other junk. GOSH DARNIT, why must you tempt me so! I asked her not to buy junk, because we don't need it. Almost my exact words. And I know I shouldn't eat it if I don't want it, but it's an out of sight out of mind thing for me. If I went shopping I would never buy it, thus wouldn't eat it... but if it's sitting there staring at me, I'm going to at least try it. :(

It's like the coconut hershy kisses. I'm not even a huge fan of coconut, but I've eaten 4-5 of them...

Ignore the following.

My mom is a big part of my weight issues. When I was skinny, she always told me how pretty I was, then when I started gaining weight she was like "your stomach is getting big." You don't tell your daughter that! And while she was, she'd still be going out buying crap, getting mad when it went to waste. She doesn't make sense to me, nor does she listen, nor does she take care of her own self. If she is upset about my poor health maybe she should set a better example. I know she's getting old (she had me when she was 40!), but that doesn't mean she has to be so sedatary, or negative. She is an emotion wreck. I want to be there for her, but it's hard when she's not there for me too. Ever since I was a child, when I told her something was wrong she didn't do anything, and my life could be completly different if she just took more action! Now I'm at a loss of what actions to take myself! I can't help but carry over my frustration from my childhood to my teenage years, I don't want to be so angry, but I am. I am unable to help it. I don't want to have to talk to her about this either, because it would kill her. She has always been one to try to hide her feelings, which is a trait I've gotten from her, and if I made them show she'd be crushed. I mean, I love my mom, and I want to help her with dealing with cancer again, I'm just so angry I don't know how to sometimes. Same with how I don't know how to deal with my own emotions, and habits.

I think I'm starting to repeat myself, but this felt good.
 
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