3rd Times a Charm!

I DO feel better finally! I went back to work Thursday, and it was nice to not feel so useless, just sit around all the time, lol. The first few days after the hospital were a bit rough, watching tv made me tired, hehe. On the upside, they gave me a prescription for vicadin for pain, and I only used three of them, so thats good. Its kinda weird tho- everything tastes funny to me now... tea, which I LOVE, tastes weak, water with lemon is what I ALWAYS drink, and the lemons taste chemical-ish to me... Bleh. Hope that goes away, lol. While I was in the hospital tho, and this made me sooo mad, I was so dehydrated they pumped a crap-ton of fluids into me, and I actually GAINED 12lbs! It was all water, I realize, and its gone already, but still. Freak a girl out why dontcha. And my back still hurts a teensy bit- I had to get a spinal tap, and the left side of my back kinda aches, weird. hm.
BUT, this week, I'm getting back into the diet part of my skinny plan, and the workouts might not happen right away, I'm thinking next week I'll start that back up, but I NEED to do this...
Travis: Your kickin ass man!! Keep it going :) You rock!
 
Jess

Hey sorry I have been away for a short bit. I kinda fell off the wagon for a week or so but im backl now. I was so afriad I was going to gain a ton too but turns out after all this only up a pound so thats good.

How have you been? Your right I will post a goal for the two of us for by the end of the year. I think of somthing tough but obtainable!

Nip tuck this year is crazy I am loving it!!! I hope you havent missed any.

I hope your doing well and Ill check in later!

Travis
 
I just hadta get on here quick: My computer is being screwy, and I'm trying to fix it without wiping it, so I'm using a friends comp real snappy like, but I haven't been totally good this week... bad!!! I haven't been aweful, but it could be better... So, I'm gonna start working out again on Sunday I'm hoping, and I've gotta get my friggin diet back on track, to much chocolate.. I think thats cuz everything tastes funny to me except chocolate..lol. excuses excuses..
anyways, I'm gonna try to figure out whtas goin on with my computer, and I'll be back soon!
 
Computer is still not working right, so this is another quick post. OK- so, food, still not doing too well, still haven't gotten back to the gym, I'm actually pretty much disgusted with myself right now... My sister and I went to get new coats tonight, and none of them looked good on me! I got stuck with long arms, so none of the sleeves seem to fit right, and the fat girl coats aren't as cute as the skinny girl coats. No fair. So, then it just depresses me more, and then it just makes me want more chocolate :rolleyes: no happy medium here!!
On the up side, the sister that I live with is FINALLY moving out, she just needs to finish getting her crap out so we can finish doing the floors and stuff, but I already feel soooo much happier- shes stayed at her new apartment three nights now, and these have been the BEST three days of my life, lol. How sad to say that just beingable to not worry about having someone else there is the highlight of my life, lol.
OOOOKKKK, so I'll be back in a couple days, hopefully with better stuff to report!
 
Hey Jess! Hope your computer gets fixed soon. I know what you mean about shopping for coats. I couldn't find any cute ones to close over my enormous boobs. lol I'm trying to lose some of it, so I can button the coat I bought, it was too cute to pass up, and "almost" closed. Why!!!! lol
 
MissJB: LOL!!! haha, no, I do that all the time with jeans- if I have just a teensy bit of a muffin top, I'll totally buy them, for "later wear"... wow. I just need to friggin get skinny, be easier to shop... psh.
ANyways, guys, I AM still around, although not often enuf- swear to God, its my computer :( but I'm in a bad way without being on here- I think I've gained plus some, of what I've already lost... Whyyyyy? Grrr.
Ok, hopefully will be on in a few days, talk to ya later :)
 
Jess393 said:
but I haven't been totally good this week... bad!!! I haven't been aweful, but it could be better...
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Jess393 said:
OK- so, food, still not doing too well, still haven't gotten back to the gym, I'm actually pretty much disgusted with myself right now...
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Jess393 said:
I think I've gained plus some, of what I've already lost... Whyyyyy?
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Pattern? Im not being mean or trying to be, but I think the problem lies that your continuously self defeating yourself. Go to your library and check out the Attractor Factor by Joe Vitale or Awaken the Giant Within by Tony Robbins.
 
Self defeating? Oh yeah. I'll be the first to admit that even tho I wanna get skinny, I let things get in the way of it... I can fix this, honestly. Today I came home and emptied my cupboards of everything remotely bad for me, felt great, and then went and drank with friends. WOW. I only had three beers compared to the customary five or six, so thats definately something, but I just need to get things in gear. It will happen, I have done it before, I manage a friggin health supplement store AND worked in a gym for three years. I know whats neccessary to do it, I just hafta have the frame of mind to DO it.
 
you will get that mind set Jess. Just keep a positive outlook. I know at least when I get gloomy thats when I tend to slip.

I don't know anything about the books mentioned above by the other poster so I can't comment on them. I can tell you from my experience I don't like self help books. I don't like someone telling me how to fix myself who doesn't even know me. However thats just me and I know of Tony Robbins and he has helped many many people so yeah perhaps its something that would work for you.


As for our goal I think 6-10 pounds for this month is good for the both of use. We have 26 days to do it so buck up champ lets get on a roll!! I am taking my starting weight this friday so be ready with yours and we can get crackin!

Nip/Tuck tonight woot! lol

Hope your day is going well!
 
Travis- I agree with you on self help stuff... It doesn't really do much for me. The problem is myself- I just gotta quit eating crap and start moving more. But, ten pounds this month, i got this yo. :)
And I hafta dvr Nip/Tuck- going to the Seether concert, so I'm gonna miss my show, BUT- and there IS an upside to this- ever been to a Seether concert?? You sweat buckets :D I'll get a bit of a workout there! hahaha...
Anyways, I have started counting my calories again. I know a lot of people don't like that method, but it most definately works for me. So I can only eat stuff I can count, or if I MUST eat at a restaraunt, its salad with dressing on the side. MMMM. tasty, lol.
 
Jess393 said:
MissJB: LOL!!! haha, no, I do that all the time with jeans- if I have just a teensy bit of a muffin top, I'll totally buy them, for "later wear"... wow. I just need to friggin get skinny, be easier to shop... psh.
ANyways, guys, I AM still around, although not often enuf- swear to God, its my computer :( but I'm in a bad way without being on here- I think I've gained plus some, of what I've already lost... Whyyyyy? Grrr.
Ok, hopefully will be on in a few days, talk to ya later :)
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OMG! You're killing me, I do the same thing with jeans. Now I have 4 new pairs that I can't get my butt into right now, possibly more pairs lerking in the closet. I keep thinking that as soon as I can get rid of a few more pounds, my muffin will be gone and I will have new threads! lol 10 more pounds and I am in like slim! lol Not quite slim, but you know what I mean, I'm in them without worrying about putting on a baggy top to hide the muffin man.
 
MissJB: Yeah, I was going thru my closet and drawers the other day, found sooo many things that I've bought for future-ness. I'll wear them eventually... I just hope that they aren't considered "retro" or whatever by the time I can lol :rolleyes: ah. clothing...

So, the Seether concert was AMAZING! It did get mean of course, as rock concerts usually do, and I woke up the next day feeling like I did a major friggin workout. Man... Anyways, so after the concert was over, I got to meet both Red and Hurt(both amazing bands) and I was pretty excited about that, cuz hey, that stuff NEVER happens to me. Seether of course is way to cool to hang out with the concert patrons, lol. But it was awesome. Better than the first time I saw them. Wednesday I worked 1:30 to close at the store, and my employee and I are doing store resets(ooh joy!) and I'm at the counter getting some new setups ready, and Kelsey is sitting on the floor at the front entrance working on some shelves when these two guys walk in and go, "Do you guys have any hand sanitizer??" They're a bit grungy looking, and Kelsey gives them the dirtiest look I've ever seen, and I'm instantly freaking out inside because it was the lead singer and the bass player for friggin SEETHER!!! AHHH!!! Oh my goodness, I about died.. So I sell them some hand sanitizer, I'm keeping pretty calm, even though inside I'm going nuts, and I asked if I could get their autographs. Kelsey looks at them like, who the hell are these people?? And they go yeah, sure what would you like us to sign?? So, the first flippin thing I grab is my pill case, lol. So they sign my pill case, and they stand there and talk to me for a few minutes before they leave and THEN I about have a heart attack. Holy crap. I was soooo excited. Seriously- of alllll the stores at the mall for one of the best bands to walk into- GNC?? :D So- woohoo! I got to meet one of the best bands EVER, but damn it! I obviously can't keep that pillcase in my purse now, cuz I don't want the awesomeness to wear off. So I guess I'm keeping my multivitamins in a plastic baggy till I find another pill case as cute as that one was... lame, yeah?

I am also proud to say that I have totally stayed within my calorie budget EVERY DAY this week. Haven't worked out yet, but I will, trust me!!!

Travis: TEN LBS BUDDY!! Come on, where you at man??

Nowwww I'm finally gonna go check on other people... sorry for putting a totally non skinny related story up for everyone to deal with, but I feel that I gotta brag :rolleyes:
Later everyone!
 
its start wieght day im going to post later after my run! Where you at on your start weight? Ten pounds we can do it its gonna be hard but we can do it!
 
Do you ever look in your mirror and think, damn, I look good today... ? Cuz I do. All the time. And then when I'm at a store, or walking past a window, I totally see my reflection and I think, Oh my god. I'm a fatass. Its so weird to me that I don't feel as fat as I really am. That definately comes across in my personality to I think; I'm not shy, I can talk to pretty much anyone, do pretty much anything, yada yada. But it just takes that ONE reflection to take down my whole day... I'm at Maurices today with a friend and my little sister, and I walk past a mirror and I see NOTHING but fat rolls thru my tshirt. I just wanted to cry.. I felt aweful after that- I even zipped up my hoodie to hide it all. Jesus, its just nuts! I feel good, attractive, whatever, one second, and the next, I'm done for. I'll be alone the rest of my life, I'll be fat the rest of mylife, pretty soon I'll have MacNamara/Troy cutting me off of my couch(remember that one Travis?? Lol)... Eh. I'm just having a depressing moment, I'll be fine tomorrow, but MAN. Throws me off, ya know?
Had a friend in town from Minnesota this weekend, shes leaving on Tuesday, but my weekend was eh, so-so. Didn't eat fantastically, but not as bad as I usually do. So overall I am pretty proud of that. I'm trying to get that same friend on this site- I know she'd love it here to, so heres hopin, yeah? As for the rest of the weekend OTHER than food, it was pretty damn fun. I got hit on by a couple guys(again reaffirming that I don't feel as fat as I really am), watched my friends get reallllly drunk while for the first time in a long time I did not get drunk. I was toasty, but overall pretty decent. Cut down on alcohol- good! Less calories. Less money spent. Thats a very good thing..

Anyway, in order for me to get real serious about this, I do just need to post my fat weight. I'm gonna weigh myself tomorrow at GNC and post it tomorrow night. It won't be pretty, but my fat rolls aren't pretty right now either, and I need for that to change.

Everyone have a great day, and I'll talk to ya all soon!
 
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Tony: lol, I work at GNC and we have a scale there- most of the GNC's do, but its freakishly accurate(unfortunately) and I don't have a scale at home, so thats pretty much why I was gonna weight myself there.

However- due to the fact that I had so much paperwork to catch up on, I completely spaced weighing myself! What an idiot... I even thought about it a good ten times throughout the day to- "don't forget to weigh yourself"... Over and over again. Lot of good that did me :rolleyes:

Food was pretty fantastic today, verrrry proud of myself. I'm actually taking a break right now from my kitchen cupboards. Blah. We are almost finished with all the cupboard doors, so I go to put the new hardware on them, and guess what? All the doors were so close together that none of the brackets are gonna be in the same spot... Just can't make em fit!! So I needed some vent time.. :)

Later everyone!
 
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lets go Jess get that start so we can do this we are already into the month a good bit and we are going to be pressed to make this goal. Get on it!!!!

Plus when you get aht start weight down and start to see progress it has to help make you feel better about yoruself!
 
Tomorrow I work, so weighing in is something that WILL be done... I honestly don't know why I have such a problem with the actual number... Its not like I'm the only one on this site with a huge amount of hate for a number, but wow. You put it up there and then its just THERE.
I am gonna post some pics tho- I was looking thru my pictures, and I gotta say- there are NO full length shots. I need some of those... But the way before to the after to the now, theres pretty noticeable changes in my face.. hopefully with lots more to go.

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jessbones.jpg

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Ooookkk, so those links didn't end up in the right order, so Dec05 is the first one, thats the picture that made me realize how fat I'd gotten.. at that point I was like 280-285ish? it was bad. The next ones labled Jess and Jessbones are from June, and at that point, I had gotten down to 235. Sept06 I had gained about 6 lbs back due to the "oh man! I'm a really hot fat girl now, so I don't need to work out as much!" attitude I got. Me&dad and my avatar pic are the two most recent pictures I have... After the end of September last year, those that read my diary and kinda know about the ordeal with a stupid guy(BECAUSE of my I'm-so-hot attitude) I gained right at 20lbs back... I don't know what I'm at now, because I've been doing a lot more drinking than I should be doing, and I also haven't worked out in almost TWO MONTHS. Oh man. Slap me in the face!!

ANyway, even tho I didn't have my weight yesterday or today, I hope these pics give an idea of how far I HAVE made it, small amount tho it may be...
 
258 is the aweful, horrible, tragic number :( Luckily, noone reads my journal, lol, so that will apparently be a number that only I have to deal with! So, that means that from my highest weight ever, I am still down 27lbs. However, that ALSO means that from the lowest I got last year(235) I am UP 23lbs... How crappy.
I gotta lose at LEAST 58lbs in five months... Thats 11.5lbs per month, which seems fairly steep. Im just gonna hafta get hardcore on this! It kills me that I managed to gain back 23lbs in a year. I guess I didn't even realize(other than the not working out) that I was being that bad.
Well, I guess I just keep going, work harder, yada yada. I'll be weighing myself a lot now, lol, just cuz thats what I seem to do- check and check and check until I'm reassured that I'm not getting any bigger. Bleh.
 
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