<3Cerella's Restarting, Refocused and Remotivated<3

Umm...ouch to the sunburn! And (I gotta be me) I had to look at the pictures of you up close on account of the very provocative placement of the flowers on your swim suit :D

Sorry I didn't have time to stop by or talk last night. I popped ina couple times but couldn't stay online long :(
 
Umm...ouch to the sunburn! And (I gotta be me) I had to look at the pictures of you up close on account of the very provocative placement of the flowers on your swim suit :D

Sorry I didn't have time to stop by or talk last night. I popped ina couple times but couldn't stay online long :(

HA!I never even noticed that till you mentioned it!I figured you would be the first one to comment on my boobie shots!

I have great boobs, im proud of them what can I say...LOL obviously i wear a tank at the beach but i cant wait till the day i feel i dont need too!

Im on yahoo if ya have time stop by...
 
Those weird patterns of sunburn are often from the bits of skin that got less (or no), cream on them. I've seen a few people with a big patch of sunburn and just one white section in the middle - in the shape of a handmark - the only bit the cream got to. The best thing is to use an SPF30+ cream, and use heaps, cheap brands work just as well as expensive brands. Don't try to rub it into the skin. Coat your skin and let yourself look dork like for a few minutes and it will absorb and you will have more protection (so the few minutes of dorkdom convert to more glam tan later on). I have even convinced young teens to try this after I stayed ok while they burned. Of course the other thing is that some bits are in the shade - like covered by a towel or book or something. I've started so many summers with sock marks on my legs from spring athletics carnivals!!

You look nice and relaxed in your pics Cerella. I hope that's the case - the beach is a pretty relaxing place usually. Your little one looks so gorgeous in her towel! :)

:D I have to agree with reluctantcabbie about the flowers! It's not obvious (to me), in the big pics - but it's a real stand out in the thumbnails!! :D
 
Those weird patterns of sunburn are often from the bits of skin that got less (or no), cream on them. I've seen a few people with a big patch of sunburn and just one white section in the middle - in the shape of a handmark - the only bit the cream got to. The best thing is to use an SPF30+ cream, and use heaps, cheap brands work just as well as expensive brands. Don't try to rub it into the skin. Coat your skin and let yourself look dork like for a few minutes and it will absorb and you will have more protection (so the few minutes of dorkdom convert to more glam tan later on). I have even convinced young teens to try this after I stayed ok while they burned. Of course the other thing is that some bits are in the shade - like covered by a towel or book or something. I've started so many summers with sock marks on my legs from spring athletics carnivals!!

You look nice and relaxed in your pics Cerella. I hope that's the case - the beach is a pretty relaxing place usually. Your little one looks so gorgeous in her towel! :)

:D I have to agree with reluctantcabbie about the flowers! It's not obvious (to me), in the big pics - but it's a real stand out in the thumbnails!! :D

Thanx for the tips hun i appreciate it:DWould you believe tho that i use a children 60 i use what i put on Taneesha...LOL...my arms never burn usually but I guess with being in and outta the water and so on...i dont usually go into the water...

Oh and i am looking well rested, lol, ive been off work for 7 days:)so going to bed and sleeping...
 
So Im seriously thinking abt closing out this diary and starting fresh and new...

I have been thro so much since I restarted this diary and I remember when i restarted it and the good place I was in and yadda yadda yadda...I restarted in 2007...

i find with all i have been thro that there is alot of negativity in here, alot of pain and heart ache alot of emotional negative crap I wanna put in my past and release from my diary...


So I am gonna think of a great new name and restart a diary...I will do it for monday or Tuesday when I am restarting fresh and new and free of negativity and all the things Im gonna work on for balance, peace, harmoney and inner happiness in my life...

Im slowly rec overing from the corey stuff...Im getting better and better, e still pops up in my head but now im counter acting him with positivity lol...telling him to get outta my head that he has no place or space in my mind or heart and that he is a waste of my time and energy to think abt.
 
hi relly...sorry about your sun burn but nice pics of you and the kids..

(i have this picshure in my head of Karl with his face smooshed up on the screen with a magnifying glass looking at your flower petals...LOL)...CUT IT OUT KARL>>>GEEEZZZZZ--He is all lookin like this:drool5:


Just try to refocus your energy...maybe make a "to do" list and a goal list....I did that...I mean I am not perfect but at least I know what I want and why.

Hugz
me
 
Oh pleeze... It's not like I'd be the only one noticing....

Just the only one crass enough to say something!

Cerella, if you start a new one, come by my place and link me up (ooh, that almost sounds Dirty...
 
Just try to refocus your energy...maybe make a "to do" list and a goal list....I did that...I mean I am not perfect but at least I know what I want and why.

Hey Hun, it is all mapped out in my mind.I know I am gonna do and how Im gonna do it:)It will be the opener of my new diary.I am ready...

Oh pleeze... It's not like I'd be the only one noticing....

Just the only one crass enough to say something!

Cerella, if you start a new one, come by my place and link me up (ooh, that almost sounds Dirty...

I will be starting a new one, just thinking of a name and then I will link it in here for a cpl days before I shut out and I will maybe link it in my siggy for a bit I dunno...or maybe I will just title it Relly/Cerella or something lol...I seem to be known as relly, ha ha ha!

Id be crass enough to say something:Dlol...but then again that is just me...

I was accussed of not showing off my sunburn but showing off my boobs:(all my suits are like that that is just how they make them...


hey girl!!!! :) i think starting new is a good idea!!! clean slate!!!!! :)


miss you! How have u been??

Thanx Babe I think so too...there is alot of past and pain and hurt and negativity I wanna get away from here, i will start fresh will a new diary and actually accomplish it this time...Ive been here struggling for way to looong...Im a perminite fixture here, geeeesh:S
 
Ugh the pics i posted all i see is negative...BLAH...my face shots, big fat puffy cheeks and Ive really let myself go:(

I have friends who weight a good 100 lbs more than me who have found happiness and men and are dating, I just dont get it with me...I dont understand why I cant just see myself and accepting myself for my appearance:(

 
I always feel so much more together mentally and physically after a good haircut.

Really relly (thats hard to say)...we all get too down on ourselves, there have been alot of positive changes in us and we need to focus on that. Plus, it takes a long time and its hard to be the perfect weight loss person..none of us are perfect...we are REAL people. So take it one meal at a time. Maybe thats it...for example last night for our starch in our dinner we had corn (instead of potatoes) my hubby used to be like corn is a veggie and now he knows if I make corn or peas there will not be a potato or rice...I cut up green and red peppers and onions and sauted them in butter pam with the corn. Its small changes like this that have helped me. Its coming off slowly and I get frustrated to but geeze I am so so so much better than I was this time last year...when I was in my "fat" pants.

You are a busy single mom so go easy on yourself sistah....tiny steps lead to long term success I think.

You also said this in my diary
Im gonna do a cleanse and then go organic...and possible vegetarian...that is my plan of attack...

If this suits your lifestyle thats fine but if it doesnt then you might rethink this plan of attack. I like to do stirfry veggies alot but I have to have meat every now and then....also the veggie hot dog...its okay but without the mustard and onion..blahaaaa (it looked bad after it sat on my plate too)..

anyway

diary take over LOLOL

New diary name...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....let me think on it...
 
I dont look too bad but ya know I just cant accept my body it is sad really

Nobody that I know accepts their body, Goodness knows that I dont. I remember even when I was at my fittest back in college days I wasnt happy with my body.
I think what you need is just a little bit of progress. Remeber how good it feels when you have been on program for a while and you get on the scales and see like your 3rd consecutive loss? thats what you need. It comes slow of course but just to be doing something positive will make you feel better. It only takes me 2 or three good days to feel better.
 
Thanx guys...

Kare - I been slowly switching to organic...as far as vegan, Im thinking abt it...I might just do chicken and tons of veg and fruit...am unsure at the moment...My oldest is vegiterian but i cant make my youngest vegan cuz of day care and such...but im seriously considering it...

I know ive made alot of positive changes thus far and yadda yadda yadda...Im having a little break and it is almost over, im ready to get back on the saddle and not get off till Ive reach my goal...or put a good dent in it...

Brawnster...Im hoping once I like it a bit more I will accept it better...it is just ya i cant right now, i can see the changes ive made over the long periods of time but ya know...

I know once i start diet and exercise again that I will feel better, lounge and not caring has been nice but the party is coming to an end, lol...Even I am depressing myself HA

as far as progress i never loose i can get on a fit and good schedule but i wont loose it is just the way it goes...

Im pretty much over the corey stuff but ya know he still randomly pops into my head and stuff still goes through it:(

However i do believe he was genuine and was just presented with a choice and made the wrong decision, clearly it wasnt meant to be and I am glad it happenned when it did rather than months down the road and the kids being involved...

He was shorter than I would have liked and how would it have worked if he so much time in Chiliwack anyway...*SIGH*

Another one bites the dust...
 
Thanx guys...



I know ive made alot of positive changes thus far and yadda yadda yadda...Im having a little break and it is almost over, im ready to get back on the saddle and not get off till Ive reach my goal...or put a good dent in it...

Baby girl that is ALL YOU CAN DO!!!! :) i have all the faith in the world in you! You can do it!!!!! Baby steps. If you look at it all at once as one huge task... you get overwhelmed and give up... baby steps....

Im hoping once I like it a bit more I will accept it better...it is just ya i cant right now, i can see the changes ive made over the long periods of time but ya know...
wants you see a little bit of progress... its like an addiction.... and you will be on a roll in no time!





Another one bites the dust...


THIS IS THE PERFECT NEW JOURNAL TITLE!!!! another pound BITES THE DUST!!!
 
I got a tatty yesturday...Spend the day with my girls adn an old friend and we decided to get tatties:)LOL

I told my oldest she could get a tatty for her 15th bday...she turns 15 next month...but asked if she could get one before school was out...prob is legal age is appearantly 16 with parental consent.We are on Vancouver Island and i told her if she could find a shop here we could get tattooed while here.We found a clean sterile shop that tatoos with parental consent...

Here are the tatties...



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It is on my outside calf of my left leg.Abt middle calf...It is a broken heart stitched up with angel wings, taking flight.It is representing strength, growth and moving on...a piece ive been wanting for a long time...It was a long hard road getting over the ex...

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Kaylea's tat...an angel wing on her right shoulder...it is so cute, i love it...quite a detailed piece for a first tatty...and she did awesome!The pic isnt very great but it is a nice piece.
 
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