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your coworker is an awesome person. really. not many people would do something like that for someone else :)
7hours???????? geeez woman! don't forget to rest lol.

hope taneesha's blood test turns out to be ok.
 
Well i got a msg from Taneesha's pedi and she is going in next Friday, to see the cardiologist.That is before her return appt withthe pedi... Im amazed at how fast they made that happen...Im assuming it is like when I had all my issues...cuz I was a single young mom I got into specialists and appts fast...she is a little girl, so she is gettin in fast...
 
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What in the world?? I sincerely hope everything's OK with Taneesha sweetie.

Can't believe you worked out over 7 fuckin hours woman! Sheeeeeeeeeesh.
 
Claud we are furthering her heart murmur, it is moving up the chain of docs and along the road of determining if it is anything more than it is.I honestly think she is prob lacking iron...it just wouldnt surprize me...

So I can tell I went to boot camp last night:(My whole body hurts like a son of a bitch!All of it, LOL!
 
I swear to you if my husband comes down and see's i am online with all these boob and ass avatars he is going to think I am on an "I quit porn" site...or maybe an "I love porn" site I dunno

how are u today?????

take a nice hot bath to help with those aches...but i am very proud of you!!
 
Im taking a break day...break on diet and break on exercise...I think I have earned it and I dont care, lol.Ive ben so good this last week with diet and exercise and Im exhausted.I had to work overtime this am, of course, always when I am exhausted and looking forward to bed and sleep oh well.

My legs are still on fire fromm running twice yesturday, yog and boot cmap, lol.Im good for now.All in all it hasnt been a great day...rough start for my lil one at daycare crying and so on.I had to stay late at work, the asshole ex cancelled and etc...

Im off tomorrow at 7am so I can get some exercise in and get to bed at a decent time and get some sleep adn then I will head off to boot cmap tomorrow:)

Oh but I will get in my water.

 
KareBare

Ha Ha HA I know, I came onto teh website last night before my co-worker left and I went into chat.I was pming with Karl and of course my male co-worker noticed the ass right away.He was like oooo what is this you are on, LOL.

Then I showed him my diary and he say all out tits and asses:D!
 
I know Val - I hear ya:)I cheat day and no exercise helped me shift my weight...

SO - I have pulled mucels in my thighs right above my knee caps.It isnt as bad as it was yesturday but it still hurts like a son of a bitch...SItting downa nd then standing back up and walking up and especially down stairs is very hard and painful, Im even afraid of doing Yoga, afraid of not being able to get back up and afraid of getting stuck in a pose cuz of my w/e is going on...Im gonna rest another day...hopefully I can attend boot cmap on Thurs and Fri...

I think with all the exercise I have been doing (did 7 hrs last week) and the fact that i believe I exercised every single day with out a break and the 40 min walk/run...that boot camp was just the icing on the cake on Monday night...

I think it was every thing combined or I wonder if the running could have done something...I ran on the treadmill before for 30 mins at a walk/run rotating around every min to 2 mins...then I ran for 9 mins at boot cmap same way on and off walking/jogging...

Maybe big fat combo of everyhting....

What i do know is Im not going to boot camp and I am not exercising till it hurts less...

Boot camp by the way was the fitness tests...then it was all lunges , we di dlunge squats with 5 lbs weights and must have done well over 100 of those, we did squats weaving the weights in and out of our legs like a figure 8 while sitting in a lunge...my guess would be about 100 and then we were running to the pylons and doing jumping jacks we did 120 jumping jacks in total and half burpies prob at least 60 of those...

So ya Ive toasted myself:(

BUT I am Down 4.2 lbs this week:DAnd I have lost 14 lbs since dec.1:D!!!
 
CONGRATS ON THE BIG NUMBER FOR YOUR LOSS!!!! Yay!

Keep it up, except not for a day or two until your leg is doing better. I hope you heal up soon, you're doing such a wonderful job :)
 
Congrats on the loss cerella :D
i know how it hurst and it will hurt for few more days. the lunges and the running combined probably did it. you did a bit too much for one session i guess. muscles need to recover a bit :)

this usually happens to me when i start some exercise i haven't done in a while...especially which is packed with lunges, squats and stuff. i forget i have to go for it like its my first time lol. i think you can do yoga though...it might help relax and warm up your muscles a bit :)
 
Thanx Ladies:)

Lena no yoga not just yet...LOL...It has hurt to sit downa nd restnad up adn walk down stairs, my biggest fear with yoga is I will get stuck in a position, lol
 
BLAH!I dunno what is going on with me:(

My body isnt happy nad all it wants is rest.So I have been sleeping with my down time at work and sleeping when I put Taneesha to bed before and so on, I have no energy I am drained!

Im also retaining water and my weight has gone up by 10 lbs amazing HUH!

After talking to Karl we together came to the conclusion that im retaining water and prob fighting something off on top of over doing everythign.IE, im stressed with my girls current health, the new daycare situation isnt going as smoothly as I want it to.Im not even sure im liking the daycare:(and stress is horrible to me, ive over done the exercise and have eaten a few things I dont normally eat.

Anyway I will exercise no matter what tomorrow and for the rest of the weekend and mon, i need to get my 4 hrs in.Starting Mon I will do all my normal things...Boot camp next week and resume my exercise...

 
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Its ok.. hang in there!! It sounds like your going through a lot right now and I'm sure it will get better with time and I'm sure your weight will get back to normal too!! My weights up a bit too but I'm trying to start eating more calories and I'm thinking thats why.. but don't get discouraged we can do this!!!

Also if you think your retaining water try cutting out salt for a while.. that helps me
 
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Its ok.. hang in there!! It sounds like your going through a lot right now and I'm sure it will get better with time and I'm sure your weight will get back to normal too!! My weights up a bit too but I'm trying to start eating more calories and I'm thinking thats why.. but don't get discouraged we can do this!!!

Also if you think your retaining water try cutting out salt for a while.. that helps me
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Thanx Hun, ya I dont usually eat salt or much processed crap so that is why im retaining...I havent been eating bad just eaten a few things I dont typically eat...so I think that has done it in.

:(:(:(My BLAHNESS:(:(:(

I dunno why I am feeling as I am...I think this is why I battle weight so badly, once i get on a good role I start feeling good about myself and start thinking that i dont look so bad and then I decide it might be nice to move on wiht my life and find someone to date/spend time...and then it fucks me up emotionally...:(I cant move on...I dont have the confidence in me and how I look.Im fine wiht who I am and what I am, I know I am a good person and a good mother and yadda yadda yadda...BUT, I cant get past how I look:(

My ex has had two relationships in the past almost 5 yrs we have been seperated and he has had many flings bu ti figure that jsut shows how he chose to deal with things...I worked hard to get over things and deal and I did BUT, well i wont put my kids through it, my oldest lived through it all and was devistated when he left and how he treated her and me...She become nothing when he left...(plus he was the only father she had ever had, ASSHOLE) and when he was around he only acknowledged his daughter my youngest...and my youngest well she loves her daddy...ya know and i dont wanna confuse her...

Anyway I guess clearly im havign EX issues...

I think it is steaming form him being faothful to her and yet it wasnt good enough for him to be faithful to me or his other ex, i dunno...clearly i have issues that have been dragged up...
 
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I think what else is really bothering me is...recently I have gotten "close" emotionally to someone of the opposite sex. He who shall remain unnamed I have been talking to for a long time online, we talk alot and it is nice, we have become :friends: but close friends who share stuff and seem to have a connection which is why we talk alot...It is nice and fun and enjoyable and it is what it is will never be anymore...but it seems I play it safe, get close to ppl and things I know I cant have and wont have and dont need to worry about having...and WHY can I connect on the internet with someone but not in person...and I guess it benefits me I get to hear things I wouldnt normally hear and it strokes my ego a bit BUT then I think it makes me wish I had more and had something ya know.

Well I guess you cant win em all, I allowed myself to get over weight by not loving myself and putting my kids first and so on which is what I choose

Emotionally, I guess I still have ALOT of work ahead of me:(
 
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