<3Cerella's Restarting, Refocused and Remotivated<3

It has been awhile...ive just been a bit down lately - sleepin lots and so on...the household is a constnat battle between teh kids and tryin to keep it clean...

I just havnet been feelin the forum lately...

My eating has been semi good a little bad bu tnothing major...

today I went on a 3.5 mile walk and have drank over a liter of water and had noodles and chicken thus far...I will have some hummus and crackers before I head off to work...

I had a decent convo with the x which is nice for once but ya I cant be friends with him and I will always want him so best to stay away from him...

yesturday I went on a 30 min walk and a day or so before that I used the elliptical for 7.5 miles...monday I guess it was...Tuesday I didnt get exercise squeezed in...

the weekend I spent shoveling snow...
 
Hey girl... i know you have been pretty down and all with the shit your x pulled on you. So I don't blame you for not being able to be friends with him. I still can't look at my x the same way I did when we were together and we had been in a relationship for 4 years this was all before i met my wonderful hubby which we have had some problems in the past few years but things are going great now. I know one of these days you'll find a great man who will love and respect and be great with the girls. Even though right now that may not be what you want or seem like a million years away.

Anyways. i am here for you if you wanna chat. hugs and see you around. gotta jet.. wanting for my man to get home from his stupid paper route that he was suppose to be done with over 2 hours ago and still not home cause the damn papers were late getting to the warehouse for them to fold and put in stupid little baggies cause of the damn rain.. haha..

see you soon. and keep texting me even if you don't feel like chating on here.
 
Sorry your down babe :( I know your having a rough time, but this will pass and you will emerge a new,stronger woman!

Keep your chin up hun, we are all here for you!
 
Don't stress about not being on much....its kinda a hectic season & we all go though phases where we need to focus more on our real life than anything online. :)

Just make sure you enjoy whatever it is you do as much as you can.
 
It has been awhile...ive just been a bit down lately - sleepin lots and so on...the household is a constnat battle between teh kids and tryin to keep it clean...

I just havnet been feelin the forum lately...

My eating has been semi good a little bad bu tnothing major...

today I went on a 3.5 mile walk and have drank over a liter of water and had noodles and chicken thus far...I will have some hummus and crackers before I head off to work...

I had a decent convo with the x which is nice for once but ya I cant be friends with him and I will always want him so best to stay away from him...

yesturday I went on a 30 min walk and a day or so before that I used the elliptical for 7.5 miles...monday I guess it was...Tuesday I didnt get exercise squeezed in...

the weekend I spent shoveling snow...

Hey Cinder!
It's good to see your still exercising, and yes Walking inside or out does count in a big way. I'm proud of you for at least keeping up with that, because it will help out mentally too. I know how you feel about the kids and keeping the house up, sometimes I feel the same exact way, and I just want to throw up my hands and say, CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!!!! being a mom is stressful, and being a single mom double that! Your a power house girl, and you will make it through this funk, just take it a day at a time, and it's okay to feel this way, we ALL have gone through it at one time or another.

Try and have a good weekend, and thank for always popping into my diary, I miss ya
Kim
 
Well I was up before 11am today - lol - so good - I was sleeping lots bu ti think it was because i needed it - so ya...thank goodness!!!

I got most of the living room cleaned up and we are setting up the tree today finally!!! My cous is coming over and she will decorate with us - she has helped us in the past and always comes with us when we get a real tree as well...

Im being more optimistic but it sucks feeling as I do...I just cant help but wonder or think why the fuck he cant make an effort - we talked and he said he is concerned about supporting a family and such and all this stuff when in realitity it isnt even a though ya know...

I know ther eis more to his stupid actions and such tyhen he leads on liek our talk yesturday but really if it is an option between making things work and having his family back or never seeing me agian you would think wanting to make things work would be the right option but nope...he wants to be friends - nadda for me...
I will always want more...he doesnt want to stand in my way of finding happiness and moving on he wants me to find someone better...

What about what I want...he is an idiot...
 
Howdy Cerella,
We need matching t-shirts that say":iamwithstupid:"or
men are stupid lol!Mine has been butt kissing and swore on his kids that him and the chick with my name are friends ONLY!So I guess I have to honor that "T" word "trust" for now until proven otherwise.
I hope having your cous over cheers you up a bunch plus your beautiful girls to will do the trick!Thats what keeps a smile on my face when he is an ASS is my children,they are my world and will always love me!:grouphug:
Have fun decorating your tree,you pught to see mine it has ornaments only at the top thaanks to my 19 month old kicking the tree and grabbing the branch and trying to makle a tun with it lol.HAVE A GR8 WEEKEND TAMMY
 
Hey girly.. well i know how life has been treating you.. things have been going somewhat good here at my end of the woods.. haha Things in general are just crazy and i hate feeling like i have no control over things and when my feelings get into the mix its even worse. Like last night.. ugh anyways.. i'll talk to you soon hopefully.

Hope the weight loss is still going well for you and see you soon.

heather
 
Ugh, men are stupid, I'll leave it at that.

anyways, havn't heard from you in a couple days hun, How are you??
Me? I'm just hagning in there.....pretty down myself, both my kids got the flu and both my cars broke down this past week!!!

Anyways, hope all is well! I'll be back to check on ya
 
Hey Cinderelly.....it is so normal to feel this way right now. I have to say that I am so glad you are strong enough to realize that you can't be friends with him. It is obvious that you love him (not that he deserves that), but you are so right...you will always want more and having him as a "friend" will only keep your pain fresh. Hugs-and I am glad you got some extra rest, I am sure you needed it. It's great that you are still walking, too. I know it is hard (been there), but make sure you are taking care of you!
 
Hey Cinder. Sorry about all the troubles. I have to concur about the limited intelligence of most of my gender.

LOL - Joe - Ya know it is funny - when I go out I get checked out alot and my friend Michelle constantly points that out to me...Today in Starbucks she was tryin to check out the guy in the window tha twas checkin me out...LOL

Today was a good day.We had our staff Christmas party - we went to the Olive Garden for lunch - YUM:drool5:I had the seafood alfredo:drool5:Double yum and one too many bread sticks...but damn they were good! then we went bowling...and had a blast. I had a great time...

I have decided that come Monday Im going full force agian...I need to...Im thinkin abt startin my day early and going for a run or a bike ride or I will get up and elliptical or I dunno...I was thinkin run...we will see but I am gonna get back to my slave driver exercise self...Im tired of this weight and feeling as I do...

Im also gonna start dating in the New Year or at least start looking...Im an ok looking gal that is alot of fun with a very vibrant personallity...HA!I never forget the look of surprize on ppl's faces when they ask themsleves did she really say that!

What can i say one of a kind!!!

Today my food was

1/2 cup yoguart - French Vanilla Raspberry Classic!!!So good

1 piece of live active single serving cheese

a packet of fruit snacks - but theses are made from real fruit juices and only like 30 cals a bag - like eatin candy!!!

Cesear Salad

Seafood alfredo

2 sugar cookies

1 liter of water

Exercise:

Bowling 1.5 hours
Elliptical 45 mins - 6.5 miles

Once upon a time I was thinkin abt joing a bowling league - for exercise - to socialize and meet people and to get outta the house...Im rethinking that!!!
 
Good plan about the bowling Cerella, that sounds like a lot of fun and you deserve it.

Keep us posted on the exercise girlie :D.
 
I understand about cleaning and the kids and the Ex. I wish you had more immediate support--my biggest turn off to having kids is the fear of doing it alone. I don't have a man in my life I feel I could count on to be there for me if I got pregnant. And coming from a single mom, it's not awful but it could have been cool, having a live-in father.

Anyway, the bowling league sounds fun! Keep up on the exercise :)
 
:party:Wow your back in your groove and I lost mine,lamo isn't that how it seems to work latlely?OMG Olive garden oh so yummy,I get their chicken affredo.Hope you have a wonderful weekend,Tammy
 
The new avatar is adorable! Gotta love all the lights... they make everyone look beautiful...course you two don't need the help.

Are you off bowling with some hot guys? Miss you on here.
 
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