2B135AGAIN
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I’m excited about starting this journey, but I’m a little worried because I start out so fired up and then poop out in a week or two. I’ll begin to rationalize that one stop at McDonalds won’t kill me, but for me it’s rarely one trip. I’ll stop the next day, then two days later, blah, blah. I must have a very addictive personality because I get in these ruts so easily. I really want to succeed this time, though. I need to succeed. So here goes…
-- How much weight do you want to lose? 70 lbs
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 9 ½ months
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
Exercise: I’ve joined 24 Hour Fitness. I really like cardio classes, but it’s been very intimidating going to the gym. I feel like everyone is looking at me, and I absolutely HATE feeling so exposed. The last time I belonged to a gym, we went to ‘aerobics’ classes, not ‘cardio pump’ or ‘circuit’ (and I was really hot in my spandex and leg warmers). I won’t quit though. I’m hoping that once I’ve been there a few times I won’t be new and no one will look at me any more.
Since I’ve only focused on cardio in the past I bought a mini personal training package so they can show me how to use some of the equipment and what to do with the weights. I’ve pretty much exhausted what I know about weights after some bicep curls and bench presses.
Diet: I MUST stop eating fast food, and start cooking again. I love to cook (actually writing a cook book) so this should be the easiest part of this journey, but it’s been the hardest. I’ve really gotten lazy. I need to start cooking on the weekends and freezing some so I can just throw it in the microwave quickly instead of grabbing a block of cheese or stopping at the Golden Wretches.
I’m lucky that I LOVE veggies, fruit, all kinds of whole grains and have more recipes and ideas at my disposal than most people. Why am I not cooking?
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My family and friends will help me I’m sure. It sounds bad, but I’ll probably get more (or better) support from my friends. My family has a subtle sabotage thing going on. Even though they know I’m (or someone else is) trying to lose weight, they’ll break out the Breyer’s ice cream, or homemade fudge, or new ‘organic’ treat to try. Looking for something other than a sinister reason for this, I think they want me to know that they love me like I am. I also know, though, that if I lose weight, it makes it more apparent that they aren’t losing.
-- How realistic is your goal? This time I think my goal is very realistic, 70 lbs in 9 ½ months. That’s actually a little less than 2 lbs a week. It’s even slower than what the pros say is healthy. 5 lbs a week really sounds a lot better psychologically ?, but I know, I know… I’ll be more likely to keep it off, and I’ll have fewer excess skin issues if I lose it slowly.
-- When will you start? I started this week. I’ll weigh myself every Sunday morning and will try to stay off the scales in between so I don’t obsess too much.
What Keeps Me Going
I want to feel again like I did in my 30s. I was thin, muscular, exercised regularly and loved it. I was self-confident, happy and healthy. SO.... I have made myself a promise that by the end of this year I will be closing in on the best shape of my life. I intend to keep that promise. Whatever it takes.
To me that means I must overcome any obstacle, face down any emotional monster. I will deal with each psychological mind game as it springs up on me. I must do whatever it takes, not just when it is easy… but when it is so hard that I doubt even my own abilities.
Physical Goals - Lose about 10 lbs a month
Lose 30 lbs. by the end of November
Lose additional 40 lbs. by the end of May 2008
Toning:
- Abs (focus hard – always a trouble spot)
- Arms (focus hard - tone, but also strengthen) I want to be able to wear sleeveless shirts and tank tops again!
- Butt (tone and shrink)
- Back (tone and strengthen)
- Legs (tone)
Increase cardio stamina – I get winded very easily now, and find it very frustrating and discouraging. Joined 24 Hour Fitness, and will take some cardio classes. I also love to walk (can do this at work, too), bike, rollerblade, hike/backpack.
Increase flexibility – Never a strong point, but much worse since I’ve stopped working out regularly. Will try Pilates and maybe some yoga at the gym? Very intimidating because of my size right now, though.
Other Goals
Improve self-esteem
Improve overall health
Improve quality of sleep
Join pool league again
Start dating again
Barriers to Reaching My Goals
Television
Embarrassment at current weight – Don’t want to put on shorts and go outside, or even to the gym, etc.
Disappointment at letting myself get so out of shape, and berating myself constantly – Very bad ‘self-talk’
Disappointment with previous failures at getting back into shape
Fear of failing again
Fear of a lack of privacy and confidentiality about weight, physical shape
Lack of self-confidence
Not planning meals ahead of time
Not planning mentally for ‘bumps in the road’
Having ‘bad food’ or ‘binge foods’ in the house
-- How much weight do you want to lose? 70 lbs
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 9 ½ months
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
Exercise: I’ve joined 24 Hour Fitness. I really like cardio classes, but it’s been very intimidating going to the gym. I feel like everyone is looking at me, and I absolutely HATE feeling so exposed. The last time I belonged to a gym, we went to ‘aerobics’ classes, not ‘cardio pump’ or ‘circuit’ (and I was really hot in my spandex and leg warmers). I won’t quit though. I’m hoping that once I’ve been there a few times I won’t be new and no one will look at me any more.
Since I’ve only focused on cardio in the past I bought a mini personal training package so they can show me how to use some of the equipment and what to do with the weights. I’ve pretty much exhausted what I know about weights after some bicep curls and bench presses.
Diet: I MUST stop eating fast food, and start cooking again. I love to cook (actually writing a cook book) so this should be the easiest part of this journey, but it’s been the hardest. I’ve really gotten lazy. I need to start cooking on the weekends and freezing some so I can just throw it in the microwave quickly instead of grabbing a block of cheese or stopping at the Golden Wretches.
I’m lucky that I LOVE veggies, fruit, all kinds of whole grains and have more recipes and ideas at my disposal than most people. Why am I not cooking?
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My family and friends will help me I’m sure. It sounds bad, but I’ll probably get more (or better) support from my friends. My family has a subtle sabotage thing going on. Even though they know I’m (or someone else is) trying to lose weight, they’ll break out the Breyer’s ice cream, or homemade fudge, or new ‘organic’ treat to try. Looking for something other than a sinister reason for this, I think they want me to know that they love me like I am. I also know, though, that if I lose weight, it makes it more apparent that they aren’t losing.
-- How realistic is your goal? This time I think my goal is very realistic, 70 lbs in 9 ½ months. That’s actually a little less than 2 lbs a week. It’s even slower than what the pros say is healthy. 5 lbs a week really sounds a lot better psychologically ?, but I know, I know… I’ll be more likely to keep it off, and I’ll have fewer excess skin issues if I lose it slowly.
-- When will you start? I started this week. I’ll weigh myself every Sunday morning and will try to stay off the scales in between so I don’t obsess too much.
What Keeps Me Going
I want to feel again like I did in my 30s. I was thin, muscular, exercised regularly and loved it. I was self-confident, happy and healthy. SO.... I have made myself a promise that by the end of this year I will be closing in on the best shape of my life. I intend to keep that promise. Whatever it takes.
To me that means I must overcome any obstacle, face down any emotional monster. I will deal with each psychological mind game as it springs up on me. I must do whatever it takes, not just when it is easy… but when it is so hard that I doubt even my own abilities.
Physical Goals - Lose about 10 lbs a month
Lose 30 lbs. by the end of November
Lose additional 40 lbs. by the end of May 2008
Toning:
- Abs (focus hard – always a trouble spot)
- Arms (focus hard - tone, but also strengthen) I want to be able to wear sleeveless shirts and tank tops again!
- Butt (tone and shrink)
- Back (tone and strengthen)
- Legs (tone)
Increase cardio stamina – I get winded very easily now, and find it very frustrating and discouraging. Joined 24 Hour Fitness, and will take some cardio classes. I also love to walk (can do this at work, too), bike, rollerblade, hike/backpack.
Increase flexibility – Never a strong point, but much worse since I’ve stopped working out regularly. Will try Pilates and maybe some yoga at the gym? Very intimidating because of my size right now, though.
Other Goals
Improve self-esteem
Improve overall health
Improve quality of sleep
Join pool league again
Start dating again
Barriers to Reaching My Goals
Television
Embarrassment at current weight – Don’t want to put on shorts and go outside, or even to the gym, etc.
Disappointment at letting myself get so out of shape, and berating myself constantly – Very bad ‘self-talk’
Disappointment with previous failures at getting back into shape
Fear of failing again
Fear of a lack of privacy and confidentiality about weight, physical shape
Lack of self-confidence
Not planning meals ahead of time
Not planning mentally for ‘bumps in the road’
Having ‘bad food’ or ‘binge foods’ in the house
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