2010, the year I danced myself thin!

Oh dear, half a month of absence almost... shootypatooty, I feel bad for having completely ignored the BL thread and letting Andy down. I could not get on the website, some problem with my password and the fact that I could not remember which email address I had given and yadayada, also the break was actually nice, trying to get less obsessive and it worked out well I think, today my weight is 134 so that is like 3 pounds down from my last semi official weigh in.
I am dancing more than ever, in fact this week I skipped monday and still managed 6 hours tuesday-friday an now this evening I am going to dance camp for the weekend and will receive 12 hours of class in 2 days. Woohoo! I would like to be 2 pounds down by next week, because my boyfriend (on and off, but currently very much on) is coming to visit and I would like to finally be under 60 kg and surprise him with a 15 pound loss since he last saw me. I will try hard, this means a lot to me. I have a new pair of jeans and a new sweater to wear for the first time the day he gets here and it would be awesome to wear them being a woman in her 50ies rather her 60ies ;)!

Food log wise:
breakfast: 1 glass of OJ, 1 potato (I know odd, I didn't have much in the house)
Lunch: stir fried veggies with shrimp and lemon juice drizzle
Dinner: a sandwich of sorts, not sure yet, will go and shop later

Exercise:
90 minutes of lyrical dance
 
The weekend was amazing, good friends became even better friends, my teacher was very very happy with my ballet, in fact she kept screaming how awesome I was (I have to explain: I did ballet in the past, but not currently, teacher did not know if I was any good at it and probably did not expect a lot and was beyond surprised when actually I was fairly good at it, so no, I am not a prima ballerina, just better than I look ;) )! I learned a lot this weekend and I am very tired and worn out but very happy indeed, only one minor incident where another girl was nasty to me, yelled at me (about something she was wrong about!) while we were all in a choreography, very embarrassing indeed... I was really tired and almost cried over this incident. But that was the only negative mark of an otherwise excellent weekend.

Now, we had to be filmed doing this and then watch it to learn from our mistakes. I hate seeing myself on camera and today/yesterday was no different. I have horrible posture generally, I try to walk more upright but I slump. And when I dance, even though the steps are all fine, even though I am good at it, the slumping of my body makes it all look crummy. I don't even know how to go about fixing something that is always there, I will try to work hard on my posture from now on but it was a bit depressing to see myself. Oh well... I can only improve, right? I am now more than ever considering those shoes that force you into a more upright position. Also my hands and feet tend to not be fully stretched, with the feet it is not the end of the world, but my hands tend to look like dead appendices... but my friends were really encouraging, they wanted me to stand in the front because I remember the steps so well, they ask me for advice and to rehearse with them and they kept telling me how much I am improving and how much better I am than before (one told me she thinks I am the one with the steepest learning curve of the whole class). I know they are friends and supposed to say ncie things but they felt like they meant it.

Food was ok, more than usual but we were dancing for 6 hours a day so I guess that is ok ;)!
Hoping for that 2 pound reduction to roll around soon soon soon...
 
Day was so so, I am back up to 136 and the dress we are getting made for dancing did not fit me (she has 1 size only and fits it, in my case the zipper did not close so she needs to like fit the whole thing to my body, she measures me and I am still fat). Also boyfriend may nto be able to fly in as that stupid vulcano erupted in Iceland making european flights a chaos.
On the other hand my bosses are stuck too and I have a week off, so yey!

Food log:
Breakfast: 1 yoghurt, 1 banana, 5 strawberries
Lunch: 1 plate of pasta with bolognaise sauce, 5 strawberries
Snack: 2 endives with dip
Dinner: green salad with tuna and 2 endives with dip

Exercise:
90 minutes of jazz
 
Thank you sunflower, yes I am resting nicely, which I needed after last weekend.

Was an ok day, had fun at dance, otherwise not much happened. Yesterday was ok too, the girl I had a falling out in dance managed to throw another tantrum. I am being zen about it, she can whine all she wants in the end I am following what my choreographer says.

Food yesterday:
breakfast: 1 yoghurt, 1 banana
Lunch: 1 medium sized dish of pasta with tomato sauce
Snack: a couple handfuls of chips, 1 apple
Dinner: greek salad, 1 small bowl of spinach

Exercise yesterday:
90 minutes contemporary dance
loads of walking

Food today.:
Breakfast: 1 yoghurt
Lunch: lentils and 1 sausage, 1 apple
Snack: 1 coffee, 1 apple
Dinner: veggie stir fry, 1 sausage, 3 carrots with dip

Exercise:
90 minutes of jazz
 
Looky looky, who is back! Well not really back back, because I am not really focusing on weight loss right now, though I still do want to lose these damn 15 pounds that refuse to shed.

However I have relaxed a lot, my weight is fairly constant at about 135 ish, which I think was probably where I was at last time I was on here. The dance recital went well even though I was 15 pounds from my dream weight.
For this month of july I have taken a huge step and signed up for acro gymnastics. I could nto find an adult group for actual artistic gymnastics and since all I really want to learn is floorroutines, I signed up for this which is basically floor stuff. And it certainly is the world's hardest sport. I do it twice a week for 2 and a half hours, which means for about 60 minutes I stretch and stretch and stretch some more (they have medieval torture instruments to make the stretching as painful and useful as possible) and do the most ridiculous sit ups ever, then for half an hour I do handstands, half an hour I dothe bridge in its various forms and for the last half hour I do (harnessed) jumps. I am starting with forward handsprings and I enjoy that a lot. Not so much the whole rest of it though!
I am so sore that I can barely type actually. everything from my neck to the tips of my toes aches and throbs and works as if I was that tinman in the beginning of "Wizard of Oz"... rusty and unpredictable!

So I am kind of hoping that by the end of july I may be under 130... 129 maybe. I am not weighing myself frequently really, just maybe once every couple of weeks right now, because I just get obsessive and upset.
My food is staying pretty much the same, breakfast with carbs, lunch usually proteins and carbs (5 days a week) and dinners more protein or just salad, while lunch on days where I do acro are very light because I cannot digest whilst head down with a heavier dinner. I need to drink more water and I jave cut out a lot of indulgences because with the hot weather I barely feel like eating at all, no need to fill that tiny hunger with crappy foods.

I won't update daily, but maybe every few days.
I will check on you guys soon to see how many of my old buddies are still here, love, Camy
 
Hi Camy,

I am a journalist who is writing a piece for a Dance magazine about weight loss. I wonder if you would be willing to talk to me briefly about your dancing and weight loss? My email address is sarahwarwick(at)gmail(dot)com...please drop me a line if you would like to be involved (I don't have to use your real name).

Kind regards,

SnoozyQ
 
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