Alligatorob's Diary

[alligatorob]

Did not feel up to exercise today, but otherwise things were fine...

To me, it seems normal, Rob. It really does. It was a major op.

I suppose so, but it still doesn't feel good.

 

[Llama]

I suppose so, but it still doesn't feel good.

Surgery rarely does...

 

[alligatorob]

Well, last night after posting I binged, again. Similar story to the first binge. I feel pretty bad about it, bad enough to keep me from posting today up till now. I did not want to do this post, but I know that if I am going to figure out how to stop this bingeing, I need to admit to it and talk about it... But I don't feel much like talking about it right now, so I'll just do the admit part.

Today was better, no binge and back on the eating track. No exercise, I did not feel great.

Obviously yesterday's log did not contain the binge, so ignore it. I think today's will be ok.

 

[Err2]

Sorry to hear about the binge. Aside from pace of recovery from surgery, have you been stressed or upset about anything?

 

[Llama]

Binges suck. And I never want to talk about them even though I know it's better to come clean.

 

[Err2]

I hope today went better Rob

 

[Cate]

I hope you have had a better day, Rob xo

 

[alligatorob]

Today was a better day, my food was not bad. Not as well balanced as I would have liked but fine calorie wise. No exercise, my feeling tired continues. I tried to give blood today, with my surgeon's ok, but the Red Cross folks sent me home, low hemoglobin. I have had this happen before, but this time my hemoglobin was even lower, and I have been taking iron supplements. I may have other signs of anemia, so I should probably get it checked out. It would explain some of my tiredness of late.

Still not happy about the binge, but I am moving on... Lots of internet connection problems today, has limited my connections here.

Sorry to hear about the binge. Aside from pace of recovery from surgery, have you been stressed or upset about anything?

No, no real excuse, just my own weakness of nature. Trying to figure out how to keep it from happening again now. And today was a better day, thanks!

Binges suck. And I never want to talk about them even though I know it's better to come clean.

Yep, I hated having to post afterwards, and not real happy talking about in now. But as you say I know its for the best...

I hope you have had a better day, Rob xo

Thanks Cate, and I did. Except for the blood and internet stuff...

 

[Llama]

Anemia would make it a lot harder to stay firm in your convictions. Definitely get that checked out, if only to make sure there's no seepage from your internal scars.

 

[Cate]

Have you ever been tested for haemochromatosis, Rob? It runs in G's family but he can't get it apparently (hasn't got both genes.) Maybe it's time to get a thorough checkup? As someone who I think is the same age, I can say "old age sucks". No, it doesn't really. We just have to check, check & double-check & try to enjoy our lives as best we can. This is just a temporary setback. Stay away from the M & M's though I know you're being a bit hard on yourself, I also know that you'll bounce back & work out a healthy balance with your diet & your weight. We have confidence in you. You're a smart cookie

 

[alligatorob]

Not a bad day, no exercise but I ate well. Spent much of the day trying to figure out our internet problems, ended up discovering a bad switch downstream of the router. Problem is I can't get a new one until Monday. Till then I will be using tethering on my cell... not ideal, but it lets me post here.

Calories down a little today, maybe I will try to keep them around 1,700 until exercise resumes. Not a big change, but a little can't hurt.

Anemia would make it a lot harder to stay firm in your convictions. Definitely get that checked out, if only to make sure there's no seepage from your internal scars.

I think so and tomorrow I plan to make a Dr's appointment, too busy today with the internet thing...

Have you ever been tested for haemochromatosis, Rob?

No, never heard of it, but I will ask.

As someone who I think is the same age, I can say "old age sucks".

Yeah, I guess its only better than the alternative!

 

[alligatorob]

Another day about the same, have cut my calories a little. I have a Dr's appointment set for Monday, will see what he says.

 

[Err2]

Hope your weekend went well

 

[alligatorob]

Have to get this over with, I binged on Saturday. Same story as my earlier binges, no excuses. However otherwise my weekend went well. Today was good I ate well, and I got a lot of yardwork done. About 8 hours on both Saturday and Sunday, exhausting and I had to take a lot of breaks, but I was able to do it. Physically things are getting slowly better. Doesn't make up for the binge, but it helps, and helps to remind me that its not the end of the world. I can keep improving and plan to.

Hope your weekend went well

Thanks Err, and except for the binge it did... A little like the old question, "Other than that Mrs. Lincoln how was the play?"...

 

[alligatorob]

Not a bad day, I got a little exercise working in the garage, it rained all day so I stayed indoors. I ate pretty well, staying a bit below my current target of 1,700 calories.

I went to the doctor today and it was interesting. He thinks my feeling of tiredness and signs of anemia are more than he would expect from the surgery. He did say that I still had some bruising and swelling, but its getting better. He also confirmed that I am retaining water, the likely cause of my weight gain. He examined my legs and other parts pretty closely and could see swelling. So he took a bunch of blood for testing and wants me back on Wednesday to see what he can figure out. If nothing else I guess it is reassuring knowing this isn't my imagination, and that we have a plan to do something.

With Dr's blessing I have committed to returning to the gym on Monday, will take it easy at first just to see how it goes. In the meantime I will try to get some exercise every day, even if limited.

 

[Cate]

I’m glad your doc is being thorough, Rob. It’s good to get on top of things quickly. Take care xo

 

[Llama]

What Cate said. Best of luck.

 

[alligatorob]

Ate well, calories below 1,700 again, but felt real tired so no exercise. Back to the doctor tomorrow, hopefully we will get something figured out.

I’m glad your doc is being thorough, Rob. It’s good to get on top of things quickly. Take care xo

Thanks Cate, not sure how quickly this is, but I am doing it.

What Cate said. Best of luck.

Thanks LaMa, funny how I just assumed that losing weight would solve all my health problems. I suppose they are better than they would be if I was still fat...

 

[Llama]

funny how I just assumed that losing weight would solve all my health problems. I suppose they are better than they would be if I was still fat...

Your knees definitely got better. And probably some other things, mobilitywise.

 

[alligatorob]

Another day of the same, ate well and logged but just too exhausted to exercise. It seems hard just to walk around the house sometimes.

The doctor said my blood tests looked fine, but that I was retaining water. That is both the reason for my weight gain and my low hemoglobin, he says more water in the blood dilutes the hemoglobin. A new one on me, but he is more qualified than I... He also said the water retention was probably not hurting me, we talked about diuretics but he wanted to hold off and talk to my GP first. I questioned him about it, and the diuretics cure nothing but the symptoms, so I am not sure why they make sense. He said that his best guess was that I just needed more recovery time, my hernia fixes are healing just fine, but I still have a lot of swelling and bruising. He talked again about how the surgery was more extensive than he had anticipated going in. So maybe I just need patience, but if it doesn't get better soon I will go to my GP and see what he thinks.

Your knees definitely got better. And probably some other things, mobilitywise.

Thanks LaMa, you are right of course, there are lots of things that have gotten better with the weight loss, I just need to keep them in mind...