VFG11:WLD

Hi Vegas, how are you doing? I hope surgery went well and you´re recovering comfortably.
 
I just got caught up on your diary and all i can say is...girl, i believe in you!
On the work front, you have to do whats best for you. I quit my old job of 10 years because of my concern for my own physical and mental wellbeing, i work in the same industry now, but i have thrived outside of that company i used to work for.

I'll be keeping an eye on your progress, i hope your procedure went well.
 
Hey guys! I am alive!

Surgery went very well. I was home by about 2pm after a 7:30 start time. Got to keep an ovary!

Recovery has been a huge ego check for this independent woman. My parents just left today, after almost 2 weeks. They initially planned to only stay a week, but my mother wasn't comfortable leaving me alone just yet. I think I would have been fine, but was appreciative of the assistance.

My pain is still much higher than expected and on my left side abdomen where they cut into the muscle is extremely bothersome. Pretty much cant move without it saying.... or screaming hello at me. And getting up from a lying position is a challenge to say the least.

I took minimal pain meds after the surgery and now am taking them before bed and when I wake. Since I'm a restless sleeper who moves around alot, I haven't slept great since. And since I do move around alot at night, I wake up really sore in the mornings.

I am recovering and am hopeful that in the weeks to come I will recover fully.

I did weigh in the day of surgery and pretty much wanted to die - I could not believe the number I saw. I weighed again this past Monday and saw a considerable decrease. So I plan to continue to weigh in on Monday's. And while my goal honestly to be lean and fit and not care about that number.... I still fucking care about that stupid number.

I am going to continue to focus on recovering and eating as healthy as possible since exercise will be limited for another month. I have been out walking Angus and going up and down the stairs a few times a day. The goal is to be walking 3+ miles by the time of my 6 week appointment. But for now I am starting with just 1/4 mile intervals on the treadmill and then whatever distance I walk with Angus.

I have one more week off work and plan to really focus on my goals and get myself prepared for those goals. I have a few "motivational" screenshots from IG on my phone that I look at. I think I might work on a vision board this week - I've been talking about doing it, but just haven't yet.

That's really all for an update. I will check in again soon!

xoxo VFG
 
Thanks for the update, and good to have you back :grouphug: Needing help is hard sometimes but asking for and accepting it is a useful skill to acquire. Best of luck with recovery.
 
Hey Vegas, great to hear that you are recovering without any serious complications. Sounds kind of uncomfortable though. Are you able to drive and get out on your own?

Keep on posting, I think it helps you and we want to know how you are progressing. Best of luck with it!
 
Hi Vegas, good to hear you are doing ok!

I know what you mean about caring about those numbers..i try not to but i end up caring more than i should i think.

I love that you are setting goals for your recovery process, its easy to fall into using recovery as an excuse to be lazy. But dont forget to listen to your body more now so you arent pushing too hard.

Best of luck with recovery! Hope to hear back again soon.
 
Hey Vegas, great to hear that you are recovering without any serious complications. Sounds kind of uncomfortable though. Are you able to drive and get out on your own?

Keep on posting, I think it helps you and we want to know how you are progressing. Best of luck with it!

I am able to get out and drive a little. The grocery store is just up the street and I can do curbside pickup.

And thank you! I am happy that we are both recovering well.
 
Hi Vegas, good to hear you are doing ok!

I know what you mean about caring about those numbers..i try not to but i end up caring more than i should i think.

I love that you are setting goals for your recovery process, its easy to fall into using recovery as an excuse to be lazy. But dont forget to listen to your body more now so you arent pushing too hard.

Best of luck with recovery! Hope to hear back again soon.
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It's hard not wanting to see that number dip... even if we "dont care."

Recovery is def an ego check, but I feel like I am progressing at a normal rate. The recovery time is 6 weeks and tomorrow marks a full 2 weeks since the surgery.

I am glad to be able to take this time to not only recover, but set some goals for the rest of the year.
 
It's hard not wanting to see that number dip... even if we "dont care."
I'm quite happy with my body these days (not "yay, I look like a model!" but "this is a good body and I kind of like how it looks as well") and the numbers still feel like rewards/judgment. I don't dare go without the scale because I'm afraid to lose control completely and become so overweight I won't be able to walk before I can stop myself. So I get it...
 
Just a little check in.

Had my post-op yesterday. Doc said I am progressing and recovering well. I have one incision that isn't healing as quickly, however it is the largest and deepest so its to be expected. He said that I should expect to recover 20% a week and that I am just over 40% recovered at this point.

He was VERY surprised that I am not back to work. I told him its been nice to be at home recovering and decompressing from the work stress. I asked if he could not release me till Monday and he said, well technically I will not fully release you until after your 6 week post op so that if I wanted to take another 3 weeks he would sign off on it. As nice as that sounds, I am okay going back on Monday. It's time.

I went into the office today to assist with a few things and to just get out of the house. It was the first day that I really "worked." I've been fielding phone calls and emails, but really not checking my email unless my assistant needed me to see something. My staff was happy to see me, which is a good reminder that I am bossing right. :)

I did weigh in, but the scale is holding. Can't complain there.

I need to move a little more than my walks with Angus, but I just get so tired. So I'm listening to my body. I know I am going to sleep good tonight with all the activity I had today being back on property and in the office.

I am good friends with our FedEX guy and he walks the park near my office on his lunch break. He's invited me to walk with him numerous times, but I just haven't accepted. I think I am going to take him up on it when I am fully recovered. I cant see a better way to spend my lunch break - beats the hell out of a meal from a sack at my desk.

I didn't eat today until about 6 - I made some steak and eggs with a tortilla. I need to get my water intake back up. I had two seltzers all day and am currently sipping a diet coke. My alcohol intake is WAY down of course - but I have had a few drinks since the surgery. Just not for the usual "destressing" reason.

I can say that I am dying to go out and have a night on the town. My best guy friend J said he would take me out when I was all healed up. And I am very much looking forward to that. Usually our nights out have us getting home around daybreak, but since the pandemic we haven't really gone out at all. We celebrated our birthdays last month with a little bar hopping, but it wasn't the same. And who knows when we will have one of those nights again.

Okay, at this point I am just rambling. I am going to take some Ibuprofen and my vitamin E (good for healing!) and a big glass of H2O and head to bed.

xoxox
VFG
:grouphug:
 
I love all of the above. Maybe it's just the stress of impending surgery falling off you but you sound so much happier!
 
Having the break from work, even though it was for surgery does seem to have relaxed you. Good to hear you are listening to your body & resting when you feel you need it.
 
There was alot in my head and heart before the surgery and now that its passed, I do feel mentally lighter. The night before the surgery I cried for several hours and was just so worried and terrified. I was worried of losing my ovaries and what that would entail down the road and then what if something goes wrong, what if the pain in recovery is unbearable..... my mind and heart were a whirlwind.

But when I woke up in recovery (in very little pain I might add) it was like it was all washed away. The nurse sat with me for a long time since I was her only patient at the time and we chatted and cracked jokes.... like nothing had happened at all.

My hope is that I can continue to hold onto this feeling of lightness and move forward with my goals.
 
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