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jen_renee said:
No school. *sigh* Apparently our secondary roads are covered in ice. I so love getting up and ready for no reason. :rolleyes: Usually the school calls if there's no school, but they always leave a message, so I'm not sure what happened there.
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I call 'bullshit' on that. The roads were more than fine enough to drive on last night. Seriously, this school district calls more snow days for horseshit reasons than any other district I know. I mean, hell...they canceled school one day last year at the POSSIBILITY of snow. We didn't even get any...it was just a POSSIBILITY.
 
ChefChiTown said:
I call 'bullshit' on that. The roads were more than fine enough to drive on last night. Seriously, this school district calls more snow days for horseshit reasons than any other district I know. I mean, hell...they canceled school one day last year at the POSSIBILITY of snow. We didn't even get any...it was just a POSSIBILITY.
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Our school is usually the last one to close up here, because we have no buses. The possibility of snow, was because we were supposed to get like 2 feet of snow in a damn blizzard. You're just being a whiner because the kids are home. :p
 
Sunflower_ said:
Hey lovely - good week so far?
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Well, up until yesterday it was pretty good. Damn you, Thanksgiving! *shakes fist in the air* :p


Seriously, why is pie so good? Not gonna lie... I had 3 pieces yesterday, and I had a piece of pumpkin pie for breakfast this morning. Don't judge me!! haha! I didn't count calories yesterday or wear my fitbit. It was a planned cheat day, obviously, so I wasn't about to do that stuff. I did count my pie calories this morning though. Someone needs to come remove this pie from my kitchen, because I'm removing it piece by piece right into my mouth. :p
 
I have only ever had pumpkin pie once, a long time ago, at a friend's place in Melbourne. It just isn't eaten here. We have so many different customs. Give the pie away Jen :D
 
The last few days have been ok.

Steps have been over 10,000 every day, and my calories have been around 1400. I'm not sure if I'll get my steps in today though. I've been sitting on my butt most of the day. I worked this morning, and then was drawing all afternoon. Sooooo, lots of sitting today. It's kind of hard to draw and walk at the same time. I'm not that good. :p

I haven't weighed myself lately. I think I'll shoot for doing a weigh-in on Friday. So, I need to be extra good this week!


My mood has been ok. I'm battling the same old thing I do every single winter. It's cold. It's dark. It's depressing. Even though it sucks, I've been doing better than I have in the past few years, so that's good I guess. Usually by now I've said "eff it" and am shoveling food in my face. Not this year though! I'm just going to be a huge bitch instead! :eek: haha! Seriously though, uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh. I miss the sunshine!
 
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jen_renee said:
The last few days have been ok.

Steps have been over 10,000 every day, and my calories have been around 1400. I'm not sure if I'll get my steps in today though. I've been sitting on my butt most of the day. I worked this morning, and then was drawing all afternoon. Sooooo, lots of sitting today. It's kind of hard to draw and walk at the same time. I'm not that good. :p

I haven't weighed myself lately. I think I'll shoot for doing a weigh-in on Friday. So, I need to be extra good this week!


My mood has been ok. I'm battling the same old thing I do every single winter. It's cold. It's dark. It's depressing. Even though it sucks, I've been doing better than I have in the past few years, so that's good I guess. Usually by now I've said "eff it" and am shoveling food in my face. Not this year though! I'm just going to be a huge bitch instead! :eek: haha! Seriously though, uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh. I miss the sunshine!
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I hear you about the cold dark Winter-lol. I found embracing it helped me out- I know I am effed in head-haha. Running really made me just get out and enjoy the weather. At least enjoyed those days we had some sunshine. I used to get so depressed in the Winter because I felt cooped up the house all the time. Getting out and doing something helped a lot.
 
Thanks, Cowboy!


I haven't been the best on the exercise front the last few days. I was in an extreme funk, so exercise wasn't happening. I have, however, been okay on food- around 1400 or 1500 every day. I figure if I do nothing else, I can at least control what I stuff in my pie hole. :oops: Tomorrow I'm going to be at my desk a lot, because I HAVE to finish the drawing I'm working on. I have to ship it at the beginning of next week. I'll try to get some exercise in tomorrow morning though.

Part of my funk is being caused by my extreme unhappiness with my job. I hate it. HATE IT. It's just mind numbingly boring. Yes, it's great being able to work from home on my couch. That part is awesome. I'm good at it. I get great reviews every month. The problem is that it sucks so bad, I'd rather stab myself with a fork than do it. Soooo, I'm going to pursue my art more in the new year. I'll still have to do my job, but I'm going to try to look at that as a side job to my art, instead of the other way around. Today I worked on my art site, and it was the best day I've had in ages. I need more of that in my life. Fortunately, I have a super supportive husband. It seems like every year around this time, I have a meltdown, and he tells me over and over to just do my art. I need to just listen to him for once. lol!

I've also been in a funk over a couple other things, but they are out of my control. I just need to relax and trust that things will work out the way I'm hoping they will.

Overall, I'm happy with how the last few months of the year are going. I certainly haven't gained weight, so that's an improvement. lol! I just have to get through December and it will be smooth sailing. One day at a time!

(I know I've been horrible at keeping up on diaries lately. Honestly, I haven't even wanted to write in mine, because I had nothing positive to say. I didn't want to spread the funk around. lol! Hopefully I'll feel up to it soon though. :))
 
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Sorry to hear you´re feeling done, Jen. At least you have a real back-up/alternative though! Awesome work keeping the food decent, that´s not easy when your mind isn´t in the right place.
 
jen_renee said:
Fortunately, I have a super supportive husband. It seems like every year around this time, I have a meltdown, and he tells me over and over to just do my art. I need to just listen to him for once. lol!
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I'm sorry you are in a funk Jen. Having a shitty, boring job can be pretty soul destroying. Trust your instincts Jen & follow your heart, passion & talent. Chef is right. Do your art. You have so much talent! Sending you lots of love Jen, xoxo Cate

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Hi Jen,

Cate and your husband are right. Believe me when I say I know what it means to be in a job you HATE!! I did that for 25 years- absolutely hated it. The only good thing about the job was the people I worked with. That being said I went back to school and started a new career at 43.I worked nights at my old job so I could go to school during the day and I did this for 6 years. I could only take what I did a class or two at a time. Believe me when I say if I can do it- anyone can. Start the ball rolling now. Gets things in place and do what you need to do and then make the change when you are ready. The hardest part of the whole process is the first step! Do what you love to do and follow your passion. You will never go wrong doing that!
 
The bad news- We've gotten over 2 feet of snow this weekend. :cry: We need to move somewhere warm. I'm just not equipped to deal with such nonsense. lol!
The good news- my mood has improved!! The funk seems to be gone. :hurray: I've been working on my art a lot. I finished the picture for Chef's mom and dad and sent it out. They were very pleased, and in return sent me a nice big check! I've been working on my social media presence, and I started a new drawing today... The Rock! Should be fun and frustrating (he has a ton of stubble in the reference pic). I'll get through it, but I'm not looking forward to that part. lol!

Diet update: I was doing "ok" until this weekend. My calories weren't the best last week, but they were under maintenance the majority of the week. I think most of the days were around 1400. This weekend though, that's another story. We won't talk about that. :smilielol5:Tomorrow I'll get back on track with my calories. I'm not letting things get too out of hand. Mentally I'm still in check and motivated. I want to be super good between now and Christmas, so I can eat like a pig and not feel guilty about it. :p

I hope everyone is doing good!
 
jen_renee said:
The bad news- We've gotten over 2 feet of snow this weekend. :cry: We need to move somewhere warm. I'm just not equipped to deal with such nonsense. lol!
The good news- my mood has improved!! The funk seems to be gone. :hurray: I've been working on my art a lot. I finished the picture for Chef's mom and dad and sent it out. They were very pleased, and in return sent me a nice big check! I've been working on my social media presence, and I started a new drawing today... The Rock! Should be fun and frustrating (he has a ton of stubble in the reference pic). I'll get through it, but I'm not looking forward to that part. lol!

Diet update: I was doing "ok" until this weekend. My calories weren't the best last week, but they were under maintenance the majority of the week. I think most of the days were around 1400. This weekend though, that's another story. We won't talk about that. :smilielol5:Tomorrow I'll get back on track with my calories. I'm not letting things get too out of hand. Mentally I'm still in check and motivated. I want to be super good between now and Christmas, so I can eat like a pig and not feel guilty about it. :p

I hope everyone is doing good!
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Ok, first of all, I LOVE The Rock soooo YES. Just YES.

Second of all, you are an AMAZING artist and every drawing you create is absolutely incredible. To me, you're ALREADY a superstar. However, I get the feeling you don't believe in yourself. Ironically, something of which The Rock wouldn't approve. Why not? Because, The Rock is a badass and he would tell you do to the following...

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You have the opportunity to be amazing. Because you ARE amazing. You deserve your place on the other side. All you have to do is kick in that fucking door and introduce yourself. The rest will be everything you've ever wanted, I promise you.

IF YA SMEEEEEELLLLLLL...

 
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