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It sounds good to be the black sheep in your family..... I hope things settle down or that you can distance yourself from the drama, its awful to have all that on your mind.

The family youve made for yourself is absolutely gorgeous and you should be proud of the work youve put in so far you look great
 
Oh man, Mowens, what a PITA, I'm sorry you're wrapped up in that. Best you can do is limit your kids' exposure to their uncles, I guess.

Speaking of which, great-looking family you have there!
 
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Oh man, Mowens, what a PITA, I'm sorry you're wrapped up in that. Best you can do is limit your kids' exposure to their uncles, I guess.

Speaking of which, great-looking family you have there!
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You do have a great looking family, Mowens and you should be really happy and proud.
 
I like & admire you, even more, Mowens. It seems like there are no easy answers. I can understand how you feel about your Dad & I also understand why he puts up with your brothers, even though they don't seem to deserve it. I hope you are able to distance yourself from the drama too & that your Dad is ok. Hopefully, he will get in touch to let you know that. You, your wife & your kids are the most important people here Mowens. Take care & enjoy the lovely family that you have formed, xoxo Cate
 
Maybe limit your contact with the brothers as much as possible but still see dad. Like take him out for coffee and just pull up and honk for him to come out. That was you limit your exposure to the losers. Also anger is good workout fuel.
 
If I could focus all of my frustrations into exercise fuel, I think I'd make Usain Bolt look like a toddler.

Took another blow to my stress/anxiety levels. I feel selfish even saying that because of the reason.

October 15th, 2014 I was in a 45mph car wreck with my (then) 1 year old. No one was seriously injured, though I received a few cuts and burns from the airbag deploying, it totaled a beloved car my mom had sold to me (bent the frame) and rattled my safety-obsessed wife for months:

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October 2015 my mom suffered a fall and ultimately passed away on October 25th, 2015:

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So this year, on October 1st, I told my wife that all I wanted to do was get through this month without something bad happening. Well, we got a phone call this morning that my wife's 91 year old grandmother passed away. She's survived by her 94 year old husband and they were married for 69 years:

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My wife is really torn up about it and I'm dealing with my own stresses with it being the first year without my mom and all of the other family problems I mentioned in previous posts.

I am going to be taking a short break from here to focus on my mental state. I'll continue my diet and exercise and I hope not to be away long, but the next couple of weeks are going to be rough.

See you around guys and gals. Take care until I see you again.
 
I´m sorry to hear all that, Mowens. I understand that right now you want to use your energy for the stuff you HAVE to deal with, but remember that you´re welcome here even if all you just want to rant/sigh a bit without looking at what all the others are getting up to.
 
Thank you, 2nd family. It means a lot to me to hear your encouragement.

I've been out of here for a week, feeling down on myself and I think I'm finished with that for now.

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Visitation is tomorrow, funeral is Saturday and I've been asked to be a pallbearer at the service. If you knew me, you'd know I've never owned a suit or tux in my life. I don't attend enough funerals or weddings to merit paying for one.

I'm going to borrow a suit jacket from my father-in-law who happens to be both a minister and a lawyer so he owns more suits than anyone I've ever met. Funny thing is he used to be like 350lbs about 10+ years ago. He dropped about 125lbs through Weight Watchers and an at-home gym and since I've now lost over 40lbs, we're about the same size. :p

I'm ready to get back to kicking some ass, preferably my own... and hopefully that will loosen some of the weight in the process.

Who's with me?

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We are all with you Mowens! This is a good time to get on track. All the best for Saturday :grouphug:
 
Just had a funny little moment with my 3 year old. I went for a walk this afternoon and was wearing shorts and when I sat back down she asked, "Daddy, what's wrong with your knee? It has a dent." I looked at it and we puzzled over it for a minute until we realized it was just my kneecap and not some weird previously unknown injury. I guess you can actually see the shape of the bone now instead of just a blob of fat? Haha!

I haven't been losing a lot of weight consistently lately, but I feel like my body is shifting around and my shape is changing. I hope that's a sign of muscle building and fat burning. I started being able to see my collarbone for the first time in years. Strange thing to notice, I know, but I'm actually starting to look more human-shaped and not just round.
 
:D I love the kneecap story; possibly because as a teen I avoided shorts/skirts due to my "weird, knobbly knees". All the best for Saturday and good luck with the suit.
 
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