ChefChiTown's Rebirth: I'm Back, BABY!!! (In More Ways Than One)...

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Let's not forget about your extensive collection of Backstreet Boys. You know they're in there. haha!

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and watch black and white movies
Clerks?
Sepultura - Roots Bloody Roots
One of my favorites.
 
I got a little off track around the time of Jen's surgery and didn't really make any progress. My mind just wasn't in the right place. I'm not saying that in hopes to use it as an excuse; it's just fact. My mind wasn't in the right place and I didn't do too well for the past week or so. However, that time has passed and I'm back in a good place. My mind is free from distraction and it's back to being focused on getting healthy.

Another thing I'm focused on is writing. I like to write in my free time. In fact, that's what I want to do for a living - write. Sure, I love cooking and working as a chef is fun and (occasionally) rewarding, but writing makes me happy. Not that I don't find happiness working as a chef, it's just that my creativity is extremely limited at my current job which is very frustrating. Writing, on the other hand, allows me to use my creativity and it is sooooo much more rewarding. I can literally write whatever I want.

Poems, stories, lyrics, whatever - I'm a writer at heart. And, I take it seriously. The way I write online is not the way I write when I'm working on a project. Here, I just type what I'm thinking and it often comes out as if I were talking. I have a very loose and casual writing style when I post things online. For instance, I often start sentences with something like, "So, the other day..." or some other variant of super casual speak. But, when I'm writing, my style is tighter, more controlled. Focused. So, when I'm not focused, my writing suffers. Now that I'm focused again I can get back to writing.

What are you writing now, Chef? Oh, a lot of things. Ironically, even though it takes a tremendous amount of focus to write and work on my projects, I have a hard time staying focused on ONE project. So, I usually end up jumping back and forth between pieces I'm currently working on at the moment. Right now? I have three novels I'm working on, a children's book, some short stories and a whole bunch of random ass poetry. Is any of it done? HAHAHA, nope. Hell, I started working on my first book a good seven years ago or some shit and I'm still not finished with it. But, now that my focus has returned I'm hoping to dig into it and finally finish my first novel.

One of the coolest feelings is watching Jen, my wife, working on her art. She loves it. It makes her happy (and she's insanely good at it). And, just the thought of her being able to do that for a living- art, the thing she loves, the thing that makes her happy - puts a smile on my face. So, why not do that for myself? Why not do the thing I love, the thing that makes me happy for a living?

I've always wanted a little cabin to which I could escape - a quiet, relaxing cabin with no distractions, in the middle of the woods, free from the worries of the world - where I could write. Just write. Or, a big office, shelves full of books, my personally library, a big desk, chairs and couches, comforting surroundings - where I could lock myself away for a few hours every day and work on my writing. I want that. I want that shit. So, I'm going to go get it. I just need to stay focused and work. On my body and my writing.
 
Hi Chef,

I always tell my kids " Follow your passion". If you can make some money at it and you want to do it for work--- then go for it! If not do it whenever you can. It is important to listen to your heart and do what it says. There is lots of people out there doing what they hate just for the paycheque. Believe me I did it for 25 years. I had three small kids and a wife to support so I put my head down and did it. Do I want my kids to do that? Hell, NO!! So they are all doing what they love to do and making a living at it. It is fantastic to see. Nice to see you have the same goal. If you follow your heart- you can't go wrong!!
 
One of the coolest feelings is watching Jen, my wife, working on her art. She loves it. It makes her happy (and she's insanely good at it). And, just the thought of her being able to do that for a living- art, the thing she loves, the thing that makes her happy - puts a smile on my face. So, why not do that for myself? Why not do the thing I love, the thing that makes me happy for a living?

You should! I'm going to be working on art stuff here soon, so you'll have plenty of time to work on your own stuff.

Have we ever told the insanely cute way that you proposed? I don't think we have. So, I think most people here know that I love drawing and Chef loves to write. So, he bought a sketchbook and took the time to fill up every page of it with a story about this boy that met a girl. The basic story was that the boy had a story to tell, but he couldn't draw.... so he couldn't finish his story. The girl could draw, but she wasn't a writer. They both had their own stories, but couldn't finish them, because they were both missing something. But, eventually they realized that they could create a story of their own TOGETHER. Awwwww! There was more to it than that, but that was the main idea. Every single page was illustrated with a drawing. Let's just say the part about the boy not being able to draw.... true. Very true. Sorry, honey. hahahaha! It was so sweet though, and I loved it! He gave that to me on Christmas and when he got to the end of the story... he proposed.


Do what you love, honey!:beating:
 
Well, I finally got my laptop back. You see, Jen knocked her laptop over last week and a whole shit load of Diet Mountain Dew ended up basting her keyboard, rendering her laptop utterly useless. So, being the bitch of a husband that I am, I let my wife use my laptop since that day. Meaning, I haven't had my computer for a good week now. I didn't really mind being without it, but not being able to write this past week kind of sucked. Plus, I was living in a constant state of fear that Jen would find my folder of por...traits? Family portraits? Mmm hmm, wholesome family portraits.

ANYWHO...I got my laptop back, BUT it's being kind of a punk bitch. It keeps trying to run some sort of update for Windows and it is constantly freezing in the middle of the installation. So, I'm having to constantly turn off my computer, remove the battery, wait a few minutes and restart it so it will actually boot up. Jen says she didn't do anything but I'm starting to get suspicious. She knows what she did. SHE KNOWS.

Other than that, I'm good. Everything is still about the same. I hate work, kids are loud and obnoxious and our cat is piece of shit. Same old, same old. I have been feeling a bit odd lately though. It's weird. My mind is in a good place - it is - but I feel like I'm needing to push some of this stress...or anger...or frustration...or whatever the hell it is...out of my body. So, I haven't been eating good this past week. I always start the day off good, but then I cave and say "fuck it." Yesterday was like that. And, to be honest? Today will be like that too. I just need it though. I can't explain it, but after tonight I'll feel better, wake up and be a new person again. Maybe I'm like my computer - in order to work properly I need to reboot myself and start fresh. Yup, I'm just a carbon copy of my computer.

PS - My computer has a huuuuge hard drive. If you know what I mean.

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Plus, I was living in a constant state of fear that Jen would find my folder of por...traits? Family portraits? Mmm hmm, wholesome family portraits.

Wholesome family portraits. ....hahaha....

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....and I didn't do anything to your computer!! Update and shutdown... that's all I did! haha!
 
You can do a system restore and it will put the computer back to where it was before. Just make sure you don't restore to a point too far back. Windows updates are notorious for causing problems. I always wait for a while before updating anything.

Take the frustration out and go for a long walk or run. I always use running for stress relief and to clear my head.
I think I follow your meaning too- don't forget lots of RAM too-lol.
 
You can do a system restore and it will put the computer back to where it was before. Just make sure you don't restore to a point too far back. Windows updates are notorious for causing problems. I always wait for a while before updating anything.

Take the frustration out and go for a long walk or run. I always use running for stress relief and to clear my head.
I think I follow your meaning too- don't forget lots of RAM too-lol.

I usually relieve stress by having myself a good row (joke from another thread).
 
I just ate two sausage biscuits with egg and cheese, as well as two hashbrowns from McDonald's for dinner (they serve breakfast all day here). Not gonna lie. Best dinner I've ever had. No guilt. No regrets.

Well, until I wake up tomorrow morning with aggressive diarrhea.
 
Well, until I wake up tomorrow morning with aggressive diarrhea.

Tomorrow? It won't wait that long. You'll be stuck to the toilet by the time Blacklist comes on. lol!
 
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