Sure do. I don´t even "go back to my old habits", by the way, I rebel on day four and eat two days worth of calories in an hour to make of for time lost. So I get where you´re coming from. And maybe I have to try 999 different methods in order to find one which works, but in the end it´s better to keep trying and to keep learning (even when that means I´m stuck at the same weight) than to give it up and let my weight get out of control completely. You can do this.
ChefChiTown's Rebirth: I'm Back, BABY!!! (In More Ways Than One)...
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ChefChiTown
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So, some 'good' news.
Every year we have to get a physical in order to keep our health insurance. My appointment was today. Normally, my blood pressure is high. Like, HIGH high. I'm talking 180/130 high. It's always been like that. Anyway, my blood pressure today was 142/90. That's like a personal record for me, HAHAHA. The doctor (who wasn't my regular doctor - he was all booked up) even said that was pretty good...for me, anyway.
Now, the bad news. I had to get on the scale. Fuck that scale. It's a jerk. 256 lbs. I mean, I've DEFINITELY gained weight, but at least it's still manageable.
Every year we have to get a physical in order to keep our health insurance. My appointment was today. Normally, my blood pressure is high. Like, HIGH high. I'm talking 180/130 high. It's always been like that. Anyway, my blood pressure today was 142/90. That's like a personal record for me, HAHAHA. The doctor (who wasn't my regular doctor - he was all booked up) even said that was pretty good...for me, anyway.
Now, the bad news. I had to get on the scale. Fuck that scale. It's a jerk. 256 lbs. I mean, I've DEFINITELY gained weight, but at least it's still manageable.
jen_renee
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Damnit. I have to get on that same scale in a week. I don't need to hear these things. Lies! Tell me lies, damnit! ...."It's the nicest scale ever! So nice I'll wanna marry it when I get off. It automatically takes off like 50 lbs" ...... stuff like that! Sigh. I'm scared. Don't make me go! hahaha!
ChefChiTown
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You're ALREADY married. But, you want to get married AGAIN? Who are you? Ross Geller?
ChefChiTown
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There's a quote painted on one of the walls in the hallways where I work that states:
"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
- Gandhi
Now, I have two reactions to that quote.
1) An intellectual reaction - Gandhi never said that and having a made up quote on your wall should make you feel stupid. In fact, there is no record of Gandhi saying that quote anywhere in history. The closest thing he said to that, according to many accounts, was "If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change."
2) An emotional reaction - it makes a good point. Even though the quote is totally made up, it still makes a good point.
If a change needs to be made and you have the power to change it, then change it. Especially when it comes to your health. Or your lifestyle.
Here are facts:
- I am 34 years old
- I weigh 256 lbs
- I am physically out of shape and my body is mostly made up of fat
- I eat and drink too much
- I make bad choices
Here's another fact - I am married and have two children, and if I don't make changes, I could die at a relatively early age and lose all of that.
I said in an earlier post that I'm done setting challenges for myself; I'm done trying to play games with my weight loss to make it fun. Weight loss ISN'T fun. Neither is being fat and unhealthy. My life isn't a fucking game. Time to get serious.
When I was younger, back in my athletic days, I was incredibly serious. I was hardcore. I was intense. I worked hard and fought for what I got - my body, my skill, my athleticism, my talent. I was dead serious about getting what I wanted and, if something stood between me and my goal, I lowered my shoulder and ran it the fuck over.
What happened to me? Now, instead of barreling through obstacles and driving forward, I go around them. And, when I see something in my way I just give up and tell myself I'll try again later. To quote one of my favorite speeches...
"Cowards do that AND THAT AIN'T YOU!!!"
I know I said I'm done with challenges and the like, but people still need goals, deadlines. I turn 35 years old in October. That's about three months from now. If I'm not much healthier by then, I'm going to be pissed. At myself. For failing. For giving up. For going around the obstacles in my way. I'm not a kid anymore but I am far from old. It's never too late to make a difference. It's never too late to change.
"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
- Gandhi
Now, I have two reactions to that quote.
1) An intellectual reaction - Gandhi never said that and having a made up quote on your wall should make you feel stupid. In fact, there is no record of Gandhi saying that quote anywhere in history. The closest thing he said to that, according to many accounts, was "If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change."
2) An emotional reaction - it makes a good point. Even though the quote is totally made up, it still makes a good point.
If a change needs to be made and you have the power to change it, then change it. Especially when it comes to your health. Or your lifestyle.
Here are facts:
- I am 34 years old
- I weigh 256 lbs
- I am physically out of shape and my body is mostly made up of fat
- I eat and drink too much
- I make bad choices
Here's another fact - I am married and have two children, and if I don't make changes, I could die at a relatively early age and lose all of that.
I said in an earlier post that I'm done setting challenges for myself; I'm done trying to play games with my weight loss to make it fun. Weight loss ISN'T fun. Neither is being fat and unhealthy. My life isn't a fucking game. Time to get serious.
When I was younger, back in my athletic days, I was incredibly serious. I was hardcore. I was intense. I worked hard and fought for what I got - my body, my skill, my athleticism, my talent. I was dead serious about getting what I wanted and, if something stood between me and my goal, I lowered my shoulder and ran it the fuck over.
What happened to me? Now, instead of barreling through obstacles and driving forward, I go around them. And, when I see something in my way I just give up and tell myself I'll try again later. To quote one of my favorite speeches...
"Cowards do that AND THAT AIN'T YOU!!!"
I know I said I'm done with challenges and the like, but people still need goals, deadlines. I turn 35 years old in October. That's about three months from now. If I'm not much healthier by then, I'm going to be pissed. At myself. For failing. For giving up. For going around the obstacles in my way. I'm not a kid anymore but I am far from old. It's never too late to make a difference. It's never too late to change.
Korrie
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wow, reading your post, you sound alot like me. I used to be the most determined person you would ever meet...if I sat my eyes on it, it got done. But not lately. Its ok....its time to reinvent ourselves Chef! The best is yet to come. I have a goal too...I"ll be *gulp* the big 4-0 NEXT august and I AM GOING TO have 100lbs off by then....the old me is back and it sounds like a new improved you is back as well! Lets do this 
Mike Blacke
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Mike Blacke
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Stay motivate we all have this case of frustrating and go slowly in your diet to achieve your goal.
ChefChiTown
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I'm sitting here reading through tips on how to burn more body fat and, although most of the lists were basic pieces of information (common knowledge to most), one of the lists I looked at had a bunch of unique tips that I felt were quite interesting. Instead of the generic "run more to burn more calories" or "eat a low-fat diet" and things of a similar nature, this list had things like (to paraphrase)...
- Take an honest "before" photo. Seeing yourself at your starting point is a good way to keep you motivated.
- Make short term goals and write them on index cards. Shoot for things like "run for 15 minutes today" or "do 50 sit-ups." When you finish the task on that index card stack it in a pile where you can see it. That way you can literally see the stockpile of goals you've accomplished.
And, my personal favorite...
- Brush your teeth in front of a mirror before you go to bed. Shirtless. Seeing your progress will put you in a happy mood when you fall asleep and keep you motivated to start off the next day with a good attitude when you wake up in the morning.
I don't know. I thought that was kind of a unique way of staying motivated. I'm going to start doing that. Well, I'll actually start doing all three of those things.
- Take an honest "before" photo. Seeing yourself at your starting point is a good way to keep you motivated.
- Make short term goals and write them on index cards. Shoot for things like "run for 15 minutes today" or "do 50 sit-ups." When you finish the task on that index card stack it in a pile where you can see it. That way you can literally see the stockpile of goals you've accomplished.
And, my personal favorite...
- Brush your teeth in front of a mirror before you go to bed. Shirtless. Seeing your progress will put you in a happy mood when you fall asleep and keep you motivated to start off the next day with a good attitude when you wake up in the morning.
I don't know. I thought that was kind of a unique way of staying motivated. I'm going to start doing that. Well, I'll actually start doing all three of those things.
ChefChiTown
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When I had my physical last week my blood pressure had come down A LOT from it's norm. Usually I'm around 180/130, but it came down to 142/90. Still, it could be a little lower. So, the doctor gave me a prescription for hydrochlorothiazide (HCT) which is a diuretic used to help people shed excess water weight. I was given a month supply last year during my physical but never really followed through with it. This time, however, I'm going to stick with it and see if it helps in the long run.
Anyway, I noticed last year when I took it that my heart felt funny for the first few days. It beat very rapidly and felt very 'light.' It was weird and I didn't like it. However, after two or three days it went away and I felt fine. Well, with the exception of having to pee every half hour and becoming VERY exhausted every day.
So, I started taking my pills yesterday. I felt fine yesterday, other than my fluttering heartbeat. Today, however, I feel like hell. My heart is beating weird, my body is absolutely wrecked and tired, and I'm peeing a lot again. Pair that with the fact that Jen has been at her mom's the past few nights (so I've been lonely), I started my diet again yesterday and the kids are being incredibly loud and annoying...and it's all making me want to say 'FUCK IT' and eat like shit. If someone put a doughnut in front of me right now I'd swallow it whole. Then, I'd demand they get me another doughnut before I rip their arms off. SIGH...dieting sucks.
Anyway, I noticed last year when I took it that my heart felt funny for the first few days. It beat very rapidly and felt very 'light.' It was weird and I didn't like it. However, after two or three days it went away and I felt fine. Well, with the exception of having to pee every half hour and becoming VERY exhausted every day.
So, I started taking my pills yesterday. I felt fine yesterday, other than my fluttering heartbeat. Today, however, I feel like hell. My heart is beating weird, my body is absolutely wrecked and tired, and I'm peeing a lot again. Pair that with the fact that Jen has been at her mom's the past few nights (so I've been lonely), I started my diet again yesterday and the kids are being incredibly loud and annoying...and it's all making me want to say 'FUCK IT' and eat like shit. If someone put a doughnut in front of me right now I'd swallow it whole. Then, I'd demand they get me another doughnut before I rip their arms off. SIGH...dieting sucks.
Cate
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I take bp meds with a diuretic & I remember it took me a couple of weeks to get used to them. I need them to keep my bp down & meds without the diuretic just don't work for me.
You & Jen are having a hard time of it with the situation re her Mum, but I think you are both special people. You'll get through this. Getting through tough times without succumbing to stuffing our faces makes us feel stronger. You can do this chef xo
You & Jen are having a hard time of it with the situation re her Mum, but I think you are both special people. You'll get through this. Getting through tough times without succumbing to stuffing our faces makes us feel stronger. You can do this chef xo
ChefChiTown
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Thanks, Cate. I appreciate the kind words.
Deep down, I'm a very political person. I have my beliefs. I have my values. I have my stances. However, I'm not a Democrat, nor am I a Republican. The whole "party system" is bullshit if you ask me. It's nothing more than a politicized version of religion - "my team is the right, your team is wrong." Anyway, the Democratic National Convention is currently happening here in the United States and President Barack Obama spoke last night. One of the comments he made, which Hillary Clinton quoted tonight during her own speech, was...
Don't "boo." Vote.
He said that in reference to his mentioning of Donald Trump (one of the worst Presidential Nominees I have ever witnessed), where the entire crowd let out a collective taunt of "boos." Basically, what he was saying is that booing does nothing, voting does everything. And, that made me think.
In other words, talk is cheap.
How does that relate to weight loss? Well, I'll tell you...
I can SAY all I want that I WANT to change. But, unless I actually DO change, then my words are nothing more than bullshit. They're nothing more than boos. My talk is cheap as along as I don't change. I have to vote. I have to put value on my words and follow through with them. I can "boo" myself all I want, but if I don't actually step up to the podium and put in my vote to make an actual difference - if I don't walk the walk, rather than leave it at talking the talk - than I'll always be fat, I'll always be unhealthy. I need to vote. And, my vote is for "health." My vote is for "a good, healthy future with my wife and kids."
Now, it's just time to walk the walk.
with so much of the above chef. Good for you!
ChefChiTown
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I need to NOT put the food where my mouth is, HAHAHA...that's how I got here in the first place
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